tired time

Hello!! I am back!! Sigh....so, I just feel very......sad...I guess. I have at least three topics to touch on......(oh i have the perfect skeevy song but its a funny, uncomfortable song! "i want to touch you all over!) oh, also, for kareoke, i would sing, a song..by john mellencamp. not the main one, the other one. beauty is breathing all loud and annoying..i need chapstick too. i wish this cat could be quiet!!

this job is really bringing me down. i mean, who wants to work with people who are just rude and disrespectful? I dont! i mean, its not like a one time thing, but its an almost every day thing!

for instance, ok well..today i go to work. i help out where i can, when i can, and in the downtime, i make sure to stock up and clean up...(just because i am OCD about it, and plus when ppl leave i want to make sure everything is set so that i dont have to go run to the back freezer to get say, cheese and what not, you know? no nobody TELLS me to do this! I just do it myself. for one, to keep occupied, and two, nothing annoys me more than being told what to do...when i already had intentions of doing so, as if i am too dumb to figure out something to do or what makes sense to do!?? you know what i mean?)

but of course it is always me who cant stand around, because if i stand around, it looks like i need to be told what to do. if anyone else stands around, well, they get away with it.

so having said that, i look what needs to be done, and i like being helpful. i enjoy being helpful. i enjoy working as a team IF communication is evident, if everyone RESPECTS each other, and we have a flow going.

i like to repeat what i need, i like being snippy, i like making what needs to be done. i do! i dont like when people treat me like i am being slow and go and whisper to someone else.

and i will say something, in explanation...or retaliation...like, 'well, i didnt see that on the screen and you told me one thing, and nor did you make yourself clear'

ughhhhhhh.......like, the one manager, who came in after all the fast pace of the day, she came in 2 hours before i was going to go home, so how does she know how i was for the past 4 hours? (working at an efficient effective pace)...and she tells me i didnt put the burgers flush on the buns (she didnt say it that way but i am explaining it that way) i made the grill while others were in front of it, making burgers right?

it was a rush, so oh, im sorry if they were not PERFECT! usually i do make them perfect tho! then she said, 'you always do that' um i only worked with her like, 2 times!?? no i dont always do that!

then i was so hungry...(i cant think..this cat is breathing all loud its very distracting!)

so you know what was weird???? you know, i mentioned nana, i think she is stealing or something. well today, while we were busy, she kept singing, 'make that money! make that money!" im thinking, 'well, its for white castle?" she was acting like that money was going in her pocket or something!???! anyways, she asked the one prince of white castle, mike or whatever his name is, to go to the back window to take their money there, and he did, but then he says to nana, "i was asked to give you this letter"

she says, "read it to me" and he was like, 'no maybe i shouldn't' but he did. i heard him say something about  a one world currency, which hasn't happened yet, but will go into effect next week, when we will all hear about it..." (hmm i thought to myself)...so, then he goes to continue to read this letter, (i saw it was written on both sides), and it said something to which he said, 'its a scam' 

he read something about wiring to a nigerian money scam. and it was addressed to nana. i tried to ask him about it but he ignored me. no one thought nothing much about it, in fact, nana told him to tell the woman thank you. perhaps nana thought it was a letter telling her how to 'make the money make the money!" but upon further reading, comes to it reads just like a nigerian scam. 

i thought to myself, 'hmm..that is very odd' and i laughed to myself, thinking it was some sort of joke, maybe to send a msg to her, or even for me to hear...

since i was talking about it and i even wrote about it, you know?? so.....yeah......later i came home and tried to tell my parents about it but they didnt understand what i was implying or perhaps they thought i was being all paranoid, even tho they were watching the history channel about conspiracy theories.

i wanted to put on snl for some reason, but my dad was watching that show, so i ran upstairs and i put it on, and it was about african money scams!!?? 

im not sure where nana is from.....maybe she is from nigeria, i know somewhere from africa. she has an accent. 

what the hell right? that letter was very strange like.....a joke you know??

who hands out scams to the white castle drive thru people? i would of asked prince white castle more about it but i dont think he would give me much times in regards to treating me like a human being, to him, im just another slow feeble newbie white castle employee, incapable of treating like a human being.

actually, only 2 or 3 ppl have treated me like a human being, well 4, plus megan has been ok with me i suppose, even tho i know people run and talk to her or make fun of me, i dont trust anyone tho, and ashley but i always catch her running and whispering. oh who cares tho really. i really dont!

