i usually delete any blog posts i make if i have been drinking but whatever it doesnt even matter. i really need to make a drs appt tho i feel so weak. i need bloodwork done and a slew of other things, you know? female stuff too. so, celebrity gossip i see people are saying 'why would kendall jenner ...whatever well for one' even if she was not famous, she still does look like a model. i mean, she is tall and thin and photographs well, so ppl should just shut up!
http://www.toofab.com/2014/11/29/kendall-jenner-burn-book-video/
thats it really. i dont have much to say. i sat around watching walking dead all day i am burnt out!!
moss wanted to go to philly tomorrow and i totally would but i have no energy i am so tired. i have no idea why my dad never jumps my car the battery is dead tho.
Sunday, November 30, 2014
hey so there is a video by gwen 4 in the morning
mike predicted right i will be up till 4 am when i used to post a bunch of the asmbs i would make 'the 4 am thread' just wanted to say for one, there are no coasters!!!
also, i do not dye my hair anymore. its my own silky dark hair. i straighten it for work and tonight i parted it. the other night i made it sort of mid part, and i glossed it with my eyebrow thing.
watching gwen stefani videos, i used to dye my hair blonde it was shoulder length and bouncy, i would also wear lots of retro scarves and tweeze my eyebrows. if i could, i would find the hard drives for all the stupid computers and all the webcam pics i used to take of me, with blonde dyed hair, and a bit of purple or blue, and the scarves i wore, as well as how i did my makeup..
i also wore dark purple lipstick. i always modeled after retro style, (when i was 19) i remember this older guy i found so hot....told me i looked like marilyn monroe.
i would curl my hair like that and stuff......gwen always reminds me of that sort of beauty. ok 3rd beer i am feeling that way now WOW!!
fuck it tho RIGHT!???!
yeah its what i thought! and i love to feel pretty and have nice perfumes and such. im such a little girl.NO JK i only wrote that bcuz a friend posted her 9 year old neices blog and i was reading it for a quick minute. it was all about that bass (jk) it was all bout taylor swift tho!??!
ha! and her boyfriends.
also, no coasters!?!
EDIT EDIT!!
SO what is she singing about, at 4 in the morning cuz the whole video is not 4 am also,
all gwen is is a fashionista. now that she is in her 4os (um not to ageist...i only regret not having......a motive in life)
her character is still a fashionista tho? channeling her inner joan rivers? is that what women look forward too tho?
cuz from what i reckon, they care more about raising their kids then their image.
listen, at bonton, i recognize a girls name. yes, it was a heavy metal fan from my high school days. she dressed up as slash for halloween, her and my other friend, jen. i wasnt friends with this girl (danielle) but i did know her and vice versa right she was in my classes.
i purely recognize her name from the bonton schedule. at first i didnt know itwas her . she looks older than me, but shes not. she is my age! she just looks the way a 36 year old looks. yet, i feel like i LOOK much younger than her...well i am DRUNK yeah i am whats my point>
oh yes also.........i looked up another girl i knew on facebook to stalk her not add her. she looks old! but she looks happy!! she has kiddies and what not but MAN does she look..........um....just way older she used to be the girl who matured more meaning the boys liked her cuz her boobs sprouted and she used to have a lisp due to braces she had vanilla blonde hair her name was jenny and her sister was karen with red hair i used to LOVE those names karen and jenny they had a clubhouse and posters on bon jovi.
so yeah whatever i hear someone taking a shower. the music is off. im getting weird. the heat is on!! YAH YAH also.........its almost 3 am. also...........im on my 3rd beer...and my blad wants to relieve itself. i hear mike talking in his sleep and laughing and his laugh wants me to hug him but i wont. i think he misses me sleeping next to him tho. but its so warm now!!! it is only 68 degrees but it sure warms the place up nice. he will surely get mad tho
mike predicted right i will be up till 4 am when i used to post a bunch of the asmbs i would make 'the 4 am thread' just wanted to say for one, there are no coasters!!!
also, i do not dye my hair anymore. its my own silky dark hair. i straighten it for work and tonight i parted it. the other night i made it sort of mid part, and i glossed it with my eyebrow thing.
watching gwen stefani videos, i used to dye my hair blonde it was shoulder length and bouncy, i would also wear lots of retro scarves and tweeze my eyebrows. if i could, i would find the hard drives for all the stupid computers and all the webcam pics i used to take of me, with blonde dyed hair, and a bit of purple or blue, and the scarves i wore, as well as how i did my makeup..
i also wore dark purple lipstick. i always modeled after retro style, (when i was 19) i remember this older guy i found so hot....told me i looked like marilyn monroe.
i would curl my hair like that and stuff......gwen always reminds me of that sort of beauty. ok 3rd beer i am feeling that way now WOW!!
fuck it tho RIGHT!???!
yeah its what i thought! and i love to feel pretty and have nice perfumes and such. im such a little girl.NO JK i only wrote that bcuz a friend posted her 9 year old neices blog and i was reading it for a quick minute. it was all about that bass (jk) it was all bout taylor swift tho!??!
ha! and her boyfriends.
also, no coasters!?!
EDIT EDIT!!
SO what is she singing about, at 4 in the morning cuz the whole video is not 4 am also,
all gwen is is a fashionista. now that she is in her 4os (um not to ageist...i only regret not having......a motive in life)
her character is still a fashionista tho? channeling her inner joan rivers? is that what women look forward too tho?
cuz from what i reckon, they care more about raising their kids then their image.
listen, at bonton, i recognize a girls name. yes, it was a heavy metal fan from my high school days. she dressed up as slash for halloween, her and my other friend, jen. i wasnt friends with this girl (danielle) but i did know her and vice versa right she was in my classes.
i purely recognize her name from the bonton schedule. at first i didnt know itwas her . she looks older than me, but shes not. she is my age! she just looks the way a 36 year old looks. yet, i feel like i LOOK much younger than her...well i am DRUNK yeah i am whats my point>
oh yes also.........i looked up another girl i knew on facebook to stalk her not add her. she looks old! but she looks happy!! she has kiddies and what not but MAN does she look..........um....just way older she used to be the girl who matured more meaning the boys liked her cuz her boobs sprouted and she used to have a lisp due to braces she had vanilla blonde hair her name was jenny and her sister was karen with red hair i used to LOVE those names karen and jenny they had a clubhouse and posters on bon jovi.
so yeah whatever i hear someone taking a shower. the music is off. im getting weird. the heat is on!! YAH YAH also.........its almost 3 am. also...........im on my 3rd beer...and my blad wants to relieve itself. i hear mike talking in his sleep and laughing and his laugh wants me to hug him but i wont. i think he misses me sleeping next to him tho. but its so warm now!!! it is only 68 degrees but it sure warms the place up nice. he will surely get mad tho
Gwen Stefani - Baby Don't Lie
i am sharing this vid, because it is so saturated with MK visuals, you see her awakening, (or going to sleep) prancing down the yellow brick road with her ruby slippers, surrounded by pyramids and black and white duality. yeah yeah...i do like this song tho. what else? oh, its so weird that i used to live here (at mikes)...it doesnt feel like home to me at all. he basically took down anything i put my heart into..im going to start bringing my stuff more and more so, home well to my parents. also..what else what ELSE!??! i put the heat up a tad SHH dont tell i hope he doesnt wake up to scream at me. well i am cold here i want to take my bra off. now this! this heat is comfy! its at 67 degrees. not too cold or hot, just nice enough. now i can take my bra off! oh i so want my own place!! and btw, watching no doubt and gwent stefani does bring back memories...not gonna lie! so whatever!!!
poison listen to me poison!
its just not fun anymore, sitting in this cold room, trying to be comfortable while hearing a steady pursuit of loud, human snores from the other room. while i am not tired, these constant snores of a never ending rythmic pattern of snores are really starting to irritate me. what happens when i decide to just 'fuck it' and go to sleep? fuck it, meaning, give up on the night and go to sleep? i will have to struggle to fall asleep to these snores? and the snores happened during the most boring movie to ever wait in the freezing cold for, 'mokingjau' oops mockinjay. while i appreciate the effort, i mean, does this movie really, truly entertain the tweens and teens that seem to endlessly wait in line to watch? seriously!?? it is like, preparing tweenies to prepare for a sort of 'dystopian' world. in fact, i only know the word dystopia and propaganda because of the hunger games suzanne collins! kidding!? when i was a tweenie weenie, they had good movies, idk...you know, edward scissorhands, my girl, ghost....you know, stuff like that.
all i got out of this one, was hearing POISON, basically, ok here is the msg i heard, (snore snore talking in the sleep)..
oh lets see here......ugh i cant stand this!! i actually wanted to just go home. i dont even want to drink if i have this constant pattern of snores, reminding me...like a deadend heartbeat, the heart beat of poe..."the raven. quote the raven'
HA!!! oh my goodness i just realized!! THEY are sending me msgs!@ oh my gosh RILLY!
its like my mind is being bread crumb and spoon fed.
from the movie that they basically stole, MY CONCEPT they sure did! just like insidious, they stole my idea about the 'old woman who got into a car accident and woke up her young self' i will link to the movie, (it was in the preview for MOCKING jay)
and mocking jay! basically the white roses were a ruse/rose for poison! oh yeah, he had to have white roses to cover the scent of blood due to the POISON he drank..basically...while the roses were a sort of hidden msg for katniss
um, it is also.a msg for me? and also, whats his name?? LOUD SNORE...
peta, he is being DRUGGED by the wasps i am assuming, as katniss had a small taste of it herself, he is being drugged and fed these psychotropic msgs and tortured ... they use katniss (candace) and peta for their own agenda.
i will also say how i believe these things work.......
selling ones soul, allows you to be used as a vessel, which is now what i believe explains the multitude of what works when, how, synchronicity etc........
well.......children do not sell their souls. peta is an MK'd electroshocked victim, drugged and hypnotized, to serve the agenda. they all are, being used. even the blonde one with the shaved head is too, shaved head indicates slavery.
