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ughhhh!! so anyways...asdfjkl; asdf jkl;
trying to readjust still, this is so weird!???
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moss reakky really wanted to see the ron white show which was in the OC, so we gad==== GAD b=no NOOOOO had!!! damn apple!
my laptop just burned out or something i had those like, superman coupons and some sort of youtube uploader PUP so maybe it was a virus of maybe someone hacked into my system and shut it down...damn you hackers! damn you to hell!
one of rons bits was about big brother watching but so what right? and that we al share everything on facebook and big brother right?
well i know im being watched, mocked...whispered at..targetted individuals...DANCE MONKEYS DANCE!!! all you weird ugly girls...laughs of mockery...stupid lame ironic hipster guys (yes i know the guy who started talking to me when i was with denali at cabo was just....playin with me) chat with me than disappear...blah!!!
how do you like being lil puppets?? so yeah, the ron smith show was really good and his wifes band was good too! a country song came on and moss was like, "lo-oh-ori, this is your song" so i was thinking it was gonna be a song like, 'rain makes corn, corn makes whiskey! whiskey makes my woman, feel a little frisky" ut was a kacey musggraves song tho so i was confused yes i do like that song but that was not like, my song!?? more like his song!??!
whisper whisper
so......after the show we drove back and decided to go to the rainbow. either ron showed up or he was there i forget? spotted some bettie page hairstyle girl walkin around before ron showed up, and ron sat down. this girl then sat down and said hi to ron (i overheard him on the phone assumingly to micheal lipman chatting like an adolescent that he got to finger her and feel her boobies) but this is when things started getting odd. so this bettie page looking girl sat next to ron and stuff, and then some skinny lingering around punk kid came up and was acting up giving her his leather punked out jacket to hold on to and she had taken it, it looked like.....perhaps, she and him were together and he was puppy love with her, but she was arguing with him....and trying to get him to go away....but he kept wandering back. at first it appeared as if he was just a random guy, and he seen ron and got down on his knees and did that ,"all hail ron jeremy thing" . moss just left me at the table for a long time, but before that i saw a guy approach ron and when he turned, he had an EYE on his shirt. so im thinking, ok something amiss....amoss HAHAHA kneeslap ahh go fug yourself capiche???
yeah so....and plus i knew that punk kid was dancing like the puppet he is, and the bettie page girl....haha! yeah anyways!??! so shes all over rons knob at the table and then some european couple came by the guy really wanted to introduce his wife to ron so she was a euro blonde and while moss was amiss i was getting a weird sarcastic show but hey all in all yall are puppets hey whatever then she gave the husband (page did) her hand to kiss then he was chatting with ron so then all of a sudden the two women started kissing as if to give the appearance that they were all going to engage in some swinger shit (cuz moss is always talking about how ron is such a swingers swinger going to swingin swingers parties this and that)
so lil ol me is thankin' oh my goosh they be swangin they be swangin like i be drankin! should of did a cheers to that crew CHEERIO HOS!! Cheeri OH!!! yao=a yowza baby! (i should start acting up when these lil puppets swing my way GET IT!??! swing my way!) i crack myself up!!!
lol yall are scary folks i give ya that! VERY SCARY!!! see the thing is, i let the paranoia get to me, and when someone is some sort of morphed version of someone i know (ill get to that later) acting like some sort of horror story little girl...i need to just idk...im too meek tho, i hate being harassed tho. i mean, just...leave me alone!
(im going to write a story based on my experiences albeit)
ok so......moss gets back he left to talk to kevin. see, george was there so i met him but i felt bad that i left moss he was by himself so i went back to the table, that and george was acting weird like touching my leg and telling me i look good and acting like a puppet himself (i know he is), i just didnt want to deal with it im not interested in him so fuck it i left george and went to sit but moss left me! oh whatever so yeah...maybe george was supposed to be that way to creep me out so i go back to "enjoy the show"
so that bookbag skinny punk guy kept walking back and then they started fighting he then lost his bag and was yelling and acting drunk, slamming beers and bettie page arguing with him and when moss came back ron was gone and somehow moss was led to sit on the end by her, and these two horror story types wanted to sit next to me, and moss told me to move in and when i did they sat next to me. the dude was a dude. he had long gray hair and was asian wearing glasses and had a beard and the girl resembled my second cousin lauren and had long hair and a freddy kreuger type sweator the guy talked like the political newspaper comic that the one ex SNL actor does, the one who starts sentences but doesnt quite finish them. he kept saying the girl was his daughter this and that....and then it looked as if he knew the skinny punk puppet, and the whole thing was just crazy!??! then he mentioned jerry springer. ok so everyone knows that his shows are STAGED THEY ARE PRETTY MUCH IMPROV ACTING!!! so basically, as this unravelled with all its chaos and craziness, i figured that jerry springer actually set this up! so whatever ya know? jerry springer set up a show for us, at the rainbow! (plus i was sitting at the poison booth) but hey, i am a bit flattered! i should start using that aspect to figure out how to intimidate these lil puppets i mean, its not like i dont know that yall are lil puppets!
ill write more later....about the horror convention and last night. im gonna get my laundry.
oh hollywood! thanks for the IDEAS YES I AM GOING TO WRITE ABOUT IT TURN IT INTO A STORY SCREENPLAY IT
TREATMENT IT FINAL DRAFT IT thumbs up
horror story
Tuesday, September 30, 2014
Sunday, September 28, 2014
up to date update
calabasas was a few days ago then las vegas but las vegas was so boring its not even worth writing about. oh we also did the lazy river. thats right! so i see moss has this huge gym bag, (yes he brought those crinkly overused blue ziplock bags HUGE ziplocks) so on way to lazy river i was like, 'whats in that bag'? he shrugged what i asked off...as usual. then i realized, as we needed to get checked, that he brought his own tube!?? they give us blue tubes for lazy river. i went in by myself because i didnt want to wait for him as he blew up his red tube...(maybe its significant of his red tube porn he watches?) idk ha isnt that a porn site?
anyways, he just does these weird kind of things, smuggling in a tube and its so.....just....eeghh weird!!!?? creepy in fact....
we got along ok but i felt foolish posting pics of me being in las vegas i just feel as if i look like a silly airhead you know?? i just have this like....feeling i cant shake...
i have no clue. i dont feel like writing about yesterday tho but i will. or getting back from vegas and wanting to go to see slash, but moss changed his mind about going. he cant just go for me? he said i can go with ron. i mean....idk...like i said i feel weird just going with ron. rons super nice tho and he treats me like a good friend, which he is. i just....i feel awkward.
so moss started screaming at me in his screechy voice when i asked him whats going on with the roxy. whats strange is, moss kept bugging me about calling ron to set it up at 3 in the morning night before or whatever than twice the day of but when we got home he wanted to watch his game and he told me he wouldnta drive me to roxy he said to go with ron.
i just wanted to meet slash :(
ok well im going to write about the ron white comedy show and then street theater at the rainbow later....then about going with ron, (yeah without moss) to the horror convention and then being scared as heck with rons driving!!! and a party just wanted to up to date the days. i will probably remember more and add too soon.
so tomorrow at 8, at the fonda theater! (conan will be there! ) i JUST want a picture with him (oh no! i sound like moss! i JUST!! its JUST that JUST JUST JUST!!!)
hopefully this works out but yeah who who who who whoooooo knows?
anyways, he just does these weird kind of things, smuggling in a tube and its so.....just....eeghh weird!!!?? creepy in fact....
we got along ok but i felt foolish posting pics of me being in las vegas i just feel as if i look like a silly airhead you know?? i just have this like....feeling i cant shake...
i have no clue. i dont feel like writing about yesterday tho but i will. or getting back from vegas and wanting to go to see slash, but moss changed his mind about going. he cant just go for me? he said i can go with ron. i mean....idk...like i said i feel weird just going with ron. rons super nice tho and he treats me like a good friend, which he is. i just....i feel awkward.
so moss started screaming at me in his screechy voice when i asked him whats going on with the roxy. whats strange is, moss kept bugging me about calling ron to set it up at 3 in the morning night before or whatever than twice the day of but when we got home he wanted to watch his game and he told me he wouldnta drive me to roxy he said to go with ron.
i just wanted to meet slash :(
ok well im going to write about the ron white comedy show and then street theater at the rainbow later....then about going with ron, (yeah without moss) to the horror convention and then being scared as heck with rons driving!!! and a party just wanted to up to date the days. i will probably remember more and add too soon.
so tomorrow at 8, at the fonda theater! (conan will be there! ) i JUST want a picture with him (oh no! i sound like moss! i JUST!! its JUST that JUST JUST JUST!!!)
hopefully this works out but yeah who who who who whoooooo knows?
dance puppets dance!
my laptop just died so i just want to catch up at least the calabasas thing. moss told me about some event well its a benefit and its a george harrison concerts that would be awesome to go too! but he said really meanly that he does not want to go. i didnt go to meet slash because moss doesnt ever want to drive me. hes been a real bummer lately um it is so hard to tyep on this super mini keypad for this older mac that moss has!
but yeah moss is setting me up in oddball situations i dont even know. everything out here is so evil so who knows? moss just scared me how quick he was to be like, "maybe you can go with ron but im not going" then he is like, " lori,YOU can call ron!" and he expects me to drive with him after today!? i thought i was going to die. mac sucks! this keypad loses connection!??! wow!
real quick calabasas
i wanted to experience something different than hollywood so i suggested going to calabasas. well we went, but we had to stop at banks etc. and we went to the commons but it was boring so i safarid on my phone and found yelp reviews for a place called sagebrush i knew it was not going to be the lunch experience i wanted but whatever...
after that we drove into the hidden hills community where moss' old boss lives his wife was there and she drove us in this golf cart to see their horses and donkey. she was nice and she told us actor scott foley lived there she also said will smith and his family and she showed us kimye's (kim k and kanye) new mansion. it was at the end of the street next to like, construction or an unmade street, but yes it was there house for sure. she says they both haave their own personal bathroom and its not cozy at all!?!! she later drove us to see drakes house and a big tour bus was idling so i was like, 'they probably have a gig tonight'. (later found of drake and lil wayne were performing at the hollywood bowl) we saw their tour bus drive by too!
she also said the founder of life alert lives around there (its a gated community), and she let us drive the golf cart around. then her husband, moss's old boss, came by and we chatted with him. oh he said that jayden smith bikes with his friends but he has a chase car behind him, (security or maybe some scientology stuff).
it was really cool being inside that hidden hills community. the houses are actually 50s/60s style. they had a nice house and horses and spanky the donkey.
i cant beleive moss used to be like, 'if there is anything that is super important to you than let me know' but now he is just so strange about things...im not sure what to make of this/him...everything..
i feel like im just here to be mocked, and i knew this was going to happen and yep it is happening and i really do not like it :(
and moss knew i would of love to of met slash but he started arguing with me i even recorded it but i had to delete it to make room on my phone.
that night i ended up going out with denali and drinking too much which i am very upset with. i would of much rather of met slash but moss told me to go with ron, but i feel weird about just going with ron idk :/ im getting tired
so calabasas was neat...
las vegas..first time i went as a 'tourist' meaning not as a VIP or to an event or convention...it was quite boring and not really worth writing about tho. and i feel guilty about going with moss rather than a boyfriend or fun friends. we went to fremont street, he talked about country music stuff a bunch (his new thing)....i dont know? we had one of those cheap steak dinners first night. played 3.00 craps slow style....it was just a plain, basic and boring las vegas trip....ahh
oh at that janes addiction i forgot to say how convesation girls boyfriend or whatever was wearing a kaballistic tree of life and pyramid style shirt and it said dark/light (duality) and jean paul the other street actor was talking about shrooms and having the roots of their tree of conversation root out to everyone around them.
as soon as janes started playing conversating couple seemed to of kaballastically fuse at the hips and bones to become one slow raggedy anne and andy bopping bopsy twins.
so bizarre. "dance puppets dance!"
but yeah moss is setting me up in oddball situations i dont even know. everything out here is so evil so who knows? moss just scared me how quick he was to be like, "maybe you can go with ron but im not going" then he is like, " lori,YOU can call ron!" and he expects me to drive with him after today!? i thought i was going to die. mac sucks! this keypad loses connection!??! wow!
real quick calabasas
i wanted to experience something different than hollywood so i suggested going to calabasas. well we went, but we had to stop at banks etc. and we went to the commons but it was boring so i safarid on my phone and found yelp reviews for a place called sagebrush i knew it was not going to be the lunch experience i wanted but whatever...
after that we drove into the hidden hills community where moss' old boss lives his wife was there and she drove us in this golf cart to see their horses and donkey. she was nice and she told us actor scott foley lived there she also said will smith and his family and she showed us kimye's (kim k and kanye) new mansion. it was at the end of the street next to like, construction or an unmade street, but yes it was there house for sure. she says they both haave their own personal bathroom and its not cozy at all!?!! she later drove us to see drakes house and a big tour bus was idling so i was like, 'they probably have a gig tonight'. (later found of drake and lil wayne were performing at the hollywood bowl) we saw their tour bus drive by too!
she also said the founder of life alert lives around there (its a gated community), and she let us drive the golf cart around. then her husband, moss's old boss, came by and we chatted with him. oh he said that jayden smith bikes with his friends but he has a chase car behind him, (security or maybe some scientology stuff).
it was really cool being inside that hidden hills community. the houses are actually 50s/60s style. they had a nice house and horses and spanky the donkey.
i cant beleive moss used to be like, 'if there is anything that is super important to you than let me know' but now he is just so strange about things...im not sure what to make of this/him...everything..
i feel like im just here to be mocked, and i knew this was going to happen and yep it is happening and i really do not like it :(
and moss knew i would of love to of met slash but he started arguing with me i even recorded it but i had to delete it to make room on my phone.
that night i ended up going out with denali and drinking too much which i am very upset with. i would of much rather of met slash but moss told me to go with ron, but i feel weird about just going with ron idk :/ im getting tired
so calabasas was neat...
las vegas..first time i went as a 'tourist' meaning not as a VIP or to an event or convention...it was quite boring and not really worth writing about tho. and i feel guilty about going with moss rather than a boyfriend or fun friends. we went to fremont street, he talked about country music stuff a bunch (his new thing)....i dont know? we had one of those cheap steak dinners first night. played 3.00 craps slow style....it was just a plain, basic and boring las vegas trip....ahh
oh at that janes addiction i forgot to say how convesation girls boyfriend or whatever was wearing a kaballistic tree of life and pyramid style shirt and it said dark/light (duality) and jean paul the other street actor was talking about shrooms and having the roots of their tree of conversation root out to everyone around them.
as soon as janes started playing conversating couple seemed to of kaballastically fuse at the hips and bones to become one slow raggedy anne and andy bopping bopsy twins.
so bizarre. "dance puppets dance!"