and around the last half hour of working non stop i felt very weak and hungry, i didnt really eat at all i had a few sips of tomato soup for nourishment before i left, and suddenly i felt weak and in need of a break. i told ashley and she said,' so make something to eat'. i had 15 minutes left so i said, 'im just gonna wait till im done' because i figured id have to be clocked out to put in employee meal....

but for some reason i started making the food when it was slow (oh so that the food would be ready when i punched out you know? then i could just leave) erica saw the food i put in a bag and said, your going to have to pay for that' if you take it with you...i wasnt trying to sneak it out i was getting it ready for when i leave in fact i seen two other workers do just that tonight...

she treated me like i was trying to steal food i told her i was waiting till after i punched out because i wasnt sure i could do it (employee meal) while i was still on the clock. anyways, she showed me how to do it because i was trying too but the register kept saying "huh?' to me, in old fashioned computer font, sort of reminded me of moss "huh?" 

the registers are weird, its hard to get used too aint gonna lie...but yeah so she did it for me.....and i had two minutes left she said i need to eat it there so i took a bite then i wanted to still work while on the clock and big bodies were everywhere in the way, (tom showed up) but he was doing dishes so he was in the way....oh i think she wanted to get dishes out of the way and she asked megan how 'she was on dishes' well SHE is fast on dishes and i wouldnt of minded being on dishes for the next hour (how much time i had left) rather than mosey around up front and being mistreated

she said to get on fryer so i looked up to get fryer stuff done ah it was just all a mess people were bumping orders and telling me what to put down in which i had no problem but i didnt feel i had time to gather and process what was on the screen and grasp fryer order again when i saw i had two minutes left and hungry this and that, so i finished what they told me to do, (make some chicken and fish sandwiches) then she called tom to help and told me to punch out GLADLY i said! no i didnt but yeah you know...where is that from??

GLADLY! its from a youtube video...some girl.....or commercial....idk........i didnt look at the screen i only made what they were telling me to make then tom took order so i clocked out AND I ATE AT THE BREAK ROOM SINCE SHE TOLD ME I HAD TO IF I WANTED TO EAT FREE or i would have to pay for it, so i overheard her say, 'are the clams down?' he said no, and she went , 'ugh she didnt put the clams down' so i popped out and said, "i put what i was told to and what was on at the screen and i didnt see clams'...

because by that point ,that was a NEW ORDER after i left!!! (a new currency NEW ORDER! new world order) geez see the thing is!?

wow i just relived that commotion full of nervous energy right now dude and girls CHILL THE FUCK OUT DAMN!! and quit whispering about your co-workers shit this is why i can see THEY want to eliminate a bunch of ppl...its like a bunch of hens and chickens running around who havent a clue about common courtesy, respect, or any of that. shit! you dont know how to work together or work as a network/team instead you make others feel inadequate, you are rude, you have no clue!

im going to post that mark twain video. its saturday night. i like watching youtube shit on saturday nights!

the whole time i have worked at white castle, i have experienced nothing but utter rudeness, disrespect, gossip, and failure to be polite and courteous. 

i have NEVER experienced that much ill content and unjust treatment in a place of work, i mean, sure, i have (i always complain about these assholes that work at these jobs)..but why me? why am i always being singled out or something? what did i do? why??! 

(i swear the rerun of SNL had a christian band on it, because my parents told me not to let the 'paranoia' in lamens term, run my mind' but its not that, i just pay attention! well the song the band sang was, AMEN i want to go to church, God forgive me for my sins) really!?? i mean, i dont trust that i dont trust anyone or anything...

but God is far more superior than the 'smuggest of smug' then the egotist, then the elite rich ones who think they are smarter than us, then those who think cynisim and general meanness are what sets them apart i think ppl who are mean are too unimaginative to be anything but! even tho they boring as hell!

it doesnt matter...really...

God is so great, he created us this universe. every formula your a fool to think a greater being is not behind this! 

oh yeah something was on tv that said 'were watching you' oh yeah some commercial. i have to pee so im going upstairs to watch winters bone...

i cant wait to quit white castle and yes i am going to tell them how rudely i was treated! fuck this shit! plus i am missing out on FOOTBALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!for