Sunday, December 30, 2012
sunday
im done with mike. i mean, come on. this is a joke seriously! i hate the way he makes me feel. he kicked me out like, 2 months ago, but of course, the way things work for me, well a week after he kicked me out my car started leaking gas. im not sure why it is, but it really ruined things for me. thats how my 'luck' is i guess. im not normally someone who, whats the word, jinxes myself with that kind of mentality. usually im a go with the flow kind of gal, ya know? i am actually VERY layed back, i have a sense of humor, i dont get mad easily, i like to have fun, i am easy to talk too, i have a positive outlook, but alot of times i feel pitiful and just wish things would go my way. so just like my car stopped working the week after he kicked me out, well, now i see my unemployment overpayed me 1200.00 and i have to pay them back. well, the letter is in easton, so i need to go to easton to look at it and i need to get this taken care of. i have no money. oh yeah, if my car was working, hell yeah i would of been hanging out with other people i would be free to go out, but i have no car so i dont expect anyone to pick me up. i still can hang out with ppl but you see, i DONT want too. i dont want to just hang out with any lame loser guy and i dont really have any girl friends and i tend to get annoyed easily. and then if i go out i will start feeling flirtatious but that would only make me wish i was with someone i am attracted to and not some douchebag loser guy or some guy who thinks im desperate and lonely and 'just needs a nice guy'. im the boss ok? im the one who is capable of knowing who i am attracted to or interested in. like kim telling me i should go out with that eric guy, i mean, he might be nice and all, but hes another guy on facebook who just tries to msg me do i sound like a bitch well then fine i am a bitch then. i said ok i might go to a movie with him but i dont think that will be a good idea bcuz i will be so distracted and be wondering what mike is doing...you know? and those IBers kept inviting me to their new years party but i would feel depressed and stuff. and i dont know, kind of silly. ha. im sure ppl on facebook are like, 'who are those guys who keep inviting lori to those parties' and then i have the album from when i went to boston remember. im sure ppl like jen are nosy and cackling like those women from the kfc commercial. cuz thats how she is. so anyways, mike tells me i cant drink on new years. are you kidding me? i didnt do anything this weekend. ok. i didnt go out. im looking forward to new years. why the hell not? i want to be able to have some champagne like a grown up you know? im an adult. i can handle myself around people. mikes such a jerk. he starts demeaning me and saying, 'whats it gonna be whats it gonna be yes or no' (i need to promise him if i am going to drink of not) are you kidding me mike? im sick of it. and he throws out those reciprocity and i havent proved myself to him you know what mike? you can take your reciprocity and shove it up your ass! BOOM! (just joking) srzly tho...ingest a few chill pills geez. i wonder, how did i end up with him for so long!?? i remember when i first met him i was like, hes kind of weird and doesnt quite 'get it' i tried to make some silly cute joke and he didnt get it and thats when i knew i wouldnt be able to fully be myself around him and then it got to the point where i feel like my face is melting off around him thats how unattractive he makes me feel. i want to hang out with mike on new years, (i dont want to do anything else im serious ok? ) but i also want to be able to drink. im 34 years old. i dont need to be told what to do. who doesnt drink on new years? i just wish i had a cool fun guy to hang out with. so yeah john told me he is sort of seeing someone but then he was asking me if am still with mike uh NO! im not!! but then john did something weird he said his stupid lame friend is interested in me. but then john acts like he would want to hang out with me. uh i would like to hang out with john but in no way am i interested in his weird friend ok!??! so weird. things mike is...JERK SCUMBAG ASSHOLE PUNK ASS BULLY OGRE DICKWAD PEICE OF SHIT I AM SO SICK OF HIM SAYING 'WHATS IT GONNA BE WHATS IT GONNA BE (THIS AINT NO LAME MEATLOAF SONG EITHER) YOU HAVENT SHOWN ME ANY RECIPROCITY YOU HAVENT PROVED TO ME BLAH BLAH BLAH SHUT THE FUCK UP
THEN HE STARTS CURSING AND THROWING AROUND THE F BOMBS, at tic toc. he said i had an attitude no i was getting sick of him belittling, demeaning and embarrasing me at a diner, talking down to me in that tone and saying he is talking 'calmly and rationally' what a pure dickhead. i dont even care at this point fuck him! i need my car fixed i need a job. i didnt get any sleep last night either well bcuz i am picky about sleep. my dad got up at 530 (april and i slept downstairs) it was so hot too i put on the heater bcuz it makes noise oh whatever i want to be with him but i dont want him to embarrass me and be like, 'you dont understand how she gets when she drinks' i get what? i remember last year we got in a fight bcuz i turned the radio station. i say, its time to MOVE ON! ITS 2013 motherfucker my gameplan is...GET A JOB SAVE AND JUST..MOVE ON! SO YEAH HOLLYWOOD HERE I COME! lol
hmm anyways...oh yeah mike also told me he took all my stuff (whatever is still there from last time he moved it all) and moved it all to the front porch room (sunroom). thats upsetting that he does that. he also tells me i cant touch the heat ever so it has to be 63 degrees. gee hes a gentlemen huh? hes so sweet.