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
Pup Ups
wow...i have a bunch of pop up PUPS i google how to get rid of them but ugh i get so impatient. moss is so excited his at midnight show is and he is ready to go...laugh all loud and what not..im like..."uh...."
he be drivin' me CRAY CRAY like im cathy from the comic pulling her hair out omg!!!
anyways, i get sick of hollywood. i get sick of the same scenery, well, that past two days been laying low..yesterday george and katie wanted to watch the game at (whoa there george mc fly) moss laughs like george mcfly...
so this show has a pidgeon joke about a sign do not feed the pidgeons where do they go? i said, "they go to moss's balcony:" and hes like, 'i have a nice balcony' "yes moss, for pidgeons!" and he doesnt laugh he is like, 'why cant i just have a nice balcony?" out of ALL the balconys in moss's apartment complex, they chooses moss's balcony to shit all over! so the pidgeons like the balcony....no one else does! i dont like it because i cant even step outside for fresh air due to all the pidgeon crap.
forget it moss!??
so yeah last night we didnt even go back to the sunset strip music fest....later on moss wanted to go to the rainbow but i was tired. we stopped by and moss was all excited, but no one was there and i was sitting there moss was all excited, i suggested kitchen twenty four
oh moss hes so irritating......he just told ron about slash. slash has three concerts here, so why tell ron when moss and i are going to be in las stupid vegas? oh btw, moss says he will give me 250.00 to bet but i only get to keep the winnings...IF IF EEF I win...if i lose just keep playing, and throw the money out...oh and he changed the rules. he told me he would give me that to gamble with, he never specified primarily on craps. i would like to bet on roulettes and slots too. i just cant deal with moss anymore...oh so now ron is going to go to the slash concert without us im like moss you should of never told him till we got back! gosh moss its not like i wouldnt like to meet slash. moss said, 'but its not guns n roses its slashes new band. not the point moss! if we are with ron, then we can possibly meet slash. i would be honored to meet him. idk, i dont think moss realizes this......
i heard about calabasas somewhere i just get sick of hollywood......and i wanted to get a feel for something else, a daydream world, you know? i mean, a drive down the coast of malibu to get into a daydream world, or....obtaining a new sense of world, but its funny bcuz no matter where i am, being around moss kind of takes the daydream sense of feeling......away.....he takes the wonder and excitement out of anything!!! i told him this a bunch of times, to which he replies, "lori i am who i am!" im like...
dont say that!!! i know it sound like im bitching alot of moss i just am crabby and cranky and irritable. its just hard being around him constantly!!! he is easy to deal with, in doses, but i always explain in detail these little irritables he does.........like, yeah he will give me 250.00 if i win 30.00 i keep the 30.00 and just give him the 250.00 back or gamble till i lose.......
whatever!!
i wanted to go to a daydream world, and see california in a new sense/light other than hollywood blah, so we were supposed to go to calabasas...idk!??! i wanted to go an outdoor quaint bistro luncheon brunchin type of place idk moss said oh we can go to the commons. the commons? i thought..sounds kind of boring and mall-esque...so we parked in the grocery store parking lot........and we walked out. i wasnt impressed. i have been to lots of outdoor places.....malls...places that carry j.crew and izod stores, or whatever...and cafes...i wasnt thinking that kind of place, something more like, a quaint little eatery with a light but incredible flavoricious lunch, not something fancy, i just.....i dont know!?? i looked on yelp and i saw sagebrush cantina by then i was so hungry i was like ok yah fine, it was a typical mexican style place but it was quaint i had a large lunch were talking large the whole enchilada course i couldnta finish it tall so i had moss eat sumtha rest........
im tired im so nervous moss is going to interupt my chain of thought and tell me stuff and im gonna be like, 'whut?' its 1 am i so tired just want to blog about today and go to sleep!!!
these pop up pups are annoying me!!! they are hidden like ads malware whatever PUPS just go away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to tell the story!
you know what forget it! ill blog about it later
oh im not gonna have time...
Calabasas!
Ok so Moss....... he called his old boss who was nice enough to say sure oh i feel like a bitch now. i should just go to sleep......maybe i will fix it later. moss go to bed i thought you said you were going to sleep!!! then i will have some downtime some ME time!!
he be drivin' me CRAY CRAY like im cathy from the comic pulling her hair out omg!!!
anyways, i get sick of hollywood. i get sick of the same scenery, well, that past two days been laying low..yesterday george and katie wanted to watch the game at (whoa there george mc fly) moss laughs like george mcfly...
so this show has a pidgeon joke about a sign do not feed the pidgeons where do they go? i said, "they go to moss's balcony:" and hes like, 'i have a nice balcony' "yes moss, for pidgeons!" and he doesnt laugh he is like, 'why cant i just have a nice balcony?" out of ALL the balconys in moss's apartment complex, they chooses moss's balcony to shit all over! so the pidgeons like the balcony....no one else does! i dont like it because i cant even step outside for fresh air due to all the pidgeon crap.
forget it moss!??
so yeah last night we didnt even go back to the sunset strip music fest....later on moss wanted to go to the rainbow but i was tired. we stopped by and moss was all excited, but no one was there and i was sitting there moss was all excited, i suggested kitchen twenty four
oh moss hes so irritating......he just told ron about slash. slash has three concerts here, so why tell ron when moss and i are going to be in las stupid vegas? oh btw, moss says he will give me 250.00 to bet but i only get to keep the winnings...IF IF EEF I win...if i lose just keep playing, and throw the money out...oh and he changed the rules. he told me he would give me that to gamble with, he never specified primarily on craps. i would like to bet on roulettes and slots too. i just cant deal with moss anymore...oh so now ron is going to go to the slash concert without us im like moss you should of never told him till we got back! gosh moss its not like i wouldnt like to meet slash. moss said, 'but its not guns n roses its slashes new band. not the point moss! if we are with ron, then we can possibly meet slash. i would be honored to meet him. idk, i dont think moss realizes this......
i heard about calabasas somewhere i just get sick of hollywood......and i wanted to get a feel for something else, a daydream world, you know? i mean, a drive down the coast of malibu to get into a daydream world, or....obtaining a new sense of world, but its funny bcuz no matter where i am, being around moss kind of takes the daydream sense of feeling......away.....he takes the wonder and excitement out of anything!!! i told him this a bunch of times, to which he replies, "lori i am who i am!" im like...
dont say that!!! i know it sound like im bitching alot of moss i just am crabby and cranky and irritable. its just hard being around him constantly!!! he is easy to deal with, in doses, but i always explain in detail these little irritables he does.........like, yeah he will give me 250.00 if i win 30.00 i keep the 30.00 and just give him the 250.00 back or gamble till i lose.......
whatever!!
i wanted to go to a daydream world, and see california in a new sense/light other than hollywood blah, so we were supposed to go to calabasas...idk!??! i wanted to go an outdoor quaint bistro luncheon brunchin type of place idk moss said oh we can go to the commons. the commons? i thought..sounds kind of boring and mall-esque...so we parked in the grocery store parking lot........and we walked out. i wasnt impressed. i have been to lots of outdoor places.....malls...places that carry j.crew and izod stores, or whatever...and cafes...i wasnt thinking that kind of place, something more like, a quaint little eatery with a light but incredible flavoricious lunch, not something fancy, i just.....i dont know!?? i looked on yelp and i saw sagebrush cantina by then i was so hungry i was like ok yah fine, it was a typical mexican style place but it was quaint i had a large lunch were talking large the whole enchilada course i couldnta finish it tall so i had moss eat sumtha rest........
im tired im so nervous moss is going to interupt my chain of thought and tell me stuff and im gonna be like, 'whut?' its 1 am i so tired just want to blog about today and go to sleep!!!
these pop up pups are annoying me!!! they are hidden like ads malware whatever PUPS just go away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to tell the story!
you know what forget it! ill blog about it later
oh im not gonna have time...
Calabasas!
Ok so Moss....... he called his old boss who was nice enough to say sure oh i feel like a bitch now. i should just go to sleep......maybe i will fix it later. moss go to bed i thought you said you were going to sleep!!! then i will have some downtime some ME time!!
Monday, September 22, 2014
hey
oh i finally got my ticket home booked....sigh! yeah i need to head home. i have things i need to do! for realz yah!!!
i do like it out here, but this time its been boring. last year...well it was actually fun! plus i looked hot...this time i am bloated like a toad, yuck....yuck YUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
paranoid and broke as a joke..........
uggo and uggie
meh and bleh
but yes last year was a bunch of fun!!! this time...mehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i do like it out here, but this time its been boring. last year...well it was actually fun! plus i looked hot...this time i am bloated like a toad, yuck....yuck YUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
paranoid and broke as a joke..........
uggo and uggie
meh and bleh
but yes last year was a bunch of fun!!! this time...mehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
blah and blah
hey im back. i just re-read what i wrote and it just doesnt make sense because it is so sloppy therefore it is easy to get lost in the points i was trying to make.
a.) in the car, moss was telling me, "lori, with all due respect, if we get split up and i need to get back to you, (for instance, if i was farther ahead in the crowd), he would tell people, "I need to get back to my wife", and if I needed to get to him, I should call him my husband, it's much easier to do that and get through. He then told me a story at when california won for gay marriage, the cops wernta bout (moss says woudlnta couldnta alot)...wasn't going to let moss through, but he told them his friend who was standing in a good spot because um, i forget? moss is in the bathroom so i cant just ask him. his friend was an important person who had a good standing spot. moss told the cop there, "with all due respect, this is a day i would like to at least stand next to my husband for' or something to that extent......
well it was very strange because, just as we were talking about, that happened to us twice...with the jon paul guy and the pushy pusher guy that i pushed back...(meaning, they told the same story about having to get to the wife, and the one even was like, 'oh theres a wall there' so he was lying! its as if someone heard our conversation in the car and told hecklers to heckle us, also with reading bout the guy who cut in front of the other guy on the yelp review, and having that very exact thing happen to me, you know!??!)
what else what else!??!
oh there was a girl who didn't move out of the way when clearly i was walking, causing her to push right into me. rude!
what else??? quick drunk late night bite..(bacon wrapped sausages), in which moss never had but he disregarded what i had to say in that essence, rather brushed me off like what i had to say was not important. its just called, casual talking. not everything has to be a story about everything!
i do have a story tho. at the end of the night, a bevified gaggle of skinny girls wearing high heels and mini dresses left one oak, (jay-z's club as moss always informed me, the one where there was a shooting and chris brown almost got shot out the night before the vmas. justin bieber was there too i believe.)
moss also had a 4 ft snipe he was carrying, denzels new movie...even tho i knew it was too big to put in his car. it was really chilly out.
ok, here is my opinion on these girls that wear little dresses and heels, so......sure i would love to dress up and look hot, but these girls all stick together, so its not for your boyfriend. they get all dressed up and go out, so that they can walk by and guys can check them out, and five minutes later, check out a new group of girls dressed like that. and they will be forgotten, because face it, little dresses and heels are boring and forgettable. for these lamer guys, its like a heaven for them, checking out all the lovely ladies. the girls are NOT trying to get layed either! trust me! i mean, really. its easier to target some drunk insecure old fat girl than to target a young, hot skinny sexy girl, yeah! like me! KIDDING trust me!! i dont want no one out here and i aint hooking up with anyone! seriously! guys are just SOL if trying to get layed at end of night, but honestly i dont think ppl really care too! the most carefree sexual free spirited place i have seen and been at is weho area! its a fun atmosphere, but its not like that anywhere else, really. people will talk to you....ahh who cares!??! but these girls, right, they had to walk blocks and blocks in uncomfortable heels while it is freezing outside, in mini dresses. i had sneakers and a long sleeve shirt...and people will forget who you are five minutes after they see you anyways, so who cares! yeah! point is, who even cares?!?
then moss sets the snipe down when we get to his car, and i hear these leggling girls and they are approaching us so i get in the car and close the door, laughing at how odd moss looks. some of the girls looked at moss and his snipe, most kept on walking. moss carried that movie snipe for blocks only to see it was too big to fit in the car. hes so odd!!!??!
people are odd tho.
i can feel the mocking laughs tho, but i put it out there. yeah see??
FUCK YOU!!!!
and good night!
a.) in the car, moss was telling me, "lori, with all due respect, if we get split up and i need to get back to you, (for instance, if i was farther ahead in the crowd), he would tell people, "I need to get back to my wife", and if I needed to get to him, I should call him my husband, it's much easier to do that and get through. He then told me a story at when california won for gay marriage, the cops wernta bout (moss says woudlnta couldnta alot)...wasn't going to let moss through, but he told them his friend who was standing in a good spot because um, i forget? moss is in the bathroom so i cant just ask him. his friend was an important person who had a good standing spot. moss told the cop there, "with all due respect, this is a day i would like to at least stand next to my husband for' or something to that extent......
well it was very strange because, just as we were talking about, that happened to us twice...with the jon paul guy and the pushy pusher guy that i pushed back...(meaning, they told the same story about having to get to the wife, and the one even was like, 'oh theres a wall there' so he was lying! its as if someone heard our conversation in the car and told hecklers to heckle us, also with reading bout the guy who cut in front of the other guy on the yelp review, and having that very exact thing happen to me, you know!??!)
what else what else!??!
oh there was a girl who didn't move out of the way when clearly i was walking, causing her to push right into me. rude!
what else??? quick drunk late night bite..(bacon wrapped sausages), in which moss never had but he disregarded what i had to say in that essence, rather brushed me off like what i had to say was not important. its just called, casual talking. not everything has to be a story about everything!
i do have a story tho. at the end of the night, a bevified gaggle of skinny girls wearing high heels and mini dresses left one oak, (jay-z's club as moss always informed me, the one where there was a shooting and chris brown almost got shot out the night before the vmas. justin bieber was there too i believe.)
moss also had a 4 ft snipe he was carrying, denzels new movie...even tho i knew it was too big to put in his car. it was really chilly out.
ok, here is my opinion on these girls that wear little dresses and heels, so......sure i would love to dress up and look hot, but these girls all stick together, so its not for your boyfriend. they get all dressed up and go out, so that they can walk by and guys can check them out, and five minutes later, check out a new group of girls dressed like that. and they will be forgotten, because face it, little dresses and heels are boring and forgettable. for these lamer guys, its like a heaven for them, checking out all the lovely ladies. the girls are NOT trying to get layed either! trust me! i mean, really. its easier to target some drunk insecure old fat girl than to target a young, hot skinny sexy girl, yeah! like me! KIDDING trust me!! i dont want no one out here and i aint hooking up with anyone! seriously! guys are just SOL if trying to get layed at end of night, but honestly i dont think ppl really care too! the most carefree sexual free spirited place i have seen and been at is weho area! its a fun atmosphere, but its not like that anywhere else, really. people will talk to you....ahh who cares!??! but these girls, right, they had to walk blocks and blocks in uncomfortable heels while it is freezing outside, in mini dresses. i had sneakers and a long sleeve shirt...and people will forget who you are five minutes after they see you anyways, so who cares! yeah! point is, who even cares?!?
then moss sets the snipe down when we get to his car, and i hear these leggling girls and they are approaching us so i get in the car and close the door, laughing at how odd moss looks. some of the girls looked at moss and his snipe, most kept on walking. moss carried that movie snipe for blocks only to see it was too big to fit in the car. hes so odd!!!??!
people are odd tho.
i can feel the mocking laughs tho, but i put it out there. yeah see??
