Saturday, December 28, 2013

so....lets see. im craving yogurt. i used to not like greek yogurt but now i like it..i like it on salmon with some dill and lemon juice. anyways, uh....oh yeah the other day the boss said food poison and ziti salad remember? then i ordered chicken parm and they brought it out with ziti (last time it was angelhair pasta) and i got food poisoned. was i triggered or hypnotized to get sick, so that i had to call off, and in turn, lose that job? wtf does it mean? oh some one left a rude comment to a blog about dying my hair blonde or keeping it natural...calling me fat ugly and stupid. wow ok!? whatever

hmm so i just cant wait to get my own place tho. that is my goal! by the summer i want my own place! i just want to be able to feel complete and happy.

i dont feel like blogging anymore tonight. so long!

Monday, December 23, 2013

food poisoning

so, this weekend i basically stayed home. my parents had left to pick up sage in s. carolina, and i had to stay here to feed the cats etc. friday mike came over for a bit and we went to the mall and grabbed a pizza, but i got upset with him for some reason...idk? i went back to my parents and went to sleep pretty early. saturday i went to mikes hoping to pick up my check, which didn't arrived. i used his shower then came home. i was going to try to make plans for later that night but i had received a text from my dad, actually from sage. she said she was sleeping over and wanted me to go to church the next day. so i waited for them, and i was about to head out but decided to stay in with sage. we watched elisa lam youtube videos and the alien apple logo youtube and stuff. next morning went to church, then had cookies and coffee afterwards, then we came back to the house. lisa and matt were there and my mom suggested we all go get lunch so we went to the italian place with the lunch specials. it was all pastas and chicken parmigian lunches for 4.95 i had chicken parmigian...itchy feet! so later they left and i was so tired i went to sleep at 10 because i had to wake up early the next morning..oh yeah after sage and them left i went to the mall with my mom to get some gifts. i told my mom it felt like i have been punched in the stomach. it did tho!?? and at the mall i kept smelling these weird candles at yankee candle like buttered popcorn and 2X4 and football scented, which made me feel nauseous. when i fell asleep i woke up because my dad had the heat on so high. i thought it was time to wake up or 4 in the morning, and i went to the bathroom and looked at the time, it was wasnt even midnight, but then when i layed back down, i could feel all this food grumbling around and i had diarhhea cramps...or whatever. i was up for two hours trying to just sleep because i couldnt go to the bathroom when i tried. finally i started dry heaving and i felt i had to puke so i went to the bathroom and started to puke but i also started getting diarhhea (gross i know!? sorry!) so i sat on the toilet, and i started puking in the tub at the same time it was awful!!!! and i kept heaving about 4 or 5 times till all the chicken parm and penne vodka (why they gave me that instead of spaghetti im not sure? im not much of a pasta person either too heavy)...it was awful but my belly was emptied and my bowels...ughh terrible! but then i wanted to clean out the tub so i got buckets of hot water and washed it down the drain and then i poured bleach in the tub too, but i was exhausted so i went back...this morning i woke up at 4 and i had more diarrhea..(why!? i dont know? i have been eating lots of sweets too...) i dont know why i am writing about this!??! anyways..i woke up for work and i came downstairs but my body felt like i fell off a roof onto concrete and i knew if i went to work i would feel faint and get sick again, so i called off...but they ended my assignment...

all day today i felt weak and chills...and tired. i layed on the couch all day, falling in and out of sleep while fox news and cnbc (yes i turned it on because something about coolest jobs were on and american greed)..i kept falling asleep while the tv talked about those vietnamese group who scammed casinos out of millions were on in the background.

i didnt even eat today, save for an orange, and half that sandwich my dad kept telling me to eat...(which was too fluffy starch bread and ham...and thick cheese ugh) that kind of food doesnt settle well in my stomach...

also gatorade.

so yeah thats that!















 

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

ROLLY POLLY LOLLY JOLLY HEH HEH HEH BELLY LAUGHS!!

my day

so yes i was thinking of ideas. so, if you are told something would you feel special? would you even stop to think you are being used as a mere puppet?

anyways, at work we had a free lunch. hoagies and chips. nice. before the lunch we had a meeting, and the head guy (not sure his name but he always makes sure to tell us poids ((cant think of the word now!?? lowly workers who get excited about wegmans food...)) HA! anyways we always have meeting and he always makes sure to remind us to clean up after ourselves in the breakroom. lol! hmm...uh, i forgot what i was gonna write now. he said he tried the food before and he didnt get food poison. alrighty then....they sent a few ppl home early i had to stay till 5. oh work...do i blog about it? hmm seems i do...

gahhhh!!!(oh yeah i saw one of the managers had a notebook with good ol' sirius DOG STAR on it too) LOL!! rolly polly LOLLY

Once you get your top secret security question, you need to answer some basic job placement questions, a few of them being mathematical. One of the questions is, you are assigned a roster of family households to monitor per work day, (8 hour shift). If you are alotted one minute per hour per household, then how many family households will you have to monitor per work day?

