TV appearances

i have been on tv a few times...(and i would like to be on more!) lets see

from most recent:
- PBS telethon
- 2015 AVN Awards, guest FRONT ROW from Las Vegas
- Playboy TV
- Art Mann Presents: Girls of Golf at the Playboy Mansion
- 20/20 (which was retracted)
- E! Entertainment interview with Laura Ling
- The Howard Stern Show (2005)

also movies
- LA Stories
- Return to Nuke Em High
- Bazookas: The Movie

i forget anything else!? Idk...I would like to do more tv type stuff tho!

i really have been stuck here...clinging to this. I forget things. I forget how it feels to be free to travel...I am stuck here....will I ever feel alive again?

scents

Perfumes I want to get:

Marc Jacobs Honey

Lancome collection

Estee Lauder Pleasures Exotic

Gucci Flora (which I have..my cousin April gave me hers)

i forget what else right now....some kind of cologne...

so...synchronicities involving facebook i dont have my journal so i will just write it here...often times i see a post and then another one using a similar image or word maybe facebook synchs it up itself for instance a post about kylie jenner and the tiger she is holding at her crotch *classy* and next post was a picture of an actual tiger that someone posted that had nothing to do with the star whatever whatever

but yeah...so anyways..........i sort of forget about life...or feeling excited. it is always this way when i am stuck with some stupid temp job...(when will it end!??) also really sucks being on this sasi business. i feel like a slave this is worse then being in jail or house arrest. i do not like this and it costs me alot of money SYNCH just heard COST on a straight talk commercial...

what else............idk

VIP Events in LA

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	"By The Sea" Premiere and After Party "By The Sea” Premiere and After Party Date/Location: Nov. 5th, 2015, Los Angeles Synopsis: Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt star in their new movie set in France during the mid-1970s. Vanessa, a former dancer, and her husband Roland, an American writer, travel the country together. They seem to be growing apart, but when they linger in one quiet, seaside town they begin to draw close to some of its more vibrant inhabitants, such as a local bar/café-keeper and a hotel owner. Starring: Brad Pitt, Angelina Jolie Pitt, Mélanie Laurent, Melvil Poupaud, Niels Arestrup, Richard Bohringer Trailer: http://trailers.apple.com/trailers/universal/bythesea/ Venue : Hollywood Location : Los Angeles Event Date :5 November 2015
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Coreys Angels Presents: Corey Feldman BDAY BASH

the corey feldman vice sage continues...i think its funny and highly entertaining..corey...oh man..i dont know...lol...i would of went tho! if i was still in LA i would of tried to go into a corey party! being surrounded by a gaggle of bimbos is not cool anymore!??! hugh hefner...not cool, anand jon TRIED to do it...not calling the girls bimbos tho, but it just...its trying too hard...but we love it!! lol i miss hollywood to be honest. its so boring here. everything is so boring  oh yeah i have a few pics with corey feldman but i dont feel like looking for them.....wonder who the next famous person i will see will be LOL LOL LOL you enjoying my blog!???! anymore http://www.vice.com/read/corey-feldman-will-no-longer-be-throwing-parties-245?utm_source=vicefbus  oh yeah also according to this article seems his later parties were a bust http://www.vice.com/read/we-went-to-corey-feldmans-party-again

majestic

i keep hearing this song on my playlist at work, (speaking of work, i am intending to write about this specific job, for brevity's sake)...ok so...brevity...i remember the first time i heard that term was on my ex boyfriend dennis' myspace page. oh btw i searched him and damn he looks good! he has been working out and is really fit and toned. what the fuck!??? anyways....:/ i need someone. i kind of miss being in a REAL relationship btw i went to mikes on friday, well...we were apposed to rent a movie and watch it in my room but he silently drove to his house i was finally like, 'mike!? im not sleeping at your place!!?" he said ill just take you home then, but i didnt want to go home. we rented two movies, some scary movie called starve, and i had been wanting to watch this movie called 'wild' with reese witherspoon. during the starve movie, (the movie is about the ill will to eat, after having been STARVED for so long, so the guy makes two people ((((they all are stuck in their own part of this empty school))) they have to fight to kill and whoever survives gets to eat a meal. ) i made a comment, cuz that is what you do when you are watching a movie!?? i said, 'i think i would be too exhausted and weak to try to fight to kill' and mike started yelling at me. who does that!??! he almost threw a coke at me!? whatever!?? i mean, he was going to throw his soft drink. i didnt even say anything i was like, 'im not going to kill anyone' it was just...wow!?! that was uncalled for. he is never fun..nice..nothing!?? wtf!?? i made him go upstairs so i can watch my movie. next day i forget...saturday...oh yeah my aunt treated us to hibachi and that movie.

