synchy for my notes...so...i saw and ad for 'dodge' and i heard DODGE on tv...well, today driving towards the mall, my dad was like, ;its your car! it was a silver DODGE stratus like the one i have! which i will be driving again soon. its a junker but it works. we started it and it started up...need tires and a new brake tube....another synch...my dad said someone thought he was dead or somehting because he was laying underneath his suzuki to find the tube to let out the water for the ac because its been flooding...so i said he must of looked like the wicked witch of the north  with her legs sticking out like that. well, watching sharknado, they had the wicked witch of the north with her legs.
i have to post in my notebook...write

link to illuminati break down of 'now you see me' -cant wait to wtach part 2!??!!!

http://www.infowars.com/now-you-see-me-a-movie-about-the-illuminati-entertainment-industry/

Magic and mind suggestions....subliminal or nuerolinguistic

watching Now you see me, and i have been meaning to watch this for a while...so today on sy fy i see sharktopus has been playing all day....so i decide to google and see which one conan o brien was on so i went to his imdb , (however the imdb did not show his films etc...just a bio...but if it had!!??!) id of seen that conan o brien was also featured on....NOW YOU SEE ME! also, in the movie, it shows how they suggest suggestion to certain folks they target as to put them in a hypnotic state. i have seen conan during his bit on his show on commercials, but this part didnt make sense but would of been a synchronicity had his imdb actually shown everything he was on, including NOW YOU SEE ME

so another failed synchronicity, but almost there!!! i believe power of suggestion ....somehow...or who knows...just odd

saturday

So....last night, I watched the final episode of orange is the new black. you see, NO SPOILERS!???! but i bought an LED pint glass, I LOVE LED!!! i could of did the usual, and had some wine. or maybe drink a few beers while watching my show, but I did not drink. mike came over, basically, to snore loudly (he has sleep apnea), but it is very annoying. i would like to have real company, not someone who just falls asleep. what fun is that? well, a sign happened...and in the show, they did say
'signs are everywhere' and then MONKS came around. MONKS!??! like christian monk!?? they were riding bicycles with LED lights!??!?!? if i were drinking from my new cup, id be like...whoa!! and the girl before was drunk...soso NOT TRYING TO SPOIL THo

then i posted about grand theft auto, wondering when i was going to finish the game...well, i finished
it!??!?!

today we went to the compassion experience which was a virtual walk through with earphones and you can listen to kids stories...and it shows the way they lived, schools etc...it was raining bad. then we had a free meal at the one world community, which was vegan food. im hungry again..

i have no plans for the rest of the night....so...i do not know....but church tomorrow...

EDIT church sunday...but there were also PALLETS in that episode and i love pallets!

save up for...

Mirror
vanity
unicorn knick knack ??
i have a futon but it takes up so much space i am thinking i should...get rid of it?

Desk
Car
smartphone (galaxy?)
imac
printer

funny ideas/youtube/skits

real life asmr, 'why are you whispering, pharmacist?'

if sarah chose to come inside and meet the misses, "are you all named...worm?"

i had other funny ideas but now i forget?!? i just had one too, i have to write them down right away...it will come back to me tho

darn i had two other ideas...recent ones not older ones..erghh i need to remember them...hmm....

Come Visit Our Shabby Chic Farm House......Tour Video

I mean, I totally love farmhouses. it reminds me of being younger and sleeping over at friends houses who lived in farmhouses, i mean, i really did grow up in the country amongst the cornfields, and there is something so sweet and romantic about a country home. see, they rent this house...i can rent out a country home. mike wants me us to move in together but i cant. we need to let go. i need to move on and so does he. if we move in, i will never meet my partner in crime. i have a romantic thread somewhere in this stagnant nuetrality ive been living in for the past 2 years... sigh