((even when mike is awake, he is mouth breathing, so its like, all i hear is his loud breathing!?)) during the movie, he was falling asleep and loudly breathing. at first i tried to wake him up but he got mad so fuck him then. he said he was going to leave me if i didnt stop. i was trying to save him from embarrassment at the teen girls he was sitting by, but whatever!??
he is being nice to me, maybe because i am being good. or something whatever that means. i actually am on my 2nd beer, which i feel.
funny thing is, i saw someone post, about having one beer and being good, two a bit giggly, three time for bed, and i was thinking, 'ugh i hate when ppl write that shit come on really?" but i actually feel it and its my 2nd beer. i did have a 'spiked fruit punch' but only one little cup.
um.......anyways, vice did an article, about gwen stefani, and it made me watch a video, then i put one for background music...and it was 'its my life' so i just happened to check out the video, in time to see her POISON someone!!!
but yeah, here is the IDEA THEY STOLE FROM ME!??! so what? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=clbSd2JzAqc
yeah.....
um, ill have what shes having!!!
oh in the next blog, i will gladly and freely share the idea i have, for a...another story. yes, another story. gladly they say!! it can be made into a movie!
anyways....that movie is tweaked but its the same concept. remember? the old woman who was driving home, saw her old self, crashed, woke up as her young self, given another chance.
just watched it now, it said FOR LOVE i swear it said 'FOR LORI' for a split second.
wanna hear my other idea?? maybe tomorrow
all i got out of this one, was hearing POISON, basically, ok here is the msg i heard, (snore snore talking in the sleep)..
oh lets see here......ugh i cant stand this!! i actually wanted to just go home. i dont even want to drink if i have this constant pattern of snores, reminding me...like a deadend heartbeat, the heart beat of poe..."the raven. quote the raven'
HA!!! oh my goodness i just realized!! THEY are sending me msgs!@ oh my gosh RILLY!
its like my mind is being bread crumb and spoon fed.
from the movie that they basically stole, MY CONCEPT they sure did! just like insidious, they stole my idea about the 'old woman who got into a car accident and woke up her young self' i will link to the movie, (it was in the preview for MOCKING jay)
and mocking jay! basically the white roses were a ruse/rose for poison! oh yeah, he had to have white roses to cover the scent of blood due to the POISON he drank..basically...while the roses were a sort of hidden msg for katniss
um, it is also.a msg for me? and also, whats his name?? LOUD SNORE...
peta, he is being DRUGGED by the wasps i am assuming, as katniss had a small taste of it herself, he is being drugged and fed these psychotropic msgs and tortured ... they use katniss (candace) and peta for their own agenda.
i will also say how i believe these things work.......
selling ones soul, allows you to be used as a vessel, which is now what i believe explains the multitude of what works when, how, synchronicity etc........
well.......children do not sell their souls. peta is an MK'd electroshocked victim, drugged and hypnotized, to serve the agenda. they all are, being used. even the blonde one with the shaved head is too, shaved head indicates slavery.
((even when mike is awake, he is mouth breathing, so its like, all i hear is his loud breathing!?)) during the movie, he was falling asleep and loudly breathing. at first i tried to wake him up but he got mad so fuck him then. he said he was going to leave me if i didnt stop. i was trying to save him from embarrassment at the teen girls he was sitting by, but whatever!??
he is being nice to me, maybe because i am being good. or something whatever that means. i actually am on my 2nd beer, which i feel.
funny thing is, i saw someone post, about having one beer and being good, two a bit giggly, three time for bed, and i was thinking, 'ugh i hate when ppl write that shit come on really?" but i actually feel it and its my 2nd beer. i did have a 'spiked fruit punch' but only one little cup.
um.......anyways, vice did an article, about gwen stefani, and it made me watch a video, then i put one for background music...and it was 'its my life' so i just happened to check out the video, in time to see her POISON someone!!!
but yeah, here is the IDEA THEY STOLE FROM ME!??! so what? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=clbSd2JzAqc
yeah.....
um, ill have what shes having!!!
oh in the next blog, i will gladly and freely share the idea i have, for a...another story. yes, another story. gladly they say!! it can be made into a movie!
anyways....that movie is tweaked but its the same concept. remember? the old woman who was driving home, saw her old self, crashed, woke up as her young self, given another chance.
just watched it now, it said FOR LOVE i swear it said 'FOR LORI' for a split second.
wanna hear my other idea?? maybe tomorrow
Saturday, November 29, 2014
tortugas no casa!
its 1 am..teenage mutant ninja turtles is on. i caught the tail end of tmnt 1 (this is the one from the 90s, what i grew up watching)...i just remembered however, that the actor who played 'casey jones' was at a party i had to be at for anand jon. it was at a suite at the roosevelt hotel. i just remember he said he played casey jones in that movie. i had taken a picture with him. i think kato kaelin was with him too, oh, no, this one girl, holly, and i met kato through this other guy who had an agency...we went to some fancy place with them.....we used to hang out at the four seasons and idk, fancy places in hollywood. back then tho, it felt different. it just did ya know!?? i felt younger, i felt like it was my story...being new, to the hollywood scene i suppose. this was all 'pre-moss' before moss had a chance to mossy things up and take the magic and luster out of hollywood HA! what? he did tho!??! he just has a way of cheesifying things. ahh its ok tho, but now i am more of a paranoid shell of who i used to be, well i dont even know who i used to be. now, i just.....im just BORING! my life is boring! dull! its friday night and im here......ha! yeah.....hmm.......you know!? privy to feeling like some sort of, thing that is not supposed to be happy, or beautiful, or........normal. i just feel like the only time i can get some sort of reminder that people know who i am is if i post something on facebook and i can adjust how i come off of, (sort of), by just remaining coy....somewhat, nuetral. sometimes i garnish enough energy to depict myself as a wallow free thinker, but for the most part, im just another lost puzzle peice, a lime green in a puzzle of limeyness...
other parts im just face palming myself at the idiocracy that most people are exuding on a constant...a constant basis that is. self consumed, lost souls, who know nothing about true connection except for the molestation of being raped by those who find it humorous to intrude within your stupid projections on this damned world we call 'the internetz'
whatever happened to actually mattering? whatever happened to shattering above, and justifying your voice? to being heard?? we are heard, but silently as anyone can just peruse their own glazed eyes over a comment you sufficed to say, or a latticed pie atop a sloppy tart cherry, which has been scuffled on its UPS-laden journey to be signed and arraigned, with a tracking number to make sure such important pie is via en route! touche!
wow what hit me with all this shenanigan written taupe? so tripe, yet so gullible. i find myself waxing poetic with the likes of freshman creative writing class, making sure to turn my haiku into a soliloquoy, and my soliloquoy into a baguette of sorts, to be torn apart and handed out to the thankful beaks of sodden seagulls, who will crap out white and green...onto an unsuspecting bald head, perhaps the head of such well written 'haikuliloquoys'.
but no one will even know, for that will be a lil secret tucked away in the shame of a 'woe is me' mindset.
its rudimentary, my friend! sedimentary..dead end! the frolics of a mollusk, unintended to softly peirce the underbelly of a gooey steve irwin.
anyways...........what was i writing about!?? i dont know!??! i just........do not know!???
:/
is tim and eric that brilliant btw..i mean, its interesting stuff to watch. fun, hypnotic...good stuff to watch whilst trying to entertain oneself. ahh who the FAQ really cares!
splinter says, 'such honor falls flat on those who do not understand supreme policy"
and my fortune from my cookie says that as well!
OH MY GOSH! Stand back folks!! (i imagine im a goofy keyra type or whatever her name at white castle is, being a goofball nicki minaj beyotch and an arm waver of a teenage girl as she shows off her parents huge mansion on youtube)
STEP ASIDE"! (riding the turf, idk..didnt that once popular facebook thing do that?? something or other)
there is NO website to turn your words into a fortune to share. OH MY GOSH! STEP ASIDE!!!
*look around* i should TOTALLY make one!!!
wait, i thought i found one, just turned it into a template to print out no i just want one to print on an image online of a fortune cookie you know what i mean??
ugh i pressed back and it doesnt back up it just slowly circles nothing happens tho!
i want to get a good pair of glasses. im sick of wearing contact lenses. it makes things weird to seee
other parts im just face palming myself at the idiocracy that most people are exuding on a constant...a constant basis that is. self consumed, lost souls, who know nothing about true connection except for the molestation of being raped by those who find it humorous to intrude within your stupid projections on this damned world we call 'the internetz'
whatever happened to actually mattering? whatever happened to shattering above, and justifying your voice? to being heard?? we are heard, but silently as anyone can just peruse their own glazed eyes over a comment you sufficed to say, or a latticed pie atop a sloppy tart cherry, which has been scuffled on its UPS-laden journey to be signed and arraigned, with a tracking number to make sure such important pie is via en route! touche!
wow what hit me with all this shenanigan written taupe? so tripe, yet so gullible. i find myself waxing poetic with the likes of freshman creative writing class, making sure to turn my haiku into a soliloquoy, and my soliloquoy into a baguette of sorts, to be torn apart and handed out to the thankful beaks of sodden seagulls, who will crap out white and green...onto an unsuspecting bald head, perhaps the head of such well written 'haikuliloquoys'.
but no one will even know, for that will be a lil secret tucked away in the shame of a 'woe is me' mindset.
its rudimentary, my friend! sedimentary..dead end! the frolics of a mollusk, unintended to softly peirce the underbelly of a gooey steve irwin.
anyways...........what was i writing about!?? i dont know!??! i just........do not know!???
:/
is tim and eric that brilliant btw..i mean, its interesting stuff to watch. fun, hypnotic...good stuff to watch whilst trying to entertain oneself. ahh who the FAQ really cares!
splinter says, 'such honor falls flat on those who do not understand supreme policy"
and my fortune from my cookie says that as well!
OH MY GOSH! Stand back folks!! (i imagine im a goofy keyra type or whatever her name at white castle is, being a goofball nicki minaj beyotch and an arm waver of a teenage girl as she shows off her parents huge mansion on youtube)
STEP ASIDE"! (riding the turf, idk..didnt that once popular facebook thing do that?? something or other)
there is NO website to turn your words into a fortune to share. OH MY GOSH! STEP ASIDE!!!
*look around* i should TOTALLY make one!!!
wait, i thought i found one, just turned it into a template to print out no i just want one to print on an image online of a fortune cookie you know what i mean??
ugh i pressed back and it doesnt back up it just slowly circles nothing happens tho!
i want to get a good pair of glasses. im sick of wearing contact lenses. it makes things weird to seee
Friday, November 28, 2014
invest in organization
hEY oops Hey! this will just be about getting a vanity table, and how to manage ones MAKEUP!! why? because makeup is fun! but it needs it MUST be organized, otherwise you will feel aclutter..just the way it feels like to live in a messy cluttered house my room is a mess and i feel miserable. my eating patterns are a mess and i FEEL MISERABLE!
anyways.......get a nice vanity. then, have different bins to put different makeups in. you can buy bins at walmart or target or whatever, just a clear, plastic bin. you can label them too. one for foundations and powders, bases and stuff like that.
keep fancy items for display on the vanity. we will discuss that later.
