Black Velvet

uh oh! you know im drinking when i start posting up vids and songs. heck, i dont care! I JUST DO NOT CARE ANYMORE!!! this song grew on me a few years ago, just as every 'cool rock/disco whatever style song does, not a song i jammed out to when i was younger tho ha!



that songs reminds me of this song. i like that style, ya know? anyways, this sucks. i was looking froward to going out tonight, but my hair, is just AWFUL! too flat! i need to do something, i need to go shopping!

Mental Breakdown

Yes. I had one. Enough! DELETE!

Song of the Day!

Perfume and memories!

These are perfumes that remind me of school and what not.

1. Electric Youth (remember the way the bottle looked too? HA! i never wore that tho)

2. Exclamation! (this girl that had frizzy taco bell hair but was the new girl and seemed cool use to wear it. i think her name was lisa? not sure. she used to wear tight acid washed jeans and purple eyeliner.


3. Malibu Musk (this is what i always liked to wear! mmm!!!)


4. Navy- it reminds me of a summer of the beach, niagara falls,canada etc



5. CK one- high school days


5. Sunflowers- 9th grade, also ft. benning georgia



((oh, almost forgot loves baby soft. reminds me of sleepover parties and christmas day, cuz that was in a stocking stuffer...

6. elizabeth arden pleasures (VICA trip, 12th grade, also church)

etc.

7. Gap Dream (when i was in presidio of monterey ca

8. victorias secret apple spray

9. victorias secret pear glace (senior year at warren votech, when kim and i would move our desks into the bathroom....what? it was a votech school, not a normal school! haha)

10. JLo Glow- working at party city, (halloween, also reminds me when i started modeling)

11. white musk (i never wore it but the manager at wendys the summer after i graduated always wore it)

12. this lavender spray reminds me of a job i had at a warehouse...

hmm....i love perfume! lately i just wear body sprays, such as my bath and body works or victorias secret perfumes, such as sexy, which i am wearing now! but those other perfumes brings back memories!

oh yeah, i remind when guys would always wear crush. remember that cologne?

what kind of perfumes/colognes bring back memories for you?

Sick of everything

I am so tired!!! Worn out! It's Friday. I had a long week! Well, with school and all. It's the weekend, right? Time to relax, right? WRONG! i work from 4am-12 tomorrow. what the hell? this ensures me farther into my depression. i like school. im doing good in school. i just, need a break too. yes they cut my hours...but still...whatever...i want to enjoy my fridays without worries of waking up at 330am! i just want to start working at a pharmacy somewhere...

well we will be done with school in july. JULY? WHAT? thats so far! ughhhhhh!! need to look for another job! also getting sick of this coldly weather

Welcome to Miami

Ok, I am reading this post about will smith...found here:

http://bigscreendeception.blogspot.com/2009/11/robotic-will-wielder.html

video of the day! ha



anyways, i worked on the movie hancock...

oh i find this article interesting....

Will Smith Hired Male Hookers, Says "Discrete" Madame
Said Madame Not "Discreet" (Get It?!)


Of all the rumors in Hollywood, Will Smith's love of men remains one of the most pervasive.

We've been hearing for years that the super star and his wife, Jada Pinkett Smith, both go for the same-sex. It came as no surprise, then, to hear that Smith, who's been palling around with Tom Cruise and his anti-gay Scientologists, has spent some time with male prostitutes in the past. From the ever-vigilant Ian Halperin:

According to a notorious Hollywood Madame, Smith was a client of hers for years before she packed up shop and moved her operation to Manhattan earlier this year. She remembers the first time she ever spoke with Smith. “I had to reassure him over and over that I could guarantee discretion,” she said. “Once I convinced him I could, he placed his order. It was for a man. I had 14 women working for me and two guys. You’d be surprised at how many Hollywood stars requested the services of the guys.”

If that's true, then those boys must make serious bank. With such a demand for young lovelies, why didn't the madame get some new stock. That's what we would do – you know, if we were pimps and all.

As for this madame's promise for discretion – apparently not.

Hollywood MK Deception

Here is another one, (charlie was mentioning cults, AA specifically, sure, AA is like a cult. every time i went to a meeting, i always felt kind of out of place....but the people there have had down on the last step kind of whatever...anyways..

Charlie Sheen Rants

Im not sure what the deal with Charlie sheen is, but he is undergoing some sort of breakdown...i guess he was ranting while being interviewed by conspiracy theorist alex jones...also, a while back he tried to ask pres. obama about 9/11...(watching some gossip show, just showed john legend and stevie wonder singing while pres obama is on stage with them. i met both john legend and stevie wonder...just thought i would add that..)oh yeah, charlie sheen was also in the movie lucas with corey haim, so i am sure he underwent some sort of programming himself..

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/02/25/charlie-sheen-rant-audio_n_828186.html

i think these are the interviews...



(apocalyspe now. now?? NOW?) (weird, at 1:04 i think, he says, that is where you get embarrassed, in front of the prom queen. i think i wrote somewhere that bree olson looked like the porn star prom queen at the avn awards, (she was wearing a prom dress), and charlie sheen was linked with her...im sorry just thought that was odd???




i havent listened to those yet, i want to take a nap, but not sure i can. also i am very hungry!

oh i just saw this on tmz and would like to put this up too. dr. drew is describing mania about charlie sheen...etc (learning about it in class) anyways, he is leaving the roosevelt hotel last night...the one lindsey was leaving when she called paris a cunt...here is the link:

http://www.tmz.com/videos?autoplay=true&mediaKey=186c6730-8ec1-49f0-832e-6c97895ab932

not sure what to think because dr. drew implanted this guy with a chip...

http://bigscreendeception.blogspot.com/2010/05/hollywood-mk-updates.html

moss knows dr. drew...anyways, enough of all this i need a nap! TIRED! copy and past the links above, im too lazy and tired too!

MK holidays

i just watched this one, and it gives me chills, especially when dolly parton says, "now you guys really know the truth" (ironic in a foretelling way)...i hate bob hope. i dont know him as a host, but i read bits and peices of cathy o'briens tranceformation of america, and she says that president reagan and bob hope had a jar of jellybeans, and they would use them to sexually abuse her. they mention jelly beans in that bit with dolly parton and bob hope...then he says dan quayle might have to eat them? cannabalism?

Hollywood Deception 20

here is another one, (there are so many but i will try to post as much as i can too)

The Two Coreys

This video is from esoteric kittens series. it discussed twinning. i often wonder, do these celebrities have any sense of realization as to what has happened, and continues, to happen to them? is that why sometimes they are put on some sort of shitlist, if they decide to oppose what is going on? does anyone seem to care? do people really care? (i dont just want to say celebrities because lots of people are MK'd...people from the same towns as us..etc just do your research! SHEESH!) it doesn't seem like it! i often link links on my facebook, myspace, here, and never, does anyone seem to care. no one ever comments, maybe it is because it is coming from me, (i am someone that people just seem to hate or something who knows???) whatever!?

anyways, i met corey feldman at the playboy mansion. it was very odd. this photographer guy seemed to single me out, (i was real ugly and fat looking at that kandyland party ugh!) anyways, he asked me if i wanted a picture with corey feldman. it was weird? also, an acquaintance type of friend was a p.a. who worked on the two coreys. he said all corey haim wanted was a real friend. he was going to have a housewarming party and invite corey and said i could come too, but i didnt hear anything after that...

in the link, (to esoterics site) corey feldman and his 'bunny' girlfriend get triggered by seeing color programming sneaker, in which they begin to tell corey haim to 'kill himself', to 'overdose on drugs'....seems like more programming reinforcement, because later, tragically, corey haim died of a drug overdose.


Hollywood is stranger and scarier and much more sadder than you would think....i'm surprised most people just don't seem to care!???! i just don't get it?



here is the link to esoteric's site

http://bigscreendeception.blogspot.com/2010/03/dream-team.html

Angelina, Rod Stewart...

Mike and I were watching the jersey shore, drinking a bit, (not too much, 4 loco fruit punch and a natty, speaking of which, i need to go to bed soon. its almost midnight! i have school tomorrow)....i asked him, which girl do you think is the hottest on jersey shore? he said jen, who used to be on. i was like, 'angelina?"

"yeah" he replied. whose side are you on? he thinks i got jealous, therefore comparing angelina to rod stewart and the chilly down goblins on labyrinth. im sorry, that is just part of who i am. i cant help it, and if you dont like or appreciate it, then you do not understand me. henceforth, mike does not understand me! do you know how many arguments we got into??? i have a headache thinking about it! SHEESH!

rather than discussing my private life, i am now going to incluce pic of angelina, rod stewart, and the chilly down goblin, along with a labyrinth youtube clip thanks!







right? RIGHT!???!

ok i will put up the chilly down video (i originally googled labyrinth fire goblins)

i do need to go to bed soon after cuz i have school tomorrow!!!!



EDIT!!!! i remember my sister and i used to recreate these movies, and, she once said, COME ON COME ONE (ohn) and punched her fist on the dining table, she looked up like snoopy dancing, and said, BUT IM HAPPY!

also i kicked her....!!! i mean, cuz i thought we were at the part where jareth kicks one of the goblins!??!