hmm...lisa wants me to get pregnant so hers can have a cousin. did i say that already!? what did i want to say again!??!

oh yeah i was going to say,,,,about vine ideas! but first....this job. it is sort of like a and h swimwear where we fold and tag and sometimes bag or hang the shirts, baseball type stuff...its majestic brand i work here

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QZHv0HXpoxA

ok...so...now, where were we? we have tables with a team of us, say 4 or 5 of us working at a table. we have a team leader as well. team leader was no help. no one explains anything properly its a big mess. if i was a team leader, i would hype everyone up. i would be like, ok here is the plan for today! these team leaders to not communicate with us. we get a bonus the more boxes we ship. she would not tell us how much we did, nothing! i would explain and show how the client wants their product shipped. (kohl's, jc penney, walmart etc)...some for the uniforms. its in the paperwork. there is also a binder. i would show how to look for the way to package it. ahh whats the point!? i am too tired and distracted. i have vine ideas but  i am not going to write them here. BYEEEEE

HA!?! creepy!??!

this was kind of weird: it just synched up this way

9 23

what is going to happen on 9.23.15?

there has been alot of talk about some sort of asteroid/flood occurence around this specific date

9 23

i guess we will see!???! it is in 10 days...

Activities: Next Summer

I did some of the things on my summer list this year, but I do have some ideas next year as well!

- Garden and maze tours
- Estate tours
- Amusement parks
- Wine and Art
- Motorcycle rides
- ASMR mani/pedis
- Flea Markets
- Grilling
- Picnics
- Tubing/boating/fishing
- Archery Lessons
- Shooting range
- Pow-wows
- Mini trips (roadside America, Lancaster, Gettysburg etc)
- Cabella's
- Canada/New Orleans/Atlanta
- SD Comic Con
- Bbqs/cookouts/parties
- camping
- hiking
- bicycling
- Exploring (Weird NJ sites)
- make youtube videos
- GO PRO
- beach
- ATVs Poconos
- skydiving
- Rodeos
- Zipline
- Poconos villa
- Iron Pigs baseball game
- Centralia
- Concerts/festivals
- Pig roasts/bonfires
- NYC
- tanning
- swimming
- Musikfest
- Meetups
- Color Run
- Photoshoots (with color run powder, Mc Donalds drive thru, etc)
- New Hope/Lambertville
- Hot air balloon ride
- Jim Thorpe
- Murder mystery dinner
- Cottages
- Zoo
- Aquarium
- Greenhouse
- volunteering
- Renaissance Faire
- Balloonfest
- Farmers Market
- Art Class
- AA Meetings
- Drive In
- Tattoos
- conventions
- holistic convention
- steel stacks
- wine tasting
- belvidere playhouse
- mini golf
- go karts
- free yoga
- college classes
- Karmafest
- Car shows
- Motorcycle rallies
- Sturgis
- Beach clam bake
- Hamptons
- Mansion tours
- planetariums

and various other events i see being posted

Crafts

I have some crafting ideas, and...here they are!

Collages, (of course!)
mason jars, each one filled with stones/rocks ((i did that and put my makeup brushes in them))...some filled with small seashells, sand, starfish etc...marbles

mason jar snowglobes

mason jar potpourri filled lamps with christmas lights and ribbon

(love mason jars!!!)

more magnets...cardboard backing....print out cool pictures such as a pizza slice, fairies, unicorns etc...