i dont understand why he has to be so mean to me im not a bad person. whatever
THEN HE STARTS CURSING AND THROWING AROUND THE F BOMBS, at tic toc. he said i had an attitude no i was getting sick of him belittling, demeaning and embarrasing me at a diner, talking down to me in that tone and saying he is talking 'calmly and rationally' what a pure dickhead. i dont even care at this point fuck him! i need my car fixed i need a job. i didnt get any sleep last night either well bcuz i am picky about sleep. my dad got up at 530 (april and i slept downstairs) it was so hot too i put on the heater bcuz it makes noise oh whatever i want to be with him but i dont want him to embarrass me and be like, 'you dont understand how she gets when she drinks' i get what? i remember last year we got in a fight bcuz i turned the radio station. i say, its time to MOVE ON! ITS 2013 motherfucker my gameplan is...GET A JOB SAVE AND JUST..MOVE ON! SO YEAH HOLLYWOOD HERE I COME! lol
hmm anyways...oh yeah mike also told me he took all my stuff (whatever is still there from last time he moved it all) and moved it all to the front porch room (sunroom). thats upsetting that he does that. he also tells me i cant touch the heat ever so it has to be 63 degrees. gee hes a gentlemen huh? hes so sweet.
i dont understand why he has to be so mean to me im not a bad person. whatever
Saturday, December 29, 2012
words of thoughts...
so, here is the story. instead of leaving me home after christmas day, and getting together during the wknd, mike brings me back. so i was there all week, sitting on that couch, having to keep the temp low, getting nervous when he would arise from the dead to oaf out and ask me how late i plan on staying up. i would of rather stayed at my parents, and catch up with him on the wknd anyways. mike ruins my life he ruins my wknd. i dont do anything all week yes i look forward to the wknd. i'd like to go out, you know, DO SOMETHING! why not? what happens is mike and i get some drinks and he hangs out a little bit, (we watch howard stern or eminem videos or jerky boys on youtube) but then he gets tired and goes to bed. im not tired so i end up staying up. which is what we did last week. of course, he goes and hangs out with his friends when im not there, but when i want to do something its so lame and boring! so last night, he tells me scott is coming over he also says he will take me out to eat. so i am kind of excited bcuz i figure if scott is here then it would mean we can actually go out you know? so i take a shower and put on makeup and wear the sweater mike gets me. we go to tic toc, (which is the diner all the old folks go to cuz its dinner and breakfast and all for dirt cheap prices!) i ordered hot open turkey sandwich with mashed potatoes and gravy (which was too white..everything was a white pallor, and later made my tummy hurt), mike ordered some baconized and cheddar onion ring cheeseboiger...with french fries. i also had salad and manhatten clam soup which came with the dinner. the atmosphere was a warm, cozy diner (a staple of easton pa), complete with clank clanking of forks and knifes and the welcoming scent of coffee, amongst the senior citizens. i felt pleasant as we sat down.
things soon took a terrible turn, when mike decides to say, 'theres a few things i want to talk to you about'. when he says this, its not really things he wants to talk about, its a list of demands he orders me to do, in a demeaning tone as if i am a dog or his slave.
i wanted to talk to him about something i saw on entertainment weekly, "hey did you know that charlie sheen gave lindsay lohan 100,000.00 wow! shit, i could use that money why give it to entitled hollywood brat lindsay? she should grow up and stay out of trouble, " oh oops i forgot, shes programmed tho. shes a poor little victim who has been programmed with many personalities such as margoex and uh...liz. whatever!?
so anyways...while i was slurping on my clam chowder, he places his arms disturbingly on the table and crosses his hands solemnly in front of him. "lori i dont want you drinking tonight and thats it. i might let you for new years'
ok um first of all, his tone was very condescending and demanding. im not a dog im a human being. which is what i said, to which he begins to interrupt me, saying, 'i dont need to put up with this' he got louder and began to embarrass me. i said 'stop talking to me like this, if anyone hears you talking to me and pointing at me they will feel sorry for me' mike sounded like a big punk ass bully. i dont need to be talked to like that!