EDIT EDIT!!! also, sounds like one of the goblins says, "guess i'll throw in my SHIT!" doesnt it? DOESNT IT? OW BUT IM HAPPY!

EDIT EDIT EDIT (need to go to sleep soon,...) sounds like he says guess you have no boobies, then gropes her...just noticed that now. what do you think?)

answer in the comment section below!

edit edit edit! i always hated this part in the movie, therefore often times, fast forwarding it...now....thats all the editing i am going to do now i hope!

Lindsey calls paris a cunt

this is old, not sure how old, but you can see her mysterious handler type in the back, shhing her and signalling lindsey to forget that she just called paris a cunt...at 20 seconds...



read more here

HERE!

depressed

in class the other day, we started reviewing and writing notes on depression. i think i should start taking SSRI's. im not really one to believe in taking those, basically, it is allowing more serotonin to be produced, or something to that effect....i have always felt these signs and symptoms. i have always felt depressed, hopeless, etc. sometimes i just feel like crying. like today for instance, at work. i just felt so sad, like i wanted to cry. then, i started reading this question about this woman who hit a dog, (but did not do anything about it, she just drove on), i almost did start crying, and i was worried that a customer would come up to order a coffee or something, and i'd be all teary-eyed and red-faced. i just feel so hopeless, i feel like there is nothing to look forward to. i dont feel excited about anything, i dont know.

well, they cut my hours at work, which honestly, i do not mind. the thing is, i haven't had spending money in so long! i know a good shopping trip would help me feel better! what? it would!!!

anyways, im also embarrassed at drunk posting. seriously, that shit is annoying! I know it is! AHHH i hate that!

well, i dont know?

Delete!

geez, time to delete, also need to head over to facebook. great! see, ahhh!!! i hate when i drink and post! not a good idea! i was also typing weird stuff of the adult swim message boards...(facepalm) sigh.....

delete delete delete!!!! damn!

Song of the Day

Oh, first of all, i was reading elle magazine today at work. also reading the lost symbol too by dan brown. haha! so i am looking at these fashion magazines, first of all, elle has way too many ads, but thats ok. when i was in high school, i used to rip out intriguing, interesting ads from magazines and plaster them on the walls. i think i am going to start doing that again, provacative, interesting ads in the bathroom etc. why do people think cuz they are older they have to decorate older? case in point, my friend jen, who had been living on her own since she and her boyfriend at the time (now married with a fam), was around 23...did that sentence make sense? oh well, um....well she moved into a rather boring apartment, ho-hum apartments...carpeting etc. i used to make fun of her, (not to be mean, well maybe!?! aww no!!!) she decorated the way her mom decorated...the way her sisters decorated, all precious moments and white wood, (not dark cherrywood), longabergers (i want to get a longaberger basket for my mags and such for the bathroom....but her way of decorating was sort of like a middle aged mother. im sorry!!!! just because we are older, do we have to decorate older? i dont even know what im talking about ha! its cuz i likened ripping out ads to something i did in high school....anyways....

hmm......i was looking at all these amazing shoes HA! listen to me. also blumarine has some good leopard prints. yeah leoprint is out of fashion, IMO, but these new ones are nice! and the bags!!! maybe i can find a link or pics...

heres link..(copy and paste in new tab) http://shop.nordstrom.com/c/blumarine?cm_ven=google&cm_cat=designer&cm_pla=blumarine&cm_ite=blumarine_Phrase&ef_id=6G1NVKpBjFwAAM6B:20110221024953:s

i was looking at these fashion stuff and im so UNGLAMOROUS! then people bring me back to reality by wanting a coffee or water, and im just like. ughhh. i want to start dressing nice, you know? i want to start feeling good about myself...i need to release endorphins...bla blah blah....i need some friends to hang out with and chitchat with GAW!

i think i just heard this on american idol (i did), or something? also mike had on white men cant jump and her name was gloria, so it made me think of this...(my cousin is gloria too)

they used this on the end of the bohemian grove episode on lucy daughter of the devil, which makes me wonder, was this song playing at one of those twisted, psycho bohemian grove get togethers?? oh, i always thought a dude sang this song, a man with one of those weird, stew voices...

Sanctum

As a stay at home mom, Monday through Fridays, from 8am to 330 pm are my sanctum. my time to relax, take care of errands, and spend motherly time with my sweet, precious newborn, Shaney Jessica. Now, don't get me wrong, I love all my children. I love 9 year old Tommy, who is is in 4th grade, and is full of energy, involved in karate, baseball, and loves riding his bike. 6 year old Maggie is full of questions, curiousity, and wonder. She's the best. When they go off to school, it is my time to relax. Of course, little Shaney keeps me occupied as well. The best moments for me are rocking her in the chair, her all bundled up and being a good little baby. I love when she smiles and giggles at me. She really knows how to brighten everyone's mood. Thank God my husband has a great job from 9-5 at a law firm. (?) He works all day, and comes home to help me and the kids. We are a great, happy family. I'm not complaining at all, but boy does the household turn into a ruckus once the kids come home from school.

In the morning, I get up at 6am to feed little Shaney, and she is pretty good in her crib. My husband, Trent, is also home to help, which always helps. I give the kids their packed lunches I packed the night before, or 1.25 on Thursday chicken nugget days and Friday pizza days. At 745, the kids go to the bus stop, after giving us a hug and a kiss, which is right down the street. Maggie follows her big brother, where they join the other neighborhood kids waiting to go to North Hunterdon Elementary School.

to be continued

what's the most expensive meal you've eaten and what was it?

seafood?

Ask me anything

favorite bands?

led zeppelin, ozzy, red hot chili peppers, rolling stones, beatles...etc

Ask me anything

Irks and quirks

i was not sure what to write...but i just want to explain a few irks and quirks i have, primarily when it comes down to school, but FIRST, just came back from chess & checkers. cuz, guess what? dont have to be at work at 4am tomorrow! i do still need to be at work, but at 12pm. they cut my hours, but honestly, i do not mind because i want to be able to focus more on school, (even tho i am doing good in school, i just get so worn out. BURNT OUT! so) now it is 22 hours a week, which isnt bad. i just cant wait to graduate and get a good job. ok now, since i am on the topic of school...(i want to also mention another death which is deemed 1000 ways to die worthy, and it happens around here i think. let me find the article...

SACRAMENTO, Calif. — A woman who competed in a radio station’s contest to see how much water she could drink without going to the bathroom died of water intoxication, the coroner’s office said Saturday.

Jennifer Strange, 28, was found dead Friday in her suburban Rancho Cordova home hours after taking part in the “Hold Your Wee for a Wii” contest in which KDND 107.9 promised a Nintendo Wii video game system for the winner.

“She said to one of our supervisors that she was on her way home and her head was hurting her real bad,” said Laura Rios, one of Strange’s co-workers at Radiological Associates of Sacramento. “She was crying and that was the last that anyone had heard from her.”

It was not immediately know how much water Strange consumed.

A preliminary investigation found evidence “consistent with a water intoxication death,” said assistant Coroner Ed Smith.

John Geary, vice president and marketing manager for Entercom Sacramento, the station’s owner, said station personnel were stunned when they heard of Strange’s death.

“We are awaiting information that will help explain how this tragic event occurred,” he said.

Initially, contestants were handed eight-ounce bottles of water to drink every 15 minutes.

“They were small little half-pint bottles, so we thought it was going to be easy,” said fellow contestant James Ybarra of Woodland. “They told us if you don’t feel like you can do this, don’t put your health at risk.”

Ybarra said he quit after drinking five bottles. “My bladder couldn’t handle it anymore,” he added.

After he quit, he said, the remaining contestants, including Strange, were given even bigger bottles to drink.

“I was talking to her and she was a nice lady,” Ybarra said. “She was telling me about her family and her three kids and how she was doing it for kids.”

messed up huh? so, in school, i just want to share a few things about my class. i do like my class. ok? im not going to complain~ just express my opinions on a few things. well, first of all, we have a lot of alissa's, elisa's, elena's, helena's, and melinas...also have a seamarina! ha wow...there is also a guy that reminds me of moss too ha! chris. what else? oh and we have a steve too. we also have a raffi, well her real name is raphael, but catherine calls her 'ralphie', everyone always asks her, why do you call her ralphy? thats just what she calls her i guess...haha...

when we first started, raffie had stated that she was interested in becoming a pharmacist. you can be a pharm tech first, and then go to pharmacy school, but that is alot of school, which means, alot of studying, homework, work, etc....so, the other day, mrs. ward said that cheating is unacceptable. i know that raphie has problems with her brands and generics. she does not know how to study for it. i mean, i shared my way, which is making up words using the first three letters or whatever, such as (this is an easy one..Val Diaz. who is val diaz? valium diazepam...so forth...she isnt doing good. well, i noticed that she had the sheet out, while she still had the quiz! i thought to myself, 'is she really copying the words like that?' i guess the teacher noticed and said something after class, and rapphie was the ONLY one to say, "how do you know someone is cheating? maybe they studied and did better the next day?' i guess she was getting 30's on her quiz, and next time she got an 80....uh, hello!

another girl, shanice, stated in the beginning of how she is interested in being a compound pharmacist. that takes a whole lot of precise calcuations, i mean, its tough to get that kind of job. which is fine if she wants to do it, however, she is never in class! she is absent all of the time, and i saw that she was happy with a 63 on one of her midterms or whatever..i don't know, the term, 'visions of granduer' come to mind. you can't just become something, you need to work at it. you need to put effort, hard work, focus and determination and strive for your goals...thats all!

i just watched that movie precious, what a sad movie! but she strived! i dont know...anyways....i guess that is all for now...

dinner

so, today i made some jasmine rice, (but too salty, i used to much salt yuck), no olive oil so i used vegetable oil, sauteed up some shrimp, spinach leaves, green pepper, red pepper, onions, bean sprouts, mushrooms, i forget to add water chestnuts for extra crunch, also some slivered cucumbers, no matchstick carrots :(, and i made a sort of marinade with teriyaki, peanut butter, fresh ginger and garlic. added some parsely, red pepper flake, lemon juice, a pinch of vietnamese hot sauce, and pepper, and flaxseeds. it was good! i tried to take a picture but my dumb camera says the batteries are low. the batteries are always low.