make a childrens book, type out story, make own illustrations, print and assemble together

paint an anchor to hang in bathroom, need sticky background tape thingy

need frames

take a pic of your refridgerator magnets

take a pic of your keys

take a pic of your shower

take a pic of whats in your fridge

take a pic of your makeup contents

It is still nice out, in that clean, crisp fall way. It is the kind of weather fit for fall activities. I have to write some lists down. For one, this summer was not at all the way I would of preferred it to be. For one, I did not have much money, nor did I have my license. I do still have my car, in which I need to sell, but it does not start anyways due to the bad battery. I can probably sell it for a few hundred, I suppose...So, as I was saying, this past summer has not been one of my favorites. Usually, during the summer, I have a lot of fun and make a lot of memories, but most of this should be due to having friends, or even one friend, to do things with. As I have previously mentioned, I never have anyone who is fun and adventurous to hang out with. I really just want to meet someone who would like to scour all the local newsletters and publications which feature events, and search bulletins and pamphlets for fun ideas and events to attend. Natures Expressions always has interesting things to attend as well, such as holistic conferences, yoga retreats, conventions and belly-dancing lessons, etc. I also like to grab a bunch of brochures too. I also pay attention to events and parties and such that I get invited too via Facebook. Anything can be an experience, even if it is a Younique eyelash extension party, which there is sure to be free h'or duerves and sangria! Last night I picked up a few brochures at the movie theater, (my Aunt Deanna likes to do hibachi and a Christian movie with us. We watched '90 days in Heaven yesterday). I see that they have this, http://www.shocktoberfest.com/
I think I would stick to the zombie hayride, and..well, I am going to have to take a better look at what else I would want to do! I like being scared, it up my seretonin, and I tend to laugh out of being nervous. I need to find out about the Masonic Witches Ball at the creepy Mason lodge in Bethlehem PA as well. Each year I want to go, yet I can never find anyone to go with!?!

Let us return to the offset of summer festivities. This summer has not been the best summer for myself...I did do things however. Let's see....I did cookouts a few times, I went swimming, (twice), I went to pick up Sage, did things with Sage...we went to Dorney Park, (right after I got out of work and was tired as heck! It was still fun tho! I went on a really scary ride with Caleb which cost an extra 2.00), went to the Doris Duke estate...went to a drive in last weekend. Went to the Brooklyn pow-wow at the beginning of the summer, we went to Lancaster, Steel Stacks, Musikfest, went to the Lehigh Zoo with Mike, I did go on a motorcycle ride with that guy, (he wanted to go out again but we sort of lost touch...oh well), we went to the Kansas concert and Balloonfest. It was ok, I hung out with my parents a lot.

I am hoping next summer will be better, well, I am not only hoping, but I WILL make it better! Next summer is going to be much better! I will not have my license back, however. I believe I get it back in October...!?!
Here is what I want to do. As I said, brochures, pamphlets, periodicals, newsletters, bulletins etc always have events and such, so what I would like to do is make a wish board sort of thing. Next time I see something that seems fun and appealing, I am going to cut it out of the paper or magazine or newspaper. I am going to then tape or thumbtack it to a board. If I have brochures, I will pin them to my bulletin board. This way, I will always see it and it will become engraved as a plan that I am going to do, because sometimes I forget about it, and/or forget about the dates and such. This way, I can always see it and it will become engraved in my mind. Engraved. This way, it will become engraved in my head. Next, when the day of the event comes, and I am finally on my journey to said event, I will take pictures and/or pick up mementos of that day. I will print out the pictures, and this ensures that later, when the summer is over, I can take the cut-outs as well as the printed out pictures and mementos, and than.......and then!!! AND THEN!!!!! I will put organize them and put them in SCRAPBOOKS!!! WOOP WOOP!!!! What a great way to preserve memories! I am algo going to get a go-pro and start recording LIFE! (but do you need to always wear a helmut with a go pro!??!). I will then make a new youtube video and post them all there. I know that there are camcorders that you can just stick on your shirt as well. I am kind of interested in Burning Man, and I would bring a go pro there. I like the style...sort of. Actually, Burning man seems like skinny models thinking they are young and 'instagram chic'...I just am interested in it for the photography aspect of it. I would love to do a photoshoot there myself, of course I would have to find some post-apocalyptic, "mad max' esque garb to antiquity myself with. For some reason, that word just seemed to of worked, yes?