FUCK YOU!!!!
and good night!
friday and saturday
hey! yeah so.....this is exactly why i didnt want to come out here! i didnt want to fucking deal with hecklers, assholes, mockers, puppets, fools, smirkers, and nightmare people. (ironically, or maybe...connected, is everyone reviewing the first of tim and erics bedtime stories. the first show in examining, 'hole', in which true fans, the dissectors i mean, are dissecting this episode, im not talking about the topical poop and diarrhea/brown, tim and eric cliches, yet the ones who take note in the details....about how erics docile pushover character symbolizes the victim, while being prodded and pressured by tim's 'jock-like' mentality......) huh what!???
friday night went out for a bit. met denali and his roommates, guys/dudes, smart mogul types, one some sort of fashion designer expert, another, someone who was talking about franchise and making money idk. he was kind of cute, tall, someone i would of been interested in way back. the thing is, i didnt think it was fair how they were saying that guys can be in their 30s and start raising kids, yet women shouldnt wait that long. women in their late 30s can and do start raising children. whatever. i dont have nice going out clothes, so i wore black tight pants and a long slinky tank top and my thongs/"flip flops' but fancier.......blah! the place we went was a wait outside to confirm being on a list, and a bevy of girls adorning heels and mini dresses waited outside. i have a theory about those girls, but i will write it later. well, not a theory......an opinion.......
we lost their friends tho and the cute guy :( oh well who really cares. i think they went to a grand opening of some club. denali took too much time rather than schmoozing his way in he said he knew someone inside and the door guy was gonna let us in but the door girl saw my 'flip flops' and said, 'oh we cant let you in if your wearing flip flops' i told denali he should of agreed and just went in instead of agreeing and then changing his story, "oh no thats not the right guy". stupid! everything is stupid out here anyways! we ended up going to annoying loaded bcuz george was there but its always weird with george and denali bcuz its just like, wtf? denali looks around and idk, its just weird......i just want a fun friend to hang out with. thats all, even that it doesnt even matter! nothing really matters!!! im hanging out with these guys cuz they all live within walking distance, we all live on the same road! its just easy to hang out and then walk home after those lame all the same bars.....
SaTuRdAy Sunset Strip Music Festival
(im not gonna tag this shit however)
so all week moss has been out and about perfecting details about this festival, the busiest day for the strip.
we headed out around 7pm. of course, moss said he had to give michael lipman the tickets but that i could stand around while he does so. 'um, no, i'll just follow him?!( why would i just want to stand around doing nothing or being by myself??)
picked up a free can of coke they were handing out. moss wanted to find a close spot next to the stage, which i would of agreed to but he disclosed no information about when band was playing, when we got back from dropping off the tickets, moss got into the festival, well, you know how he whips out his hand and nods like, 'yes, i have a wristband' and i joked around and made puppy paws but he didnt notice my joke of course. if i tell him, 'its funny how you do that' (whip out his wrist or whatever he does) he gets irritated and thinks im making fun of him. i just think its weird he also cuts in front of ppl and has no regards...so we are back in the fest, and he still acts like he is in dire search of things. he flits his neck around like a meerkat searching for food, makes gopher like teeth...walks fast like he has something in dire need. i said, 'slow down!" i mean, ya know!??!
shit! everything highlighted and deleted. fuck fuck FUCK!!!!!!
sigh! we got inside and he was walking all fast but why? to get a good spot at the stage? he didnt tell me the details of when janes addiction was going to play.
(im so upset because i just wrote a bunch and it highlighted and deleted a big paragraph)
he was in a rush, so i was like chill we are inside! what was he looking for? i said lets go back to the food trucks...(i mean, what else are we going to do inside a closed off street, music festival. if i was with a friend, i would chill out, get a drink or some food, snap some pics, with moss its like, 'now what!?) he wanted to wait around at the stage for an hour.
on the way to the food trucks, some girl saw me walking but didnt move out of the way, causing her to rudely bump into her like a bully twat. assholes all of you pawns!
anyways, there was a trendy grilled cheese truck. moss said here ill give you money, get what you want i need to get a good spot" i was like, 'i dont need to wait in line, i'll just find one of the vendors that done have lines
so i saw a taco spot and i got up to it but this drunk fucking jerk guy deliberately cut in front of me. i was like, "you cut in front of me!" he just glanced and kept ordering. i was like YOU CUT IN FRONT OF ME I WAS NEXT'
he just looked over and said who cares? it was just like what i read on that yelp review about the chicken, how someone cut in front of him and the vendor didnt even care. who is setting up this shit!??! i was like 'i hope you shit all this taco out you drunk jerk im going to write a yelp review about you' (because someone told him to cut in front of me and hes a little puppet perp asshole) see THIS IS WHAT I DONT WANT TO DEAL WITH THESE SHITS! MOCKING, DISGUSTING, PUPPETS FUCK ALL OF YOU!
i saw him smirk because he thought i was being funny whatever tho. its annoying! immature and wack!
anyways we found a spot, next to another set of 'actors, targetted individual style' FUCK YOU! it was a couple, who kept staring intently into each others eyes, the girl kept on looking into her 'boyfriends' eyes, i called her the conversating girl'. even if you are a couple, how many things can you talk about while waiting for a rock concert? i felt so close to another peoples world, but i didnt want to feel that, especially annoying street theater actors. i didnt want to show them i cared but i guess i am now huh? well to that girl you are very annoying and your date is affeminate.
on the ride over, moss was telling me how he was at some festival, and his friend who is a big black guy who is gay was standing at the best spot, so he told the cops that he was with his friends husband (they were celebrating gay marriage) and the cop let us in.
while waiting within the soon getting crowded crowd, this big bald guy heads on over, saying thats his wife next to me, realizing that it was a fence (i was at the edge)...(SET UP!) he said, 'oh! it ends there!" no wife, either!?? "hi! im jon paul' he introduced to moss. moss ignored him like a scared coward so he shook my hand i said, 'hi im lori' he had a look of amused satisfaction as he shook my hand. 'what!?? im the one you were supposed to heckle?" then he started chatting with the conversation couple, which ranged from stories of his girlfriend/wife/purple hair, free spirit, hippie, (reminded me of stories that brian from the group would say), also started talking about how their stories ((moss laughs at whatever he thinks he is supposed to laugh at with his laugh...the one he adopted))i hate when ppl just laugh blindly at anything in the meantime while missing things that have hidden msgs and when i try to explain to him he dismisses me, shaking his head and dissing me, shaking me off, whatever i say has no meaning to him))
jon paul and the conversating couple were engaging, jon paul talking about how their conversations and energy root off like a trees root to other people (guiding his hand towards me) to listen too and take what they will...
shut up you bunch of annoying puppets!
later on, this guy came up and was like, pushing...pushing me out of the way, "i got to get to my wife" so i pushed him as annoying as he pushed me. "dont push me!" i said! all these scumbag assholes what is wrong with ppl!? fuck you comedy asshole troupe types. just leave me alone!
i was really upset. anyways, the band finally came out they looked like true rock stars hot! dave navarro without his shirt, short stature but rock star body and cadence, perry the singer, with his tall, lithe like composure his outfit was like a cool old man blazer nice hat, lithing around. it was a good show. by the end my bladder was full and my feet hurt. oh the conversating couple were up and dancing like janes addiction was their special band they bop out too. i moved around to it but those guys.......idk
moss had to look for a set list of course. what a freakin nightmare. ha! oh yeah, so he said i know a nice clean bathroom you can use, so we left to go into a real fancy hotel where it looked like big breasted blonde callgirls hung out with sugar daddies, (it did tho!??) i used the bathroom, which while yes, it was fancy, there was a huge dead cockroach next to the door to the stall. maybe it signified the glamour and fake realities that fancy hotel place represented??
we left and moss cut in front of some couple who was dressed up, i walked behind them. i find it rude to walk in front of ppl idk..
anyways whisky was crowded for puddle of mudd woman moss knows only gave him one pass to get in. so we went to the rainbow where moss's table reservation was...since it was so important to him.
oh yes also in the crowd i saw a guy who looked like a morphed version of both jimmy burgess and christian "the dr"...i also saw a biker version of steph buchma, (makes me wonder idk? face recognition..find lookalikes, pepper them about) fucking mind games!
we found ron and michael and some other ppl sitting...
moss payed for a round of drinks, cept mine but he gave me his credit card so i can get something at the bar...not cash, so it was taking a while to just pay for one silly beer! there were chairs for us and one old guy was an old mafia guy, and there was a russian couple...who was laughing and smirking to each others secret jokes..probably laughing at how ridiculous everyone was, (think about it), there was another girl there, ron assumed she was a waitress who was sitting there to get a better tip, but it wasnt..she was a paramedic, meaning, well...nothing really!??! a paramedic? so she drives in the ambulance...most are volunteers arent they?
i dont care whatever!?? :D the russian couple, youngish and hip in that coming to america way, kept whispering amongst each other, the girl had a biggish face and 90s matte lipstick, piggish style nose and winged eyeliner, looked like a retro 50s commercial cartoon with for a book cheap flights online with a white teeth smile that needs to be slapped off her big featured face. well at one point i saw them point there noses at me and start laughing. what the fuck!?? what the hell is so funny even?
i wasnt doing anything sure, the whole thing is ridiculous but what else ya gonna do about it? fucking stupid! that whole day was littered with those types of ppl tho, vapid condescending fake.....i said im not up to par being out here yes i know this! i dont have style! i am a fat girl (so what?) i have flat hair, i have basic style i know this! i have nothing to brag about, nor do i want to try too i dont care about impressing anyone either!
there were more lookalikes too.oh yeah i saw a guy with a jersey on the stage a roadie, with the number '33' on it..'masonic'
what else? nothing really. eventually everyone left, got bored. oh the russian couple got up to leave and moss backed up his chair, and the guy twinged and cringed cuz ouchie moss backed his chair on his toey toe leaving a boo boo he even gave moss a punch in the arm lol moss does it again! he cringed and bit his finger for about five minutes as if his toe was broken!??
i pointed and laughed actually i was thinking about how moss is always the jerk HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh yeah, i spotted those bacon wrapped sausages with onions and peppers the street vendors sell after ppl stumble out of the bars at night. i said to moss, 'ooh look! those bacon wrapped sausages!' moss just nodded me off. i was like, '(because he didnt even hear me!), 'have you ever one"...he just nodded yes but stared up he looked like one of those kia hampsters, searching for a more important dire task at hand, while totally dismissing what i just had to say.
"have you ever had one?" i asked, knowing he never did cuz thats a coming out of the bars quick drunk bite'..."yeah"
"no you didnt! when?" his answers were quick, brushing me off...then he thought i was insulting me, "lourie stop being mean to me this is who i am!"
yeah, rude! dismissive, clueless, unaware.......bratty, (prone to temper tantrums like a child)
whatever!!!
damn my signed american dad poster is all crumbled :(
i want to frame it and hang it up also my stormy daniels and all that, once kept so intent in its framed glory now crumpled and ripped...
i want a good job, my own place, get married, children.........
am i forgetting anything? ahh who cares
friday night went out for a bit. met denali and his roommates, guys/dudes, smart mogul types, one some sort of fashion designer expert, another, someone who was talking about franchise and making money idk. he was kind of cute, tall, someone i would of been interested in way back. the thing is, i didnt think it was fair how they were saying that guys can be in their 30s and start raising kids, yet women shouldnt wait that long. women in their late 30s can and do start raising children. whatever. i dont have nice going out clothes, so i wore black tight pants and a long slinky tank top and my thongs/"flip flops' but fancier.......blah! the place we went was a wait outside to confirm being on a list, and a bevy of girls adorning heels and mini dresses waited outside. i have a theory about those girls, but i will write it later. well, not a theory......an opinion.......
we lost their friends tho and the cute guy :( oh well who really cares. i think they went to a grand opening of some club. denali took too much time rather than schmoozing his way in he said he knew someone inside and the door guy was gonna let us in but the door girl saw my 'flip flops' and said, 'oh we cant let you in if your wearing flip flops' i told denali he should of agreed and just went in instead of agreeing and then changing his story, "oh no thats not the right guy". stupid! everything is stupid out here anyways! we ended up going to annoying loaded bcuz george was there but its always weird with george and denali bcuz its just like, wtf? denali looks around and idk, its just weird......i just want a fun friend to hang out with. thats all, even that it doesnt even matter! nothing really matters!!! im hanging out with these guys cuz they all live within walking distance, we all live on the same road! its just easy to hang out and then walk home after those lame all the same bars.....