When you start entry level they will train you on cues to look for while monitoring your assigned family household. You will start off evaluating a series of set number per day, and the more trained your eye gets, the more households you will be assigned.

Why am I asking such absurd questions? Oh, I am merely thinking of some sort of *jazzy hands* "sci-fi, totalitarian, police state, orwellian based novel, (sort of like how Brian the Dog Star writes novels). Within the plot, one of the monitors will get attached to the families. This monitor will begin to feel like some sort of protective shield, looking over their nest like a protective wheel in the sky. Observing, emoting human feelings of attachment over their families. In a meeting, said monitor finds out that one of the household's has been put on footnote, (meaning on the targetted list). How is this possible? The monitor kept a log of the family, and the activities, as assigned, but how and what did they do to be put on the footnoted T.I.s list?

The monitor decides to forwarn the targetted household by finding ways to subliminal inject messages to them. This takes place in a series of subliminal, (yet not smug), messages in the newspapers that the household reads, the radio station they listen too, hidden messages on the news that will strike a chord, even hearing specific piano notes being played while they sleep coming through radio waves being directed into the house. Which is helpful, or which are made to direct them to psychotic nuerosis? Or is it all designed to do a little bit of both? 

The monitor is not even aware that they are being used as well, while thinking they are being helpful, they are really playing into what they were programmed to do from the get go.

On another note, about 5 years ago, if someone were to say to you, "you know, they can read your emails if they want," how would you reply? "Why would they? Why would they read mine, or yours? You are nothing important? You are no one special." In this novel, I will address how it is part of the monitors jobs to review their set list of households. "They" consist of those monitors that would for the NSA. "They" log down their households activities, their phone calls, their text messages, their emails, their social networking, and everything else about them. "They" need to make sure to 'footnote' and submit files of any suspicious activity as well. "They" are trained to believe this is all for national security, and as it slowly gets leaked to the public about these procedures, no one questions anything because they were all slowly being manipulated, distracted, and injected with 'dont question, listen, behave and obey' mantras all their lives.


While this is merely a 'novel' idea I would like to embark on, just take another moment to think of Edward Snowden, who got in trouble for wiki leaks, for example. "Pssh! Yeah, we all knew that!" Knew what? Oh, that they can go through anyone emails if they like? Sure, yeah, we know! (Five years ago no one would of agreed to that notion, however.)

Go and buy your XBoxes with the attached cameras. Sure! Invite your monitors into your household! Make them feel welcome!

Enjoy! (again, this is merely a novel idea I have. I get bored at work and I think of things like this. I have been thinking of story ideas since I was a kid, hey, it is what I do! ;) ) Oh on another note, if you knew secrets, would you be subliminally smug about it, forewarning in a deciphering manner, attached with a code of conduct or some sort of moral to the story heroics behind it? Would you write a song about it? How would you lest be known all the while not lest be known? Do you catch my drift? Tokyo drift? idk...mumbles away...














Monday, December 16, 2013

oh so yesterday my dad wanted me to tape the play anyways it was about christmas ornaments and it made me giggle quietly to myself because it reminded me of the snowflake skit on SNL night before i cant see the cursor so thats it for now bye

Sunday, December 15, 2013

Oh hai!

So listens....uh..still get upset sometimes to see how biased certain ppl can be when it comes to fb...so kim was posting a bunch of selfies, like she always does. i dont care, but i notice that lisa likes kims selfies. i just keep remembering how she told me she doesnt icheck facebook in the morning because she doesnt want to see my posts!? and how she told me her friends had to ask her what is wrong with me and they had to delete me (i think its when i was sharing sandy hook conspiracy videos)..i noticed ppl deleted me (i had that friend deleting detection thing...also noticed that when i used to take pics of food i made and food stamps ppl get weird. im not getting into that tho. so i decided to do an experiment, i posted my white rabbit mask selfie pic and kim was   whats that on your head i said its the white rabbit mask im looking for answers! 

it was my fall down the rabbit hole whatever...because yeah when im out in LA i am in exploring mode and why not? i research stuff so who cares? well later lisa made a post about how she is so joyful about her life and she doesnt need to look for answers anymore because she has everything she needs (matt and his family..forget about her own family tho) shes more close with matts mom than her own...:/

oh whatever sage i hope your not reading this. im just kind of upset but it was so disguised that i could just be a disgusting creep (like she thinks of me)...yes lisa told me she would not want to know me in real life if we werent related. that hurts.

so i reposted this

 
No matter who you are, what you look like, or what you share with the world, there will always be someone who doesn't approve. There will always be someone who thinks you’re too much or too little. Someone who thinks you’re too loud or too quiet. Too weird or too boring. Too overbearing or too uninvolved. Too emotional or too needy or too outspoken. And that’s okay. You don’t live for other people. It isn't your job to conform to their idea of what constitutes a “worthwhile” human being. You are who you are, and you’re enough.