((when i get around to it, i can have someone film me doing this tutorial))
have another bin for (or get one of those plastic type cabinets) fill them with connected items. eyeshadow palettes etc
one for brushes
one for freebies and samples, (or a cool shoebox)
one for hair stuff, curlers, straighteners etc
for atop the vanity, save the prettiest items and perfumes and creams. also, buy a mirrored tray to set combs and perfumes on. it looks pretty!
also get one of those lit up close up mirrors. its good for tweezing eyebrows and doing eyes.
i need to get talcum powder so that i can apply eyeshadow without any dark powdery residue ending up on my cheekbones and such, as they usually do.
just put thought and effort into things. anything you do. it will just help you feel more organized and less depressed with life. every day i fantasize about such little mundane trivial things, but its because it is so simple to handle, (and i am under the impression most people already got these habits down to what they do, and who am i even fooling!? i know no one is taking my advice anyways) i need to get out of here tho. i am so sick of living this way.
as i was saying tho, if you organize and have a pattern, it will help immensely. rather than just being some sort of slop and trash, who has no consideration of the importance of daily habits, diet, hygiene, fitness, and patterns.
even organizing your purse helps!
having the essentials will help you, especially during these cold winter days, which can rob your skin on natural oils, living you very hydrated.
have a nail kit, (which has nail clippers, files etc, on handy...some lady at my work showed me her nail kit. why? who knows? she says she always has that on handy hands)
a brush. a comb. mini hairspray. hand creme. perfume spray. mints. bottled water. chapstick, lip balm. contact solution. contact case. little change purse. little bag for receipts. wallet. lipstick. mini mouthwash. scented hand sanitizer. bag of rings, if you want idk? clear nail polish. cell phone case. cell phone chargers. something for business cards (if your out and a lot of ppl give out business cards. in the city they do. make your own contact information card too heck why not?) playtex feminine wipes LOL! for feeling fresh! FRESH! condoms! hey its always safety first ya never know!? but for real, i never do that. i just dont...i dont do the one night stand thing its too cheesy and lame. idk........havent met anyone i am that extremely attracted too. i like cute, kind of meaty guys with a sense of humor, i like guys who are taller then me, have nice friendly eyes......guys i gel with, mesh with...someone who is just...a good energy. i hate lamers and jerks and pompous pompadours, or guys who try to hard...ugh ya know? or pushy guys. or guys who are boring no personality. or old crusty ugly guys. i like a bit of meat but i dont like fat! i also dont like skinny little guys either. i like 5'10-6ft...170-220 lbs i guess...nice bod no man boobs! haha what else.....i dont know!? blahhh tattoos sure! but not cheesy...personality must work well with me, and that means REAL LIKE ME!
organization is just key, or feeling like you have some sort of control over your life!??!
so um....almost time for work....its black friday.
great!? im sure most ppl mustered up the black friday sales early on tho. maybe i can just hang out in the corners, organizing. ya know? away from the hub bubs
oh and as far as what to wear....during cold seasons
leggings, long black boots, sweater wrap ups, basic long sleeves...earrings, nice necklace.
infinity scarfs (for work, just looks fancy)
boyfriend jeans, long flowing pants.....blazers, vests whatever
oh have a jewelry box too. it helps
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anyways.......get a nice vanity. then, have different bins to put different makeups in. you can buy bins at walmart or target or whatever, just a clear, plastic bin. you can label them too. one for foundations and powders, bases and stuff like that.
keep fancy items for display on the vanity. we will discuss that later.
((when i get around to it, i can have someone film me doing this tutorial))
have another bin for (or get one of those plastic type cabinets) fill them with connected items. eyeshadow palettes etc
one for brushes
one for freebies and samples, (or a cool shoebox)
one for hair stuff, curlers, straighteners etc
for atop the vanity, save the prettiest items and perfumes and creams. also, buy a mirrored tray to set combs and perfumes on. it looks pretty!
also get one of those lit up close up mirrors. its good for tweezing eyebrows and doing eyes.
i need to get talcum powder so that i can apply eyeshadow without any dark powdery residue ending up on my cheekbones and such, as they usually do.
just put thought and effort into things. anything you do. it will just help you feel more organized and less depressed with life. every day i fantasize about such little mundane trivial things, but its because it is so simple to handle, (and i am under the impression most people already got these habits down to what they do, and who am i even fooling!? i know no one is taking my advice anyways) i need to get out of here tho. i am so sick of living this way.
as i was saying tho, if you organize and have a pattern, it will help immensely. rather than just being some sort of slop and trash, who has no consideration of the importance of daily habits, diet, hygiene, fitness, and patterns.
even organizing your purse helps!
having the essentials will help you, especially during these cold winter days, which can rob your skin on natural oils, living you very hydrated.
have a nail kit, (which has nail clippers, files etc, on handy...some lady at my work showed me her nail kit. why? who knows? she says she always has that on handy hands)
a brush. a comb. mini hairspray. hand creme. perfume spray. mints. bottled water. chapstick, lip balm. contact solution. contact case. little change purse. little bag for receipts. wallet. lipstick. mini mouthwash. scented hand sanitizer. bag of rings, if you want idk? clear nail polish. cell phone case. cell phone chargers. something for business cards (if your out and a lot of ppl give out business cards. in the city they do. make your own contact information card too heck why not?) playtex feminine wipes LOL! for feeling fresh! FRESH! condoms! hey its always safety first ya never know!? but for real, i never do that. i just dont...i dont do the one night stand thing its too cheesy and lame. idk........havent met anyone i am that extremely attracted too. i like cute, kind of meaty guys with a sense of humor, i like guys who are taller then me, have nice friendly eyes......guys i gel with, mesh with...someone who is just...a good energy. i hate lamers and jerks and pompous pompadours, or guys who try to hard...ugh ya know? or pushy guys. or guys who are boring no personality. or old crusty ugly guys. i like a bit of meat but i dont like fat! i also dont like skinny little guys either. i like 5'10-6ft...170-220 lbs i guess...nice bod no man boobs! haha what else.....i dont know!? blahhh tattoos sure! but not cheesy...personality must work well with me, and that means REAL LIKE ME!
organization is just key, or feeling like you have some sort of control over your life!??!
so um....almost time for work....its black friday.
great!? im sure most ppl mustered up the black friday sales early on tho. maybe i can just hang out in the corners, organizing. ya know? away from the hub bubs
oh and as far as what to wear....during cold seasons
leggings, long black boots, sweater wrap ups, basic long sleeves...earrings, nice necklace.
infinity scarfs (for work, just looks fancy)
boyfriend jeans, long flowing pants.....blazers, vests whatever
oh have a jewelry box too. it helps
dream
HEYS so i think i will write about my dream i had the other night.
i was about to suffer from sleep paralysis, but i did not. instead, i heard like a whisper from within my core, and it said to me, "you are only a human being for a small amount of time. this will be the best time (and the worst time), for you. i will become a celestial being, as will everyone, so the message is, enjoy being a simple, silly little human while you can! sure it sucks but think of it as an experiment! just..you know, i like the saying, 'do what thou wilt' but i am not a practicing occultist nor do i think we should give privy to living like that....I just like the thought of, if we want to become someone, then we CAN make it happen! WE have the power to lure or will things to happen! of course, choosing to live our lives as GOOD people with GOOD hearts and GOOD INTENTIONS SHOULD be the path we should be on, and helping others, and being HUMBLE, and thanking GOD every day for what HE HAS BLESSED US WITH!
positivity! so yeah..
sometimes i can sort of control my dreams, so as i was attempting to take a nap, i thought of a beautiful scenic country pathway, that say, would make a good horse ride!! or a good four wheeling ride! or a good motorcycle ride, or just a good walk! it was an orange, autumn day. the leaves were a bright orange and red hues. on the left side was a cornfield, with crunchy, leaves, and on the right was trees before another field. bright orange. and the sun was at its juiciest, meaning pre dusk, where the sunlight is the most vibrant. it was not cold, it was a nice, warm, balmy crisp day...with a light breeze that blanketed throughout. it was jeans and flannel day for sure, not a summer day, but not a bitter bone cold day, just a nice beautiful autumn day.
i also had a retro pinup hair style, the bangs part were a different reddish color and the rest black. if i were to dye the first sections of my hair, i could style it the way it was in my dream. in fact, i was looking at pinup hair on youtube, and i found one which showed how to do pinup 'betty and veronica' style bangs' well veronica, and i am goign to try it! all i need is to get hairspray, bobby pins, and a scarf.
then i will curl rest of hair and pin up and put scarf, so it will look retro 'i love lucy' style. i would dye the front parts of my hair but that takes too much dedication towards a new look. would look neat-o tho!! i am definately going to do this look tho! i quickly tried it out this morning and i looked so cool! its the look of a 40s style bangs!!
she bangs she bangs!
ok i need to change
i also dreamed i was changing my life, one channel was another part of my life, had i chosen this path, another was my life, but due to another outcome...it was like a remote control for different outcomes due to decisions i made throughout. this outcome i am living now is probably due to a lot of strings of bad decisions.
i am supposed to be living on my own. good job. projects. publishing childrens stories. married. kids.
normal. happy.
not this POS life i live. but thats just negativity. enough with the bashing! ENOUGH!
i was about to suffer from sleep paralysis, but i did not. instead, i heard like a whisper from within my core, and it said to me, "you are only a human being for a small amount of time. this will be the best time (and the worst time), for you. i will become a celestial being, as will everyone, so the message is, enjoy being a simple, silly little human while you can! sure it sucks but think of it as an experiment! just..you know, i like the saying, 'do what thou wilt' but i am not a practicing occultist nor do i think we should give privy to living like that....I just like the thought of, if we want to become someone, then we CAN make it happen! WE have the power to lure or will things to happen! of course, choosing to live our lives as GOOD people with GOOD hearts and GOOD INTENTIONS SHOULD be the path we should be on, and helping others, and being HUMBLE, and thanking GOD every day for what HE HAS BLESSED US WITH!
positivity! so yeah..
sometimes i can sort of control my dreams, so as i was attempting to take a nap, i thought of a beautiful scenic country pathway, that say, would make a good horse ride!! or a good four wheeling ride! or a good motorcycle ride, or just a good walk! it was an orange, autumn day. the leaves were a bright orange and red hues. on the left side was a cornfield, with crunchy, leaves, and on the right was trees before another field. bright orange. and the sun was at its juiciest, meaning pre dusk, where the sunlight is the most vibrant. it was not cold, it was a nice, warm, balmy crisp day...with a light breeze that blanketed throughout. it was jeans and flannel day for sure, not a summer day, but not a bitter bone cold day, just a nice beautiful autumn day.
i also had a retro pinup hair style, the bangs part were a different reddish color and the rest black. if i were to dye the first sections of my hair, i could style it the way it was in my dream. in fact, i was looking at pinup hair on youtube, and i found one which showed how to do pinup 'betty and veronica' style bangs' well veronica, and i am goign to try it! all i need is to get hairspray, bobby pins, and a scarf.
then i will curl rest of hair and pin up and put scarf, so it will look retro 'i love lucy' style. i would dye the front parts of my hair but that takes too much dedication towards a new look. would look neat-o tho!! i am definately going to do this look tho! i quickly tried it out this morning and i looked so cool! its the look of a 40s style bangs!!
she bangs she bangs!
ok i need to change
i also dreamed i was changing my life, one channel was another part of my life, had i chosen this path, another was my life, but due to another outcome...it was like a remote control for different outcomes due to decisions i made throughout. this outcome i am living now is probably due to a lot of strings of bad decisions.
i am supposed to be living on my own. good job. projects. publishing childrens stories. married. kids.
normal. happy.
not this POS life i live. but thats just negativity. enough with the bashing! ENOUGH!