SaTuRdAy Sunset Strip Music Festival
(im not gonna tag this shit however)
so all week moss has been out and about perfecting details about this festival, the busiest day for the strip.
we headed out around 7pm. of course, moss said he had to give michael lipman the tickets but that i could stand around while he does so. 'um, no, i'll just follow him?!( why would i just want to stand around doing nothing or being by myself??)
picked up a free can of coke they were handing out. moss wanted to find a close spot next to the stage, which i would of agreed to but he disclosed no information about when band was playing, when we got back from dropping off the tickets, moss got into the festival, well, you know how he whips out his hand and nods like, 'yes, i have a wristband' and i joked around and made puppy paws but he didnt notice my joke of course. if i tell him, 'its funny how you do that' (whip out his wrist or whatever he does) he gets irritated and thinks im making fun of him. i just think its weird he also cuts in front of ppl and has no regards...so we are back in the fest, and he still acts like he is in dire search of things. he flits his neck around like a meerkat searching for food, makes gopher like teeth...walks fast like he has something in dire need. i said, 'slow down!" i mean, ya know!??!
shit! everything highlighted and deleted. fuck fuck FUCK!!!!!!
sigh! we got inside and he was walking all fast but why? to get a good spot at the stage? he didnt tell me the details of when janes addiction was going to play.
(im so upset because i just wrote a bunch and it highlighted and deleted a big paragraph)
he was in a rush, so i was like chill we are inside! what was he looking for? i said lets go back to the food trucks...(i mean, what else are we going to do inside a closed off street, music festival. if i was with a friend, i would chill out, get a drink or some food, snap some pics, with moss its like, 'now what!?) he wanted to wait around at the stage for an hour.
on the way to the food trucks, some girl saw me walking but didnt move out of the way, causing her to rudely bump into her like a bully twat. assholes all of you pawns!
anyways, there was a trendy grilled cheese truck. moss said here ill give you money, get what you want i need to get a good spot" i was like, 'i dont need to wait in line, i'll just find one of the vendors that done have lines
so i saw a taco spot and i got up to it but this drunk fucking jerk guy deliberately cut in front of me. i was like, "you cut in front of me!" he just glanced and kept ordering. i was like YOU CUT IN FRONT OF ME I WAS NEXT'
he just looked over and said who cares? it was just like what i read on that yelp review about the chicken, how someone cut in front of him and the vendor didnt even care. who is setting up this shit!??! i was like 'i hope you shit all this taco out you drunk jerk im going to write a yelp review about you' (because someone told him to cut in front of me and hes a little puppet perp asshole) see THIS IS WHAT I DONT WANT TO DEAL WITH THESE SHITS! MOCKING, DISGUSTING, PUPPETS FUCK ALL OF YOU!
i saw him smirk because he thought i was being funny whatever tho. its annoying! immature and wack!
anyways we found a spot, next to another set of 'actors, targetted individual style' FUCK YOU! it was a couple, who kept staring intently into each others eyes, the girl kept on looking into her 'boyfriends' eyes, i called her the conversating girl'. even if you are a couple, how many things can you talk about while waiting for a rock concert? i felt so close to another peoples world, but i didnt want to feel that, especially annoying street theater actors. i didnt want to show them i cared but i guess i am now huh? well to that girl you are very annoying and your date is affeminate.
on the ride over, moss was telling me how he was at some festival, and his friend who is a big black guy who is gay was standing at the best spot, so he told the cops that he was with his friends husband (they were celebrating gay marriage) and the cop let us in.
while waiting within the soon getting crowded crowd, this big bald guy heads on over, saying thats his wife next to me, realizing that it was a fence (i was at the edge)...(SET UP!) he said, 'oh! it ends there!" no wife, either!?? "hi! im jon paul' he introduced to moss. moss ignored him like a scared coward so he shook my hand i said, 'hi im lori' he had a look of amused satisfaction as he shook my hand. 'what!?? im the one you were supposed to heckle?" then he started chatting with the conversation couple, which ranged from stories of his girlfriend/wife/purple hair, free spirit, hippie, (reminded me of stories that brian from the group would say), also started talking about how their stories ((moss laughs at whatever he thinks he is supposed to laugh at with his laugh...the one he adopted))i hate when ppl just laugh blindly at anything in the meantime while missing things that have hidden msgs and when i try to explain to him he dismisses me, shaking his head and dissing me, shaking me off, whatever i say has no meaning to him))
jon paul and the conversating couple were engaging, jon paul talking about how their conversations and energy root off like a trees root to other people (guiding his hand towards me) to listen too and take what they will...
shut up you bunch of annoying puppets!
later on, this guy came up and was like, pushing...pushing me out of the way, "i got to get to my wife" so i pushed him as annoying as he pushed me. "dont push me!" i said! all these scumbag assholes what is wrong with ppl!? fuck you comedy asshole troupe types. just leave me alone!
i was really upset. anyways, the band finally came out they looked like true rock stars hot! dave navarro without his shirt, short stature but rock star body and cadence, perry the singer, with his tall, lithe like composure his outfit was like a cool old man blazer nice hat, lithing around. it was a good show. by the end my bladder was full and my feet hurt. oh the conversating couple were up and dancing like janes addiction was their special band they bop out too. i moved around to it but those guys.......idk
moss had to look for a set list of course. what a freakin nightmare. ha! oh yeah, so he said i know a nice clean bathroom you can use, so we left to go into a real fancy hotel where it looked like big breasted blonde callgirls hung out with sugar daddies, (it did tho!??) i used the bathroom, which while yes, it was fancy, there was a huge dead cockroach next to the door to the stall. maybe it signified the glamour and fake realities that fancy hotel place represented??
we left and moss cut in front of some couple who was dressed up, i walked behind them. i find it rude to walk in front of ppl idk..
anyways whisky was crowded for puddle of mudd woman moss knows only gave him one pass to get in. so we went to the rainbow where moss's table reservation was...since it was so important to him.
oh yes also in the crowd i saw a guy who looked like a morphed version of both jimmy burgess and christian "the dr"...i also saw a biker version of steph buchma, (makes me wonder idk? face recognition..find lookalikes, pepper them about) fucking mind games!
we found ron and michael and some other ppl sitting...
moss payed for a round of drinks, cept mine but he gave me his credit card so i can get something at the bar...not cash, so it was taking a while to just pay for one silly beer! there were chairs for us and one old guy was an old mafia guy, and there was a russian couple...who was laughing and smirking to each others secret jokes..probably laughing at how ridiculous everyone was, (think about it), there was another girl there, ron assumed she was a waitress who was sitting there to get a better tip, but it wasnt..she was a paramedic, meaning, well...nothing really!??! a paramedic? so she drives in the ambulance...most are volunteers arent they?
i dont care whatever!?? :D the russian couple, youngish and hip in that coming to america way, kept whispering amongst each other, the girl had a biggish face and 90s matte lipstick, piggish style nose and winged eyeliner, looked like a retro 50s commercial cartoon with for a book cheap flights online with a white teeth smile that needs to be slapped off her big featured face. well at one point i saw them point there noses at me and start laughing. what the fuck!?? what the hell is so funny even?
i wasnt doing anything sure, the whole thing is ridiculous but what else ya gonna do about it? fucking stupid! that whole day was littered with those types of ppl tho, vapid condescending fake.....i said im not up to par being out here yes i know this! i dont have style! i am a fat girl (so what?) i have flat hair, i have basic style i know this! i have nothing to brag about, nor do i want to try too i dont care about impressing anyone either!
there were more lookalikes too.oh yeah i saw a guy with a jersey on the stage a roadie, with the number '33' on it..'masonic'
what else? nothing really. eventually everyone left, got bored. oh the russian couple got up to leave and moss backed up his chair, and the guy twinged and cringed cuz ouchie moss backed his chair on his toey toe leaving a boo boo he even gave moss a punch in the arm lol moss does it again! he cringed and bit his finger for about five minutes as if his toe was broken!??
i pointed and laughed actually i was thinking about how moss is always the jerk HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh yeah, i spotted those bacon wrapped sausages with onions and peppers the street vendors sell after ppl stumble out of the bars at night. i said to moss, 'ooh look! those bacon wrapped sausages!' moss just nodded me off. i was like, '(because he didnt even hear me!), 'have you ever one"...he just nodded yes but stared up he looked like one of those kia hampsters, searching for a more important dire task at hand, while totally dismissing what i just had to say.
"have you ever had one?" i asked, knowing he never did cuz thats a coming out of the bars quick drunk bite'..."yeah"
"no you didnt! when?" his answers were quick, brushing me off...then he thought i was insulting me, "lourie stop being mean to me this is who i am!"
yeah, rude! dismissive, clueless, unaware.......bratty, (prone to temper tantrums like a child)
whatever!!!
damn my signed american dad poster is all crumbled :(
i want to frame it and hang it up also my stormy daniels and all that, once kept so intent in its framed glory now crumpled and ripped...
i want a good job, my own place, get married, children.........
am i forgetting anything? ahh who cares
Saturday, September 20, 2014
Friday, September 19, 2014
its meh
fucking friday night. i just told moss, see? i wasnt really planning to just come out here, for no apparent reason, and this week now, has pretty much summed it up. i understand how its like out here, especially coming out and doing this! i knew exactly how it was going to be and its just that! i actually feel on the verge of hyperventilating! i need fresh air! i feel stuck.
i cant breathe!!! oh my gosh!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel like i am wasting time! im wasting time!
yesterday, i asked if we could go to bel-air, just to drive by at least...so i can get a feel for something other than the streets of hollywood that i have seen oh so many times before!
well we after chicken rainbow and whatever else, he was like, 'yeah ok' but i noticed he was not intending to go at all! he does that alot. its like he says ok to just...make me think that and quiet me up but he has to go back to go to the gym at 530.
today, we were supposed to take a drive to calabasas, (i suggested it. all the celebrities live there and i just wanted to see a new town besides hollywood). i sort of wanted philipes french dip, but he wanted sushi in the valley. so we went to get sushi, and i noticed we were headed back to hollywood. he needed to go to beverly hills to the post office. so yeah, he can at least say, "Lori, Im sorry we arrghh (national pirates day) not going be able to make it bel aire or calabasas today." instead of not saying anything at all like my idea was not important.
so i said to him, "moss, please at least tell me, that we arent able to go somewhere, rather than just not doing it. it makes it seem like he cannot even give me the courtesy to say, "Lori, your plan isnt going to pan out!" i told him, i am his company right? so why cant he go to the gym in the morning so we can actually do things, without worrying about driving back. its just called courtesy and etiquette for when you have company.
if i ever had company, (now that im older i doubt i will tho), i would make plans to keep them busy and satisfied. that is just what you do! who wants to sit around and do nothing all the time? he was like, 'then get up early' but 4 pm is still a good time to get some stuff done, ya know!??! i just think its courteous.
i mean, i have been here so many things. i know what its like to be here! next time out here, i want to be with a fun friend, or a boyfriend, someone who will be excited and thrilled to go out and about to all the spots. and if i come here, i need to be prepared. i need clothes other than the basics i have. i need a new hairstyle, i need my look together! i need to be sparkling in a sexy dress if i go to an event, i want to look like a woman, a woman who has her shit together, not some little idiot. i want to be in shape and feel good!
i want my outfits for the day too! ya know!?? i cant just come out here, drive for lunch, then sit in the car while moss goes to post office and scores some more free snipes. i just cant do this anymore! and he doesnt seem to understand!??!
im not a little girl who finds the idea of being out here exciting all the time. plus moss is a homebody. i remember a time when yes, i had that exciting sense to be out here. like wow! everything is so new! of course i was younger.
i can still enjoy myself but i need to be on top of my game. before you know it you are post mid 30s and its kind of depressing if you havent gotten it figured out by now.
anyways, plus i dont want to search through craigslist to find someone to hang out with. i am sick of hollywood blvd bars. i do like the cute tucked away hidden gems tho. i mean, tonight is some party but i dont even have a party dress. plus it is cold out. mehhhhhhhhhhwhatever doc
plus my belly is a big bloat and i have a double chin its disgusting. im a fat girl! with basic old navy wear. i dont stand out!
oh i know i am capable of standing out, just not now!
i cant breathe!!! oh my gosh!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel like i am wasting time! im wasting time!
yesterday, i asked if we could go to bel-air, just to drive by at least...so i can get a feel for something other than the streets of hollywood that i have seen oh so many times before!
well we after chicken rainbow and whatever else, he was like, 'yeah ok' but i noticed he was not intending to go at all! he does that alot. its like he says ok to just...make me think that and quiet me up but he has to go back to go to the gym at 530.
today, we were supposed to take a drive to calabasas, (i suggested it. all the celebrities live there and i just wanted to see a new town besides hollywood). i sort of wanted philipes french dip, but he wanted sushi in the valley. so we went to get sushi, and i noticed we were headed back to hollywood. he needed to go to beverly hills to the post office. so yeah, he can at least say, "Lori, Im sorry we arrghh (national pirates day) not going be able to make it bel aire or calabasas today." instead of not saying anything at all like my idea was not important.
so i said to him, "moss, please at least tell me, that we arent able to go somewhere, rather than just not doing it. it makes it seem like he cannot even give me the courtesy to say, "Lori, your plan isnt going to pan out!" i told him, i am his company right? so why cant he go to the gym in the morning so we can actually do things, without worrying about driving back. its just called courtesy and etiquette for when you have company.
if i ever had company, (now that im older i doubt i will tho), i would make plans to keep them busy and satisfied. that is just what you do! who wants to sit around and do nothing all the time? he was like, 'then get up early' but 4 pm is still a good time to get some stuff done, ya know!??! i just think its courteous.
i mean, i have been here so many things. i know what its like to be here! next time out here, i want to be with a fun friend, or a boyfriend, someone who will be excited and thrilled to go out and about to all the spots. and if i come here, i need to be prepared. i need clothes other than the basics i have. i need a new hairstyle, i need my look together! i need to be sparkling in a sexy dress if i go to an event, i want to look like a woman, a woman who has her shit together, not some little idiot. i want to be in shape and feel good!
i want my outfits for the day too! ya know!?? i cant just come out here, drive for lunch, then sit in the car while moss goes to post office and scores some more free snipes. i just cant do this anymore! and he doesnt seem to understand!??!
im not a little girl who finds the idea of being out here exciting all the time. plus moss is a homebody. i remember a time when yes, i had that exciting sense to be out here. like wow! everything is so new! of course i was younger.
i can still enjoy myself but i need to be on top of my game. before you know it you are post mid 30s and its kind of depressing if you havent gotten it figured out by now.
anyways, plus i dont want to search through craigslist to find someone to hang out with. i am sick of hollywood blvd bars. i do like the cute tucked away hidden gems tho. i mean, tonight is some party but i dont even have a party dress. plus it is cold out. mehhhhhhhhhhwhatever doc
plus my belly is a big bloat and i have a double chin its disgusting. im a fat girl! with basic old navy wear. i dont stand out!
oh i know i am capable of standing out, just not now!