What a Liar!

Tila blogged on her site concerning her sextape. she says to go to radar yet (gets payed each time someone clicks on radar due to her blog...and she claims...tsk...anyhoo...) here is the article first of all, they digitally erased her tattoos, this was done last summer i think? it was not years ago. they were not her girlfriends! they are contract porn stars, and if tila did make a 3movie contract, im sure another sextape, this time with her a guy, will soon be 'leaked' stolen. from her laptop! geez!!! i wish rotspot was still around but they are weird. who knows???

Tila Tequila is furious about a lesbian sex tape that leaked online and fell into the hands of industry powerhouse Vivid Entertainment, and the pint-sized reality star tells RadarOnline.com exclusively that she’s “disappointed that it has surfaced.”

"Recently an intimate video with me, my then girlfriend and another friend was leaked online,” Tila told RadarOnline.com of the leave-nothing-to-the-imagination tape.

PHOTOS: Tila Tequila Sex Tape Stills

“This video was taken years ago and I'm disappointed that it has surfaced, especially now when all of these positive things are going on in my life.”

The 29-year-old made the leap from MTV to starring in an online video spoof with bona fide A-lister Jennifer Aniston last week – and being linked to a new sex tape is not the image she’s going for right now.

OK now here is what she wrote on her blog: (i didnt read it yet...im upset. weekends are not fun for me. i have school m-f from 730-1230 pm and i would like to enjoy my weekend, not work at 4 am at the stupid weird airport. and it is weird...im miserable :(

*SIGH*

This was a very hard blog for me to write because it’s not who I am, not something I would condone, nor is it one of my proudest moments, AND the fact that it’s not the woman that I am TODAY!!!!!!!!! However, the rumor’s have been out for SO LONG, and until now, I haven’t said a word about it because this is not something I condone, nor do I wish to publicize it. HOWEVER, the ONLY reason why I have decided to finally write a blog about this subject (after this long) is because I love my fans, my Tila Army, and all of my supporters, and I feel that you guys have a right to know what’s going on.

Anyway, here I go…… *SIGH*………………..

It’s hard for me to talk about this so please just go to radaronline and read what I have to say and my message to all of my fans. Please read that before you continue reading the rest of this blog entry.

Ok now that you’ve read that, I want you to read a follow up interview that Steve Hirsh, the asshole who did this, did with radaronline here, and see what HE had to say about this…Please read that first before you continue to read the rest of my blog, as I have some steam I would like to blow off about Steve’s statement!

Ok did you read both interviews? Great. So now that you know the whole story, I would just like to say that FIRST OF ALL, Steve Hirsh is a greedy, money hungry asshole who doesn’t care about other people, and doesn’t care if what he did hurts me. He ALSO left out a HUUUUUUUUUUUUGE fact that, yes he did give me the opportunity to “BUY BACK THE RIGHTS TO THE SEX TAPE” however, he conveniently failed to mention that HE WANTED ME TO PAY HIM $1,000,000.00 for the tape!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No, I’m not kidding. This jerk has the nerve to tell me to pay him a million dollars if I wanted to prevent him from doing what he did!

So I’m really saddened by this cold-hearted, money hungry, greedy monster for doing this and taking advantage of the fact that I had already worked SO HARD on my last case when my ex-boyfriend tried to extort me and asked me to pay him $75,000 or else he was going to sell the tape! I went to court, and spent SO MUCH MONEY ON LAWYER FEES! I worked SO HARD on getting that tape back from him and in the end we finally came to a settlement, and I was SO VINDICATED and SO THRILLED that I was able to bury my past, as it’s not something that was meant for the public.

So this is why Steve’s actions has really hurt me, and this is also why I stayed quiet for so long, because I was really depressed and I was in denial about the whole thing and I just didn’t want to talk about it. WHO WOULD? And seeing that I already spent so much time and money on my last case with my douchebag ex-boyfriend, it’s really heartbreaking for me to have to go through this AGAIN? But this time Steve wants me to pay him A MILLION DOLLARS FOR IT?!!?!?!! No way in hell am I going to pay him that kind of money! How would you feel if one of your exes did this to you, but instead of just all your schoolmates, family members, and co-workers seeing something so personal to you, the ENTIRE WORLD gets to see it, and you have no control over it whatsoever! How would that make you feel? Please think about that for a minute…………….

Anyway, I don’t want to talk about this any further. I just needed to get this off my chest, clear the air, move on, and never, ever look back! I will let God place judgment on Steve’s action on hurting people and taking advantage of a situation that he KNEW I wouldn’t be able to get out of, since he knew what happened to me the last time I went to court and tried to stop my ex. *SIGH*

Well again, to end all of this, and clear things up, I want to re-address this message to all of my fans:

Recently an intimate video with me, my then girlfriend and another friend was leaked online. This video was taken years ago and I’m disappointed that it has surfaced, especially now when all of these positive things are going on in my life. I do, however, have to take responsibility for my part in making the video, which I do. Although this video was not meant for the public to see, I hope that this will not affect my career and that I will continue to work hard at achieving my goals in this industry.

I want to apologize if I let any of my fans down, I love you guys and greatly appreciate your loving support. All I can do now is stay strong, chalk it up as a lesson learned and move on.

I LOVE YOU GUYS AND I TRULY HOPE THAT YOU WILL CONTINUE TO SUPPORT ME. THIS WAS NOT EASY FOR ME TO WRITE THIS, BUT NO MATTER WHAT, I JUST HOPE YOU STILL STAND BY ME AND YOUR LOVE AND CONTINUED SUPPORT IS VERY MUCH APPRECIATED!

Thank you all so much for being one of the most understanding and least judgmental fanbase that a girl like me could ever dream of having! I am so blessed to have you guys as my friends/fans. You’re like family to me, and I do not wish to hurt any of you. I would like for you all to look past that and see the real woman that I am today, and you guys know I have a huge heart and I love you guys very much! I would like to forget about this now and move on to the bigger and more exciting things happening in my life right now, such as my new music video that will be premiering early next month, my Miss Tila Iphone App, my new comic book, recording new music, as well as 2 movies that I am currently working on right now (I’m currently in rehearsals and we start filming next month!! YAY). THESE are the things that I work so hard on because THESE are the things that matter to me because I like to share POSITIVE things with my fans.

I LOVE YOU & THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR BEING SO SUPPORTIVE AND COMPASSIONATE THROUGHOUT THIS ORDEAL! I HAVE THE BEST FANS/FRIENDS EVER! NOW LET’S MOVE ON SHALL WE? MISS TILA IS BACK AND 2011 IS OUR YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO MORE NEGATIVE THINGS! :)

Like Tupac said: ”KEEP YA HEAD UP” ……….indeed. :) Moving on now! POW!

Yours Truly,

Ouija Board

oh my gosh this freaked me out...starts out boring, so if you want just go to 4minutes when they start playing...i used to do this, im sure we all have, and YES i have had scary experiences occur. also, these spirits can read our minds and tell us what is on the other side of the newspaper that none of us playing knew...cuz we didn't look....anyways, watch this! (i may put up some more vids. im just so happy that i have volume once again in normal mode! its cuz my dad plugged in the cable...but at least it works now! and im happy!)



click here (viewer disabled embedding)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=erD64ZACE18

what the hell? why is it moving!???! HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!

what the heck is this? LOL! OUIJA OUIJEEEE WEEGEE

have you had any crazy ouija board experiences? i've had quite a few but i dont feel like writing them now, maybe later...

New World Order monopoly

Jeopardy isn’t the only game being threatened by computer domination.

A new version of board game staple Monopoly will ditch the dice and paper money in exchange for an ominous computer tower that monitors player activity. Hasbro unveiled the product –somewhat ironically dubbed “Monopoly Live” — at this week’s Toy Fair in New York, reports The New York Times.

The ten-inch tower sits in the middle of the game board, using infrared technology to keep track of the action while barking out instructions to players. Move one too many spaces? The all-seeing eye computer tower will know. It even rolls the (virtual) dice for you.

Thankfully, the core element of the Monopoly board — the location of properties — has remained unchanged, so you can still set up your favorite hotel chains, land on free parking and scoop up dough by passing “Go.” But say goodbye to that brightly colored Monopoly money and those Community Chest and Chance cards — if it’s made of paper, it’s pretty much gone. Instead, players will buy and sell properties by holding their hands over special decals and will check their accounts by inserting ATM cards into the tower.