i dont need to be told what to do im an adult! he doesnt even hang out with me he goes to bed. and last wknd when i woke up he didn't yell at me either. this was out of nowhere. i didnt need to drink last night, but to be demanded not too! so he told me he was going to take me home. when we got back he said pack your stuff. what?! thanks for ruining my wknd. i dont have a car but i could of tried to make other plans. i dont have many friends that is the thing. all i want (other than a job and my car fixed and my own apartment) is to have cool ppl to hang out with!) i mean damn! how hard is it just to have normal fun easy going ppl to hang out with!??!? so i tried to msg whoever i could about doing something. no way did i want to just go home to my parents and sit there especially after i put on makeup and looked nice. mikes a jerk you know. he made plans to hang out with weston i could of tagged along. mike could be cool with me i dont get out of hand im a normal person. i like to go out, have some drinks, chat, laugh. mike never hangs out with me he goes to bed! he is lame! i am sick of him! i want to meet a guy that i like who likes me! it seems like if i like a guy he doesnt like me but tries to pass me off on his friend, ..or my friend kim who keeps trying to set me up with that guy, im just not feeling it. you know? who cares....i just want a guy to hang out with that i like, i am comfortable with, who is cute, personable, funny and who likes me too! someone who wants to take me out and stuff. i like doing lots of things, not just drinking. i like doing activities, excursions, exploring, fine dining, wining...uh...(i was gonna say 69ing cuz it rhymed and i was trying to be goofy but that just sounds nasty..) i mean...nevermind!!!!!!!!!!! ughh wtf? hmm....yeah so, la da da...mike was going to take me back but adam actually msgd me back. he said he was having a drink at applebees with some friends but he would come and get me. so he got me around 1030 in easton and mike shooed me out of their. well when i got in the car, adam said he was on a date. i was like, 'uh...ok.' he assurred me it was cool and that the girl told him to get me. well maybe she would be cool and it wouldn't feel awkward???
PART 2 of the story...
so we get to applebees and its busy. adam says hi to some guys that was there and then a woman approaches me shes like, 'hi lori im...(uh, i forget her name? oh yeah, nikol, (that is how she spelled it on the cool dry erase board with neon glowy markers later when she played pool) i want to get one of those boards.
she looked kind of older but was super skinny. and she was kind of wasted and i was still sort of out of it. you see, i go from getting kicked out by mike and on the verge of crying and then getting picked up and dumped out at applebees, and she begins to tell me, 'i dont mean to bring this up, but adam told me you were having problems with your boyfriend' so basically he felt bad for me and she encouraged him to get me. she introduced me to this guy and made me sit next to him but in no way was i interested in trying to meet some guy, you know? the whole thing just reeked of awkwardness. i wouldnt mind hanging out with adam him and i used to be amigos. we could chill and hang out and talk we would go to the strip club or wherever and he always buys drinks haha. adam is cool hes just my friend tho. im not interested in him i have known him since high school. but now you know, it was like hanging out with adam and his date. it just felt weird. i felt intrusive almost. and nikol asked me if i smoke i was like, 'well, i dont buy cigarettes but sometimes i smoke mikes' so she was like, ok and offered me a parliament menthol light (which i used to smoke) so i went outside with her to have a smoke. she asked me how old i was so i told her she told me she was 35. she was pretty just seemed older. i mean, like i say i hate when ppl ask my age and if i have any kids cuz most ppl my age have a few kids. she also said she was a dental assistant and got 20.00 an hour but quit cuz she was having problems with her co-workers. dental assistant eh? anyways it was cold when we went back in i saw a commercial of diamonds on the tv (diamond syncs via facebook tmz jade cole lost her diamond someone msgd diamond rihanna song) the weird thing is, nikol started talking about everything i had blogged about, (that note i made about advice) she said about how her dreams were shattered and she had two kids and she didnt follow her dreams to join the marines or become a cop. she got in an accident and shattered her pelvis. what else? adam ordered food but it was midnight and we were gonna go somewhere else. the guy she introduced me to wanted to go to the strip club, (spankys). why would he suggest going to a strip club tho kind of weird. she wanted to go to landslide, a country western bar in nj. i would of went somewhere in pburg or easton? i dont know? whatever i didnt even care. the food came but she wanted another cigarette her and adam went outside i went out for a bit with all of them she was drunk the guy who worked at applebees was out for a break and was making fun of her and she didnt even realize. i got cold went inside and they were still out there. the other guy came back was trying to talk to me but i was like, '