The Chickening
The night before, or sometime before, at least, Moss kept mentioning lunch with his entertainment lawyer friend. "Chicken", he would continuously say, then he would creepily tap my leg as he sometimes does, and I always ask him to stop doing that, "you're invited too."
Ok, well, I would hope so, because I know I would want to eat lunch...
So, after the night out and about in Hollywood Blvd, which ended up at Loaded, as usual, and the crazy helicopter and police...debaucle, um...I went to sleep and woke up. Within 20 mintues I started getting hungry, as usual. Moss kept saying ,"chicken,", in fact he was chanting it, "chicken. chicken. chicken" as he mumbled about hopping in the shower. let's say it was about noonish, and he chanted his way to the bathroom where he proceeded to hibernate for about an hour. I think Moss takes a weekly shower, so when he does shower, he spends as much time as possible in the shower.
When he finally was done, he was like, 'are you ready we have to leave now?!"
"Well, I do need to brush my teeth and stuff!??!" I decided I had no time to shower myself, and my stomach was growling. All I did was wash my face with my facial wash towelettes which refreshed me. I also put on another shirt to wear, but I was basically still wearing my pajamas.
We drove out to Century City, and he basically explained to me that I was to 'jump out' and follow the crowd to 'the chicken'. He also explained that the farmer's market closes at 2 so I would have to get in line while he parked. It was 10 of. He pulled over, and I put on my ray-bans (I need new sunglasses), and he pointed to a gaggle of corportately dressed lunch-goers. Corporate, very corporate. Here I was, walking like a zombie en route to Macros southwest, en search of this 'chicken', walking in a stance as like, what...am i doing!??
I got in line behind some girl and a guy, corporately dressed, and he handed her some money for chicken, I suppose, and then he said, "you forgot to say,' thanks sugar daddy'. I was thinking, 'ughh, why did he say that?" Moss had sent me off with 40.00 to obtain this 'chicken' but he sure as heck is NOT my sugar daddy!! Ugh shudder! So I tried to stare at this girl with a big nose and winged out eyeliner, I think she was Persian, wearing a dress and what not. Maybe I am just paranoid, but shit, these are the kind of jokes that get me all fucking annoyed! (The girls on the oddball bus made a sugar daddy joke too).
I stood in line, wondering why Moss has subjected me to run this kind of strange errand. Everyone was corporate, on their lunch break, engulfed in their smart phones, probably looking at graphs and retouching their power points, the way iPhone commercials and galaxy commercials show us how too, (or maybe just checking linkedin).
All of a sudden, a big body lurked over and poked me. It was Moss. I wasn't in the mood to be loud and goofy and doofy and drive attention towards us, but his tonal voice with robotic underlings began tumbling out of his hungry mouth, and I had asked him, "where did you read about this from?"
Btw, his entertainment lawyer was not able to make it, as Moss showed me the texts to and fro. I guess the lawyer was too busy, and Moss told me along with showing me his text joke about how he better be having a meeting with Incubus. "oh" i thought absent-mindedly.
I asked Moss where did he read about this chicken place? It seemed like it would be the exact thing one would read in LA Weekly and decide to check it out themselves, especially since it is so popular.
"The hidden ingredient is crack", he joked. When I was quietly standing in line, the smoke would sometimes waft out into the line of chicken-heads. I spotted all the big grills and nodded to myself. Looks good!
And it was! When it was our time in line, I opted for the mini which was chicken and rice. There were so many rice steamers. I also grabbed a black cherry fresca from the cooler. Upon trying to find a sunny seat somewhere, I was following him through the farmers market, and they still had samples of fruits like apricots, nectarines, and apples, which were so delectable and juicy. Moss also made a pit stop to pick up two bags of some sort of candied pecans and asked if I wanted something so I grabbed a bag of wasabi peanuts.
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Now to the chicken!!! Mmm!! It was some good, grilled up chicken! Best chicken ever! The rice was that perfect kind of rice! I added hot sauce and soy, but I didnt have too. Moss just got a pound of the chicken. I especially loved the charred bits.
Im going to google 'century city chicken' now, heres an example:
(Moss said he used to work at some building he pointed at, saying he worked in....insurance or something I forget) Im growing bored of trying to work on this blog)
http://www.yelp.com/biz/the-farmers-market-at-century-city-los-angeles
oh might as well continue yesterday. we stopped at rainbow to confirm moss' reseravation table at the most important table, VIP! we also shook hands and said hi to Mario, (the owner of the prestigious Rainbow, which is the rock band restaurant famous for Guns n roses videos and what not) and his son was there too, moss informed me his son is in the closet and that was his partner we said hi too. mario was there as well with his wife. shook hands said hi.
i didnt do much afterwards just sat inside. i could of went out. rons in town and he actually asked moss what is going on so im going to google fun out and about events.
bye bye!
oh im reading the yelp reviews one guy wrote about someone cutting in line ehh! i managed to grab a pic of the line so here its from the review
Ok, well, I would hope so, because I know I would want to eat lunch...
So, after the night out and about in Hollywood Blvd, which ended up at Loaded, as usual, and the crazy helicopter and police...debaucle, um...I went to sleep and woke up. Within 20 mintues I started getting hungry, as usual. Moss kept saying ,"chicken,", in fact he was chanting it, "chicken. chicken. chicken" as he mumbled about hopping in the shower. let's say it was about noonish, and he chanted his way to the bathroom where he proceeded to hibernate for about an hour. I think Moss takes a weekly shower, so when he does shower, he spends as much time as possible in the shower.
When he finally was done, he was like, 'are you ready we have to leave now?!"
"Well, I do need to brush my teeth and stuff!??!" I decided I had no time to shower myself, and my stomach was growling. All I did was wash my face with my facial wash towelettes which refreshed me. I also put on another shirt to wear, but I was basically still wearing my pajamas.
We drove out to Century City, and he basically explained to me that I was to 'jump out' and follow the crowd to 'the chicken'. He also explained that the farmer's market closes at 2 so I would have to get in line while he parked. It was 10 of. He pulled over, and I put on my ray-bans (I need new sunglasses), and he pointed to a gaggle of corportately dressed lunch-goers. Corporate, very corporate. Here I was, walking like a zombie en route to Macros southwest, en search of this 'chicken', walking in a stance as like, what...am i doing!??
I got in line behind some girl and a guy, corporately dressed, and he handed her some money for chicken, I suppose, and then he said, "you forgot to say,' thanks sugar daddy'. I was thinking, 'ughh, why did he say that?" Moss had sent me off with 40.00 to obtain this 'chicken' but he sure as heck is NOT my sugar daddy!! Ugh shudder! So I tried to stare at this girl with a big nose and winged out eyeliner, I think she was Persian, wearing a dress and what not. Maybe I am just paranoid, but shit, these are the kind of jokes that get me all fucking annoyed! (The girls on the oddball bus made a sugar daddy joke too).
I stood in line, wondering why Moss has subjected me to run this kind of strange errand. Everyone was corporate, on their lunch break, engulfed in their smart phones, probably looking at graphs and retouching their power points, the way iPhone commercials and galaxy commercials show us how too, (or maybe just checking linkedin).
All of a sudden, a big body lurked over and poked me. It was Moss. I wasn't in the mood to be loud and goofy and doofy and drive attention towards us, but his tonal voice with robotic underlings began tumbling out of his hungry mouth, and I had asked him, "where did you read about this from?"
Btw, his entertainment lawyer was not able to make it, as Moss showed me the texts to and fro. I guess the lawyer was too busy, and Moss told me along with showing me his text joke about how he better be having a meeting with Incubus. "oh" i thought absent-mindedly.
I asked Moss where did he read about this chicken place? It seemed like it would be the exact thing one would read in LA Weekly and decide to check it out themselves, especially since it is so popular.
"The hidden ingredient is crack", he joked. When I was quietly standing in line, the smoke would sometimes waft out into the line of chicken-heads. I spotted all the big grills and nodded to myself. Looks good!
And it was! When it was our time in line, I opted for the mini which was chicken and rice. There were so many rice steamers. I also grabbed a black cherry fresca from the cooler. Upon trying to find a sunny seat somewhere, I was following him through the farmers market, and they still had samples of fruits like apricots, nectarines, and apples, which were so delectable and juicy. Moss also made a pit stop to pick up two bags of some sort of candied pecans and asked if I wanted something so I grabbed a bag of wasabi peanuts.
Now to the chicken!!! Mmm!! It was some good, grilled up chicken! Best chicken ever! The rice was that perfect kind of rice! I added hot sauce and soy, but I didnt have too. Moss just got a pound of the chicken. I especially loved the charred bits.
Im going to google 'century city chicken' now, heres an example:
(Moss said he used to work at some building he pointed at, saying he worked in....insurance or something I forget) Im growing bored of trying to work on this blog)
http://www.yelp.com/biz/the-farmers-market-at-century-city-los-angeles
oh might as well continue yesterday. we stopped at rainbow to confirm moss' reseravation table at the most important table, VIP! we also shook hands and said hi to Mario, (the owner of the prestigious Rainbow, which is the rock band restaurant famous for Guns n roses videos and what not) and his son was there too, moss informed me his son is in the closet and that was his partner we said hi too. mario was there as well with his wife. shook hands said hi.
i didnt do much afterwards just sat inside. i could of went out. rons in town and he actually asked moss what is going on so im going to google fun out and about events.
bye bye!
oh im reading the yelp reviews one guy wrote about someone cutting in line ehh! i managed to grab a pic of the line so here its from the review
Tim Heidecker explains Allentown PA
so im listening to this interview (which was done in october of 2012), around 20 minutes tim explains growing up in allentown. i of course grew up in the area too. definately a steel town. people can be gruff. check out bangor pa! man!! ha oh but yeah.......allentown also alot of hispanic etc...its a city type place. i like the allentown mall tho, and golden corral when we buffet it up!!! anyways.....
tekila
The thing about being out here is, not a day goes by without having a thing to write about! So, thats the thing! Even if the day consists of nothing at all, there is still mucho to blog about!! As so, I keep remembering things, from the oddball comedy show. Such as, the snipe on the womans door. Ok so this was pretty funny! I was in the womens restroom, as was another woman. Concert goers were long since gone, so we were both washing up. All of a sudden, I saw a hand reach inside the womens room and grab a snipe off the door. it was a wanda sykes snipe i think, anyways, it reminded me of a little mouse hand reaching in for some cheese. (oh it was moss, grabbing a snipe. the other girl was too engulfed with looking in the mirror and headed back to the party to even laugh) the door was propped open btw
alright enough of that! yesterday!!!
btw denali invited me to shoot pool tonight but i think im going to stay in...
so it was still hot and i decided to go out. well my friend moses texted me to meet up with him and his wife tiffany.
they said there were good wings at one bar and also told me about this other bar too a sort of house turned retro...place.
moss dropped me off at loaded (i didnt want to walk down there, not by myself at least)...so i was like, 'hey whats up!' him and his wife are really nice. they are a bit younger than me, early 20s i think. well i met them last year when out and about with george. he told me that whenever he hung out with george, george would be more worried about talking to other females. i mean, yeah i could see that because he did that the other day when he stopped by four oh five to say hi to denali and i. but yeah, moses reminds me of a 70s kid, sort of like a character from dazed and confused. he has long frizzy curly hair and glasses and sideburns, and his wife is this sweet, blonde hair girl that is really nice and normal, she is a ballet student as well. they both are pretty real, but moses cracks too many jokes about looking for cocaine and heroin, (i think he does that when he starts getting drunk), anyways....that daveys bar was pretty cool, like i said, antique style. we then met their friend at te-kila and had the tequila lime wings. these shot girls came around and gave us a promotional shot of the tequila which was inside a scooped out jalapeno pepper. wow that was HOT! it was so hot that water nor beer could put out the flame..and it was too hot to finish the last wing i had. after we walked to this cathedral like place with an outdoor stage and fountain that i used to go with with mallory for 80s night and gothic night. so i was going a few years ago, probably when moses and tiffany were teenagers, (back in 2008), i even went to some teen night with mallory because she was 20, so she couldnt really get into much places. that place as...eh....nothing special.
i did take a few pics..moses went to the bathroom and two asian guys tried to talk to us but then they wanted us to dance a silly dance that we all did and left.
denali was msging me and i figured i would tell him where i was. i dont really have money so moses was getting my drinks but denali usually pays for drinks, (im broke!!!), so after we all walked over to loaded again...then moses and tiffany went home and denali and i walked back (he lives the apartment complex above moss's). we did stop at that lounge...i never remember what its called!!!? right by playboy liquor...
im so consumed and wrapped up with this naked dating show...i recognize angelica too, who i know from the anand jon we did some shows in new york india awareness stuff...she was on this show, but she was too embarrassed on this show.
ok so.....we were talking to some people at the bar but i was drunk and i was bored of denali so i was talking to these people next to me.
soooooooooo......uh, i forget!??! oh while we were walking back to our street, we saw a bunch of police cars, and some girl was being handcuffed...??? and there was a helicopter flying around in the sky. it was so weird. then we saw moss walking down. i thought some sort of decapitator was out and about, and i made a joke that i dont feel like writing now. i just felt this kind of.......idk...this disconnect, with life...i dont know what it is....its like i am forgetting.....wow!! (k fine a made a joke about the defecating decapitator, and moss went 'ewww'...ha! i said the decapitator they were all looking for was hiding in the bushes, defecating, while having a crazed toothy grin on his face. what!??! it was a drunk joke! i actually wasnt drunk.......but i wasnt sober!?? i think its fine if i still remember the end of the night...idk :( ) but hey im staying in tonight!
anyways......
im going to publish then attempt to write about 'the chickening'
alright enough of that! yesterday!!!
btw denali invited me to shoot pool tonight but i think im going to stay in...
so it was still hot and i decided to go out. well my friend moses texted me to meet up with him and his wife tiffany.
they said there were good wings at one bar and also told me about this other bar too a sort of house turned retro...place.
