just finished season 2 of you...first season was better...more suspensful. this one..i mean, it was good. just not as good
a few things of note:

there was a famous comedian who had a hidden dungeon/fetish playroom behind his bookshelf..and he would drug underage girls and take pics of them in this room.

made me think of those strange accusations about seth green and where 'the kids go' behind his bookshelf.

the comedian also lost a ball, like comedian tom green so im wondering if tom green is some weird pervert.

a ball. lol. but yeah. what else? oh in one of the things it says how it doesnt seem realistic because what guy says how long they have known someone? um, moss does. he says it down to the minute, which is truly odd. "8 years 2 months, 2 weeks.." whatever he says. and how the guy in the show tracks and stalks someone..is that what moss did with me? so i could be in his life? he knew me before i even met him. like what the fuck?

speaking of. im not sure if i want to go to vegas end of jan. moss wants me to go. but is it worth it? no. not really. i dont care to go to vegas with him anymore.

who really cares. i know how its like. yes its a payed trip but so what. shrug. it will be annoying and obnoxious and too much. i would go if i can go to LA afterwards, but even then i dont think the things i want to do will happen...which is, go to Hidden Hills and ride around in the golf cart. check out the celebs houses! of course, keep it on the downlow. i was there before. hidden hills. where kardashians and drake and now jeffree star live.

also i want to go to salvation mountain for a PHOTOSHOOT! yup.

i care more about that then stupid vegas.

Fantastic FTMs and Where to Find Them - Eddie Redmayne Transvestigation

SEE? ITS A WOMAN! I MEAN, take a look at the actors on tv and movies. as a female myself, i now can clearly see these 'male' actors are more the same energy as myself. i would look like a dude if i was given testosterone treatments, id look like an actor in hollywood. for reaal tho

I don't really blog too much lately, per se..but its fine. I have a fever but I feel like this fever will turn out rejuvating for myself. It will get rid of the negative impurities and birth forth (birth lol..miki spies always said that)...a new me. the body needs to detox sometimes and i do feel like fevers help do that. 

so for the longest time, i have been letting someone make me feel like shit. i just let this person think he can just come over and what not...but then he hasnt in a while...and it makes me feel really upset almost..it shouldnt tho.

listen, i am pretty awesome. i was just looking through old posts on facebook (i hit left on my newest photos then it took me to posts from years ago...)...i was pretty funny. i didnt care about how i appeared, id say what i want.

i am awesome. i have been through alot with my life. i have a pretty cool personality! weird, funny...idk. i can manifest myself in 2020 to become that james dean billy jean....queen? idk what im saying. i dont need to *manifest* anything..especially drag queens. that stuff is magic. im just going to try to focus on being the best person that i can! i can also do a polar plunge once i feel better.

been sick all day with a fever...watched You season 2 *binged* i still have more eps to go tho. i went home from work early.

so 2020! lets see what is in store!

and mike wants to go on a cruise. sigh. i really do not feel the same way about him as i used too. id like to meet someone and i cant, the more mike stays in my life.

that is a tough part. but im not attracted to him, like im attracted to that guy who is just a fckboy...whatever.


anyways. 

Nursing You Back to Health �� ASMR Nurse Friend When You Have the Flu

why does she have an adams apple tho??? i mean, can women get a double pronged apple? i know on t they get a small walnut sized one...anyways. im sick and this sucks. hopefully i feel better in the morning

Bollywood Bamboozlement

WHAT A STRANGE WORLD!? salman khan. i met him and hung around with him plenty of times. but now i see it. its not even a real man!?? ok...he was talking to miss universe natalie glebova. is she a real WOMAN?? is anand jon a real man? oh cuz he sexually assaulted me and made me puke on his weird member...lets just say. was it even a real mans penis? sorry to be gross but yes he did FORCE himself on me. but from my memory..yeah, save that for my book. but now im like...okkkk...i think anand is a real man tho...why get involved with regular type people like myself? you know? or the other girls he raped and assaulted.

Carol & Bernadette

watch this if you dont believe men have been masquerading as women. this is not a WOMAN! for some reason, the CRINGEY movie, bad moms was on...(i watched AHS 1984 then i put on live fx)...bad moms is such a cringe movie. at one point mila kunis and the guy...i think its jay hernandez? they start kissing and have sex. SHES THE MAN HES THE WOMAN! she has a huge man skull he has a tiny female skull. THATS what a REAL WOMAN would look like...IF...they allowed HIM to be  a HER!!! (IFF EEF IF CINDERELLA!!!)...then after they had sex in the movie, he says. "I think you got me pregnant"...watch these movies and take cue..they say these things all the time. at the end all the actresses moms were in it..such as christina applegates mom. they ask them whats the worse thing their moms did to them. christina says her mom took her to see CRUISING...about a gay man who rapes then kills his victims..she was a kid. also, perhaps her mom actually took her CRUISING. and the mothers reaction was so fake..like, she didnt even remember if that even happened??? its just so weird. so, are mila kunis, christina applegate etc etcs moms BAD MOMS for allowing this to happen to them? milas mom says she told mila they were going down the street and they ended up in hollywood!??? WTF???



ITS SO WEIRD!?? i want to write a story involving all these...whatevers. mind contro..ahs electroshocked the guy and made him think he was a killer...



sigh...