yeah so as i was saying, i felt so upset. what was i doing there? (great now my relatives are here and i dont feel like dealing with them. i just want my own place i dont want to be all friendly now)...i started feeling a hot wave of tears overcoming me, (and the second glass of beer i had was not helping) i went to the bathroom..i just came upside well i said hi and stuff but my aunt sat right next to me so i cant really finish this i just want to finish typing this ya know? and my dad put in the poseidon adventure, the cheapie version, i got him 'poseidon' for christmas and he keeps insisting he has it he thinks its the poseidon adventure. its not! i started to become aggravated so i went upstairs. i need to take a shower and charge my phone. i also dont feel like watching poseidon adventure!!! so yeah i went into the bathroom and texted mike, "can i come home tonight?" i felt tears welling up i just felt so awkward and depressed. i was feeling awkward and lonely.. mike texts me back like, 'if you have been drinking, no'. i had 2 beers. i can drink 9 beers. im fine after 6 i start to get buzzed at 7 then i become another person at 8 and 9 (i guess bcuz that is when i black out)...anyways....lets see. hmm...so anyways, we went to landslide, we followed nikol home so she can drop her car off and get into adams car she was swerving later she said she wanted to get into an accident so she could get more chiropractor (and she wants to be a cop!? wow) she said she got into lots of car accidents. she was kind of crazy even adam said that as we were driving in his car following her. he said he met her on plentyoffish.com
ha! figures. so we get to landslide a little after midnight. they close at 3, really? so last call is at 230. oh ok well adam gets our drinks and she plays some country songs in the jukebox or like, taylor swift and stuff. hung out for a bit she played pool. nothing spectacular. after they wanted to go to sands but i was tired and wanted to go home. so they took me home. the music was pumping reminded me of high school ya know when you sit in the back seat while the music is blasting! haha. oh yeah another weird thing nikol started talking about looking into the mirror and communicating with yourself. that was weird i just mentioned that on my blog and note. maybe nikol was my split personality? and it was me talking to myself in the bathroom mirror!???! (wouldnt that be a weird story lol) so yeah, she said its good to have a good cry. look at your reflection but she started saying how most ppl think its weird so she cuts off that advice i was like, 'thats weird cuz i just wrote that'...but yeah i go home and uh, the guy i do like...he texts me to call..oh i dont feel like explaining this now. maybe later plus it keeps stopping to save and therefore freezes up what im typing and i need a shower. later!!! (oh btw i did have fun with adam and nikol they were cool not trying to sound like im complaining i was about to write about that tsa guy but im not going to now haha)
things soon took a terrible turn, when mike decides to say, 'theres a few things i want to talk to you about'. when he says this, its not really things he wants to talk about, its a list of demands he orders me to do, in a demeaning tone as if i am a dog or his slave.
i wanted to talk to him about something i saw on entertainment weekly, "hey did you know that charlie sheen gave lindsay lohan 100,000.00 wow! shit, i could use that money why give it to entitled hollywood brat lindsay? she should grow up and stay out of trouble, " oh oops i forgot, shes programmed tho. shes a poor little victim who has been programmed with many personalities such as margoex and uh...liz. whatever!?
so anyways...while i was slurping on my clam chowder, he places his arms disturbingly on the table and crosses his hands solemnly in front of him. "lori i dont want you drinking tonight and thats it. i might let you for new years'
ok um first of all, his tone was very condescending and demanding. im not a dog im a human being. which is what i said, to which he begins to interrupt me, saying, 'i dont need to put up with this' he got louder and began to embarrass me. i said 'stop talking to me like this, if anyone hears you talking to me and pointing at me they will feel sorry for me' mike sounded like a big punk ass bully. i dont need to be talked to like that!
i dont need to be told what to do im an adult! he doesnt even hang out with me he goes to bed. and last wknd when i woke up he didn't yell at me either. this was out of nowhere. i didnt need to drink last night, but to be demanded not too! so he told me he was going to take me home. when we got back he said pack your stuff. what?! thanks for ruining my wknd. i dont have a car but i could of tried to make other plans. i dont have many friends that is the thing. all i want (other than a job and my car fixed and my own apartment) is to have cool ppl to hang out with!) i mean damn! how hard is it just to have normal fun easy going ppl to hang out with!??!? so i tried to msg whoever i could about doing something. no way did i want to just go home to my parents and sit there especially after i put on makeup and looked nice. mikes a jerk you know. he made plans to hang out with weston i could of tagged along. mike could be cool with me i dont get out of hand im a normal person. i like to go out, have some drinks, chat, laugh. mike never hangs out with me he goes to bed! he is lame! i am sick of him! i want to meet a guy that i like who likes me! it seems like if i like a guy he doesnt like me but tries to pass me off on his friend, ..or my friend kim who keeps trying to set me up with that guy, im just not feeling it. you know? who cares....i just want a guy to hang out with that i like, i am comfortable with, who is cute, personable, funny and who likes me too! someone who wants to take me out and stuff. i like doing lots of things, not just drinking. i like doing activities, excursions, exploring, fine dining, wining...uh...(i was gonna say 69ing cuz it rhymed and i was trying to be goofy but that just sounds nasty..) i mean...nevermind!!!!!!!!!!! ughh wtf? hmm....yeah so, la da da...mike was going to take me back but adam actually msgd me back. he said he was having a drink at applebees with some friends but he would come and get me. so he got me around 1030 in easton and mike shooed me out of their. well when i got in the car, adam said he was on a date. i was like, 'uh...ok.' he assurred me it was cool and that the girl told him to get me. well maybe she would be cool and it wouldn't feel awkward???