moss dropped me off at loaded (i didnt want to walk down there, not by myself at least)...so i was like, 'hey whats up!' him and his wife are really nice. they are a bit younger than me, early 20s i think. well i met them last year when out and about with george. he told me that whenever he hung out with george, george would be more worried about talking to other females. i mean, yeah i could see that because he did that the other day when he stopped by four oh five to say hi to denali and i. but yeah, moses reminds me of a 70s kid, sort of like a character from dazed and confused. he has long frizzy curly hair and glasses and sideburns, and his wife is this sweet, blonde hair girl that is really nice and normal, she is a ballet student as well. they both are pretty real, but moses cracks too many jokes about looking for cocaine and heroin, (i think he does that when he starts getting drunk), anyways....that daveys bar was pretty cool, like i said, antique style. we then met their friend at te-kila and had the tequila lime wings. these shot girls came around and gave us a promotional shot of the tequila which was inside a scooped out jalapeno pepper. wow that was HOT! it was so hot that water nor beer could put out the flame..and it was too hot to finish the last wing i had. after we walked to this cathedral like place with an outdoor stage and fountain that i used to go with with mallory for 80s night and gothic night. so i was going a few years ago, probably when moses and tiffany were teenagers, (back in 2008), i even went to some teen night with mallory because she was 20, so she couldnt really get into much places. that place as...eh....nothing special.
i did take a few pics..moses went to the bathroom and two asian guys tried to talk to us but then they wanted us to dance a silly dance that we all did and left.
denali was msging me and i figured i would tell him where i was. i dont really have money so moses was getting my drinks but denali usually pays for drinks, (im broke!!!), so after we all walked over to loaded again...then moses and tiffany went home and denali and i walked back (he lives the apartment complex above moss's). we did stop at that lounge...i never remember what its called!!!? right by playboy liquor...
im so consumed and wrapped up with this naked dating show...i recognize angelica too, who i know from the anand jon we did some shows in new york india awareness stuff...she was on this show, but she was too embarrassed on this show.
ok so.....we were talking to some people at the bar but i was drunk and i was bored of denali so i was talking to these people next to me.
soooooooooo......uh, i forget!??! oh while we were walking back to our street, we saw a bunch of police cars, and some girl was being handcuffed...??? and there was a helicopter flying around in the sky. it was so weird. then we saw moss walking down. i thought some sort of decapitator was out and about, and i made a joke that i dont feel like writing now. i just felt this kind of.......idk...this disconnect, with life...i dont know what it is....its like i am forgetting.....wow!! (k fine a made a joke about the defecating decapitator, and moss went 'ewww'...ha! i said the decapitator they were all looking for was hiding in the bushes, defecating, while having a crazed toothy grin on his face. what!??! it was a drunk joke! i actually wasnt drunk.......but i wasnt sober!?? i think its fine if i still remember the end of the night...idk :( ) but hey im staying in tonight!
anyways......
im going to publish then attempt to write about 'the chickening'
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
lamar odom spotted at hamburger haven last night
Hey!! Whats up!? Well, Im dressed, refreshed and ready for somethin' spesh (special) idk!??! i actually wanna hit the town, maybe get my drink on.....ahh not too much tho, i just...idk lol! i feel in a good mood tho because i feel clean. i hope there is spaghetti cuz i'll make a batch. moss is at the gym. i could, i could use a glass of red wine! sure!
so, oh yeah, i forgot to add, that during one of the comedy acts, it smelled really nice, like incense and funnel cake. it smelled like incense too, during the praise rang bit from the tim and eric show.
so monday we watched the game, oh, i wrote that! its what, wednesday now?
ok well, lets see. i want to flirt!??! idk, i miss that...just flirtin', drankin', chattin, chillin! im broke as a joke so someone can buy me food and drank???
yesterday, um.....idk...nothing much. oh! we went to kogi food truck by universal. deliciouso!! muy bueno! i made a youtube vid of it too. its on my YT page, alas.
im gonna head out to meet up with moses and his wife. thats why i am like, i need a cute kind of guy to cute around with. i dont know any ha! im just kidding around tho. george is my friend, ive been friends with him since i used to live here. denali is nice but kind of...boring. when we were hanging out i tried to pretend i was excited, for my sake, about being in LA but actually i was a little bored. but we get happy hour two fors...
oh yeah i remembered that girl i met last year at that lounge place. i forget the name...
i do miss my mike. we were texting. he asked me when im coming home. i need to get a ticket.
yesterday after kogi, delicious! i had the sliders with chopped up kimchi, i tasted some peanut sauce, cilantro, and that kind of cheese...it was good. much better than the tacos. i got spicy pork. after kogi, we went to........his storage to get some of my things. he does have room there but whatever. i have a good caboodle i still want, i dont think it will fit tho, it has makeup in it. good caboodle tho! i got my thongs, (sandals actually)
sigh....ive been having a kink in my neck cuz this couch lifts up and my neck and feet are elevated. i sleep with my feet elevated so my neck doesnt kink up but i have this kink in my neck.
im a chubster now. im not thin. george told me i look better now than i did last year tho. he said i was too skinny last year...idk!? whatever ha
so last night was watching conan. (oh, not trying to get drunk. i am so afraid of hangovers! i havent gotten drunk in so long, over two months, nor have i had a hangover in that long either. i dont want that. i just want to chill in this weather! i drink now tho, because if im hanging out with someone, or people, i just drink not to be bored...you know? then it gets me tired. i know i act like a psycho bitch too, bitch i was screaming at moss the other night he gave me a vicodin he thinks it affected my personality. i was calling him a brat and all that. oh well thats over with.
so i was watching conan, and in the beginning, andy was sniffing...A RED SHARPIE!!! moss wanted kacey musgraves to autograph his fan fare with a red sharpie!!!
then they did a skit about food trucks (we had lunch at a food truck, right by their studios, universal).....it was called, creepy food trucks! CREEPY CREPES!!!
kevin nealon was on the show and he said something about brownies and in the same paragraph he said 'sugar'. i make fun of moss because he says the words, 'sugar, with all due respect, and linkin park concert' alot. and you know, im browne..brownie, brown.
i even said that at the food truck because she called me 'brian' (moss told them we were dr. brown)
ahh, heres the deal. energy is based on the company you hang out with, but you got to sometimes bring the energy. why cant it just be...natural normal flow?
thats why i was telling moss, 'i do like LA! i do! but i also want to glitz out, i want to enjoy luxury, be and feel glamourous, also enjoy the wildlife; would love to go to big bear, or yellowstone national park, go glamping! (glamour/camping), go check out calabasas and malibu. would LOVE to take a motorcycle ride to malibu. i dont just want to walk around the dingy, touristy, caboodle of hollywood blvd!??!
i want to have good friends with me. a good friend, someone i feel comfortable enough with to just chill and relax and not put on a mask. you know? i have to chill out on the sensuality with anyone i hang out with, but i miss that. i havent exuded my own natural sensuality in so long. i dont want to do that with anyone here, so i put on my sort of nuetral, goofy mask. its hard to explain i suppose. or with a good friend, you just enjoy talking about familiarities.
so im not so sure how i am going to feel tonight. oh.......so i dont know. im starting to feel tired, i think cuz i need fuel. food! im also broke so....i really cant buy myself drinks and grub.
that is what i was trying to explain to moss! i love it out here, but i need to plan in advance! i need to choose my outfits; my daywear, my swimsuits, my workout wear, my nightlife dress and attire, my hair and makeup, my skincare, shampoo/conditioner, perfume/scents, shoes for all occasions...i need a pocket of money in the bank and my cash stash, my loosely binded itinerary, plans, etc...'universal studios, lunch at the ivy, shopping on robertson, poolside at the roosevelt, playboy mansion party, rent a convertible for malibu drive, tourist stuff, hollywood tours, ripleys believe it or not, red carpet VIP, more lunches/brunches, art gallery shows, comic con shows, free tapings, contestant on game shows...etc...I! NEED!! THIS!!! ALL!!!! PLANNED!!!!!!! OUT!!!!!!!!!!! BEFORE I GET HERE!!!!!!!!!!
otherwise this is what i do..........
follow moss around like a lost pup pup, listen to moss, drive around with moss, listen to moss, have cheeseburgers, heavy laden food every day, go to bed on a couch while moss still internets around, waking up 20 minutes later to him still bustles on the internet....fall asleep, wake up, "oh its a great day to be alive!" now what? realize i am so hungry! find lunch. come home.
last night we went to hamburger haven. we ordered. i noticed OH i really think it was lamar odom! see, we went to hamburger haven, we sat down. then a group came in. an old school song started playing, 'its so hard! to say good bye! to yesterday!!!" and while they were saying, the big black guy, had the body of an athlete! i really think it was lamar odom! he glanced at me when he was singing! so i was like, 'hmm' you know!?? but moss! tsk...all the time, he was totally oblivious, yakking on and on about ron, and i kept making those big eyes at him, like, 'psst!! moss' and i would guide my head at the table next to us....like i was saying, shh! over there?! look! but he never payed my gestures no mind and he just kept chattering about moss....i didnt want there table to think we were clueless dum dums. i just wanted to eat in silence and ask moss, 'whos dat?' but he had no clue!!??
he just kept on talking! finally he saw they were a crew and he asked one who they were he said camera crew filming for a reality show. he asked what show and the one guy pointed at lamar. moss then said what show, and the guy said we cant really tell contract issues.
oh my gosh MOSS!!!!!!!
i said later i think it was lamar odom. why cant moss just be chill and normal and at least be like, 'hey whats up man' and shake his hand!??! ya know!???
oh my god it was definately lamar odom! that was him!
yes it was! he looked right at me when he was singing too. he had that body of an athlete. i knew it!
and moss asked what show, he had no clue! why cant he just shut up about ron and taking the opportunity to talk super fast!??! dang man!!!!
oh...whatever ! lol! oh i know whos gay in the country community, also voice of mom from bobs burgers is ...but this country singer..woo man the girls will be upset over this one! HINT! (renee zellweger was a beard for this one)
so, oh yeah, i forgot to add, that during one of the comedy acts, it smelled really nice, like incense and funnel cake. it smelled like incense too, during the praise rang bit from the tim and eric show.
so monday we watched the game, oh, i wrote that! its what, wednesday now?
ok well, lets see. i want to flirt!??! idk, i miss that...just flirtin', drankin', chattin, chillin! im broke as a joke so someone can buy me food and drank???
yesterday, um.....idk...nothing much. oh! we went to kogi food truck by universal. deliciouso!! muy bueno! i made a youtube vid of it too. its on my YT page, alas.
im gonna head out to meet up with moses and his wife. thats why i am like, i need a cute kind of guy to cute around with. i dont know any ha! im just kidding around tho. george is my friend, ive been friends with him since i used to live here. denali is nice but kind of...boring. when we were hanging out i tried to pretend i was excited, for my sake, about being in LA but actually i was a little bored. but we get happy hour two fors...
oh yeah i remembered that girl i met last year at that lounge place. i forget the name...
i do miss my mike. we were texting. he asked me when im coming home. i need to get a ticket.
yesterday after kogi, delicious! i had the sliders with chopped up kimchi, i tasted some peanut sauce, cilantro, and that kind of cheese...it was good. much better than the tacos. i got spicy pork. after kogi, we went to........his storage to get some of my things. he does have room there but whatever. i have a good caboodle i still want, i dont think it will fit tho, it has makeup in it. good caboodle tho! i got my thongs, (sandals actually)
sigh....ive been having a kink in my neck cuz this couch lifts up and my neck and feet are elevated. i sleep with my feet elevated so my neck doesnt kink up but i have this kink in my neck.
im a chubster now. im not thin. george told me i look better now than i did last year tho. he said i was too skinny last year...idk!? whatever ha
so last night was watching conan. (oh, not trying to get drunk. i am so afraid of hangovers! i havent gotten drunk in so long, over two months, nor have i had a hangover in that long either. i dont want that. i just want to chill in this weather! i drink now tho, because if im hanging out with someone, or people, i just drink not to be bored...you know? then it gets me tired. i know i act like a psycho bitch too, bitch i was screaming at moss the other night he gave me a vicodin he thinks it affected my personality. i was calling him a brat and all that. oh well thats over with.
so i was watching conan, and in the beginning, andy was sniffing...A RED SHARPIE!!! moss wanted kacey musgraves to autograph his fan fare with a red sharpie!!!
then they did a skit about food trucks (we had lunch at a food truck, right by their studios, universal).....it was called, creepy food trucks! CREEPY CREPES!!!
kevin nealon was on the show and he said something about brownies and in the same paragraph he said 'sugar'. i make fun of moss because he says the words, 'sugar, with all due respect, and linkin park concert' alot. and you know, im browne..brownie, brown.
i even said that at the food truck because she called me 'brian' (moss told them we were dr. brown)
ahh, heres the deal. energy is based on the company you hang out with, but you got to sometimes bring the energy. why cant it just be...natural normal flow?
thats why i was telling moss, 'i do like LA! i do! but i also want to glitz out, i want to enjoy luxury, be and feel glamourous, also enjoy the wildlife; would love to go to big bear, or yellowstone national park, go glamping! (glamour/camping), go check out calabasas and malibu. would LOVE to take a motorcycle ride to malibu. i dont just want to walk around the dingy, touristy, caboodle of hollywood blvd!??!
i want to have good friends with me. a good friend, someone i feel comfortable enough with to just chill and relax and not put on a mask. you know? i have to chill out on the sensuality with anyone i hang out with, but i miss that. i havent exuded my own natural sensuality in so long. i dont want to do that with anyone here, so i put on my sort of nuetral, goofy mask. its hard to explain i suppose. or with a good friend, you just enjoy talking about familiarities.
so im not so sure how i am going to feel tonight. oh.......so i dont know. im starting to feel tired, i think cuz i need fuel. food! im also broke so....i really cant buy myself drinks and grub.
that is what i was trying to explain to moss! i love it out here, but i need to plan in advance! i need to choose my outfits; my daywear, my swimsuits, my workout wear, my nightlife dress and attire, my hair and makeup, my skincare, shampoo/conditioner, perfume/scents, shoes for all occasions...i need a pocket of money in the bank and my cash stash, my loosely binded itinerary, plans, etc...'universal studios, lunch at the ivy, shopping on robertson, poolside at the roosevelt, playboy mansion party, rent a convertible for malibu drive, tourist stuff, hollywood tours, ripleys believe it or not, red carpet VIP, more lunches/brunches, art gallery shows, comic con shows, free tapings, contestant on game shows...etc...I! NEED!! THIS!!! ALL!!!! PLANNED!!!!!!! OUT!!!!!!!!!!! BEFORE I GET HERE!!!!!!!!!!
otherwise this is what i do..........
follow moss around like a lost pup pup, listen to moss, drive around with moss, listen to moss, have cheeseburgers, heavy laden food every day, go to bed on a couch while moss still internets around, waking up 20 minutes later to him still bustles on the internet....fall asleep, wake up, "oh its a great day to be alive!" now what? realize i am so hungry! find lunch. come home.