Hello! Im back! Its almost 2 am so I am going to go to sleep soon. I want a real job, one where i get payed WEEKLY!!! but anyways....this guy is being annoying hes mad cowboys lost and he keeps msging me and cursing hey you know your team lost dont be pissed at me!??! right? eagles have been doing good this season, usually they do not. so whatever!?! now i smell the strong scent of mouthwash........my mom just came upstairs. it is so distracting. i should be smelling hints of clean linen and lavender if it were up to me, (i would be living in my own place)........whatev......ok so....i just get distracted alot.
yawn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im tired now!?? ok so, the other day, i was about to get sleep paralysis, but i woke myself up before i could. anyways, sometimes i just dont want to go back to sleep you know? especially if i just........dont feel like anything happened to make me feel happy. i dont know, maybe i am depressed.
well i mean, we went to matt and lisas, but you know, there house....yawn. im too tired to blog bye bye
yawn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im tired now!?? ok so, the other day, i was about to get sleep paralysis, but i woke myself up before i could. anyways, sometimes i just dont want to go back to sleep you know? especially if i just........dont feel like anything happened to make me feel happy. i dont know, maybe i am depressed.
well i mean, we went to matt and lisas, but you know, there house....yawn. im too tired to blog bye bye
Thursday, November 27, 2014
ariana grande old house tour
hi im watching these home tours on youtube and its all rich kids showing off the huge luxe mansions they live in so i see one with ariana grande. anyways, i click on it and she looks different to how she is now. she looks like a normal teenager, and you can see how she changed being now she looks way more malnutritioned and you can tell that she def got a nose job and some other work done. she looks tiny now before she looked normal, you know what i mean? she seems normal then but i heard interviews where she says she hate her fans or she has a fascination with the macabre?
i mean, i sometimes dont even believe they are MK'd i will share more of those thoughts later now i am so distracted with the loss of hope and how lame my life is.....LE SIGH!!!
uh so yeah.......i see her room i dont even think she posted it that way it looks as if a set designer put those posters up....you know what i mean? and i just laughed when i saw some sort of office supply copy of a snipe of sorts of POISON see here!?? so who knows!??!
but why would she post up a poison poster like that? or even one of kiss? if it was real life, she wouldnt of even thought much about those groups at that age bracket....so weird!??!
heres a link to the vid tho
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1sH6FOkSK_U
i mean, i sometimes dont even believe they are MK'd i will share more of those thoughts later now i am so distracted with the loss of hope and how lame my life is.....LE SIGH!!!
uh so yeah.......i see her room i dont even think she posted it that way it looks as if a set designer put those posters up....you know what i mean? and i just laughed when i saw some sort of office supply copy of a snipe of sorts of POISON see here!?? so who knows!??!
but why would she post up a poison poster like that? or even one of kiss? if it was real life, she wouldnt of even thought much about those groups at that age bracket....so weird!??!
heres a link to the vid tho
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1sH6FOkSK_U
hey! so sometimes when i am bored, i go on youtube and look up 'house tours'. most of the time its well known vloggers, or makeup girls, or......youtube stars i have no clue!?? its never the kind of home that feels familiar to me tho, just fab mansions that are a tad too boring and perfect to me...too 'rich' or too tidy.....im just not used to homes like that!?!? i like a real feel i guess......but who knows? i just watched this lively girls home tour tho, by the water https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=17ncjryCCss sometimes i forget how it is like to live.......i should be living, its like, what am i doing with myself? i wouldnt feel this way if it wasnt for me losing my license soon. id like to start working a FULL TIME JOB but how would i even get to work no one is there to answer these damn questions!?? and when do i get payed!?? im on my third week at bon ton. i tell you what tho i like working at bon ton MORE than white castle at least i dont feel disrespected in any way!?? damn ya know!?? i just.......i invited mike to thanksgiving at lisas but i know he is not the right guy for me, so why do we continue this charade? is it because we just have no one else to hang out with or what? i love my parents dearly too, but its bout time i get of the house ive been here a year and well, i was supposed to of just been here till i had the chance to move out but damn shit always happens.
i want to give a house tour you know!! if i had a job with more hours i would start buying stuff here and there and squirreling it away, items to check off from the list ya know? i would also start buying furniture.
i want a good warehouse job. yah! yah man!! im going to view more apartment videos. now
i want to give a house tour you know!! if i had a job with more hours i would start buying stuff here and there and squirreling it away, items to check off from the list ya know? i would also start buying furniture.
i want a good warehouse job. yah! yah man!! im going to view more apartment videos. now
March 2014 Ipsy Unboxing ‣ Destination Beauty
hi so listen, i love getting mail! always did! so i am thinking of signing up for ipsy! i love free samples and i love makeup!! this is a sample of what kind of samples are sent. looks cool huh!! 10.00 a month too, not bad huh ???
Wednesday, November 26, 2014
sweet potatos
so i have spent lots of thanksgivings with my family, but to me, i think its more about family get togethers....if say, you live away from your family, then coming home for the holidays feels nice...but when you still live at home, well then.......but we are going to my sisters in bangor.
it just made me think of a few times i was away for a thanksgiving.
when i was in basic training, we had thanksgiving in the chow hall. that was pretty interesting. before i used to blog, i would keep journals. i had since thrown out that journal, i tossed it over the bridge because my ex danny found it and i wrote about cheating on him. well, that was back then. i was 18 and 19 years old!?? idk...:(
oh i had thanksgiving in ft jackson sc i may still have THAT journal actually, the one i threw over the bridge was ft benning and monterey.....so, i would have to look for my ft jackson one!?? its also end of senior year and that summer.
hmm then, oh we had thankgsiving (sp) at my cousins house and we were all so tired. we put a log in the fireplace and we saw ants coming out of the log!?! they were being burned alive!!
it was always nice having sage around.
i also had a thanksgiving in india. we all wore dresses and it was in a stately beautiful hotel. they also had a dance afterwards. it was kind of fun, from what i remember. im sure that is written down somewhere!??!
what else.........oh when i was living in california, my friend cynthia invited me to her family's for thanksgiving. she has a peruvian family so it was also full of peruvian tradition. i wonder what ever happened to cynthia (sinthia) and her band.......i forget the name of her band now!??!
:(
i dont have a boyfriend really, to bring with me to thanksgiving. nor do i have a baby or a kid.
i had to work today and i was looking at baby clothes. i could of been.....well, a few months by now!??!
i cant think!??! :( ok so i would of been 5 months now. i would of been showing.
i would of had 4 more months. so in march i would be due.
what am i supposed to DO!???????????????????????! anyways.......
enjoy your thanksgivings.
moss told me his mom had passed away. he did go and see her. he said she opened her eyes. dean also flew out. that is good!
i need something positive to happen in my life. i cant take this! it seems like nothing is happening!?! i dont even have a good full time job.
sigh
i need a kid. but i need to get married. will that ever happen?
i was going to write about a dream i had but i dont feel like it right now because my mom is peeling yams and it is very distracting. i think she wants me to help her. i just feel so nasty right now.
it just made me think of a few times i was away for a thanksgiving.
when i was in basic training, we had thanksgiving in the chow hall. that was pretty interesting. before i used to blog, i would keep journals. i had since thrown out that journal, i tossed it over the bridge because my ex danny found it and i wrote about cheating on him. well, that was back then. i was 18 and 19 years old!?? idk...:(
oh i had thanksgiving in ft jackson sc i may still have THAT journal actually, the one i threw over the bridge was ft benning and monterey.....so, i would have to look for my ft jackson one!?? its also end of senior year and that summer.
hmm then, oh we had thankgsiving (sp) at my cousins house and we were all so tired. we put a log in the fireplace and we saw ants coming out of the log!?! they were being burned alive!!
it was always nice having sage around.
i also had a thanksgiving in india. we all wore dresses and it was in a stately beautiful hotel. they also had a dance afterwards. it was kind of fun, from what i remember. im sure that is written down somewhere!??!
what else.........oh when i was living in california, my friend cynthia invited me to her family's for thanksgiving. she has a peruvian family so it was also full of peruvian tradition. i wonder what ever happened to cynthia (sinthia) and her band.......i forget the name of her band now!??!
:(
i dont have a boyfriend really, to bring with me to thanksgiving. nor do i have a baby or a kid.
i had to work today and i was looking at baby clothes. i could of been.....well, a few months by now!??!
i cant think!??! :( ok so i would of been 5 months now. i would of been showing.
i would of had 4 more months. so in march i would be due.
what am i supposed to DO!???????????????????????! anyways.......
enjoy your thanksgivings.
moss told me his mom had passed away. he did go and see her. he said she opened her eyes. dean also flew out. that is good!
i need something positive to happen in my life. i cant take this! it seems like nothing is happening!?! i dont even have a good full time job.
sigh
i need a kid. but i need to get married. will that ever happen?
i was going to write about a dream i had but i dont feel like it right now because my mom is peeling yams and it is very distracting. i think she wants me to help her. i just feel so nasty right now.
Tuesday, November 25, 2014
Fried Corn on the Cob
so i am looking for deep fried corn on the cob, this seems very awkward and creepy to watch its like sneaking around and being confused!??! eewhhh...weahd!??! i so bored...............i work tomorrow oh what a stupid video!! i was reading the comments, at 1:16 minutes he calls the corn a slut! HA!!!!!!!!! wow
i cant breathe
oh my i just totally wasted today and i feel so lackluster. when i am out and about i feel fine, but just wasting away..i feel so claustrophobic right now!!? i need to just....get out of here!!!
i need healthy food, not this clogging unhealthy crap!
-rye toast
- almond butter
- walnuts
- radishes
- pre-cooked chicken strips (for salads)
- fresh ginger
- bok choy (to steam)
- tomatoes
- eggplant
- breadcrumbs
- sesame oil
- sesame seeds
- shrimp
- dark leafy greens
- chicken
- greek yogurt
- salmon
the thing is, i dont want to cook dinners here.....i mean, im just not inspired too!?? but i am so sick of eating crap.
i want to do a cleanse or something...and join a gym.......i like going to the gym, i like the environment and how a gym smells...even if its just walking on the elipticals and doing some of the equipment ya know?
i need to do something with my hair it just kind of......falls down and its so boring UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH life!! i need to get out of here!
i think i will have 12 hours a day to get out. oh i want some lavender scented sticks.
i need my own place!!!!!!!!!!! sheesh!!! MY OWN PLACE!!!!!!!! i cant breathe!!
i need healthy food, not this clogging unhealthy crap!