PART 2 of the story...
so we get to applebees and its busy. adam says hi to some guys that was there and then a woman approaches me shes like, 'hi lori im...(uh, i forget her name? oh yeah, nikol, (that is how she spelled it on the cool dry erase board with neon glowy markers later when she played pool) i want to get one of those boards.
she looked kind of older but was super skinny. and she was kind of wasted and i was still sort of out of it. you see, i go from getting kicked out by mike and on the verge of crying and then getting picked up and dumped out at applebees, and she begins to tell me, 'i dont mean to bring this up, but adam told me you were having problems with your boyfriend' so basically he felt bad for me and she encouraged him to get me. she introduced me to this guy and made me sit next to him but in no way was i interested in trying to meet some guy, you know? the whole thing just reeked of awkwardness. i wouldnt mind hanging out with adam him and i used to be amigos. we could chill and hang out and talk we would go to the strip club or wherever and he always buys drinks haha. adam is cool hes just my friend tho. im not interested in him i have known him since high school. but now you know, it was like hanging out with adam and his date. it just felt weird. i felt intrusive almost. and nikol asked me if i smoke i was like, 'well, i dont buy cigarettes but sometimes i smoke mikes' so she was like, ok and offered me a parliament menthol light (which i used to smoke) so i went outside with her to have a smoke. she asked me how old i was so i told her she told me she was 35. she was pretty just seemed older. i mean, like i say i hate when ppl ask my age and if i have any kids cuz most ppl my age have a few kids. she also said she was a dental assistant and got 20.00 an hour but quit cuz she was having problems with her co-workers. dental assistant eh? anyways it was cold when we went back in i saw a commercial of diamonds on the tv (diamond syncs via facebook tmz jade cole lost her diamond someone msgd diamond rihanna song) the weird thing is, nikol started talking about everything i had blogged about, (that note i made about advice) she said about how her dreams were shattered and she had two kids and she didnt follow her dreams to join the marines or become a cop. she got in an accident and shattered her pelvis. what else? adam ordered food but it was midnight and we were gonna go somewhere else. the guy she introduced me to wanted to go to the strip club, (spankys). why would he suggest going to a strip club tho kind of weird. she wanted to go to landslide, a country western bar in nj. i would of went somewhere in pburg or easton? i dont know? whatever i didnt even care. the food came but she wanted another cigarette her and adam went outside i went out for a bit with all of them she was drunk the guy who worked at applebees was out for a break and was making fun of her and she didnt even realize. i got cold went inside and they were still out there. the other guy came back was trying to talk to me but i was like, '
yeah so as i was saying, i felt so upset. what was i doing there? (great now my relatives are here and i dont feel like dealing with them. i just want my own place i dont want to be all friendly now)...i started feeling a hot wave of tears overcoming me, (and the second glass of beer i had was not helping) i went to the bathroom..i just came upside well i said hi and stuff but my aunt sat right next to me so i cant really finish this i just want to finish typing this ya know? and my dad put in the poseidon adventure, the cheapie version, i got him 'poseidon' for christmas and he keeps insisting he has it he thinks its the poseidon adventure. its not! i started to become aggravated so i went upstairs. i need to take a shower and charge my phone. i also dont feel like watching poseidon adventure!!! so yeah i went into the bathroom and texted mike, "can i come home tonight?" i felt tears welling up i just felt so awkward and depressed. i was feeling awkward and lonely.. mike texts me back like, 'if you have been drinking, no'. i had 2 beers. i can drink 9 beers. im fine after 6 i start to get buzzed at 7 then i become another person at 8 and 9 (i guess bcuz that is when i black out)...anyways....lets see. hmm...so anyways, we went to landslide, we followed nikol home so she can drop her car off and get into adams car she was swerving later she said she wanted to get into an accident so she could get more chiropractor (and she wants to be a cop!? wow) she said she got into lots of car accidents. she was kind of crazy even adam said that as we were driving in his car following her. he said he met her on plentyoffish.com
ha! figures. so we get to landslide a little after midnight. they close at 3, really? so last call is at 230. oh ok well adam gets our drinks and she plays some country songs in the jukebox or like, taylor swift and stuff. hung out for a bit she played pool. nothing spectacular. after they wanted to go to sands but i was tired and wanted to go home. so they took me home. the music was pumping reminded me of high school ya know when you sit in the back seat while the music is blasting! haha. oh yeah another weird thing nikol started talking about looking into the mirror and communicating with yourself. that was weird i just mentioned that on my blog and note. maybe nikol was my split personality? and it was me talking to myself in the bathroom mirror!???! (wouldnt that be a weird story lol) so yeah, she said its good to have a good cry. look at your reflection but she started saying how most ppl think its weird so she cuts off that advice i was like, 'thats weird cuz i just wrote that'...but yeah i go home and uh, the guy i do like...he texts me to call..oh i dont feel like explaining this now. maybe later plus it keeps stopping to save and therefore freezes up what im typing and i need a shower. later!!! (oh btw i did have fun with adam and nikol they were cool not trying to sound like im complaining i was about to write about that tsa guy but im not going to now haha)
Friday, December 28, 2012
Career
I know a few ppl try and want to have a great career. "Lawyer, psychologist, fashion designer' they go to school uni, they complete this years of school but dont have work now. its hard! unless you are born MK'd then why would you have a job in fashion? or an actress? MKd lawyers and doctors!! so yeah!???! my friend jonathen has been going to school for YEARS!!! he loves designing dresses but he is still waiting tables at the fancy italian restaurants. he spent 7000.00 designing a dress for taylor swift and she never even wore it! oh but taylor swift "has so many dresses" http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/11/12/taylor-swift-dress-style-harpers-bazaar-cover-interview_n_2116611.html
Advice to young folks
(ha that made me think of that 'young folks' song, remember that?) i was going to make a V-log (how its prounounced) but ever since mike threw all my stuff into the trunk of my car, well, that is where my webcam rests now.