Instead of focusing on all of the people who don’t approve of you, try to take some time today to remind yourself of all the people who do appreciate and accept you. They’re the people who matter. Let go of the rest.


so i told moss in advance when i wanted a ticket back in which told me he was going to get my ticket well he never got it till last minute then he sprung it upon me that i had to pay for 30.00 of it (what??) so now i owe him money... 


 oh and we all have our own problems so i should feel like i am not allowed to feel upset about things? nevermind im just an ungrateful selfish disgusting creep right?


 


 

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

hey

hello! i havent really blogged in a while since i am so tired anymore! i work alot, and by the time i get out..its time for bed! at least i will be able to save up money now. i have been feeling quite depressed lately...because of lack of sun i think. i glimpsed some of the sun glistening off the new snow during lunch. so pretty! oh im tired!!!

yes thanksgiving came and went. i was so worried about it. i zoned out during the game..it was ok tho we went to matt and lisas.

what else? oh so since i have been back (and being in california helped too) i GAINED 10 pounds! yeah bcuz i am not cooking for myself! im eating crap food!

lots of starches, red meat, hibachis, etc...not alot of fresh veggies...also, i havent been liberally working out like i used too. no time and im tired, no money for LA fitness although snap is ok, they just dont have spin class. i walk on treadmill at  brisk pace for 20 minutes tho and i do the equipment. i think i am going to focus on my arms tho...lots of equipment for my arms i want muscular big bulky arms. yeah i want a nice bulky tone! 

just kidding. i want these peircings (below)

STUFF!!! yah yah yah1



i forget if there was anything else but im going to bed



lounge music playing while the buildings died 911 (the day the music died?)

She can kill with a smile
She can wound with her eyes
She can ruin your faith with her casual lies
And she only reveals what she wants you to see
She hides like a child,
But she's always a woman to me

She can lead you to love
She can take you or leave you
She can ask for the truth
But she'll never believe you
And she'll take what you give her, as long as it's free
Yeah, she steals like a thief
But she's always a woman to me

CHORUS:
Oh--she takes care of herself
She can wait if she wants
She's ahead of her time
Oh--and she never gives out
And she never gives in
She just changes her mind

And she'll promise you more
Than the Garden of Eden
Then she'll carelessly cut you
And laugh while you're bleedin'
But she'll bring out the best
And the worst you can be
Blame it all on yourself
Cause she's always a woman to me
--Mhmm--

Bridge

CHORUS:
Oh--she takes care of herself
She can wait if she wants
She's ahead of her time
Oh--and she never gives out
And she never gives in
She just changes her mind

She is frequently kind
And she's suddenly cruel
She can do as she pleases
She's nobody's fool
And she can't be convicted
She's earned her degree
And the most she will do
Is throw shadows at you
But she's always a woman to me
--Mhmm--

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fo9Xj6AgjZI

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Paul walker mysterious death

Whenever I hear of a celebrity death, I always wonder what the MK group will have to say about it. Paul Walker just died in a FIREY car death, and TMZ and PEOPLE plaster continuous reports (along with facebookers) all over the place. we are literally consumed with paul walker incidents, just as we were littered with the death of Brian, from Family Guy...all over fb. that just reminds me, i clicked on a link where brian had a msg for us...there was a countdown on the family guy website page. im wondering if....that countdown ended when paul walker died? coincedence or predictive programming...BRIAN is also the name of paul walkers character fast and the furious. in the episode in which brian the dog died (dog star sirius?) he got hit by a CAR! mark dice makes fun of us, calling us brain dead crack smoking idiots, when all his videos are just rants of him sounding like a big bully. oh well!

all right, so...paul walker...hmm...i noticed sunday was a big SACRIFICE night on the walking dead, where a bunch of walkers you know, walk around...what else?

oh the episode i was saying of family guy when brian got killed they were taking guns from the indians fast and furious program: Gunwalking", or "letting guns walk", was a tactic of the Arizona Field Office of the United States Bureau of Alcohol, Tobacco, Firearms and Explosives (ATF), which ran a series of sting operations[2][3] between 2006[4] and 2011[2][5] in the Tucson and Phoenix area where the ATF "purposely allowed licensed firearms dealers to sell weapons to illegal straw buyers, hoping to track the guns to Mexican drug cartel leaders."[6] These operations were done under the umbrella of Project Gunrunner, a project intended to stem the flow of firearms into Mexico by interdicting straw purchasers and gun traffickers within the United States.[7]