-rye toast
- almond butter
- walnuts
- radishes
- pre-cooked chicken strips (for salads)
- fresh ginger
- bok choy (to steam)
- tomatoes
- eggplant
- breadcrumbs
- sesame oil
- sesame seeds
- shrimp
- dark leafy greens
- chicken
- greek yogurt
- salmon
the thing is, i dont want to cook dinners here.....i mean, im just not inspired too!?? but i am so sick of eating crap.
i want to do a cleanse or something...and join a gym.......i like going to the gym, i like the environment and how a gym smells...even if its just walking on the elipticals and doing some of the equipment ya know?
i need to do something with my hair it just kind of......falls down and its so boring UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH life!! i need to get out of here!
i think i will have 12 hours a day to get out. oh i want some lavender scented sticks.
i need my own place!!!!!!!!!!! sheesh!!! MY OWN PLACE!!!!!!!! i cant breathe!!
TMZ: gossip corner
Hi ya'll. So, this is what I am going to call my TMZ gossip corner. I like TMZ on facebook, so I see a bunch of updates and what not on the newsfeed. This will just be MY opinions on the silly nonsense of the TMZ world. So, I see that grand perv Robin Thicke is dating a 19 year old model. Gasp! Ok, here is the thing. Obviously this model is finding ways to garner some sort of attention for herself. This is so fake and thrown together like some sort of 'real life of celebrity soap opera', but honestly, this is as staged as Tori Spelling and her cheating husband, and honestly, who even cares!?
Don't ask how I even know about Tori Spelling lol!!! Ok, so here is the deal!!! This model looks so foolish, hanging around with Robin Thicke. It was all planned too. The instagram pics of her hanging around his mansion, TMZ spotting her on the streets to ask her questions. I would imagine 40 year old Robin Thicke gets less than stellar women, (if you want to call them that), than this model. Low class, sub-par, average, nothing to offer, clinger on's who you want to kick out of bed after you get the goodies.
Well, for one, if you are a fool enough to allow yourself to be used as a play toy by someone like Robin Thicke, then what do you expect really? He doesn't know you, so he does not owe you anything. You gave it up to him, he is already rich, he had a wife I suppose, that was top notch to him, in his world...and frankly listen, top notch does not mean, by all means, a woman who is smart, sassy, fashion conscious, i mean whatever. A real life man can be completely in love with someone who doesn't hold that, fakeness of a strong woman that these Hollywood types think their wives and girlfriends have. Listen, someone who is poor, but struggles to find honest jobs, who is a good person, who is sweet but has alot to offer in her own way, she has lessons to be taught etc, that can be the strong woman in someone who is not "Hollywood", but is say, Easton PA, oh im so rambling. i bet if i take a shower it will help me think more clearly!!! I will take one once my dad leaves to pick up my mom.
About the Robin Thicke thing, that 19 year old model was set up by her agency to look like his hot new girlfriend, but the truth is, they have their day to day activities, and being seen together at a restaurant is only an appointment, something on their agenda. After a dinner she probably goes back to her place or something, or maybe is being passed around if she is MK'd...........weird huh? It is SO FAKE that is all! And he looks like a douchebag! Seriously!
um......so...idk...next subject i see on tmz, bette midler called ariana grande a whore.
honestly, ariana grande is more classy than iggy izalea and her odd shaped bum...or nicki minaj and her overt sexuality, or miley cyrus and her raunchiness...ariana looks like a sweet little girl, like belle...she is wearing little a-line dresses, sequined dresses, i mean, so what? i have seen worse. taylor swift wears the same type of stuff but no one is calling taylor swift a whore!??!
i dont see what ariana is wearing that makes her look like she is trying to be sexual. i mean, maybe because she looks sexy in her outfits, but isnt that what they all do? i didnt reallly catch the AMA's, but i mean, what about jennifer lopez, who is in her 40's, behaving like shes in her 20s. but yeah, i just think its foolish! its cold season now. bundle up!
performing in bathing suits is not appropriate for the season, regardless of who you are! i feel silly for having this corner, but now i can use this as a staple, or rather, template...for 'celebrity crushes'
Ok, here is the thing...you see, I have met a lot of famous people, I have been around them, and honestly, I do not get star struck. I do ask for pictures sometimes, but that's it. I don't really bombard them, regurgitating information about them that is readily available from the internet, nor do I really try to make them invest in meaningless conversation with me either...
BUT FIRST!!! let me say something! when i ran into hannibal this past year, backstage at oddfest, i said hi and we chatted, he remembered me and he brought up festival supreme etc. Later, at the after party, I saw him and chatted with him. I spotted him again, and I was drinking, so i admit i was trying to converse with him. Im not sure why, I guess cuz i was bored plus moss was being mossy with his friend in one of the vip rooms, it was cool tho i mean, his friend who is the big guy at the verizon amphitheater was telling stories, which was interesting!! but i did attempt to talk to hannibal but i felt like i had nothing to say either, so i was kind of like, 'mmyeah'...blah blah...i mean, i wasnt trying to hook up with him, because then what right? oh i read something he said, but yeah so...i listened to his interview on howard stern...and he said if he hooks up with someone, (which he doesnt do anymore but he did) these women are basically sub-par, and no one compares to his on again off again fabulous girlfriend, who is a producer herself. sort of reminds me of robin thicke, who knows he had a 'good woman' in paula patton, (in hollywood standards, a strong, independent woman on her own, hot in her own, so that these little sluts that surround robin like a bunch of good for one thing only...are sub par and one in a dozen of many).....i mean, why go after someone just because they are famous!?? you do not know them personally, and who likes to be treated like a sex doll? no one! i mean, you can be a strong woman in someones life..but why on earth would someone who does not even know you want to be with you, when they can get a strong woman on the same level as them!?? and in entertainment, a strong woman means someone who is business savvy, has her shit together, never did anything to embarrass herself, she has class, dignity..he can show her off to his friends and his friends won't crack jokes about her. to them, you are just a peice of low class trash. why worry about someone from the other side of the tracks? your just 'pretty in pink' HA ha.......just a little filly, stick to guys that dont know better filly!
((oh but then you have musicians who go after hot women who are established porn stars and escorts, and all that...but since they have money and are hot and have breast implants, well then, right!??! like dave navarro is dating young 19 year old porn stars...Mossy tells me this...its like....i dont know!?? i'll get blog about it after i take a damn shower!!))
oh so, here is how i feel...like i said, i have met a bunch of 'famous people' and you know what, i do not know them! i do not know them personally, so i never act like i do, nor do i think i do!?
yeah, i met a lot of people in movies i grew up watching, music i listened too etc etc..shows i enjoyed, which is great, but also, i dont know them personally! they do not know me personally either. see, i too, have an EGO! i like when someone is actually interested in ME! it shows that you have good taste! hell yah! if you like me, well..then your just awesome! cuz im a cool gal! i really am tho. i know i aint a nobody now, but who the fuck cares! it shouldnt be about that, and if it ever is, then I DO NOT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU! If someone bases their outlook on you due to whatever reasons that they do, hell no dont even give them the time of day. they are just POS who dont deserve your attention. so screw off! you are off my list of interesting persons! (POS is the thing they use at bonton and everytime i read that i think, go back to 'peice of shit') but um........yeah..for real. i know all that i said, but i said it for a REASON! because i was molding and manipulating easy to mold MINDS! see, i can do that! which leads and cracks open more shells...which i will get too! after these messages!!
WELL BE RIGHT BACK!!!
and we are back!!!
"Hi a-gain! its me!'
i may even do a vlog. i was supposed to go to delis with my parents for dinner but i woke up late and didnt take a shower yet. sigh.
yeah, if i meet someone famous, i do not know them personally, and i dont expect them to know me either, so i will never act like i do , i will never act a fool..
i mean you know, i have ego too........so baby, dont worry about me dont worry your pretty little head about me hun..
hmmph! far real!!
anyways, gossip corner is petty, but so is all this ferguson stuff. i do believe it is fabricated, set up like a stage. in fact, it interrupted dancing with the stars last night!!! that show is all about performance! and president obama, having have to explain things to us. what was the outcome!?? these riots were going to happen regardless. we knew that. we already knew what the verdict was going to be.
this is what they want. racial seperation, riots, fires. distractions.
oh so kim just got tv she didnt have normal tv...so she didnt really know about what is going on in news world, cept for what she takes note of on facebook.
to her, its hashtag tyok (the year of kim)...she sports marines but marines really is there for war, i dont think she has a clue.....she was like, 'i come back from making pies and i just see a bunch of riots what is going on?"
i actually am not too aware of ferguson either. i wasnt paying much attention, because im sick of it.
is ferguson the name of the town? i guess so. the officer shot mike brown, a kid who was robbing a convenience store? so....this happens all the time!??! but this starts a national attention and now rioting.
I am going to take a shower and enjoy the house which i have to myself tonight! I didnt go to deli's. my mom wanted me to go, but i woke up at 1:30 pm (damn!) and i didnt get to take a shower...yet. i work tomorrow too so im just going to stay in tonight and chill out. i will probably blog maybe even vlog, but i probably wont approve on my vlog....
i am going to get hungry tho!? i have been eating terribly lately! it would of been nice to go to someone elses house for dinner tho. bill and deli live in northampton. i wouldn't of minded going...eh, next time i will.
frankly, you know this has been leading up a long time...cops being disorderly, in fact, my friend jennifer is always posting about how cops are so gun happy anymore, so sloppy and misconduct.......ly........i mean, they shoot anything!??!
this happens so much, i dont even pay attention to all the articles about disorderly cops, but what made this particular ferguson story such a hot topic? i know this occurred at the same time that movie 'purge the anarchy' came out, and they wanted a purge.
a real life purge. i imagine something is going to happen as far as people shooting their guns in the streets, and that is when the president will have to put a stop to it. no more guns for you!
lets play the illuminati card game! but first, i simply must take a shower. i would like a nice, home-cooked dinner tho. im sick of fast food. i want a nice spaghetti dinner, with homemade pasta sauce, some garlic bread, and a glass of red wine.
what is so hard about that!??! i hate taking showers here too. water pressure too weak! :(
Don't ask how I even know about Tori Spelling lol!!! Ok, so here is the deal!!! This model looks so foolish, hanging around with Robin Thicke. It was all planned too. The instagram pics of her hanging around his mansion, TMZ spotting her on the streets to ask her questions. I would imagine 40 year old Robin Thicke gets less than stellar women, (if you want to call them that), than this model. Low class, sub-par, average, nothing to offer, clinger on's who you want to kick out of bed after you get the goodies.
Well, for one, if you are a fool enough to allow yourself to be used as a play toy by someone like Robin Thicke, then what do you expect really? He doesn't know you, so he does not owe you anything. You gave it up to him, he is already rich, he had a wife I suppose, that was top notch to him, in his world...and frankly listen, top notch does not mean, by all means, a woman who is smart, sassy, fashion conscious, i mean whatever. A real life man can be completely in love with someone who doesn't hold that, fakeness of a strong woman that these Hollywood types think their wives and girlfriends have. Listen, someone who is poor, but struggles to find honest jobs, who is a good person, who is sweet but has alot to offer in her own way, she has lessons to be taught etc, that can be the strong woman in someone who is not "Hollywood", but is say, Easton PA, oh im so rambling. i bet if i take a shower it will help me think more clearly!!! I will take one once my dad leaves to pick up my mom.