Hello! So, I have a few things I would like to say. Chapter 1: becoming comfortable with who you are. First of all, some advice to those of you who are still in high school. Perhaps you are a sophomore, well, I know this sounds cliche and sounds redundant, but...get good grades! It is not that hard to do! Just pay attention, take notes, and study study study! I know it is hard to do, especially with all sorts of distractions, such as tv, video games, friends, internet, etc. I know right now you probably feel as if you are never going to get out of high school, but that is simply not true. Two years will start going by quicker than you think! Cherish the time you are in school. Strive to make it a good school experience, scholastically and for your own memory files. Make friends so that you will have them later in life. It might feel like making friends can be hard, or you might feel insecure or depressed. This is normal. If you do feel depressed, then just keep reassuring yourself and look to the future. You can become whoever you want to be! You just need the right gameplan! Are your parents supportive of you? Do they push you to do your best? I know all parents want what is best for their kids, but sometimes they do not know how to go about encouraging their kids. Do you feel like you have no one who wants to help you? Then you should help yourself! Do it for YOU!!! Encourage YOURSELF! Look in the mirror and smile at yourself. This should be an exercise. Do it in the morning, and before you go to bed. Begin to become used to yourself, who you are. If you have a webcam, start recording yourself. You can talk about whatever is on your mind. Watch these videos. Become used to YOU! Take note on your appearance, how you speak, how you pronounce and enunciate. You will start becoming more comfortable with yourself. Do not be too picky. Embrace your quirks. Tell yourself, 'this quirk is what makes me, me!' If you can fool yourself with confidence, you can fool others, and after time, this will come naturally. Your confidence will be as breezy as the..uh...breeze. Talk to your parents too. You should feel safe and comfortable enough to talk to your parents with whatever is on your mind, they will be happy to hear this. Yes sometimes people come from tough upbringings. "I can't really talk to my family." Why? Why can't you talk to your family? Is there drugs/alchohol abuse, physical mental abuse? Are your parents divorced, poor, do you have lots of siblings? Try to understand that they are going through problems and be supportive. Remain strong and positive. It is easy to go down a destructive path full of negativity and depression. Talk to someone. You need some sort of 'authority figure' to talk too. Not like a police, but people are willing to listen and understand and help you? Anyways, focus on your school work and productivity. Are you artistic? Realize that art class is not going to be around forever! Take advantage of this. Take alot of art classes. SAVE YOUR WORK! are you athletic? focus on good health and physical fitness.
Chapter 2: establishing a game plan
While you are still in high school, you are going to need to come up with a gameplan. Do it now! Why? Ok, for example, Byron absolutely hates school. He doesn't have much friends. He dreads waking up and lugging himself on the bus. He does all he can to just 'blend in' and go un-noticed. Byron is overweight. He used to get bullied in elementary school for being overweight and wearing hand me downs, and for smelling like a basement with dirty clothes. As a sophomore in high school, he still gets picked on. No girls talk to him. He has a few friends, other 'misfits'. He sits in the back of the class and keeps to himself. He can't wait to graduate so he can just be left alone. He has thought about just dropping out of school, many times. "Why bother?" he thinks. WHY BOTHER BYRON? right...why bother?!
fast forward 10 years, (had he dropped out). 25 years old, still living with his mommy, even more overweight. Living in the dark basement, playing HALO or whatever video game he plays. Not working, not even bothering getting a job. Still miserable.
See? If he just STOPPED FEELING SORRY FOR HIMSELF, HE COULD OF MADE A PACT WITH HIMSELF!
SO THIS IS WHAT YOU MUST DO, NOW IF YOU ARE STILL YOUNG ENOUGH TO DO SO!
Make a pact with yourself. If you hate school, fine, you hate it. But, tell yourself, 'this is only temporary! I will not be here much longer."
Come up with a game plan. Get a job and begin working. You can go to community college or university if you have a scholarship. You are young. What bills do you have had? Bad credit? I doubt that! Once you graduate, maybe you can get involved with the job corps. They will help you until you are 24. You do not necessarily have to go enroll into college right away. Work, stay at home, save your money! Get a notebook and make a timeline for yourself. Be reasonable too. Have fun with your life. Meet new people. Be happy to be alive! Write down certain goals and dreams you have in your notebook. Think of a reasonable job, one you can get work in. Have you ever thought about travel careers? Flight attendant, TSA, (if you dont have a bad work history and are just starting out, these jobs are perfect) you get training and then you will get a good career. Security guards, (they get payed well! sometimes 40.00 an hour! go to school for criminal justice!) another well paying job, dental hygienist. this takes lots of school and study, but if you conditioned yourself to good study habits as discussed in chapter 1, you should do fine! While these may not be your dream jobs, at least you now have a well paying career. You can write down your hobbies and DO THEM IN YOUR FREE TIME! do you want to write stories? THEN DO IT! do you want to take up photography classes? THEN DO IT!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!!! if you are well set financially, then you will have a much healthier, positive outlook, rather than a miserable, negative outlook.