last night we went to hamburger haven. we ordered. i noticed OH i really think it was lamar odom! see, we went to hamburger haven, we sat down. then a group came in. an old school song started playing, 'its so hard! to say good bye! to yesterday!!!" and while they were saying, the big black guy, had the body of an athlete! i really think it was lamar odom! he glanced at me when he was singing! so i was like, 'hmm' you know!?? but moss! tsk...all the time, he was totally oblivious, yakking on and on about ron, and i kept making those big eyes at him, like, 'psst!! moss' and i would guide my head at the table next to us....like i was saying, shh! over there?! look! but he never payed my gestures no mind and he just kept chattering about moss....i didnt want there table to think we were clueless dum dums. i just wanted to eat in silence and ask moss, 'whos dat?' but he had no clue!!??
he just kept on talking! finally he saw they were a crew and he asked one who they were he said camera crew filming for a reality show. he asked what show and the one guy pointed at lamar. moss then said what show, and the guy said we cant really tell contract issues.
oh my gosh MOSS!!!!!!!
i said later i think it was lamar odom. why cant moss just be chill and normal and at least be like, 'hey whats up man' and shake his hand!??! ya know!???
oh my god it was definately lamar odom! that was him!
yes it was! he looked right at me when he was singing too. he had that body of an athlete. i knew it!
and moss asked what show, he had no clue! why cant he just shut up about ron and taking the opportunity to talk super fast!??! dang man!!!!
oh...whatever ! lol! oh i know whos gay in the country community, also voice of mom from bobs burgers is ...but this country singer..woo man the girls will be upset over this one! HINT! (renee zellweger was a beard for this one)
stuff
so i have pop up ads thanks to snack server, my pc server, and all kinds of annoying crap that i cant erase off my internets....but whatever. oh! i will eventually write about sunday, but not now. now, i have a direct message that i want to parlay...directly! DOT DOT DOT HOT OFF THE PRESS!!! OH MY GOSH I CANT PAY ATTENTION TO THIS SHOW BECAUSE MOSS LAUGHS SO OBNOXIOUSLY AT THINGS THAT HE THINKS SHOULD BE FUNNY..LIKE HIS PUNNY PUNS..i laugh at things, but his annoying dorky, irritable laugh cheesifies everything and makes me unable to pay attention to what is going on. another totally obnoxious thing about him, when he is engulfed in his mind mush, he doesnt hear what anyone else has to say. yes, i cant stop complaining about him. i need normal conversation. ok, i can sort of chillax and write out what is on my mind...im just hoping that moss's dork laughs dont distract me to the point where my point is not being made. i dont really watch comedy central, but moss does. ok heres i take in comedy. i will listen, and even tho i may not laugh all loud and obnoxious, it doesnt mean i dont think it is funny. i like relatable subject matter, as does the average citizen. even those who dont think msgs are being directly directed towards them, (only keen delusionals such as myself!), it is still funny when it is the common problem, like the jim gaffigan joke about...standing over...there, when an outside person comes in too take care of something. whenever, say, a cable guy had to fix or do something with the cable, i didnt know what to do...(i asked moss if he watches tosh.0, because i want to turn on adult swim now) darn...he does. so i am enduring the fact that he might laugh at something loud and obnoxious because hey, its the funny thing to laugh at! oh, btw, moss did like grum, i figured since he always imitates what grum said during the show.."i guess!!!??!" also, he liked the 'praise drang' bit too..i mean, praise rang...
oh! i thought he was sleeping since he is actually quiet, no, toshes gosh way of describing/reading the cue card jokes has a big grin glued on moss's face. yes, i do get mean with moss, but this is why! and i am going to explain how he makes me feel...which is frustrated, annoyed...and just...well, not anchored to being on earth.
ok since i can just freely type, (no pop-ups...yet...!!!??!!) *looks around*...
first, ok so sunday. or is there anything to further make clear about saturday night, because i do realize i was typing rather fast and unfocused, due to feeling the rush of confinement about heading out to where we were going. yes, to get food..NOURISHMENT! im going to smooth over a few things that i feel..were not smooth at all.
the 'pussy posse' thing. HA!!!!! its funny! its a JOKE! ok!? not something to like, make me out to be some sort of awkward, crazed person, who is on the verge of crying like a mourning mother..talking on the phone in the orange is the new black jail...or whatever.....im not really on the verge of crying. listen, i understand how to grapple self esteem!! confidence!! well, right now i am not at the full extent of gathering up that sort of, blase lackadasica! the sort of oblivious confidence that moss has. or the confidence, that sort of....oblivious cheesy oblivion of michael lipman, thats the kind of confidence i would adopt, in a sort of cynical way, as if by doing so, it sort of develops a mask for myself, my alterior mask, for when i am out and about, you know...not my true self of course, just that mask i wear to project myself in that way...but i do have to admit, now is not the time! and i have SAID THIS TIME AND TIME AGAIN! i says i says, listen! i am a SLOB WITHOUT A JOB, BROKE AS A JOKE! now why the hell would i be walking around with some pep in my step, you know, pride in my stride!??! ya know!???!
plus, this is fucking california, LA! there are young, hot, scary girls around here!!! who the fuck am i? some fool who plays the foolish card!??! last year, i actually did look a lot better. i was 125 lbs, but even tho i didnt have up to par style.......
Sunday
so, sunday funday...i forget what we did in the morning. nothing probably. he went to the gym. i just hung out, i had taken a shower. i really wanted to go to the simpsons do the bowl thing, and moss told me to start looking on craigslist....
oh yeah!! one of the comedians made a joke about southwest airlines. (i was on southwest, and i used southwest as the area for macros, that short story i wrote...:/)
yeah, i felt like an awkward fool after i saw the reaction i got from....meh who cares right!?? HA! thats why i was making fun of myself! surely, i dont expect anyone to actually..you know, throw me a bone! im just a poor boy, no body blah (why do i always think of that song?) im not in the right place now. i am a puppy to moss, following him around, with my slop wear. my hair is plain and boring, heck, i am plain and boring. yeah the only outfits i brought are cameltoe shorts, old navy basics, workout gear, sneakers, one pair of bulky socks, one pair of converses, and i since gained weight...25 pounds! i was trying to save money, so that i could build myself up, but that damned DUI happened, and you know, (threat has been detected. threats have randomly being detected for no apparent reason and i am too impatient to figure it out. and fuck apple iphone! oh ill just ask kevin..YOU!!! kevin...oh moss says call 1800 go apple and we can go to the apple store, im like, 'no!! im not going to do that!!?" w
what am i saying now!?? see, if all was well, i would buy myself some pepper scented cologne!! if i had moolah, this and that. oh ok, so maybe, thanks to the DUI, (also yes, being pregnant, and YES i do feel like crying now! ok!??! i really do. i miss my little babies and it hurts me.......so yes my eyes are filled with tears right now.......and i hdont need moss trying to tell me how hard it is to raise a child, he is not me. this is my body! i want to be a mother. im getting older you know? no im not going to go and get pregnant...i just......i cant do this anymore. being flighty. and sometimes i get the sense that moss wanted me to come out just so that i look like some big flake...you know? like, 'look at me! im so cool! running away to LA!" while YES, i DO like it out here, i know now is not the time. i did NOT come out here to meet c. hardwick (like moss spells his name), in fact, i msgd moss to just tell him his friend thinks hes hot! LOL! cuz i know better than that. it didnt matter if i met him because REALITY told me all that would happen would be a photo op. i know moss may come across as a stalkery fan, (musgraves, red sharpie, big fan style guitar picks), but i am not that way! i have an ego and im not going to be one of those nutsters. here is a msg that moss sent me, after i told him, 'moss, i really cannot come out this time. its just not a good time' then like i said, he called me in a fit and flit of fast words and gambling this and that, and i seem to not have a mind of my own..
i know it seems like im being a mega bitch, but i just need to explain how i feel, for no one elses sake except for my own.
yes but..
moss, i cant! i have things to do, take care of my health, get a fucking JOB!!! i feel like i am gonna burst right now!!! i am on the verge of crying. also, i do love mike. i like when i make him happy. he would kiss me when i came to bed and before he went to work. we were getting along fine. i miss that feeling. im lonely ok? and being out here....moss cant even give me some time alone at time, just for some privacy. i am a woman and yes i do need some privacy. he doesnt have a guest room so thats the least he can do. he thinks i can just fall asleep without giving me some privacy, without being a gentleman and giving me some time to myself. whatever it is he does on his internet is so important to him, that he cant just get off of it and go to bed. 330 am comes (i fall asleep early sometimes because im tired), but i wake up, hes still awake. then, i hear him on his computer in the morning, 830 in the morning. its like, i cant just get a break!!!
i got so upset with moss last night. i called him a brat and condescending. he doesnt seem to get it, or understand. im very moody yes. this morning i was having a dream. i had a dream where i was walking through these walls, and an anime version of jareth the goblin king was looking for me. he passed a wall. some sort of adventuretime/superjail robot princess flew over to block my path so jareth would not see me, and she held me, (superjail style, sort of) to fly me over the ocean, where there was a tornado/or...whats it called when its a tornado from the sea? i forget now......she flew me into the eye, just like the part from into the storm, when andrew uh...w.k. um.....andrew ck...louie ck?!??? the comedian!! louie!!! it was so beautiful amidst the wind and all that, then she brought me to this island and spiderman was there too, and they flew up, and there was another cartoon too, the princess thing was in the middle, and spiderman on the right side and another cartoon, so that they were floating but it was kind of Christ like (sacrelig?) sp...sacreledge, (maybe the sarah silverman jokes)....i woke up thanks to moss bustling away at his computer...so i decided to google dream definitions. tornado meaning my emotions, highs and lows, almost bipolar, extremely emotional, (like how i am, and screaming at moss, but its because i feel he has no respect for me, and when i try to rationally try to tell him certain things, he squeaks and squaws and becomes offensive), in turn, it makes me begin to scream...(oh btw, there is this screamo emo girl who burpily screams a justin beiber song, she is super skinny, and her arms fall behind her little waist...shes all screamo, but she is scary. she has that scary, looney, loopey energy, like if you spend too much time around her, you begin to feel that woozy energy...google it or youtube it)...
tornado many emotions, and cartoon superheros etc is me feeling like im not taking life seriously. cartoons not serious...btw, claire grant, seth greens wife, has a pilot done for her and her friends. shes in her 30s, and her thing is something about unicorns...team unicorn. it looks just like my little pony....idk...well, she has the means to make a fun dream happen and turn it into a cartoon. i, on the other hand, have dreams about cartoons, depicting that i do not feel in control of my life and i am not taking it seriously, which i am not..
ok....wth is going on!???
sunday, lets just finish that. well i wanted to go to the simpsons bowl, but moss said he was only going to spend 30.00 on tickets and i could take care of the rest. we found a guy who was going to sell us 2 for 40.00, but then i saw a post denali posted about the bowl. he said it was awesome, but it seemed like a musical. he didnt tell me cast members were going to actually talk about it!??! conan was there too, singing about the monorail. we just didnt end up going :( we ended up meeting charlie the trainer, (i like him! hes fun!) at the abbey. we met his friends too, it was fun. i liked it. the abbey is all gay guys. they flirt with each other, they joke around, they have good comraderie, they all say hi and hug each other. its wonderful for them. its nice to go out and run into ppl and stuff, some guys were kissing and grinding. im too tired to explain everything tho....i put on my nuetral mask, not my sexy mask (that i never wear, but i do have it), or my um, im tired. why put on a sexy mask if im at a gay bar!? not nuetral mask, just a regular girl, nothing special either. i dont want to be mocked im just trying to be real..so, my real, but sort of goofy..mask, i guess)
abbey is known for their mojitos so naturally like a basic gal who reviews yelp reviews of hollywoon mainstays such as the abbey, i copied moss's drink of a pineapple mojito...he bought first round then charlie got second round, another pineapple mojito. yum! i emulated what moss got, i do that sometime. moss doesnt drink. mojito extra sugary. moss ate everything in the drink like it was a sugar packed drink. he ate the sugarcane stirrer, the garnishes, the pineapple...idk??
they went to another bar but we were meeting his other gay friend, who was the assistant for bobs burgers once. that guy was nice and easy to talk too. i had a gin n tonic (been drinking those lately)....yawn! getting tired
this guy was talking about his ex boyfriend who went to jail and he didnt want to be involved, well frankly bcuz moss was talking about him. i saw he tagged moss on fb and i considered sending him a friends request bcuz he seems like someone it would be fun to be friends with. :)
we found charlie and his other friend, (all these gay guys charlie and his friend and the other guy, were all really cute too!) lol. we had burgers and fries then moss and i left i was sleepy.
i was considering heading out into hollywood some more (i could of met up with denali) but i was just too tired and changed into my pjs.
anyways, that was sunday.
back to feeling like shit...moss said, 'chris wouldnt like you anyways because he likes nerd girls', oh!??
ok its because...heres why! i fully understand that, why would he be interested in me really? i never thought he would be!??! im not one of those girls that score a chance to linger around someone famous, nor am i trying to be!!! i mean, go to the dirty.com..what kind of girl gets put up there ya know? red bottom whores?
girls that sugar daddy it up and can afford fake boobs, loubs, all by caressing old man moobs!??!
uck! but then those girls score chances at whatever
or just, filmy flimsy young girls wearing filmy, flimsy sheer curtains..
what am i ? im just an idiot who blogs my non-existant life away...
i feel like i want to explain more but it feels like im being scatterbrained (due to being extra tired now)...
oh yeah, at the abbey there was a kim figgins lookalike! same eyes and dufusy smile...i later asked moss if he spotted her he said, all grum like, 'i guess!!??"
i aint tryin too.........meager
monday monday monday. monday night football! we wasted time driving to noobly california, in search of kogi burger...and to find out, mondays kogi is closed!!!!!!
so we just drove to a phillys bar to watch the eagles game. at first i was like, moss no! thats mike and i's thing, but i was hungry so went and got two pizza cheese steaks. moss actually explained the game to me, so that i can now watch without eyes glazed over, cheering when i see a score come up. i know how football works now, which is good! now i can watch and understand!