The Big Brother-like move is intended to revive interest in the dwindling board game market.

“How do we give them the video game and the board game with the social experience? That’s where Monopoly Live came in,” Jane Ritson-Parsons, global brand leader for Monopoly, told the Times.

The newfangled Monopoly is sure to have detractors, however. Players have long considered the basic Monopoly rules to be more a set of loose guidelines, and have traditionally livened things up by encouraging sneakier tactics like hiding money and making deals with other players on the fly. With the tower overseeing every move, such casual cheating will be a thing of the past.

With Monopoly Live, Hasbro is hoping to appeal to younger players more accustomed to the fast-paced world of digital downloads and bite-sized game apps (the biggest of which, Angry Birds, will be getting the board game treatment later this year.) It’s planned to be a shorter, quicker experience that doesn’t require thumbing through an instruction manual, and will even include random mini-games — such as a horse race or sudden property auction — to break up the game’s oft-criticized monotony.

The game goes on sale this fall for $50. Other Hasbro franchises will receive a similar upgrade in the future, with Battleship going under the hi-tech knife later this year.

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(i read this comment too)The funny thing about Big Brother is the ease at which they are able to implement their Orwellian tactics. Through marketing techniques and the technology craze they are able to make all of their spyware seem like the newest “gotta have it” gadget. It’s really quite ironic that people actually pay their hard-earned money to be spied upon. Case in point, all of the newest smart phones are enabled with GPS; Google Latitude, if you haven’t heard, lets you have your location monitored and shared in real time with your friends, family, on Facebook. Once you sign up, GPS satellites and cell towers watch your whereabouts. They pull location data from your laptop or smartphone, then pinpoint you on a Google Map as you go about your day; ALL internet activity (searches, comments, pages viewed, emails, etc) is tracked and filed into large databases owned by NGO’s (non government organizations) and as well as by the NSA (look into Einstein 3 software). The new healthcare act calls for the microchipping of all US citizens through the only FDA approved implant technology company VeriChip, every product that is purchased from Walmart has an RFID tracker on it. Refridgerators are equipped with sensors that alert grocery stores to reorder items when they run low. Also lets not forget about the mandatory HD television that went into effect in 2009, you remember when the US govt made such a big deal about converting ALL televisions to HD and even went so far as to subsidize the cost of conversion for people who couldn’t afford it. It’s been estimated that the Govt spent over 8 billion dollars in subsidy monies to ensure that ALL of the tv’s in the US were HD converted. Really? 8 billion dollars?? For TV!! That’s really something to make you go hmmm about. Speculations are that the new TV format will be used as spyware, mind control, and/or the Silent Sound Spread Spectrum which is a military weapon.

The fact of the matter is, freedom and privacy are merely illusions. The quicker you realize that the better off you will be. TPTB know that it is much easier to control a population that believes they are free even when in actuality they are more enslaved than ever before.

Here’s a 1970′s qoute from the director of The Trilateral Commission:
“The capacity to assert social and political control over the individual will vastly increase. It will soon be possible to assert almost continuous surveillance over every citizen and to maintain up-to-date, complete files, containing even the most personal information about the health or personal behavior of the citizen in addition to more customary data. These files will be subject to instantaneous retrieval by the authorities.”

– Between Two Ages-America’s Role in the Technetronic Era, 1970.
Zbigniew Brzezinski,
first director of The Trilateral Commission 1973-1976 and U.S. National Security Advisor 1977-1981.Source:The Rand Corporation website

videos that show plenty of fish

i noticed that alot of videos show that dating website, 'plentyoffish'....i'll post the videos, CUZ IM BOORED!

nah i dont feel like putting up the videos, such as lady gaga, ke$sha, and now britney spears. i never saw the jason derulo one but here is an accompanying video...

12:46 p.m. | Updated There may be plenty of fish in the sea, as the saying goes, but when it comes to dating Web sites that are integrated into music video clips, there appears to be only one.

That site is, of course, plentyoffish.com, which has made a name for itself by engaging in one of the more traditional forms of branded entertainment: paying to have itself placed in scenes in music videos.

Viewers have glimpsed the Plenty of Fish Web site on computer screens in scenes in music videos from artists like Jason Derulo, Kesha and Lady Gaga. The brand also makes an appearance in the video for the new song by Britney Spears, “Hold It Against Me.”

The video from Ms. Spears made its debut at 9:55 on Thursday night on MTV, just before this week’s new episode of “Jersey Shore.” The director of the video is Jonas Akerlund, who also directed the Lady Gaga epic “Telephone,” which featured multiple brands in addition to Plenty of Fish.

Ms. Spears’s video also features multiple brands, although not as many as “Telephone.” In addition to plentyoffish.com, viewers can see glimpses of products like Make Up For Ever make-up; Ms. Spears’s fragrance, Radiance; and Sony electronics. Like the other placements for Plenty of Fish, the placement in the Spears clip was arranged by Adam Kluger, chief executive at the Kluger Agency.

Mr. Kluger said that to his knowledge, plentyoffish.com was the only paid placement in the video.

The futuristic theme of Ms. Spears’s video and the appearance of plentyoffish.com on a screen of a computer that she is on suggest that “online dating is the future,” Mr. Kluger said.

Brands are turning up in more music videos — as well as in the lyrics of songs — because of the changing economics of the music business. With revenue from record sales declining, bands, singers and other artists can make money by integrating products into their performances.

The line between what is the right amount of brand integration and what is too much is a fine one. Many discussions of “Telephone” were centered on all the products visible in various scenes, although not all of them were paid placements.

Although “negative feedback is not very good,” Mr. Kluger said, Plenty of Fish enjoyed a spike in traffic after its appearance in “Telephone.”

Judge Shady

I read this in the paper the other day...man let me tell you...these people think they can just get away with anything, and all for money. it's like they think they deserve to take bribe money, or take large amounts of money, embezzlement, i mean, sure, after a while, money is money, right? what 40,000, whats 100,000...whats a few mil? cool! cool money, i'll tell ya! geez! i can see how easy and how people can start to think they will never get caught! i read about this employee (not up to judge standards or high echelon/elite standards, but still a greedy criminal all in all, she worked at some place in bangor pennsylvania which sold scratch off tickets. i do not understand how she stole over 40,000.00 worth in lotto tickets (i'll include that article too)...well, she has payed over 20,000 back and will be in a jail, for a month...im sure she will never get hired with her record! and the judge sympathized with her, comparing her to a 'gambling addict'! what? gambling!??! please! shes a common thief! a criminal! (common thief its the brooklyn way...BIGGIE! cuz im a CRIMINAL! eminem...ha! dont mind me im drinking! its all good tho, i dont work tomorrow but i do still have school. well, here is the judge article: ((oh yeah he says he thought it was "manna from heaven" HE KNEW! judges are not supposed to accept money from elsewhere except their jobs! DUH! it was mannah from a miracle...((read you will see where "miracle" comes into play))

Former judge testifying in 'cash for kids' corruption trial
Ciavarelli says finder's fee paid by developer was 'like manna from heaven.'
February 15, 2011|SCRANTON TIMES-TRIBUNE REPORT

Former Judge Mark A. Ciavarella Jr. testified Tuesday morning that his involvement with a regional juvenile center was limited and that he thought a finder's fee paid to him by the developer was "like manna from heaven."

Ciavarelli, who is charged in a $2.8 million bribery-and-extortion scheme to send juveniles to privately owned detention centers, said he thought, after an initial meeting with developer Robert K. Mericle about building a regional juvenile detention center, that some good was going to come out of it.

"I left that meeting thinking something positive was going to happen," Ciavarella said.

Ciavarella testified he did not know how deep Mericle was into the development of for-profit juvenile detention center Pennsylvania Child Care until federal agents showed him documents.
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Sometime in 2002, as Mericle had testified earlier, the two had a conversation about Mericle giving Ciavarella a finder's fee. Ciavarella said Mericle offered it, without being prompted. Ciavarella asked if it was legal, and Mericle said it was common practice.

"I look at him. I thank him. I can't believe it's happening. It's like manna from heaven," Ciavarella said.

He ran upstairs to tell his friend and fellow, now former, judge Michael T. Conahan, who called Mericle "a heck of a friend," according to Ciavarella.

He said he gave half of the finder's fee to Conahan.

Ciavarella said he never insisted to former Attorney Robert J. Powell or Gregory Zappala, co-owners of PA Child Care, that Mericle be hired for the job.

Further, Ciavarella testified he was not the juvenile judge at the time Conahan approved a placement agreement for Luzerne County youth to be sent to PA Child Care. That agreement, brought to Conahan by Zappala and Powell, was presented Jan. 29, 2002, and was accompanied by a letter from a Philadelphia area judge saying this was OK.

"When all of this conspiracy is supposed to be happening, I am not the juvenile court judge. I don't have the power to even send one kid (to a detention center)," he testified.

Powell had testified that Ciavarella and Conahan extorted him for hundreds of thousands of dollars, but Ciavarella said they had an excellent relationship.

"Why in the name of God would someone who is being extorted enter into a defense agreement with the two people extorting him?" he said.