Chapter 3: Taking care of yourself.
Listen, just because you are done with high school and you see all your peers going off to college, where they discover the fine art of partying, DOES NOT MEAN YOU HAVE TO GO DOWN THAT ROUTE! they have been conditioned by countless movies, reality shows, media etc, GLAMOURIZING this sort of lifestyle. "Oh, lets get drunk and wasted!" "lets do a beer bong! Lets shotgun these beers". You might find yourself with an alchohol problem, and next thing you know, you get a DUI, and a DUI is NOT FUN!!! imagine, over 1000.00 in fines, not to mention losing your license for 6 months or more, and the surcharges up to 5000.00. AND THIS GOES ON YOUR DRIVING RECORD! uh, just try not to get wrapped up in the partying lifestyle, believe me! Alchohol just brings MORE problems than you can ever imagine. Plus you get caught in situations you would never be in if you werent messed up. Something bad might happen to you, you could hook up with someone and end up getting pregnant, not knowing who the dad could be!? (seriously that does happen) People become irresponsible when they drink. Why get wrapped up in problems, just avoid it. It might be hard to avoid drinking especially if you have the alchohlic gene in you. Sometimes you tell yourself you are just going to to have a few beers, but before you know it you can't stop. You end up wasting all your money at the bar and blacking out. What fun is that? Maybe you should get help? Maybe just avoid being around alchohol, even tho it is hard. Just be aware of yourself, if anything. Have someone look out for you. Be around people you trust and who care about your well-being.
This chapter includes diet and exercise too. Drink water, eat healthy. Once
Once you start cooking your going to want to keep up the good cycle.
I know this says advice to young folks, but this isnt just for younger folks. It can be for anyone. You see, its never too late to start adopting good habits. Yes, the older you get, the more "stuck in your ways" you become. Start thinking positively. You'll be surprised at the wonders a positive outlook can bring. Learn to insert a clove in the ham. (??) anyways....reflect on life. Take a moment everyday to look at your surroundings. Take note of everything going on. Do not be ego-driven at this moment. Just soak in your environment. LEARN TO LISTEN! sometimes people like to talk but they never LISTEN!!!
Hello! So, I have a few things I would like to say. Chapter 1: becoming comfortable with who you are. First of all, some advice to those of you who are still in high school. Perhaps you are a sophomore, well, I know this sounds cliche and sounds redundant, but...get good grades! It is not that hard to do! Just pay attention, take notes, and study study study! I know it is hard to do, especially with all sorts of distractions, such as tv, video games, friends, internet, etc. I know right now you probably feel as if you are never going to get out of high school, but that is simply not true. Two years will start going by quicker than you think! Cherish the time you are in school. Strive to make it a good school experience, scholastically and for your own memory files. Make friends so that you will have them later in life. It might feel like making friends can be hard, or you might feel insecure or depressed. This is normal. If you do feel depressed, then just keep reassuring yourself and look to the future. You can become whoever you want to be! You just need the right gameplan! Are your parents supportive of you? Do they push you to do your best? I know all parents want what is best for their kids, but sometimes they do not know how to go about encouraging their kids. Do you feel like you have no one who wants to help you? Then you should help yourself! Do it for YOU!!! Encourage YOURSELF! Look in the mirror and smile at yourself. This should be an exercise. Do it in the morning, and before you go to bed. Begin to become used to yourself, who you are. If you have a webcam, start recording yourself. You can talk about whatever is on your mind. Watch these videos. Become used to YOU! Take note on your appearance, how you speak, how you pronounce and enunciate. You will start becoming more comfortable with yourself. Do not be too picky. Embrace your quirks. Tell yourself, 'this quirk is what makes me, me!' If you can fool yourself with confidence, you can fool others, and after time, this will come naturally. Your confidence will be as breezy as the..uh...breeze. Talk to your parents too. You should feel safe and comfortable enough to talk to your parents with whatever is on your mind, they will be happy to hear this. Yes sometimes people come from tough upbringings. "I can't really talk to my family." Why? Why can't you talk to your family? Is there drugs/alchohol abuse, physical mental abuse? Are your parents divorced, poor, do you have lots of siblings? Try to understand that they are going through problems and be supportive. Remain strong and positive. It is easy to go down a destructive path full of negativity and depression. Talk to someone. You need some sort of 'authority figure' to talk too. Not like a police, but people are willing to listen and understand and help you? Anyways, focus on your school work and productivity. Are you artistic? Realize that art class is not going to be around forever! Take advantage of this. Take alot of art classes. SAVE YOUR WORK! are you athletic? focus on good health and physical fitness.