About the Robin Thicke thing, that 19 year old model was set up by her agency to look like his hot new girlfriend, but the truth is, they have their day to day activities, and being seen together at a restaurant is only an appointment, something on their agenda. After a dinner she probably goes back to her place or something, or maybe is being passed around if she is MK'd...........weird huh? It is SO FAKE that is all! And he looks like a douchebag! Seriously!
um......so...idk...next subject i see on tmz, bette midler called ariana grande a whore.
honestly, ariana grande is more classy than iggy izalea and her odd shaped bum...or nicki minaj and her overt sexuality, or miley cyrus and her raunchiness...ariana looks like a sweet little girl, like belle...she is wearing little a-line dresses, sequined dresses, i mean, so what? i have seen worse. taylor swift wears the same type of stuff but no one is calling taylor swift a whore!??!
i dont see what ariana is wearing that makes her look like she is trying to be sexual. i mean, maybe because she looks sexy in her outfits, but isnt that what they all do? i didnt reallly catch the AMA's, but i mean, what about jennifer lopez, who is in her 40's, behaving like shes in her 20s. but yeah, i just think its foolish! its cold season now. bundle up!
performing in bathing suits is not appropriate for the season, regardless of who you are! i feel silly for having this corner, but now i can use this as a staple, or rather, template...for 'celebrity crushes'
Ok, here is the thing...you see, I have met a lot of famous people, I have been around them, and honestly, I do not get star struck. I do ask for pictures sometimes, but that's it. I don't really bombard them, regurgitating information about them that is readily available from the internet, nor do I really try to make them invest in meaningless conversation with me either...
BUT FIRST!!! let me say something! when i ran into hannibal this past year, backstage at oddfest, i said hi and we chatted, he remembered me and he brought up festival supreme etc. Later, at the after party, I saw him and chatted with him. I spotted him again, and I was drinking, so i admit i was trying to converse with him. Im not sure why, I guess cuz i was bored plus moss was being mossy with his friend in one of the vip rooms, it was cool tho i mean, his friend who is the big guy at the verizon amphitheater was telling stories, which was interesting!! but i did attempt to talk to hannibal but i felt like i had nothing to say either, so i was kind of like, 'mmyeah'...blah blah...i mean, i wasnt trying to hook up with him, because then what right? oh i read something he said, but yeah so...i listened to his interview on howard stern...and he said if he hooks up with someone, (which he doesnt do anymore but he did) these women are basically sub-par, and no one compares to his on again off again fabulous girlfriend, who is a producer herself. sort of reminds me of robin thicke, who knows he had a 'good woman' in paula patton, (in hollywood standards, a strong, independent woman on her own, hot in her own, so that these little sluts that surround robin like a bunch of good for one thing only...are sub par and one in a dozen of many).....i mean, why go after someone just because they are famous!?? you do not know them personally, and who likes to be treated like a sex doll? no one! i mean, you can be a strong woman in someones life..but why on earth would someone who does not even know you want to be with you, when they can get a strong woman on the same level as them!?? and in entertainment, a strong woman means someone who is business savvy, has her shit together, never did anything to embarrass herself, she has class, dignity..he can show her off to his friends and his friends won't crack jokes about her. to them, you are just a peice of low class trash. why worry about someone from the other side of the tracks? your just 'pretty in pink' HA ha.......just a little filly, stick to guys that dont know better filly!
((oh but then you have musicians who go after hot women who are established porn stars and escorts, and all that...but since they have money and are hot and have breast implants, well then, right!??! like dave navarro is dating young 19 year old porn stars...Mossy tells me this...its like....i dont know!?? i'll get blog about it after i take a damn shower!!))
oh so, here is how i feel...like i said, i have met a bunch of 'famous people' and you know what, i do not know them! i do not know them personally, so i never act like i do, nor do i think i do!?
yeah, i met a lot of people in movies i grew up watching, music i listened too etc etc..shows i enjoyed, which is great, but also, i dont know them personally! they do not know me personally either. see, i too, have an EGO! i like when someone is actually interested in ME! it shows that you have good taste! hell yah! if you like me, well..then your just awesome! cuz im a cool gal! i really am tho. i know i aint a nobody now, but who the fuck cares! it shouldnt be about that, and if it ever is, then I DO NOT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU! If someone bases their outlook on you due to whatever reasons that they do, hell no dont even give them the time of day. they are just POS who dont deserve your attention. so screw off! you are off my list of interesting persons! (POS is the thing they use at bonton and everytime i read that i think, go back to 'peice of shit') but um........yeah..for real. i know all that i said, but i said it for a REASON! because i was molding and manipulating easy to mold MINDS! see, i can do that! which leads and cracks open more shells...which i will get too! after these messages!!
WELL BE RIGHT BACK!!!
and we are back!!!
"Hi a-gain! its me!'
i may even do a vlog. i was supposed to go to delis with my parents for dinner but i woke up late and didnt take a shower yet. sigh.
yeah, if i meet someone famous, i do not know them personally, and i dont expect them to know me either, so i will never act like i do , i will never act a fool..
i mean you know, i have ego too........so baby, dont worry about me dont worry your pretty little head about me hun..
hmmph! far real!!
anyways, gossip corner is petty, but so is all this ferguson stuff. i do believe it is fabricated, set up like a stage. in fact, it interrupted dancing with the stars last night!!! that show is all about performance! and president obama, having have to explain things to us. what was the outcome!?? these riots were going to happen regardless. we knew that. we already knew what the verdict was going to be.
this is what they want. racial seperation, riots, fires. distractions.
oh so kim just got tv she didnt have normal tv...so she didnt really know about what is going on in news world, cept for what she takes note of on facebook.
to her, its hashtag tyok (the year of kim)...she sports marines but marines really is there for war, i dont think she has a clue.....she was like, 'i come back from making pies and i just see a bunch of riots what is going on?"
i actually am not too aware of ferguson either. i wasnt paying much attention, because im sick of it.
is ferguson the name of the town? i guess so. the officer shot mike brown, a kid who was robbing a convenience store? so....this happens all the time!??! but this starts a national attention and now rioting.
I am going to take a shower and enjoy the house which i have to myself tonight! I didnt go to deli's. my mom wanted me to go, but i woke up at 1:30 pm (damn!) and i didnt get to take a shower...yet. i work tomorrow too so im just going to stay in tonight and chill out. i will probably blog maybe even vlog, but i probably wont approve on my vlog....
i am going to get hungry tho!? i have been eating terribly lately! it would of been nice to go to someone elses house for dinner tho. bill and deli live in northampton. i wouldn't of minded going...eh, next time i will.
frankly, you know this has been leading up a long time...cops being disorderly, in fact, my friend jennifer is always posting about how cops are so gun happy anymore, so sloppy and misconduct.......ly........i mean, they shoot anything!??!
this happens so much, i dont even pay attention to all the articles about disorderly cops, but what made this particular ferguson story such a hot topic? i know this occurred at the same time that movie 'purge the anarchy' came out, and they wanted a purge.
a real life purge. i imagine something is going to happen as far as people shooting their guns in the streets, and that is when the president will have to put a stop to it. no more guns for you!
lets play the illuminati card game! but first, i simply must take a shower. i would like a nice, home-cooked dinner tho. im sick of fast food. i want a nice spaghetti dinner, with homemade pasta sauce, some garlic bread, and a glass of red wine.
what is so hard about that!??! i hate taking showers here too. water pressure too weak! :(
ive been insulted!
haha *scoffs*! well, i think im mighty cool and DATS ALL DAT MATTERS SO THERE HMMPH PHA PHA PHOEEY BLA BLAH BLOEEY NOW whatevah!!?/
yah ya know what DAT means HMMM??
besides, i have a bunch of childrens stories i am going to start working on. that has always been my calling. ever since..
listen ever since i myself, was a wee lil' tater, i been always making up stories!! original ones, clever ones! i am very good with kids and i have lots of good stories ya know!??!
i may not be up to par as far as the icing on the stars, but i am just me, and hey whatever right!??!
i mean, you know...i like me!
I LIKE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH YAH I LIKE ME SO MUCH!?
i guess..yawn. my life is so repetitive. man!! sometimes i get in the mood to be goofy and just converse and laugh and joke around, that is why i feel lonely sometimes. THIS! this is why! it seems like....idk....i just have a lot of silliness bottled up but often times i kind of feel like i am wasting away.
i just want to connect with someone...even if it is another female, it doesnt matter. sometimes having girl friends is way better than hanging out with some boy who just wants to pork you!
cuz that is, essentially, how mens think. you are just trying to have a good time and be silly and they are like, trying to get in your pants, or if they know they wont, they go and make everything uncomfortable and awkward for you and start hitting on some other female, and in that case, the other female will look at you like she feels sorry that the guy is hitting on her..oh by all means no no no!?????? hes just a friend!! (i dont know!??) im bored....kind of tired tho...
blah!! so you know, im not good enough?? hmm???? i dont have my shit togethr? hmm?
im a joke!??
heh! why? what is so funny about me that isnt funny about other people? what you think im FUNNY!?!
HA!??????????
im bored
yah ya know what DAT means HMMM??
besides, i have a bunch of childrens stories i am going to start working on. that has always been my calling. ever since..
listen ever since i myself, was a wee lil' tater, i been always making up stories!! original ones, clever ones! i am very good with kids and i have lots of good stories ya know!??!
i may not be up to par as far as the icing on the stars, but i am just me, and hey whatever right!??!
i mean, you know...i like me!
I LIKE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH YAH I LIKE ME SO MUCH!?
i guess..yawn. my life is so repetitive. man!! sometimes i get in the mood to be goofy and just converse and laugh and joke around, that is why i feel lonely sometimes. THIS! this is why! it seems like....idk....i just have a lot of silliness bottled up but often times i kind of feel like i am wasting away.
i just want to connect with someone...even if it is another female, it doesnt matter. sometimes having girl friends is way better than hanging out with some boy who just wants to pork you!
cuz that is, essentially, how mens think. you are just trying to have a good time and be silly and they are like, trying to get in your pants, or if they know they wont, they go and make everything uncomfortable and awkward for you and start hitting on some other female, and in that case, the other female will look at you like she feels sorry that the guy is hitting on her..oh by all means no no no!?????? hes just a friend!! (i dont know!??) im bored....kind of tired tho...
blah!! so you know, im not good enough?? hmm???? i dont have my shit togethr? hmm?
im a joke!??
heh! why? what is so funny about me that isnt funny about other people? what you think im FUNNY!?!
HA!??????????
im bored
nigh nigh bedtime lullabye
Sing a song of sixpence a pocket full of rye,
Four and twenty blackbirds baked in a pie.
When the pie was opened the birds began to sing,
Oh wasn't that a dainty dish to set before the king?
The king was in his counting house counting out his money,
The queen was in the parlour eating bread and honey
The maid was in the garden hanging out the clothes,
When down came a blackbird and pecked off her nose!