(nothing is just something )

synchronicities happened today. the simpsons episode had krusty smoking a CIGAR then the episode was about homer KILLING CELEBRITIES he mentioned drunk driving...i will share link about ryan dunn another porsche 911 sacrifice they say drunk driving. this is usually a ploy/decoy car crash etc

speaking of firey car crash paul walker ad in back of satanic serpent 25 years (25 occult number google it how many celebrities died on the 25th) paul walker COOL WATER ad opposite fire/water

im not too much into occult numerology im terrible at math...but its there! predictive programming on ellen (again i will link it)

 25 Michael Jackson died on June 25th,2009. Farrah Fawcett died on June 25th, 2009. Sky Saxon died on June 25th, 2009. James Brown died on December 25th, 2006. Dean Martin died on December 25th, 1995. Eartha Mae Kitt died on December 25th, 2008. Tupac Shakur died at 25 years old. Lisa (Left Eye) Lopes died on April 25th, 2002. Roger Troutman died on April 25th, 1999. Aaliyah Haughton died on August 25th, 2001. Static Major died on February 25th, 2008. Eminem’s famous hip-hop/sacrifice/Illuminati song, 25 to life. It’s like a prison sentence, 25 years, or the number 25 itself. December 25 is Horus/Lucifer’s birthday. That is why there are so many sacrifices on this day. The Sum of the numbers 2 and 5 equal to 7. On June 25th, 2009, there were 3 celebrity deaths. Writing these numbers out as digits gives us (2+5)(2+5)(2+5)=777. 777 is part of the 11:11 phenomena and as we have already seen, the number 11 was key to the September 11th attacks on the World Trade

 here is link on ryan dunn another illuminati sacrifice (born to be sacrificed?)


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o5daTgXZ6-w&feature=youtu.be

cut and paste: 
he single-car crash occurred around 3:30 p.m.<mentioned above <edit: sorry on my thread>> on Hercules Street <Satan/Lucifer aka Pan/Saturn/Hercules> near Constellation Road <false gospel in the stars> in the Rye <fbi is Catcher in the Rye?> Canyon Business Park, fire officials said.

 st realized James Dean of course, died in a Silver 550 spyder porsche . . .then we have Paul Walker dieing in a 2005 Porsche Carrera GT . . .so 550 = 2005 meaning 2 5's essentially. Yesterday at 2:52pm · Like · 2 Angel Sparks crap & 550 spyder porsche pictured has 205 on it, then the vin number, the year of the car/truck he crashed into was 1950 of which 3 of the numbers match the license plate on Walkers car ie 7CCY590 . . .don't ask me what it all means!? smh lol "James Dean's "Little Bastard" Perhaps the most famous of the first 90 Porsche 550's built was James Dean's "Little Bastard" numbered 130 (VIN 550-0055) which Dean fatally crashed into Donald Turnupseed's 1950 Ford Custom at the CA Rt. 46/41 Cholame Junction on September 30, 1955.[3] As Dean was finishing up Giant’s filming in September, 1955, he suddenly traded in his 356 Porsche Super Speedster at Competition Motors for a new 1955 Porsche 550 Spyder on September 21st and immediately entered the upcoming Salinas Road Race event scheduled for October 1 and 2.[4]"
vin numbers VIN DIESEL co star (paul walker talks about his funeral end of fast and furious 7)
so i got a synchronicity attack heres what happened...
while reading a link about hey whats going on!?? be normal!!

  • why is it doing this!!?? i dont want bullet points!!
     
why cant this be normal now!!!
i had syncs on this show CSI they started talking about CIGARS (i work at a cigar place now) they said SECRET when i read secret they said CRASH when i read crash then they said LORI
HA! I KNEW IT!! NOW The SHOW IS Saying he died of POISONING!!!
today at work (cigar place) they talk about poisoning...whatever!! 
im gonna share some pics maybe that will help
 so apparently he had said this so i was wondering why would he be smiling? whats smile have to do with it? then i saw someone posted this of course RZA trying to get his face in the tmz news

look at the name of his song 
now watch the trailer to the skulls his character 1:40 talks about digging his own grave if you dig too deep..the skulls about secret societies







 he was on ellen too just youtube it ahh i dont feel like finding it just shows them racing on the 1130 line placed pyramids checkeboard FIRE lane..


also WHEEL of fortune just had a puzzle fast and the furious...WHEELS ON THE CAR ARE SPINNING the wheel in the sky keeps on turning song about drones perhaps a drone killed paul walker??

there are more clues and hints all a big puzzle it seems...



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