I will now re-iterate some of the things I plan on doing, (WHEN I GET BACK!!! i am going with lisa and my mom to register at babys r us)

this is awful!


https://www.lifesitenews.com/opinion/former-satanist-i-performed-satanic-rituals-inside-abortion-clinics

i have had an abortion before and i feel so terrible about it...

all i ever think about anymore is having a baby...being pregnant, being a mother

of course i think it is because i feel like i have nothing in my life anymore.

i am stuck.

stuck in this stupid temp jobs at warehouses without sunlight. yes, last year i was working at the cigar place and a and h swimwear i got my dui that time. and all hope was lost. now i am still suffering...and my lawyer didnt even drop the .16 to .159 if he would of done that, i would not even be on probation anymore. how is it that one little decibal makes the difference between 6 months probation, and 5 years???

wow!??! i dont know

FML

i feel so upset...hopeless..or just nuetral idk

I really do not mind working because it keeps my mind occupied..and i do not mind the hours either, (10:30 am - 7 pm), it still feels like a normal day time job, i just get a few hours in the morning to relax. Of course, this is just a temp job, but it is smething to keep me occupied in the meantime...meantime to what tho!? sigh....

i feel as if...well, hold up..first i have other things to say.

I am kind of disappointed. I just..no one likes to do anything fun. I understand, people have kids, fine, like Shannan and Seamarina...well, I signed up for volunteering for the PBS telethon, thinking Shannan would like to go, but she never gets back to me, so I had asked Seamarina, and she expressed interest, but today she tells me that she can't go..

I want to do fun things, like drive in, joyrides to 'deep PA' towns, videos of the town of Bethlehem and old fashioned video rental stores...foodie stuff...renaissance faires. I want to do nerdy things lol...but I do not know anyone!?? I am not really interested in meeting anyone from online anymore...plenty of fish...i dont know the peoples so...its not fun...

I do want friends tho!???! Yeah, I want to meet 'my future husband' (in the room, it is not odd that he calls lisa 'his future wife' because it really does feel odd to say, I want to meet my fiancee''fiancee is like a term of endearment, you know what i mean? moss thinks it is so odd/funny he says future wife, but no..you know, it makes sense!?!

so, like, i dont hang out with anyone. jimmy, hes weird...and hes in pburg all the time now, but i dont drink anymore and jimmy idk..jay!?? nope. thought jay was my friend but...heh! guess he cant just be friends with me. real nice...who else? mike!?? mikes always in a sour mood, boring..not fun..doesnt excite or stimulate me attract and want to seduce me like the way you do!?? tell me does she want you..

who else...idk..mike rasely? he will just talk my head off about his encoupled friends that i have no idea who they are!?? he is friends with alot of couples tho??!!

i always talk about these people! HAHAHAA wow!!??!

idk..i dont know anyone else...

BOOOO

um..........not sure what else i was gonna say. i am tired tho...


i cant think. i should just go to sleep tho.......

but yeah now i just hang out with my parents. im glad they are there for me, but sometimes a girl needs a friend..idk


i feel like i had more to say...but...does it really matter!???! no it doesnt!

the ritualistic story behind justin biebers interview magazine

the pictures are all out of order but this was being weird..

who is this little boy?

this shows he is a slave, and those are bruises (but looks like 'cupping' but still bruising bcuz he is a slave)

justin looks degraded here

wearing the clown from its mask (who was killed little kids) was he made to kill that little boy while wearing this mask? 

silence SHH never tell what he did

interview, with a blood sucking vampire

this signifies blood on his hands blood sacrfice

shows his slave numbers

directed by martha stewart (motha)

magic mirror parelell universe looks like stan

 WEIRD ON RICK AND MORTY THEY MADE PARELLE UNIVERSE AND DIFFERENT WAVES AND TIMELINES!!! TIMELESS OBLIVIOON

polish fest

Magic Mirror on the wall...whos the fairest of them all...

does this sound right!??! um, no not really!??! well that is now what the evil witch says in snow white. i mean, could of sworn it was MIRROR MIRROR on the wall!??!? anyways...she conjures up satan..