Four and twenty blackbirds baked in a pie.
When the pie was opened the birds began to sing,
Oh wasn't that a dainty dish to set before the king?
The king was in his counting house counting out his money,
The queen was in the parlour eating bread and honey
The maid was in the garden hanging out the clothes,
When down came a blackbird and pecked off her nose!
Sunday, November 23, 2014
weirdness
so....i wanted to post the evil raggedy anne and andy dolls i found, but it wouldnt allow me too. anyways, im upstairs in my room watching adult swim, and mr pickles came on. its completely satanic filled with pentagrams and nightmarish ghoulies (idk) well the cop was in on it im assuming snuff porn films which take place underneath some sort of masonic checkerboard lodge with columns etc...so the cop......he was holding a raggedy anne doll!??!
remember the other day when american dad had the white comedy mask hanging up on the wall before they went into the masonic lodge wearing robes well this mr pickles too, they were all wearing robes and animal masks but yeah the cop was holding a raggedy anne doll??!? . i wanted to snap a pic but by the time i found my phone that scene was gone.......
weird!??
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remember the other day when american dad had the white comedy mask hanging up on the wall before they went into the masonic lodge wearing robes well this mr pickles too, they were all wearing robes and animal masks but yeah the cop was holding a raggedy anne doll??!? . i wanted to snap a pic but by the time i found my phone that scene was gone.......
weird!??
Fergie - L.A.LOVE (la la) (Lyric Video)
cool shes being crafty with crafts!!! i mean, she be crafting up a scrapbook shes crafting scraps! RIGHT FERGIE MAKE SCRAPBOOKING COOL!!
hook kids now
hey remeember that movie HOOK? (im updating my tumblr and im thinking retro and i want to find pics of that paintball looking meal and stuff) well the little girl is now pretty hot!??
here a link to some of the actors from that movie RIP robin williams!
http://izismile.com/2012/08/06/hook_movie_kids_over_decades_9_pics.html
(oh my goodness my fallopian tubes feel weird like they are gonna burst i dont want to think about it..)
here a link to some of the actors from that movie RIP robin williams!
http://izismile.com/2012/08/06/hook_movie_kids_over_decades_9_pics.html
(oh my goodness my fallopian tubes feel weird like they are gonna burst i dont want to think about it..)
stuff
so, i want to start collecting things that i like, i want to get some sort of display case, and i want to start filling it up with stuff...such as 80s my little pony collectibles, as well as those painted horses, also cool trinkets, jewelry boxes, anything i spot that strikes me you know?
as far as crafts and artwork goes, i would like to design my own cell phone cases, i can go to the crafts store and get a bunch of little things and glue to a basic cell phone cover...roses, strawberries, pearls, lace, bows, fortune cookie fortunes, velvet etc
i can take selfie pics to show off my makeup, and my cell phone covers! makeup i want bright vibrant eye shadows...hot pinks, greens, blues, different colors, (just for fun of course!)
you know what is weird? am i supposed to think differently now, that i am almost 40? ughh damn right
i mean cuz like, 10 years ago, i was still into fun, cute things right? i was 26 years old but i still liked interesting things!??! i still had some sort of style...
i mean, i dont want to dress like a teenager, right now i want to dress in comfort but that doesnt mean i dont want a style you know? granted, i am ..granted...
im just in a mode where i am thinking of storing away for when i do, if ever, just get my own fucking place!?! goodness!!!
i want a basement, i want a fireplace!! love fireplace!!!
i want a retro corner!! atari setup , or nintendo, vintage posters (playboy, car, lamborghini ferrari posters,)
sooooooooooooooooo
anyways....
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anyways, idk.....moss asked me if i am watching the amas. i dont think moss realizes when he says to watch something, for some reason, im not going too!? he has a knack for cheesying things up..idk he just txtd me i guess he is here back east. i tell him, "go see your mother! she is dying!"
anyways, yeah he has been texted me for weeks.
i mean, im not really a big awards ceremony person or a tv head theres more to life than this silly nonsense!? we are so consumed and distracted by all this iggy izalea hype and ariana grande and much ado about nothing even how conan o brien calls all these actresses 'stunning' and gorgeous.....its like,
there are beautiful REAL women too ya know!? what about all the real moms out here in real life!?? i dont even know who this band is playing!??!
i have no idea who this boy band is moss i dont know!??! the singer looks like KEVIN tho!? ha!
oh they are all signers...
i have no idea who this band is!? 5 seconds of summer? one direction!?? ahh who cares
tis silly
i just want to get my life back on track but im not sure if and how long it will take or when......oh so yeah, i guess dario got a dui and had dope on him he has a problem or he used too with that stuff i NEVER did that shit nor would i EVER!??!
but now his life is over! i would die...i mean, its hard enough thinking about dealing with a week in jail, 3 months house arrest (wearing a monitoring ankle bracelet like a BAD GIRL!!) i can get a spiderwebs tattoo on my elbow now! jk i wont do that. i dont want to jeopardize getting a decent job. i mean i do want tattoos but i dont want what looks like a jailbird. i actually do want to better my life ya know? i mean, if i think about it i could sink into a deep depression about all this instead im just like, well, what am i gonna do!??
live. right? persevere. do what i have too. whatever..
i will lose my license for a year and a half about. maybe i can move out during that time, but that time is not here yet. see, i spent 200.00 to be harassed. why on earth would i spend 200.00 to be mocked by a bunch of raggedy anne and andy fused at the hip freaks?
oh hell no!
why cant i upload more photos its like once i upload pics from my hard drive i cant go back to upload more pics its so annoying!???!
ahh that trip is over i dont really care bout it no more...i have some pics it was ok! hey its now november its not september anymore i dont care!??
i want stone fruit.
also, all the i wrote about was just filler stuff. just things on my mind at the moment.
fergie still looks good. shes 39. i still have time to meet someone and have a lil baby i can raise to be a very fine person! of course i will! hmm..........
oh i wanted to add the raggedy anne pics but it wont let me!??!? ERGHHHHHHHHHH!!
i work tomorrow. i like it. ya know!?? its ok!! :D
as far as crafts and artwork goes, i would like to design my own cell phone cases, i can go to the crafts store and get a bunch of little things and glue to a basic cell phone cover...roses, strawberries, pearls, lace, bows, fortune cookie fortunes, velvet etc
i can take selfie pics to show off my makeup, and my cell phone covers! makeup i want bright vibrant eye shadows...hot pinks, greens, blues, different colors, (just for fun of course!)
you know what is weird? am i supposed to think differently now, that i am almost 40? ughh damn right
i mean cuz like, 10 years ago, i was still into fun, cute things right? i was 26 years old but i still liked interesting things!??! i still had some sort of style...
i mean, i dont want to dress like a teenager, right now i want to dress in comfort but that doesnt mean i dont want a style you know? granted, i am ..granted...
im just in a mode where i am thinking of storing away for when i do, if ever, just get my own fucking place!?! goodness!!!
i want a basement, i want a fireplace!! love fireplace!!!
i want a retro corner!! atari setup , or nintendo, vintage posters (playboy, car, lamborghini ferrari posters,)
sooooooooooooooooo
anyways....
anyways, idk.....moss asked me if i am watching the amas. i dont think moss realizes when he says to watch something, for some reason, im not going too!? he has a knack for cheesying things up..idk he just txtd me i guess he is here back east. i tell him, "go see your mother! she is dying!"
anyways, yeah he has been texted me for weeks.
i mean, im not really a big awards ceremony person or a tv head theres more to life than this silly nonsense!? we are so consumed and distracted by all this iggy izalea hype and ariana grande and much ado about nothing even how conan o brien calls all these actresses 'stunning' and gorgeous.....its like,
there are beautiful REAL women too ya know!? what about all the real moms out here in real life!?? i dont even know who this band is playing!??!
i have no idea who this boy band is moss i dont know!??! the singer looks like KEVIN tho!? ha!
oh they are all signers...
i have no idea who this band is!? 5 seconds of summer? one direction!?? ahh who cares
tis silly
i just want to get my life back on track but im not sure if and how long it will take or when......oh so yeah, i guess dario got a dui and had dope on him he has a problem or he used too with that stuff i NEVER did that shit nor would i EVER!??!
but now his life is over! i would die...i mean, its hard enough thinking about dealing with a week in jail, 3 months house arrest (wearing a monitoring ankle bracelet like a BAD GIRL!!) i can get a spiderwebs tattoo on my elbow now! jk i wont do that. i dont want to jeopardize getting a decent job. i mean i do want tattoos but i dont want what looks like a jailbird. i actually do want to better my life ya know? i mean, if i think about it i could sink into a deep depression about all this instead im just like, well, what am i gonna do!??
live. right? persevere. do what i have too. whatever..
i will lose my license for a year and a half about. maybe i can move out during that time, but that time is not here yet. see, i spent 200.00 to be harassed. why on earth would i spend 200.00 to be mocked by a bunch of raggedy anne and andy fused at the hip freaks?
oh hell no!
why cant i upload more photos its like once i upload pics from my hard drive i cant go back to upload more pics its so annoying!???!
ahh that trip is over i dont really care bout it no more...i have some pics it was ok! hey its now november its not september anymore i dont care!??
i want stone fruit.
also, all the i wrote about was just filler stuff. just things on my mind at the moment.
fergie still looks good. shes 39. i still have time to meet someone and have a lil baby i can raise to be a very fine person! of course i will! hmm..........
oh i wanted to add the raggedy anne pics but it wont let me!??!? ERGHHHHHHHHHH!!
i work tomorrow. i like it. ya know!?? its ok!! :D
Beetlejuice Winona Ryder Lydia Deets Suicide Note
so this is why i am upset.....
the other day, well friday night i had a day off. i pretty much wasted it, even tho i did take a shower and put on some makeup. i attempted to make a vlog which led to depression, since i felt like some sort of slow motioned atrophied, worn down, anemic peice of worthless crap. i realized just how alone i am, see, even tho i am not with mike, sometimes we still hang out even tho we are not going anywhere..its weird. we dont even do anything hes just someone to hang out with. i tried to make plans with jay but gabby was around, looks like they had mochi candy or something lol. also i had no one to hang out with. so i was feeling alone. i know alot of ppl feel alone, and actually...at the time, i just wasnt sure if i would ever meet anyone who is respectful, whatever i just felt alone..so moss later msgd me and he then said, forget about all (whatever we were talking about i think i mentioned the bill cosby thing) he said lets talk about how you are having suicidal thoughts.
ok well, i am not putting anyone with true depression and suicidal thoughts down. if anyone is feeling this way i encourage them to reach out. trust me, just knowing that someone cares enough to listen is all it takes. getting a dui is something that will change someones life. it will change and affect everything it will make you lose hope and make you think your life is over. at least its not a dui and getting caught with dope (like someone i know just recently happened too...)
moss. are you FUCKING KIDDING ME!??! if he was a true friend, he would KNOW I DO NOT BELIEVE IN SUICIDE! NO MATTER WHAT! i have a positive disposition and i believe in God and the Bible says NOT TO KILL YOURSELF!! i can find the verse in fact!??!