Conahan, Ciavarella and Powell entered into a joint defense agreement so they and their lawyers could cooperate on their defenses, Ciavarella said.

Powell testified that on July 4, 2006, he told Conahan he was done with the judges and wouldn't pay any more money.

That following Sunday, Ciavarella said, Powell and his family were "frolicking" in the Ciavarella pool, according to Ciavarella.

Powell moved his yacht to Costa Rica, which Powell said he had done to get away from the judges and their Florida marina and condo. Ciavarella questioned those motives, saying Powell bought a smaller boat and gave both the judges keys. Ciavarella used the boat from 2005 to 2007.

Ciavarella testified there did not appear to be any animosity between Conahan and Powell and the pair were frequently together on the weekends.

"If you consider showing up at Mike Conahan's house and drinking a lot of martinis hostility, then there was a lot of hostility," he quipped.

NEXT!!!

Police: Woman stole thousands to buy scratch-off lottery tickets
By Pamela Lehman and Of The Morning Call | January 28, 2010
A gas station manager stole more than $21,000 in deposits to fuel her addiction to scratch-off lottery tickets, Bethlehem police said. Kimberly Williams, 38, told police she kept several days worth of deposits from the Square One Market at 1125 W. Broad St., where Williams works as a manager. Williams said she used the money to buy scratch-off lottery tickets for herself, according to court records. Williams was charged yesterday with theft and receiving stolen property.

i cant find the articles i read, but you get the gist, right?

amazon woman to do playboy

wow! is this real? yes, it is! "Amazon Eve" as she is called, is 6'9 and weighs over 200 lbs. geez! imagine having sex with that? ha!!! im sorry. she does have a good body tho. she is probably a genetically coded clone or something...









look how much better she looks than that dumpy pink bikini...i think she is a mutation....avatar amazonion...

DINNER!

it is nice to be able to relax! i miss that. i really cannot wait until i am done with school and have a good m-f 9-5 job! i am sick of the airport! i dont even look forward to the weekend anymore because they schedule me for 4am-12pm SATURDAY AND SUNDAY? what the hell is that? sucks! thats what!

so lately i have been eating bad! i only get 200.00 a month for food stamps, and that goes by quickly! so for the past 2 weeks, we just sort of ate whatever free or crap food there was. aww marble and her cute marble pose, on her back with her paws up! she just made cute kitten eyes! aww!! fatcat eyes! although marble is not fat...yet!

ok so i go to work, and i get hungry. well, i have a soft pretzel, or chips, or a brownie. that food makes my tummy hurt some! smarts! i take a brownie, a sobe, and a bag of chips for snack the next day at school. not good!

when i go grocery shopping, i always like to buy fresh veggies, fish, chicken, (we also get rotini and sauce, although i would like to make my own sauce!), brown rice etc. like i said, i cannot WAIT until school is done and i can have a normal job, good pay, and free time to cook good and work out. i want to join the gym. now i have NO time! to do anything! i also want a good office with a good MAC and all the programs, a printer, speakers etc. shit, i'd be there for hours! i want to get back in shape so i can start modeling again too! actually, tomorrow i have a shoot and i am going to wear what i want and have pics done in this apartment. why not? its a good camera. i need to go shopping. im sick of wearing the same clothes. well i pretty much wear scrubs, and for work black pants and an ugly dark blue worker shirt, a visor. i only have one pair of jeans that fit and its a boring pair of old navy jeans, and a bunch of boring long sleeves. ugh! i cant wait to start dressing up nice and my style! and looking HOT again! HA, jk, cuz i never was hot! hmm....i forget what i was going to say. anyways, tonight i made some salmon, fresh green beans, and baked potatos. the salmon was so good! i am a firm believer in getting fresh seafood from the seafood department. walmart does not have fresh seafood department. i did get a bag of more expensive frozen salmon, so today i marinated it with teriyaki, freshly chopped ginger and garlic (love ginger and garlic!), i marinated that for 45 minutes, then i threw in some baked potatoes, then i steamed up some of the fresh green beans. i cut up these wasabi soy almonds i got and threw a few in, some lemon juice and butter, salt and pepper...when the fish was done, i threw on some flaxseeds, also some freshly chopped cilantro, (i love cilantro!) and some fresh lemon juice. oh my god the salmon was the best! i ruined it with a can of RC cola. when i have more time off, i want to just quit eating bad food, and only eat healthy! i also want to join a gym, and do my workouts, and walk! this is why i want a house too. mikes dad wants mike to mortgage the house they are moving out of, but mike isnt sure about it. it might be too expensive actually...but the basement is remodeled, everything is remodeled! i want to have a basement to do workouts etc, treadmill! i just want to have a cushy, comfy life!!

here is a pic of the DEENER!!!! (yes i know the feedjit is in the way, but i dont want to mess with the specs and size of my blog...so deal with it. and yes, i do realize that we need some new plates!)



i think mike is gonna get some beers. i am so tired! i already took a shower! need to study for the Brands and generics quiz tomorrow...

Song and video of the day

i cant get this song out of my head!

Anand Jon documentary

oh my god my friend lauren just forwarded me this.

Hi Lauren,



I hope things are going well for you. My name is Randy Ferrell. I am the lead producer for a documentary television series on the E! Channel called E! Investigates, which is hosted by renowned journalist Laura Ling. I wanted to send you this letter to introduce myself and the project that we are working on. I apologize that this is out of the blue but I thought that contacting you in this manner would be the least intimidating method.



The reason why I’m contacting you is because our network is producing a one-hour documentary about Anand Jon Alexander. At this point, we are in the process of reaching out to many of the women who modeled for Anand Jon, had encounters with him, were victimized by him, and/or who testified against him at trial. In my research, I came across your name and wanted to reach out to you so I could talk to you about your experiences with him.



I would greatly appreciate it if you could follow up with me in one way or another. All of my contact information is below. Feel free to get in touch with me at any time. I would love to follow up this email with a phone call, to further explain the project and to give you the opportunity to ask any questions of me that you might have. If you give me a number and a time best to reach you, then I will gladly give you a ring. I look forward to speaking with you further about the project. Thank you for your time and your help.



Sincerely,

Randy

wow! i can say ALOT about that jerk anand jon....that whole family! shudder...

i did not feel comfortable about the 20/20 interview so i told them i did not want my interview used....i dont know? that family was HARASSING ME and DEFAMING me....creeps!

Miami Lights

Hey! It feels so good to have free time! Remember when ALL i had was free time? Well, that sucked! We need a happy medium! For instance, I simply cannot wait until I am DONE WITH SCHOOL, and done with the externship, and finally have a job.

"Is this your passion?"

me-, "No, it is not my passion. Now hang on, I am interested in psychology. I am interested in how drugs work etc. Yes. I am doing good in school, and I know I will be a good RPhT! Anyways, my passion is, and will always be, the creative arts! YES! ha...i mean, i have always been very creative, artistic. i like to write, i like to draw and design. which means, when i have more time, and when i have that hooked up office i plan on obtaining, then will i focus more on my writing, animations, final draft screenplays, etc etc etc!!!

Now, I am fantasizing about getting a house. You see, here on the east coast, you can rent out a house, for the price (or cheaper) than the cost of renting out a STUDIO ROOM in hollywood california! yep, that's right! a house, with not one, not two, but 3 bedrooms, w/d, garage sometimes, basement, patio/deck etc....for the same price one would pay for a studio out in california! damn! now thats what i'm talking about.

you see, moss really wants me to move back out there. i would like too to, as well, but, i need to think reasonably. you see, i did not just up and move out there on a whim, on a dream, i did not just take the midnight train going anywhere....

i thought i was supposed to go there, i thought i was on some sort of weird, subliminal journey...

what gets me upset is, moss insists that he was not set up in my life. if that is the case, i will be very disappointed. that will just make things boring!

i know he was! HA! i can write about it, but not here i wont. just cuz i don't feel like it!

but do you see those miami lights up there? i love miami! that pastel art deco miami grand theft auto vibe...you know those lighted up pictures?? the ones with beer or palm trees? well i want one with palm trees, but also the miami lights, and also the northern lights. does anyone know where i can find them?

yeah right! no one even leaves me comments, OR VOTES! there are things you can check....this sucks. ha!

after i insulted someone on my myspace blog because i blogged about what a skank that charlie sheen pornstar was, he responded, ON MY BLOG, saying, oh thank you for putting her name. i looked her up what a perfect teenage body spinner she is! ugh!! i was like, creep! ha! now he doesnt leave comments. NO ONE DOES!!!

hmm....i used to write so many good, interesting blogs on myspace, at least i think so....oh well whatever!

i also want to get a cool cherry mahongany(???) wooden coffee table. for the house! and a jacuzzi!!!

oh yeah, i'd still...visit la....even tho i have more friends out there than here...geez....i am just not rich damnet! so what do you expect!?! when i am done with school i can work at a hospital, retail, or long-tern facility. actually, there IS a new pharmacuetical place opening up in allentown. i did work at quite a few pharmacuetical places, Alcan, Roche, WSI, (i forget the one i worked at in bloomsbury.