Chapter 2: establishing a game plan
While you are still in high school, you are going to need to come up with a gameplan. Do it now! Why? Ok, for example, Byron absolutely hates school. He doesn't have much friends. He dreads waking up and lugging himself on the bus. He does all he can to just 'blend in' and go un-noticed. Byron is overweight. He used to get bullied in elementary school for being overweight and wearing hand me downs, and for smelling like a basement with dirty clothes. As a sophomore in high school, he still gets picked on. No girls talk to him. He has a few friends, other 'misfits'. He sits in the back of the class and keeps to himself. He can't wait to graduate so he can just be left alone. He has thought about just dropping out of school, many times. "Why bother?" he thinks. WHY BOTHER BYRON? right...why bother?!
fast forward 10 years, (had he dropped out). 25 years old, still living with his mommy, even more overweight. Living in the dark basement, playing HALO or whatever video game he plays. Not working, not even bothering getting a job. Still miserable.
See? If he just STOPPED FEELING SORRY FOR HIMSELF, HE COULD OF MADE A PACT WITH HIMSELF!
SO THIS IS WHAT YOU MUST DO, NOW IF YOU ARE STILL YOUNG ENOUGH TO DO SO!
Make a pact with yourself. If you hate school, fine, you hate it. But, tell yourself, 'this is only temporary! I will not be here much longer."
Come up with a game plan. Get a job and begin working. You can go to community college or university if you have a scholarship. You are young. What bills do you have had? Bad credit? I doubt that! Once you graduate, maybe you can get involved with the job corps. They will help you until you are 24. You do not necessarily have to go enroll into college right away. Work, stay at home, save your money! Get a notebook and make a timeline for yourself. Be reasonable too. Have fun with your life. Meet new people. Be happy to be alive! Write down certain goals and dreams you have in your notebook. Think of a reasonable job, one you can get work in. Have you ever thought about travel careers? Flight attendant, TSA, (if you dont have a bad work history and are just starting out, these jobs are perfect) you get training and then you will get a good career. Security guards, (they get payed well! sometimes 40.00 an hour! go to school for criminal justice!) another well paying job, dental hygienist. this takes lots of school and study, but if you conditioned yourself to good study habits as discussed in chapter 1, you should do fine! While these may not be your dream jobs, at least you now have a well paying career. You can write down your hobbies and DO THEM IN YOUR FREE TIME! do you want to write stories? THEN DO IT! do you want to take up photography classes? THEN DO IT!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!!! if you are well set financially, then you will have a much healthier, positive outlook, rather than a miserable, negative outlook.
Chapter 3: Taking care of yourself.
Listen, just because you are done with high school and you see all your peers going off to college, where they discover the fine art of partying, DOES NOT MEAN YOU HAVE TO GO DOWN THAT ROUTE! they have been conditioned by countless movies, reality shows, media etc, GLAMOURIZING this sort of lifestyle. "Oh, lets get drunk and wasted!" "lets do a beer bong! Lets shotgun these beers". You might find yourself with an alchohol problem, and next thing you know, you get a DUI, and a DUI is NOT FUN!!! imagine, over 1000.00 in fines, not to mention losing your license for 6 months or more, and the surcharges up to 5000.00. AND THIS GOES ON YOUR DRIVING RECORD! uh, just try not to get wrapped up in the partying lifestyle, believe me! Alchohol just brings MORE problems than you can ever imagine. Plus you get caught in situations you would never be in if you werent messed up. Something bad might happen to you, you could hook up with someone and end up getting pregnant, not knowing who the dad could be!? (seriously that does happen) People become irresponsible when they drink. Why get wrapped up in problems, just avoid it. It might be hard to avoid drinking especially if you have the alchohlic gene in you. Sometimes you tell yourself you are just going to to have a few beers, but before you know it you can't stop. You end up wasting all your money at the bar and blacking out. What fun is that? Maybe you should get help? Maybe just avoid being around alchohol, even tho it is hard. Just be aware of yourself, if anything. Have someone look out for you. Be around people you trust and who care about your well-being.
This chapter includes diet and exercise too. Drink water, eat healthy. Once
Once you start cooking your going to want to keep up the good cycle.
I know this says advice to young folks, but this isnt just for younger folks. It can be for anyone. You see, its never too late to start adopting good habits. Yes, the older you get, the more "stuck in your ways" you become. Start thinking positively. You'll be surprised at the wonders a positive outlook can bring. Learn to insert a clove in the ham. (??) anyways....reflect on life. Take a moment everyday to look at your surroundings. Take note of everything going on. Do not be ego-driven at this moment. Just soak in your environment. LEARN TO LISTEN! sometimes people like to talk but they never LISTEN!!!
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