so last night i went with my parents to the drive in, where they were playing harry potter and neverending story. at first we stopped by terrys and we had pizza but then i really wanted to go. i didnt have anyone to go with, but then again i never do. no one wants to do anything....its kind of sad. i like to do things like drive ins and what not. i was almost about to go with some guy from POF but tbh i really am wary of meeting online ppl. i feel bad bcuz the guy seemed nice enough but...ehh i dont know, a drive in is kind of a long time to sit there with someone you dont know!??! yeah...so........idk...!???! anyways............i ended up just going with my parents. they didnt even check who was in the car!?? and popcorn is only 2.00 and soda is 1.00. harry potter was kind of lame, but they did have a MIRROR in it, a MAGIC MIRROR. drive ins are fun! its also a campsite too. just make sure to bring a comfy hoodie and jeans and fluffy socks! and a radio to get the station. never ending story was good as always, cool to see it on a big screen like that! but there was the MAGIC MIRROR GATE, and the mirror is representative of a parellel...parellel universe!??! i saw a few shooting stars, it was nice .

it made me think of how i just want to meet someone, get married, have kids. and my parents would like little grandchildren to take to  the drive in. yes lisa will be having another baby soon, but i want one...you know!? and how dare anyone to tell me i should not have kids!!!

if someone has a kid, YOU MAKE IT HAPPEN! you work and do your best to provide for your child. i have moss telling me i shouldnt have kids and jay was telling me. i have not talked to jay in a while but i guess he did not just want to be friends with me.

what else!?? today went to a polish festival by a catholic church. it was 12.00 to get inside where they had rides and food, but we just went into the church or cathedral for free, saw some Pope artwork, and then we had some polish food. it would of been cool to go into polish fest..maybe tomorrow we go to garlic fest!??

signs and all that!?

so, i was on twitch tonight..aaron bleyaerts twitch kay??? yeah so........i do still like to know...that...adult swim (???) is WATCHING!?? because for some reason ppl were talking about BONES on twitch, and i said HAM BONE HAM BONE then squidbillies episode played and there was A PICTURE OF HAM AND IT SAID HAM BONE...so then, he was drinking TEQUILA on the twitch feed, and...just now on american dad, roger is drinking TEQUILA...its like, come on!!

this has to be a sign! i do like it tho..cuz sometimes i feel as if...they aint listening anymore...and you know what, it feels nice to know they still be listening...

right?

oh also there is a moth inside my lampshades, on one of the american dads, they had a moth..on a lampshade....

OH I JUST NOTICED SNOOPY! mikes sister, coal bear, asked me if i seen SNOOPY snoopy is on family guy

just odd

um so this is weird...yeah so...there was a weird synch thing on adult swim...basically it had an aqua teen episode where they mentioned something we were talking about...maybe i will explain later but right now...so yesterday i was watching videos about false flags and what not...and i watched one about morgan freemans granddaughter being a blood sacrifice and it started talking about robin williams being a blood sacrifice and it started talking about family guy and its predictive programming about robin williams. well tonight on family guy, it was the one where stewie and brian walk past the book with the illuminati eye on it, and then later brian said something about robin williams with a beard...it was just...really weird!??

lets see...i was going to say more..ahh maybe later...about another odd thing...hmm...brb

hmm so i have been msging this guy on POF, mainly because he said he will take me on a motorcycle ride and he seemed decent...average looking tho...looks did not stand out to me. im not really looking for a boyfriend tho...but i wanted to go for a ride. we talked on the phone too. so i went across the bridge and met him and he was on his bike. he was kind of older than me, well the funny thing is, now i am 37 so the people around my age to date is late 30s and early 40s...which is..odd...because i felt like he was too old for me. i have been attracted to older men but that was guys i have been around and was able to develop an attraction too. like i said, it is very hard for me to just meet someone and be instantly attracted to them. it is easy for guys too, if they see a pretty girl, then hey! and i hate when guys get pushy or want to kiss me..im like, HELL NO! even when i am in a relationship, im not the kissy hold hands type, although sometimes it is sweet. but i have to KNOW YOU ok!?? 

but yeah so we went for a nice ride to rieglesville and we stopped at the rieglesville inn. i couldnt have a drink tho, but thats ok. i had a ham and some sort of cheese quesadilla with spinach it was pretty good. then we took a walk to the bridge but he does not like nj so we did not walk to nj side, but then he wanted a kiss and i was like, 'uh...no' idk wtf i am supposed to say!?? i was like sorry im not really like that...it was weird...ughh. he reminds me of like...some sort of actor or something!?? like, he sounds like jack nicholson or something!?? he looks like one of those actors idk just, i wasnt feeling it!??! 