1 out of 4 chances...1st down. best time to pass the yellow line, opposite team defense stops..goal is to get past the yellow line....it might also tell how many yards there is to go....if they dont make it within 3 they have a chance to kick or punt (i think? i will have to watch more games again) i am watching the uh...i need to find out the initial guy who throws the ball, what he is called now...and they have to catch the ball and run as far as possible. flags might happen tho, if um........hmm........im tired :/ but i think now i know what to look out and when know when to cheer rather than cheering after everyone else does...or whatever!! or when to boo
eagles close game once again last night.
anyways, i had two beers...we left a bit after halftime. moss stopped at two coffee beans to get iced coffees...i was going to head out with denali but tbh it didnt matter if i went out or not...but he was like sure so he walked up here and we walked down to four or five bar. george made a stop chatted with him but he left he had writing to do. denali and i went to cabo for another drink and some loaded nachos. i didnt feel like explaining everything but at the same time i did since otherwise it would be boring so i acted like i was all fun and energetic even tho my mind was many miles away from being at cabos. plus i was tired and didnt feel like drinking anymore...
it was fine tho we left after the nachos.
i guess i might go into why i was so upset with moss, or not. basically, he is so wrapped up in his world of links and comedy central, that he laughs at quid pro quo, and i dont know, i say somethng and he doesnt even acknowledge it, like when i told him i said hi to hannibal during a comedy set. he sort of nodded then later he said something i said i told you i already said hi to him and he said he never heard me tell him that. i asked him to blow up the plastic beach ball and he nodded no...
i asked him if he an go to bed and give me some privacy......and he didnt reply finally he said after his emails he just........i called him a brat because that is how he was acting not like a gentleman who will let a woman some privacy
im tired. i guess i still have today to write about but today really wasnt interesting....
im done tho..........over it..........
oh maybe the synchs...........and spying, and all this damn spyware shi
what the freak just happened?????
wow bedtime
just said on family guy, 'well its a great day to be alive'
i have been singing that song i even sang it on my youtube video" but i dont think that part made it??
ill explain later
oh! i thought he was sleeping since he is actually quiet, no, toshes gosh way of describing/reading the cue card jokes has a big grin glued on moss's face. yes, i do get mean with moss, but this is why! and i am going to explain how he makes me feel...which is frustrated, annoyed...and just...well, not anchored to being on earth.
ok since i can just freely type, (no pop-ups...yet...!!!??!!) *looks around*...
first, ok so sunday. or is there anything to further make clear about saturday night, because i do realize i was typing rather fast and unfocused, due to feeling the rush of confinement about heading out to where we were going. yes, to get food..NOURISHMENT! im going to smooth over a few things that i feel..were not smooth at all.
the 'pussy posse' thing. HA!!!!! its funny! its a JOKE! ok!? not something to like, make me out to be some sort of awkward, crazed person, who is on the verge of crying like a mourning mother..talking on the phone in the orange is the new black jail...or whatever.....im not really on the verge of crying. listen, i understand how to grapple self esteem!! confidence!! well, right now i am not at the full extent of gathering up that sort of, blase lackadasica! the sort of oblivious confidence that moss has. or the confidence, that sort of....oblivious cheesy oblivion of michael lipman, thats the kind of confidence i would adopt, in a sort of cynical way, as if by doing so, it sort of develops a mask for myself, my alterior mask, for when i am out and about, you know...not my true self of course, just that mask i wear to project myself in that way...but i do have to admit, now is not the time! and i have SAID THIS TIME AND TIME AGAIN! i says i says, listen! i am a SLOB WITHOUT A JOB, BROKE AS A JOKE! now why the hell would i be walking around with some pep in my step, you know, pride in my stride!??! ya know!???!
plus, this is fucking california, LA! there are young, hot, scary girls around here!!! who the fuck am i? some fool who plays the foolish card!??! last year, i actually did look a lot better. i was 125 lbs, but even tho i didnt have up to par style.......
Sunday
so, sunday funday...i forget what we did in the morning. nothing probably. he went to the gym. i just hung out, i had taken a shower. i really wanted to go to the simpsons do the bowl thing, and moss told me to start looking on craigslist....
oh yeah!! one of the comedians made a joke about southwest airlines. (i was on southwest, and i used southwest as the area for macros, that short story i wrote...:/)
yeah, i felt like an awkward fool after i saw the reaction i got from....meh who cares right!?? HA! thats why i was making fun of myself! surely, i dont expect anyone to actually..you know, throw me a bone! im just a poor boy, no body blah (why do i always think of that song?) im not in the right place now. i am a puppy to moss, following him around, with my slop wear. my hair is plain and boring, heck, i am plain and boring. yeah the only outfits i brought are cameltoe shorts, old navy basics, workout gear, sneakers, one pair of bulky socks, one pair of converses, and i since gained weight...25 pounds! i was trying to save money, so that i could build myself up, but that damned DUI happened, and you know, (threat has been detected. threats have randomly being detected for no apparent reason and i am too impatient to figure it out. and fuck apple iphone! oh ill just ask kevin..YOU!!! kevin...oh moss says call 1800 go apple and we can go to the apple store, im like, 'no!! im not going to do that!!?" w
what am i saying now!?? see, if all was well, i would buy myself some pepper scented cologne!! if i had moolah, this and that. oh ok, so maybe, thanks to the DUI, (also yes, being pregnant, and YES i do feel like crying now! ok!??! i really do. i miss my little babies and it hurts me.......so yes my eyes are filled with tears right now.......and i hdont need moss trying to tell me how hard it is to raise a child, he is not me. this is my body! i want to be a mother. im getting older you know? no im not going to go and get pregnant...i just......i cant do this anymore. being flighty. and sometimes i get the sense that moss wanted me to come out just so that i look like some big flake...you know? like, 'look at me! im so cool! running away to LA!" while YES, i DO like it out here, i know now is not the time. i did NOT come out here to meet c. hardwick (like moss spells his name), in fact, i msgd moss to just tell him his friend thinks hes hot! LOL! cuz i know better than that. it didnt matter if i met him because REALITY told me all that would happen would be a photo op. i know moss may come across as a stalkery fan, (musgraves, red sharpie, big fan style guitar picks), but i am not that way! i have an ego and im not going to be one of those nutsters. here is a msg that moss sent me, after i told him, 'moss, i really cannot come out this time. its just not a good time' then like i said, he called me in a fit and flit of fast words and gambling this and that, and i seem to not have a mind of my own..
i know it seems like im being a mega bitch, but i just need to explain how i feel, for no one elses sake except for my own.
moss, i cant! i have things to do, take care of my health, get a fucking JOB!!! i feel like i am gonna burst right now!!! i am on the verge of crying. also, i do love mike. i like when i make him happy. he would kiss me when i came to bed and before he went to work. we were getting along fine. i miss that feeling. im lonely ok? and being out here....moss cant even give me some time alone at time, just for some privacy. i am a woman and yes i do need some privacy. he doesnt have a guest room so thats the least he can do. he thinks i can just fall asleep without giving me some privacy, without being a gentleman and giving me some time to myself. whatever it is he does on his internet is so important to him, that he cant just get off of it and go to bed. 330 am comes (i fall asleep early sometimes because im tired), but i wake up, hes still awake. then, i hear him on his computer in the morning, 830 in the morning. its like, i cant just get a break!!!
i got so upset with moss last night. i called him a brat and condescending. he doesnt seem to get it, or understand. im very moody yes. this morning i was having a dream. i had a dream where i was walking through these walls, and an anime version of jareth the goblin king was looking for me. he passed a wall. some sort of adventuretime/superjail robot princess flew over to block my path so jareth would not see me, and she held me, (superjail style, sort of) to fly me over the ocean, where there was a tornado/or...whats it called when its a tornado from the sea? i forget now......she flew me into the eye, just like the part from into the storm, when andrew uh...w.k. um.....andrew ck...louie ck?!??? the comedian!! louie!!! it was so beautiful amidst the wind and all that, then she brought me to this island and spiderman was there too, and they flew up, and there was another cartoon too, the princess thing was in the middle, and spiderman on the right side and another cartoon, so that they were floating but it was kind of Christ like (sacrelig?) sp...sacreledge, (maybe the sarah silverman jokes)....i woke up thanks to moss bustling away at his computer...so i decided to google dream definitions. tornado meaning my emotions, highs and lows, almost bipolar, extremely emotional, (like how i am, and screaming at moss, but its because i feel he has no respect for me, and when i try to rationally try to tell him certain things, he squeaks and squaws and becomes offensive), in turn, it makes me begin to scream...(oh btw, there is this screamo emo girl who burpily screams a justin beiber song, she is super skinny, and her arms fall behind her little waist...shes all screamo, but she is scary. she has that scary, looney, loopey energy, like if you spend too much time around her, you begin to feel that woozy energy...google it or youtube it)...
tornado many emotions, and cartoon superheros etc is me feeling like im not taking life seriously. cartoons not serious...btw, claire grant, seth greens wife, has a pilot done for her and her friends. shes in her 30s, and her thing is something about unicorns...team unicorn. it looks just like my little pony....idk...well, she has the means to make a fun dream happen and turn it into a cartoon. i, on the other hand, have dreams about cartoons, depicting that i do not feel in control of my life and i am not taking it seriously, which i am not..
ok....wth is going on!???
sunday, lets just finish that. well i wanted to go to the simpsons bowl, but moss said he was only going to spend 30.00 on tickets and i could take care of the rest. we found a guy who was going to sell us 2 for 40.00, but then i saw a post denali posted about the bowl. he said it was awesome, but it seemed like a musical. he didnt tell me cast members were going to actually talk about it!??! conan was there too, singing about the monorail. we just didnt end up going :( we ended up meeting charlie the trainer, (i like him! hes fun!) at the abbey. we met his friends too, it was fun. i liked it. the abbey is all gay guys. they flirt with each other, they joke around, they have good comraderie, they all say hi and hug each other. its wonderful for them. its nice to go out and run into ppl and stuff, some guys were kissing and grinding. im too tired to explain everything tho....i put on my nuetral mask, not my sexy mask (that i never wear, but i do have it), or my um, im tired. why put on a sexy mask if im at a gay bar!? not nuetral mask, just a regular girl, nothing special either. i dont want to be mocked im just trying to be real..so, my real, but sort of goofy..mask, i guess)
abbey is known for their mojitos so naturally like a basic gal who reviews yelp reviews of hollywoon mainstays such as the abbey, i copied moss's drink of a pineapple mojito...he bought first round then charlie got second round, another pineapple mojito. yum! i emulated what moss got, i do that sometime. moss doesnt drink. mojito extra sugary. moss ate everything in the drink like it was a sugar packed drink. he ate the sugarcane stirrer, the garnishes, the pineapple...idk??
they went to another bar but we were meeting his other gay friend, who was the assistant for bobs burgers once. that guy was nice and easy to talk too. i had a gin n tonic (been drinking those lately)....yawn! getting tired
this guy was talking about his ex boyfriend who went to jail and he didnt want to be involved, well frankly bcuz moss was talking about him. i saw he tagged moss on fb and i considered sending him a friends request bcuz he seems like someone it would be fun to be friends with. :)
we found charlie and his other friend, (all these gay guys charlie and his friend and the other guy, were all really cute too!) lol. we had burgers and fries then moss and i left i was sleepy.
i was considering heading out into hollywood some more (i could of met up with denali) but i was just too tired and changed into my pjs.
anyways, that was sunday.
back to feeling like shit...moss said, 'chris wouldnt like you anyways because he likes nerd girls', oh!??
ok its because...heres why! i fully understand that, why would he be interested in me really? i never thought he would be!??! im not one of those girls that score a chance to linger around someone famous, nor am i trying to be!!! i mean, go to the dirty.com..what kind of girl gets put up there ya know? red bottom whores?
girls that sugar daddy it up and can afford fake boobs, loubs, all by caressing old man moobs!??!
uck! but then those girls score chances at whatever
or just, filmy flimsy young girls wearing filmy, flimsy sheer curtains..
what am i ? im just an idiot who blogs my non-existant life away...
i feel like i want to explain more but it feels like im being scatterbrained (due to being extra tired now)...
oh yeah, at the abbey there was a kim figgins lookalike! same eyes and dufusy smile...i later asked moss if he spotted her he said, all grum like, 'i guess!!??"
i aint tryin too.........meager
monday monday monday. monday night football! we wasted time driving to noobly california, in search of kogi burger...and to find out, mondays kogi is closed!!!!!!
so we just drove to a phillys bar to watch the eagles game. at first i was like, moss no! thats mike and i's thing, but i was hungry so went and got two pizza cheese steaks. moss actually explained the game to me, so that i can now watch without eyes glazed over, cheering when i see a score come up. i know how football works now, which is good! now i can watch and understand!
1 out of 4 chances...1st down. best time to pass the yellow line, opposite team defense stops..goal is to get past the yellow line....it might also tell how many yards there is to go....if they dont make it within 3 they have a chance to kick or punt (i think? i will have to watch more games again) i am watching the uh...i need to find out the initial guy who throws the ball, what he is called now...and they have to catch the ball and run as far as possible. flags might happen tho, if um........hmm........im tired :/ but i think now i know what to look out and when know when to cheer rather than cheering after everyone else does...or whatever!! or when to boo
eagles close game once again last night.
anyways, i had two beers...we left a bit after halftime. moss stopped at two coffee beans to get iced coffees...i was going to head out with denali but tbh it didnt matter if i went out or not...but he was like sure so he walked up here and we walked down to four or five bar. george made a stop chatted with him but he left he had writing to do. denali and i went to cabo for another drink and some loaded nachos. i didnt feel like explaining everything but at the same time i did since otherwise it would be boring so i acted like i was all fun and energetic even tho my mind was many miles away from being at cabos. plus i was tired and didnt feel like drinking anymore...
it was fine tho we left after the nachos.
i guess i might go into why i was so upset with moss, or not. basically, he is so wrapped up in his world of links and comedy central, that he laughs at quid pro quo, and i dont know, i say somethng and he doesnt even acknowledge it, like when i told him i said hi to hannibal during a comedy set. he sort of nodded then later he said something i said i told you i already said hi to him and he said he never heard me tell him that. i asked him to blow up the plastic beach ball and he nodded no...
i asked him if he an go to bed and give me some privacy......and he didnt reply finally he said after his emails he just........i called him a brat because that is how he was acting not like a gentleman who will let a woman some privacy
im tired. i guess i still have today to write about but today really wasnt interesting....
im done tho..........over it..........
oh maybe the synchs...........and spying, and all this damn spyware shi
what the freak just happened?????
wow bedtime
just said on family guy, 'well its a great day to be alive'
i have been singing that song i even sang it on my youtube video" but i dont think that part made it??
ill explain later
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