maybe i can find the info on the new one in allentown...japanese place hang on! oh when i worked at alcan, i thought it was quite cool. 15.00 an hour, we had to log in using our fingerprints. the breakroom was super big, lofty high ceilings and wall panel of windows. i just packaged the pharmacueticals tho, as well as the other places. now i can, (if i want), do compounding medicines, animal meds, make IV's, whatever. im actually interested in long-term or retail. i am good with customer service, plus i used to work at a photo lab and i like to keep busy. i wouldnt mind working at the walmart pharmacy! everyone in my class wants to work at a hospital, but they say working at the hospital is very gossipy, and i really dont want a part of stupid gossip...nurses at the nurse station talking about gang-stalking or whatever. psshh! forget that! (i hate that song, forget you! i hear it everywhere now)

oh, as far as a house/apartment goes, i like HIGH CEILINGS, i like RED BRICK walls, wooden floors, i like those cube looking windows, you know what i am talking about....i cant think!??! i want to finally decorate nice!

oh, on the east coast, i am an hour and a half from nyc. not bad!!! if you live in LA, its only good if you have a job in the entertainment industry, and want to get into it. WHICH I DO! but when i was living there, i had no money, and, just wasnt that great. i want to go shopping on robertson blvd, but without money, what the hell? it aint fun! i like going to fancy restaurants! ahh who knows? although i know i can get into all the big red carpet parties. mike thinks im all about hollywood. if mike really thinks i am that shallow, than he truly does not know me.

here is the article...(but yes i want to write movies, i want to have boobies, groupies (((songs that talk about groupies sound like they are talking about boobies hahaha!)))

Drugmaker to add 80 jobs in the Valley
Daiichi Sankyo to take over former Amcor plant in Bethlehem Township.
February 15, 2011|By Scott Kraus, OF THE MORNING CALL

Japanese drugmaker Daiichi Sankyo Inc. has taken over the former Amcor packaging plant in Bethlehem Township and plans to add about 80 jobs this fall at what will become its first U.S. packaging operation.

The company purchased the 140,000-square-foot Amcor facility in Lehigh Valley Industrial Park VI on Feb. 7 for $10.25 million, and has been offered $3.6 million in state assistance by Gov. Tom Corbett's administration.

The aid offer includes a $250,000 grant, $100,000 in job training assistance, $3 million in loans and $246,000 in tax credits, conditioned upon the company employing at least 82 people at the end of three years, said Luke Webber, spokesman with the state Department of Community and Economic Development.

Billy Ray Cyrus speaks about Miley, blames 'her people'

um hi. before you read this article, i would like to share my opinion. in the article, billy stated how he did not go to mileys 18th bday party in fear of them attacking him. goes to show that he is worried about his image. so, that is why he "blames satan"....come on! billy ray cyrus was aware of the deal he made with the illuminati WHEN he sold his little girls to them. in fact, he probably helped with the traumatizing. PIG!!! im sorry, this stuff saddens me greatly!"

Since condemning Miley Cyrus’ bong scandal in December, Billy Ray Cyrus hasn’t said much about his daughter or the controversies that keep surrounding her.

But in an interview conducted a mere five days after the video leaked, for GQ’s March issue, he comes out swinging.

Among the most startling revelations is an admission that “Hannah Montana” “destroyed” his family and his fear that 18-year-old Miley could possibly end up meeting the same tragic fate that befell controversial stars that came before her – namely, Michael Jackson, Kurt Cobain and Anna Nicole Smith.

“Every time something happened in Miley’s career, every time the train went off the track, if you will – Vanity Fair, pole-dancing, whatever scandal it was – her people, or as they say in today’s news, her handlers, every time they’d put me … ‘Somebody’s shooting at Miley! Put the old man up there!’” Billy Ray told the magazine about why he used to have such a strong public presence in his daughter’s life.

“Well, I took it, because I’m her daddy, and that’s what daddies do,” he added. “‘Okay, nail me to the cross, I’ll take it … ‘ ”

Now the 49-year-old father of six said he realized “they used me every time.” And he eventually reached his breaking point, choosing not to attend the starlet’s 18th birthday party last year.

“You know why I didn’t go? Because they were having it in a bar,” he explained. “It was wrong. It was for 21-years-old and up. Once again all them people, they all wanted me to fly out so that then when all the bad press came they could say, ‘Daddy endorsed this stuff … ‘”

“If I would have went out there I would have been right in the middle of all this stuff that’s going on right now with the bong. They’d be hanging it on my ass,” Billy Ray continued. “I had the common sense … I said, ‘This whole thing’s falling apart up there and they just want to blame all of this stuff on you again.’ I’m staying out of it.”

Billy Ray, who is in the process of divorcing Miley’s mom Tish, said he knew something was especially wrong in the days before the video of the teen star smoking salvia from a bong hit the web.

He explained to the magazine that he had heard her “handlers” were concerned about a missing iPhone and bartering with the people who obtained it.

“And that was on the heels, the week previous, of some pictures from Spain [which showed Miley drinking a beer] – a five- or seven-day period of just boom!” he recalled. “There’s a train wreck happening and my daughter’s right in the middle of it.”

Since he didn’t know what was on the missing phone, Billy Ray said he tried to find out through Miley’s team.

“They told me it was none of my business,” he claimed. “I’m dealing with somebody that had only known my daughter for possibly four years and I’m her daddy. I was pretty damn insulted.”

“And I took that as the ultimate alarm,” he continued. “‘It’s none of your business’! None of my business that you’re out running around L.A. trying to buy kids’ computers and phones because there’s something about my daughter?”

In her own recent interview with Marie Claire, Miley apologized for disappointing her fans with the drug incident, but also noted that it’s “normal” to be “imperfect” at her age.

Billy Ray made a similar concession in the GQ interview, admitting, “There’s no doubt I did stuff when I was a teenager that I’m sure could have turned out horribly.”

“I’ve done some stupid crap – I do stupid crap. We all do. But it’s different when you sit back and you see it happening to your little girl,” he explained. “I feel like I got to try. It’s my daughter”

“And,” Billy Ray added, “some of these handlers are perhaps more interested in handling Miley’s money than her safety and her career,” something that leaves him “scared for her.”

Billy Ray went on to discuss how fame ultimately cut short the lives of Jackson, Cobain and Smith, which has made him all the more eager to help his daughter navigate through life in the spotlight.

When he looks back on Miley’s rapid rise to fame through “Hannah Montana,” on which they both starred, he said he sees how “the business was driving a wedge between us.”

“It destroyed my family. I’ll tell you right now – the damn show destroyed my family,” Billy Ray declared, before admitting he wishes they never agreed to do the Disney Channel show.

“I’d take it back in a second. For my family to be here and just be everybody okay, safe and sound and happy and normal, would have been fantastic. Heck, yeah,” he said.
“I’d erase it all in a second if I could.”

And for those who believe Billy Ray’s concern is really about whether his daughter will continue to be a cash cow, he offered to set the record straight.

“I’ve never made a dime off of Miley,” he insisted. “You got a lot of people have made percentages off of her. I’m proud to say to this day I’ve never made one commissioned dollar, or dime, off of my daughter.”

Billy Ray didn’t place all the blame on those currently in Miley’s life. There are also evil forces at work, he claimed.

“Somewhere along this journey, both mine and Miley’s faith has been shaken,” he said. “That saddens me the most.”

His family, Billy Ray argued, is now being ruined by Satan.

“No doubt,” he insisted. “There’s no doubt about it.”

And Billy Ray also held himself partially responsible for his daughter’s behavior.

“How many interviews did I give and say, ‘You know what’s important between me and Miley is I try to be a friend to my kids’? I said it a lot,” he admitted. “And sometimes I would even read other parents might say, ‘You don’t need to be a friend, you need to be a parent.’ Well, I’m the first guy to say to them right now: You were right.”

“I should have been a better parent. I should have said, ‘Enough is enough – it’s getting dangerous and somebody’s going to get hurt,’” he continued. “I should have, but I didn’t. Honestly, I didn’t know the ball was out of bounds until it was way up in the stands somewhere.”

Mind Control music video

here is the video along with the link to vigilants expose on it.



http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=6826

and in response, jesse j. tweeted her response of the whole thing:

“Just come onto twitter and this made me lmao! People really have too much time on there hands. So funny! I am not a part of the #illuminati and its sad that there convincing themselves and other people I am. Haha! RT @cypherdivine: #illuminati @jessiejofficial Jessie J’s “Price Tag” It’s Not About Money, It’s About Mind Control | The Vigilant Citizen ” – Jessie J

the imagery is no joke. it is traumatizing and childhood, toys, marienettes. get with the program people!