moss! why would you even THINK i would do that!??!
so, next day i felt like i was being some sort of moody teenager. "I am alone. I AM alone."
i actually think moss thought i was suicidal because of this scene in beetlejuice. apparently she said 'i am alone' and she was writing a suicide note. moss used to say the scene where lydia was like , "i lydia deetz take this man beetlejuice, hand in marriage' . he would say, 'i lori brown, take moss krivin to be my husband' oh no no no nooooooo!
listen, in NO way would i EVER entertain taking my own life!
ever! a true friend, heck, someone who knows better would know better. moss thinks he knows but he does NOT!
clearly!
im not making jokes about suicide but it is just not something i would ever do or even think about!
the other day, well friday night i had a day off. i pretty much wasted it, even tho i did take a shower and put on some makeup. i attempted to make a vlog which led to depression, since i felt like some sort of slow motioned atrophied, worn down, anemic peice of worthless crap. i realized just how alone i am, see, even tho i am not with mike, sometimes we still hang out even tho we are not going anywhere..its weird. we dont even do anything hes just someone to hang out with. i tried to make plans with jay but gabby was around, looks like they had mochi candy or something lol. also i had no one to hang out with. so i was feeling alone. i know alot of ppl feel alone, and actually...at the time, i just wasnt sure if i would ever meet anyone who is respectful, whatever i just felt alone..so moss later msgd me and he then said, forget about all (whatever we were talking about i think i mentioned the bill cosby thing) he said lets talk about how you are having suicidal thoughts.
ok well, i am not putting anyone with true depression and suicidal thoughts down. if anyone is feeling this way i encourage them to reach out. trust me, just knowing that someone cares enough to listen is all it takes. getting a dui is something that will change someones life. it will change and affect everything it will make you lose hope and make you think your life is over. at least its not a dui and getting caught with dope (like someone i know just recently happened too...)
moss. are you FUCKING KIDDING ME!??! if he was a true friend, he would KNOW I DO NOT BELIEVE IN SUICIDE! NO MATTER WHAT! i have a positive disposition and i believe in God and the Bible says NOT TO KILL YOURSELF!! i can find the verse in fact!??!
moss! why would you even THINK i would do that!??!
so, next day i felt like i was being some sort of moody teenager. "I am alone. I AM alone."
i actually think moss thought i was suicidal because of this scene in beetlejuice. apparently she said 'i am alone' and she was writing a suicide note. moss used to say the scene where lydia was like , "i lydia deetz take this man beetlejuice, hand in marriage' . he would say, 'i lori brown, take moss krivin to be my husband' oh no no no nooooooo!
listen, in NO way would i EVER entertain taking my own life!
ever! a true friend, heck, someone who knows better would know better. moss thinks he knows but he does NOT!
clearly!
im not making jokes about suicide but it is just not something i would ever do or even think about!
google it!
*yawn* i am sleepy now. at least i am not getting out at 3am. i dont miss working those hours. i actually kind of......ah not really!?? lol i was gonna say, working at white castle!!! anyways. i did work today 4-11 but it actually went by fast. i opened up a bon ton account for someone!! and i got a chocolate bar for it! YAY!! lol
i dont feel like writing about work tho. oh, i watched a link from the view, actually, i watched something called 'the sisterhood' you know, the eastern star is the womens version of the masons.
so oprah winfrey is like, top dogette eastern star (i dont know if eastern star but sisterhood)....i can link it. kind of interesting. black child has the video on youtube. GOOGLE IT!
oh and since everyone is googling around, i watched on the view how they spoke about bill cosby. i just read a comment about all these women now coming forward.
"too many cooks! spoil the broth"
too many cooks! Too Many Cooks! all these women coming out with accusations against cosby seem like all of a sudden something aint right.
without rehashing what i said about it reminding me of anand jon controversy, i WILL continue to bring up the view's view on all this...
whoopi goldberg..........um, during the little discussion, rosie o donnell said something, asking whoopie if she was ever accused of any criminal wrongdoings in which whoopi said, 'yes it wasnt true. oh and you can google it'
you then see rosie make a little white triangle out of paper to show whoopie.
someone seemed to insin that the white means 'surrender' (surrender dorothy...nipple. DAVE NAVARRO NIPPLE! this isnt your mamas milk) ((from be a baby))
pyramid...bill cosby is getting thrown under the rug. does this sound like a targetted individual to you because it does to me. side note ( http://mashable.com/2014/11/21/bill-cosby-florida-radio-protest/as if they want to torture the old man. ((around 5 mins the video above youll see ))you know, i believe these women tho. because that is exactly how it was with anand jon. people are siding with beloved bill cosby because they do not understand how a predator even finds his victims,
rape is NOT just cut and dry! it just is not! rape is not like how lana del rey and eli roth simulate it is in that shock video ok?? RAPE is when someone is drugged! or when someone is forced to do something that the rapist clearly knows he is doing for POWER. sure he can just find women to willingly do sex acts for him but that is not what he wants. he WANTS to victimize those he thinks he can get away with it from.
he wants to demean, victimize, humiliate and degrade. he wants to feel powerful and in control.
rape isnt a lana del rey scream while a vicious jew bear (idk wasnt that who eli roth portrayed in inglorious bastards) attacks and bites her, although yes sometimes it is, but in cases like the bill cosby AND anand jon...it is more like, taking someone and depraving them on feeling like a human making them feel ashamed etc
dehumanizing...not just choking and slapping but that would be awful as well and ugh i dont want to talk about it anymore!??!
so back to 'the view'...
you see, whoopi said, 'i have been accused of criminal acts dont try googling it, or do idk' hmm then later she said, 'i sound like bugs bunny' and she made a voice like bugs bunny..
so uh...uh..does that mean she 'googled herself' and found my myspace blog i made of her, uh.....where i said, 'whoopi goldberg looks like bugs bunny;
because i did!???! oh my gosh LOL
that brought a chuckle to me when i heard her say she sound like bugs bunny...you want to see that interview??
k i will go look but i want to go to sleep soon!!!!!
so here is the link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BTebhdRvS64
also i am going to say this again, bill cosby is NOT cliff huxtable!! also, i do believe these women. i read comments and everyone is like, 'why didnt they come forward 30 years ago"
this is exactly the term i prophetically used at that thai restaurant the night that ANAND JON got arrested. snowball effect! once someone comes out and hears he is in trouble, they no longer feel scared and come forward. i know these are now grown women with the bill cosby, but it is so similar to the anand jon case.
this was 30 something years ago so these women were just young girls themselves.
and i am planning on writing MY experience working for ANAND JON for two years and WHY i did! not because i am looking for FAME or money or anything, shrug....besides, who wants to be known for being raped and/or sexually assaulted!??
and the WITCH HUNT sanjana jon did on all the girls. making them look like 'porn stars and prostitutes and drug addicts'. it disgusts me.
blahhhhhh who cares........i am going to write something i am pissed about after this then i have to piss....really i do........
btw: i like 'the talk's discussion of the sitution:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E9l1T-2H8XM
i dont feel like writing about work tho. oh, i watched a link from the view, actually, i watched something called 'the sisterhood' you know, the eastern star is the womens version of the masons.
so oprah winfrey is like, top dogette eastern star (i dont know if eastern star but sisterhood)....i can link it. kind of interesting. black child has the video on youtube. GOOGLE IT!
oh and since everyone is googling around, i watched on the view how they spoke about bill cosby. i just read a comment about all these women now coming forward.
"too many cooks! spoil the broth"
too many cooks! Too Many Cooks! all these women coming out with accusations against cosby seem like all of a sudden something aint right.
without rehashing what i said about it reminding me of anand jon controversy, i WILL continue to bring up the view's view on all this...
whoopi goldberg..........um, during the little discussion, rosie o donnell said something, asking whoopie if she was ever accused of any criminal wrongdoings in which whoopi said, 'yes it wasnt true. oh and you can google it'
you then see rosie make a little white triangle out of paper to show whoopie.
someone seemed to insin that the white means 'surrender' (surrender dorothy...nipple. DAVE NAVARRO NIPPLE! this isnt your mamas milk) ((from be a baby))
pyramid...bill cosby is getting thrown under the rug. does this sound like a targetted individual to you because it does to me. side note ( http://mashable.com/2014/11/21/bill-cosby-florida-radio-protest/as if they want to torture the old man. ((around 5 mins the video above youll see ))you know, i believe these women tho. because that is exactly how it was with anand jon. people are siding with beloved bill cosby because they do not understand how a predator even finds his victims,
rape is NOT just cut and dry! it just is not! rape is not like how lana del rey and eli roth simulate it is in that shock video ok?? RAPE is when someone is drugged! or when someone is forced to do something that the rapist clearly knows he is doing for POWER. sure he can just find women to willingly do sex acts for him but that is not what he wants. he WANTS to victimize those he thinks he can get away with it from.
he wants to demean, victimize, humiliate and degrade. he wants to feel powerful and in control.
rape isnt a lana del rey scream while a vicious jew bear (idk wasnt that who eli roth portrayed in inglorious bastards) attacks and bites her, although yes sometimes it is, but in cases like the bill cosby AND anand jon...it is more like, taking someone and depraving them on feeling like a human making them feel ashamed etc
dehumanizing...not just choking and slapping but that would be awful as well and ugh i dont want to talk about it anymore!??!
so back to 'the view'...
you see, whoopi said, 'i have been accused of criminal acts dont try googling it, or do idk' hmm then later she said, 'i sound like bugs bunny' and she made a voice like bugs bunny..
so uh...uh..does that mean she 'googled herself' and found my myspace blog i made of her, uh.....where i said, 'whoopi goldberg looks like bugs bunny;
because i did!???! oh my gosh LOL
that brought a chuckle to me when i heard her say she sound like bugs bunny...you want to see that interview??
k i will go look but i want to go to sleep soon!!!!!
so here is the link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BTebhdRvS64
also i am going to say this again, bill cosby is NOT cliff huxtable!! also, i do believe these women. i read comments and everyone is like, 'why didnt they come forward 30 years ago"
this is exactly the term i prophetically used at that thai restaurant the night that ANAND JON got arrested. snowball effect! once someone comes out and hears he is in trouble, they no longer feel scared and come forward. i know these are now grown women with the bill cosby, but it is so similar to the anand jon case.
this was 30 something years ago so these women were just young girls themselves.
and i am planning on writing MY experience working for ANAND JON for two years and WHY i did! not because i am looking for FAME or money or anything, shrug....besides, who wants to be known for being raped and/or sexually assaulted!??
and the WITCH HUNT sanjana jon did on all the girls. making them look like 'porn stars and prostitutes and drug addicts'. it disgusts me.
blahhhhhh who cares........i am going to write something i am pissed about after this then i have to piss....really i do........
btw: i like 'the talk's discussion of the sitution:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E9l1T-2H8XM
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