he seemed cool tho, but i would be friends with him. i think he was 41 or something. so we went for a ride again. i just love motorcycle rides. scents of wheat, cold air, (which feels invigorating), burning wood, fireplaces, gravel...woodchips, all of these smells are apparent when riding. the breeze. i so love it! if i had a boyfriend who was driving, i would be squeezing him the whole time or giving mini massages...but i didnt do any of that, but you know, i just love motorcycle rides! then we stopped at a bar and played pool and had wings. then we went to leave it was cold tho so we went to his house to get in his car. i would of just stayed on the harley i just needed a sweatshirt. he has a nice house too. pool, nice house! you know..

he was nice and respectful if not i wouldnt of went to his house. we just got in his car and we drove me to the bridge on the PA side so i could walk across. i didnt mind tho. i like walking on that damned bridge at night even tho they now have trespassing signs since someone died there.

oh yeah this is weird tho, well earlier i posted about 'the rythym of the night' by CORONA not DEBARGE! so when we were at the rieglesville inn, he ordered a beer and he said, 'i dont drink beer really, but when i do, i get a CORONA! he said CORONA so oddly, i was about to tell him about what i posted but didnt. wehn i told that pilot about a synchronicity he just looked at me odd. remember, when we were talkign about travelling and he said he has been to AFRICA, on the arcade game it said AFRICA on it..

HA  just odd.!

oh yeah on family guy it said sassy when i was telling moss about sasi...moss tho...he does not understand patience or virtue i will explain later tho..he is just not humbled nor has he ever been. hes a ME ME ME NOW NOW NOW sort of person

fugitive of the week

so i found out that joel STABBED my ex glenn...here is the article...fucked up.

http://www.mcall.com/news/breaking/mc-c-plainfield-township-stabbing-arrest-20150901-story.html

anyways i wanted to see if i was fugitive of the week, like joel has been, so i googled my name. results came up...

i was worried it would call me a FUGITIVE...and that word holds such a negative....energy and it would be heartbreaking to be called a fugitive...so i googled MY name in lehigh valley live and results came up


but the results were saying how i graduated from WCCC...
wow! it just told me i still have hope. im not a bad person. i made alot of mistakes yes, but i still have potential, i think!??

but yeah that joel...hes a straight out criminal. who STABS their brother? he could of killed him!??



http://www.lehighvalleylive.com/warren-county/express-times/index.ssf/2010/05/warren_county_community_colleg_6.html

Uploaded BBQ Walking Taco Review

Beer Taste Testing ASMR (getting tipsy) Drinking/Mouth Sounds

i cant drink beer but i can still watch these beer tastings!?? yeah?

Elves

this is weird...i saw vice shared a story about being in a coma being similar to lucid dreaming....so it made me think of dmt...i actually just mentioned DMT in some weird asmr video i just made...anyways...so...i started reading about DMT again and they mention the elves....i am actually kind of curious about taking it..it only lasts about 5 minutes, but i am scared as heck too! i am a dareDEVIL just kidding not that, but i do like to be daring...so i might try it!???! but uh...i was thinking about these entities (being explained as loving and welcoming) i thought, well, maybe they will give me a SYNCHRONICITY or a SIGN...so i just saw that someone shared a new video that black child did...about the VMAS (more synchs about that happened but i dont feel like sharing it now) im super tired! anyways,..oh before we begin, miley has a hot body! i know most do not think so, but i think so. her body inspires me to want to work out again. i was down to 125 lbs like, 2 years ago..or 3 idk...yeah! i need to do that again!? i remember i used to be super skinny when i was mileys age lol! but yeah... heres some pics i captured:

miley is all about DMT (i dont know i would think tho..doesnt she do collaberations with the flaming lips guy??)

uh but anyways i wanted a sign...and so i clicked on the video and i saw it....

THE ELVES!??!?

what in sams hill!?? freaked me the heck out!! i tell you huwhat

i dont know...elves...maybe DMT was going to be trending...i have no idea!? i do not know what INSPIRED me to make that weird video either. someone commented on it, 'too soon'

oh...because of.........the thing? when i am in the shower i just think of things or before i go to sleep, and i was thinking of that...im tired!