Sunny Day!

well, not sunny, but it is so nice out. a sweet breeze of warmth and springtime is abundant, very enjoyable. i love the nice weather. i haven't really thought of anything like nice weather tho, i haven't been able to really think about anything that brings me joy. well, how could i, when i constantly have school and work, and no free time? i forget about sitting back to smell the flowers.

ok, complaint time! lets see...lets see......ok, so, there is this girl in my class, catherine, who says, "killing me softly" alot, (this isn't a complaint)just a story...well yesterday in the newspaper there was a comic with two birds, and the one bird said, "killing me softly with his song"...i told catherine but the thing is, mike took the paper from my work to read during laundry, so i couldnt cut it out for her. ha! also we are doing math, and we did 'the decimal slide", you know, converting whatever to whatever, you slide, "to the left to the left" so everyone sings that song. well, last night, on american idol, they sand, "to the left to the left, everything to the box to the left" but they were AWFUL!!! **edit** she also says BUSTED alot

what else??? oh in math, i wish i sat next to someone who can work with me to help. erghh!! well, i do, but, abbey sits next to me. ashley also sits next to me and she always has questions, so we help each other, but abbey never wants to help. i mean, janet and susan are always helping each other! im not good at math and i need someone to talk it over with and help....abbey just asks mrs. ward, and when i dont want to ask her because she is not helpful!!!(abbey not the teacher) ERGHH so irritating!! sure i can ask the teacher, and i do, but i would rather be able to work it out with someone who was next to me, ya know????

in our thereapuetic response we are now learning about psychopharmacy and the drugs associated with schizophrenia, anxiety, depression, OCD, etc...class started talking about MPD, you know, multiple personalities. i sort of wanted to say the government creates that, but i didnt! first of all, no one cares, and im not going to start "talking crazy" in class! i did say that quietly, but abbey doesnt care, she'd be the only one that would of heard me....

DID is created through trauma and abuse, and they create alters within that traumatized state. we forget traumatizing things as a coping mechanism...

blah! i need to clean, take shower, vacuum, change cat litter, do dishes....etc....

Tila the Wonderful!

just kidding. i wish rotspot still did posts. sigh. anyways, apparently tila is bragging about more things, who knows? you know, i forgot about her, but i guess she is still around, trying to make a dollar out of 50 cents...

here is a pic with her and confused jen anistan, looking confused:



here is her being interviewed by zack galifinakis, (i cant hear because my laptop SUCKS!!! so i have not watched this yet. anyways, here is)



it was funny at first, but after the speedstick part it got stupid. "Just go with it...just go with it"

i just watched this, and i find it very strange how this woman wearing leopard print seems to be strategically placed next to tila....

illuminati symbols

we rented machete last night, and its a pretty good movie, although mike did not like it. i tried to explain to him it is supposed to have that campy aspect to it, but he thought it was dumb. anyways, just want to note a few things i took note of, but probably is not important and will just be brushed off. meh? why bother!??!

robert dineros character was like george bush, in which he acted with the 'turrorists"...9/11 being an INSIDE job...also noticed michelle rodgriguez sporting the eye patch, (illuminati symbol, one eye, all seeing eye), she used to talk about the illuminati. i remember her, anand, and cathy jones talking about it. we also watched this movie, (i could not tho because i could not see! this was at sundance, i could not keep my eyes open for longer than 5 seconds)..hmm...

anyways, they also zoomed in on lindsey lohans eyes, and she shows her boobs in the movie too.

they also had a significant shot of the bank in austin which is shaped like an owl, MOLOCH...and she is talking about the corruption of the politicians etc....police, much like how it really is...evil banks! owl worship. molock.

anyways, here is a site if you want to see some illuminati symbols, pretty interesting, i think so at least...

HERE!

hot looks! my sister and i used to have these dolls! STACY! ELKIE! CHELSEA! oh my gosh i loved those dolls! they were just, so cool!!!

here is a link to see more about HOT LOOKS! (click here)

alright, geez i have no free time! today i had school, work, and then mike picked me up and we went grocery shopping. i still need to study for out brands and generics quiz tomorrow, and take a shower....damn!!! i need a break!

Happy Valentines Day!

A valentine, from me to you!

R$Rihanna mind control perfume commercial

"I get asked to do commercials all the time"- eminem

that was just on anyways, ryan seacrest got all excited about rihannas sheer dress and asked about her "perfume"

oh i noticed alot of mind control themes watching the grammys tonight, in fact we were discussing it on facebook and blogger chat...

here is rihannas symbolic mind control video (link to vigilant below as well)



her is the link. im going to bed. shower im tired

Brooklyn

Hey. On saturday, i got some tires for the car, then we headed up to brooklyn to visit scott and kimmie. it was a nice ride. anyways, we got there rather early and started drinking early, around 5 maybe? so then, kimmy and i walked to the store and got some four locos. yep, they sell them there. we got watermelon and orange. so...what else? we stayed at the apartment. all of a sudden it was 9 and we were like, its only 9pm? geez! oh yeah, we watched suburbia before john showed up. anyways, needless to say, we passed out rather early. kimmy threw up. i dont even remember going to sleep? i hate when that happens! seriously...they said i woke up and started screaming. well, here are some pics. oh yeah the next day, (today) we got bagels and watched the warriors. WARRIORS! ha! here are some pics. kimmy was passed out by then.

i'll put in a few more pics too....idontknow? i needa shower and sleep. back to the routine...sigh. it was a nice break, geez i needed it ya know? now, back to school and work....and 4am this coming saturday damnet...hey 30.00 wigs at target. maybe i will get one! hahaha

marble likes to lay like this


















(( i dont feel like putting the other pictures up, you get the point))

steves is an inside joke, of the united republic of steve

Tetris and Jenga

ok, now i remember what two i wanted to write about! oh, the reason why i thought of "butchy rythym" is because i read the word rhythm in the newspaper. i remember that lady, spires. she was 26, but looked older. i remember when we were at the presidio of monterey california, there was this little woodsy outing behind the barracks where we would all go. and we all would, there would be airforce, army, navy, and marines who just went there to gather, have a campfire going, play guitar, and drink beers or what have you. i remember i went up there with spires, and she drank a whole bottle of wine and got drunk and started singing janis joplin, (i think???). spires was married to butchy rhythm, (not sure if that is him tho who came up in the google? seems that guy died of cancer?) anyways, she ended up cheating with this hot army guy who was in our platoon, bryzgornia. i even remember the names ha! i remember those times tho. they were fun! and monterey is beautiful! the barracks were way on top of the hill. sometimes we had to run UPHILL! we would start from the bottom by the beach. i remember this girl thought she was pacing me and tried to help me, but i got sick of her and just took off, leaving her behind. ha! sometimes i had to work at the gym which i always liked to do. sometimes, (before class started), i had to help with lawnmowing, weedwacking, etc. it was a unique time, being in the army. it was a feeling one would not understand unless they were in. civilians do not know that feeling, of comraderie, or feeling proud, i dont know? its this old-fashioned sort of military feeling too. ft. benning had that old-timey feel to it. i loved ft. benning! it just had that old-school military feel to it, that is where the 'ruckers' did their job, basically, putting together the packs for the airborne! shoot. shoot shoot to kill.

anyways....tetris and jenga! you see, i thought about tetris and jenga, because in class we are discussing acetycholine (enzymes), and terminal nerve endings, nuerostransmitters, and dendrites with receptors....there are drugs which could MIMIC or BLOCK the acetycholinem, (if cholinergic...there are so many systems; sympathetic "fight or flight", and parasympathetic. these are all part of the central nervous system. it is seperated into somatic and autonamic. autonamic means you do not think about movements, your body just does it. automatically. the smooth muscles are part of this, the heart....parkinsons disease creates TOO MUCH acetycholine, (i think...i have to review again)...therefore they make drugs which make MORE enyzymes to eat the extra acteycholine????

anyways, i thought of the game tetris, when the acetycholine comes out of the terminal and needs to fill the receptors of the dendrites, through the synapses. i said, "tetris" in class.


that made me think of tetris, the game! and then that made me think of jenga and tetris! i wonder what those two floozies are up to????

((i like part 3 the best, but i am going to add part 1 and 2, for brevitys sake....also i have an interesting movie during the ABSOLUTELY part that pertains to me...MAYBE i will explain it, but im too lazy too right now))anyways, tetris and jenga show up in part 3...

butchy rythym

i forget now, but i wanted to make a blogpost about....two characters, but i forget who now!???!! erghhh

before i wanted to do a liza and bort post, but i could not find the youtube vids of them....i also wanted to do a walter and perry post, but i have no volume to listen to it...

today, i wanted to do one....but now i forget!!! i had wanted to mention "butchy rythym" tho...rythym...how do you spell that? when i was in the army, this girl i was friends with, spires, had a husband who was in some band. he called himself "butchy rythym"

i hope i remember who the other two characters are!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hmm...i googled "butchy rythym" and came up with this????



not sure? hmm...i wonder??? im so tired....we didnt go out. im a little disappointed, but whatever. i am actually very tired and mike is sleeping on his chair, with his drink in his hand. i hope he doesnt spill it...

i really need to know who i was going to blog about!!! this is irritating me!

Tipping; its not a city in China

Just watched 1000 ways to die , death of some guy (i forget what number)...

ha! anyways, seriously, it was busy tonight, at work. ok? friday night. lots of people

came around, they wanted toasted bagels, coffee. also, i gave them change. i gave

them coins, dollars. guess what? i did not get ANY tips! only two people left some

change. what the fuck? it really is rude not to tip. i dont expect people to tip all

the time, but come on! you know, i recommend tipping. its just a good habit to get

into. if you see a tip jar, heck, you can spare a dollar. it will make you feel

better and it is a nice thing to do. people dont even tip! they have change, ugh!!

i don't like people much. or, whatever!

Chinese Food Advice

Usually, when I go for chinese food, I order fried rice, (shrimp), wonton soup, and an egg roll. Boring, i know, AND enriched in FAT! well, tonight, we tried something different. the chef's selection. i recommend this for your chinese cuisine ideas. we picked pan fried noodles, "noodles is fried both side w. beef, chicken, shrimp, roast pork, broccoli, snow peas, mushrooms, waterch Bread.

hey, what is waterch bread? anyways, let me tell ya something, that shit was gooooo-OOOD! MMM! oh, what is the deal with 5.00 footlongs? WHO CARES!??! too much money for a footlong subway. i cant eat that much anyways. i used to work at subway. ha!

Friday

Hey! I am SO TIRED! you know, it doesnt even feel like i have a day off tomorrow, or sunday! its like, i dont know? oh, that song is SO ANNOYING! i dont even know why i put it up, that PRETTY GIRL ROCK, im like, GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!! UGH! also, THIS SONG, always seems to be in my head. im not even sure why or how or where i heard it, ha! well, thanks to google i found out it is peter gabriel, but i always thought it was 'stump the monkey"



well it is mike and i's anniversary. yeah. he got me a nice earrings and necklace and butterfly barrette. that was nice of him.

what else? oh, like i said, i am so tired and worn out. i dont even feel like i have a free night, where i dont have to worry about anything. tomorrow we are going to brooklyn tho to visit scott and kimmy.

moss texted me yesterday, saying we need to talk....im like, uh oh. what about? did he read something bad i wrote??? i dont even know.

he thinks im stupid tho! ha! i mean, MOSS I KNOW YOU READ MY BLOGS! he tries to say that kevin reads them but i know moss does, just like i know he knew who i was BEFORE he came into my life.

i mean, see, i have dreams still, but, im not lying when i say i am EXHAUSTED! i dont have any time for myself, much less worry about going out to LA. i wake up early every morning, school and work. i am doing good in school tho. the thing is, i am with mike, and we do care about each other, of course! i do love him! anyways, he told me he will not move out to LA. of course, you know, i cant just go out there without a job. i appreciate all moss does for me, ahh!!!

im tired. well, im going to enjoy this drink (captain and cherry sprite), also, some chinese food.

g'night!

SHOCK THE MONKEY!

Does everyone think my QUESTION form is to vulgar? LOL, as in do you think it turns people off from asking me a question? Should I change it? Let me know what you think about it, please!?

not vulgar enough! kidding

Ask me anything

What's the oldest piece of clothing that you own and still wear?

i still wear these american eagle corduroys i got about 6 years ago, other than that....not sure

Ask me anything

To the guy below-- you tell us...you would probably know the most out of ANYONE! hahahaa!

what?

Ask me anything

Action Park, Weird NJ

at work, i was reading the weird nj magazine i took from my sister's car yesterday. my parents had to use it because their tires went flat. im tired...hmm.....so, i was reading. it gives me a few ideas, in the summer, i am going to travel to these spots, hopefully i can find someone to join me on these adventures! i also want someone to film us..."Here we are, at Shades of Death road! they say this road is HAUNTED! also, we will visit "crystal lake", in hope nj, where they filmed friday the 13th. we are also going to go to blairstown nj, where a scene from the movie was also filmed. next, we will go to Hot Dog Johnnies, for a dog and buttermilk! we will visit the muffler man of phillipsburg, nj. we will also go to the creepy frenchtown elementary school!"

i read a little tidbit about action park. action park is now condemned, closed, but i do remember going there as a kid. well, i was 14. yep, it was dangerous alright! when i read the tidbit, it made me think of something else i read, which made me kind of laugh, even tho it is not very funny...

this girl with glasses wrote about a time when she was in action park, and she was sliding down one of the more dangerous slides, (i do remember that one too), and she careened into the wall! she said she was going so fast and hit the wall at the end of the pool!

i remember the one pool which we could swing off, the water was freezing! also, the one slide was so steep that if you were light, you would not even hit the slide for the first 10 seconds. there was a slide which flipped upside down. also, during one of the tube rides, i remember getting knocked off of it. also, people drowned in the wave pool. i remember i almost did.

anyways, here are some horror stories....enjoy!


CLICK HERE TO READ MORE ABOUT ACTION PARK!

tattoos i want

dont hate me cuz im beautiful, not sure why but that song is in my head

ANYWAZE....tattoos that i want to get!

bright and colorful!

-ivy, sexy mermaid, starfish, dragonflies, ladybugs, creepy alice in wonderland, and/or sexy anime girl, weird nj tattoo (with nj state, and a weird nj logo, ha! unless that is too dumb!), i want to get a rose tattoo, (the irony...you know, nah nevermind)...i just want to get some cool new tattoos! maybe one of my drawings...

i was going to put up pics of hot girl tattoos but im too lazy too...but, i want to be a hot girl with tattoos!!!

anyways, i want to start doing modeling again!!! i want to feel beautiful! HA! im just being stupid!!

oh, a cheshire cat would make a cool tattoo too, i think...even tho, i do realize that alice in wonderland IS a mind control programming tool. still, i always liked alice...creepy alice that is! but then again, what hot topic gal doesnt? (ugh! hot topic! )




(i dont think that is megan fox)

song and video of the day

too bad i dont have volume

Sleepytime

i am so tired! i got a 90 GPA for medical terminology, and a 98 for keyboarding. so today we started a new module. its therapuetic response 1 and math. we are learning about the nervous system, nuerons, nuerotransmitters, systems, dendrites, synapses etc now. also brand and generic names too. cool! when math came around, i was SO TIRED! so i was dozing off, its just because i am BURNT OUT! had a few beers last night, we got this miller lite mini keg thing for 14.00...shannan came over and we watched the superbowl. it was alright. i got to sleep around 11pm i think. well, we are learning how to read roman numerals, YEAH! but i wasnt really paying attention and i was the slowest one to complete the worksheet, but now i know! when the smaller numeral is BEFORE the LETTER, or whatever, then it is subtracted. after, it is added. also, L is 50, uh....i have to recheck my notes....but, i never payed much attention to roman numerals before, now, i can see what superbowl it is, and stuff like that! we are also learning fractions too, EASY! reminds me of grade school.

oh yeah, i forgot to mention, i am going to start saying that i am 23. abbey said she thought i was 19 or 20. people think im 20 years old so i should start saying that i am....hmm...24 perhaps! HA! i just feel weird lying tho....

what else? ahh not much.....nope. im going to take a shower soon and go to bed. i am exhausted!

My List

i am so tired...i need a nap. this morning, i fell asleep again. it was around 7am...and finally it was quiet and slow, so i sat on the somewhat comfortable chairs with my warm, puffy coat, and slouched down and fell asleep, for about 20 minutes. maybe more, not sure. its just way too early for me! blah! anyways, i made a list of things i want and need, so just for my sake, i am going to keep the list here, as well as in my personal notebook, so i can check them once i obtain them. i also want a bunch of dvd's, but i will make that a seperate list...also, most of the ones i want are in my poison store too.

Personal List
- velveteen blazer
- corduroy blazer
- denim blazer
- led zeppelin t-shirt
- ARMY PT's
- MEK DENIM ACID WASHED JEANS
- DICKIES PANTS
- pearl ring
- turquoise rings
- silver rings
- friendship bracelets/bangles/bracelets
- poison band t-shirt
- LEVI DENIM JACKET
- barrettes, headband
- cool wigs! clip on extensions
- lulus.com shoes
- heels
- pink doc martens (?)
- oxford shoes
- velveteen pants
- vests
- tattoos
- MAC makeup
- make-up brushes
- new underwear
- rollers
- designer sunglasses
- fringe bag
- leather motorcycle jacket
- hats
- american apparel
- eagles jersey old navy

FOR THE APARTMENT:
Master Bedroom
- Headboard/footboard
- dehumidifier/vaporizer/humidifier (whatever works best, im not sure?)
- mattress throw soft
- nightstand
- lamp
- 32" flatscreen
- lit up painting (palm trees, northern lights, corona beer, miami art deco, tokyo)
- curtains
Living Room
- Fish aquarium
- Christmas Lights (more!)
- couch
- lamp
- longaberger basket
- 40" flatscreen hi-def
- playstation 3
- cd player
- new laptop
- lit up picture
- water fountain
- recliner
- bamboo
- books
- dvd tower
- DVD's
Kitchen
- Microwave pantry
- plates
- wine glasses
- beer mugs
- pictures, paintings
- magnets
- florescent light
- napkin holder
- canisters
- knife set
- food processor
- coffee maker
Hallway
-movie poster
- poster frames
- hamper
Bathroom
- Toilet stand thing
- longaberger basket (for magazines)
- new shower curtain
2nd Bedroom
-new dresser
- desk
- MAC computer
- nightstand
- labyrinth poster
- blinds
- curtains
MY CAR
- LCD headlights
- LCD lights for interior
- steering wheel cover
- floormats
- keychain
- seat covers
- new tires
- decals

MISC
- plants
- wicker
- marble
- clear chess set
- dreamcatcher
- pool table (for new apartment)
- knick knacks
- lit up picture frames
- good camera
- native pride flag
- mirrors
- art supplies
- patio furniture (for new bigger apartment)
- outdoor grill
- good video camera
- ice shaver
- magazine subsriptions
- IPAD
- newer cellphone