I mea=

Our Retro Vintage 1950's Style House Tour by CHERRY DOLLFACE

So, everytime i type in house tour on youtube, its ALWAYS these big, stupid mansions...cookie cutter, little rich kids giving tours of their mansions (they live with their rich parents) blah blah BLAH!! well, i typed in VINTAGE RETRO house tours, and i much prefer this type of house then all those annoying mansion tours. i like REAL life, not so much big huge houses. i dont know...im more of a cozy comfy homey homey

this!
also want the bubble yum pillow. i need to decorate my bed with pillows. lots and lots of pillows. also concert tshirt pillows i can make, well, i have a few band shirts


https://www.peepsandcompany.com/product/giant-plush-peeps-chick

Synchs and shit

So, Friday we went to Weston and Larins new place, she was sleeping, but he showed us around. It is a HUGE house, hallways after hallways, room upon room. its only two of them, plus the cat and dogs, but its crazy!??! and a big garage and a loft above the garage, and a huge deck and patios galore and a huge yard and a pool...above ground pool. its just so...big!?? heh but anyways, i dont know, i would not know what to do with a house with that many rooms. two seperate staircases, a huge office...crazy!??! so remember i said we went to christians grave? well, i told mike watch, we will see a sign later, because mike doesnt think it happens. so anyways, i figured it would be a rabbit sign, since we saw a rabbit on christians grave. well, i had a rabbit synch, i found myself searching adam and eves website for RABBIT vibrators WTH!??! its because i clicked on the hayden link and saw her holding up a dildo vibrator thing that looked like the rabbit vibrator!??!?
anyways, mike went to sleep but i saw this thing on youtube red, it was being advertised and promoted on youtube, it looked interesting, about people getting invited to a dinner party at a huge mansion house...(i like that sort of thing), so i clicked and watched the first ep and the one guy got POISONED and then the guy, who is gay, said, 'pissing with poison' it reminded me when i was at the gay bars and gay clubs that one year in noho and me and some girls were in the bathroom and a gay guy was with us and we were acting like it was all high school haha!

pissing with poison!??! WTF!??!? smdh

so anyways...i was reading the comments and all of a sudden, i saw it. i woke up mike who was busy snoring next to me and i was like, 'mike...look'

this is what he saw:

do you see it??? The Doctor. that is what mike and everyone called christian. The Doctor, even mike has a tattoo that says that in remembrance of christian.


So it was a sign, because we knew he was watching us...

but then again, i asked before, who am i communicating with? a demon? the devil is very deceptive...

queen

The other night at work, I thought, (since I work at Majestic), this is not majestic at all. I want to feel like a queen. After I die, I do not want to go into comfortable silence, I would like to feel regal and majestic like a queen..(no, I do not feel as if I deserve to be spoiled like a queen, like Kim does, nor do I want that), I meant, I want to be regal and majestic. I was thinking about death, well, the next day, i see two posts about queens. One, was a meme about the band Queen and Kanye, how queen has sucky lyrics "i want to ride my bicycle" and kanye has thought provoking ones. i commented on that post, saying i like the bicycle song. then, as i was scrolling after that, I saw Kim post a selfie with her coffee cup which said, "Queen of effing everything". so i was like, wow ok...queen! well the next day i was like, 'who am i communicating with. are you a demon?" because somehow i get the feeling that it is not God...but who than? who!??! well i was reading a new book on break and i saw this phrase, "proverbial demon". DEMON! AHH NO!!! so i asked, what is your name, demon? later out of nowhere, i said, 'beezlebub' (i was saying beetlejuice beetlejuice beetlejuice) because im at work and i think weird things...thats what that job does to me...but i think beezlebub is the only demon name i know, and then later out of nowhere i thought of baphomet, but thats the only other demon name i know. i think my mind just conjured up those names...idk...

we went to christians grave today. we saw a rabbit. im waiting for a rabbit sign now...

what else? i dont know....cant think i look at my comments and i see this...(its an old comment tho) not sure what it means?????

Not according to the one, true God. on Hayden Panettiere

in response to Same thing, by Anonymous.

EDIT UPDATE: so i clicked on the hayden panettiere post i made, to see if there were any clues or signs...and i see her holding what looks to be the RABBIT vibrator...

i mean, i wanted a rabbit sign, so is that a sign??? click on the link and scroll...shes holding something that looks like the RABBIT vibrator!??!?? hmm.....

Fifth Harmony - Work from Home ft. Ty Dolla $ign

synch i was trying to download this song and i saw on tv it says WORK smarter for BTI school...idk, also when i said last week they changed ,'ha' to 'he has' i think He has answered my question about our souls after death, and also...adult swim kept showing shows that were saying HA! ha ha ha

How to Decoupage Furniture with Napkins a Table

Friday is almost here! While I do not have any plans, I am looking forward to it. Gosh, this summer has not been a very summery summer. I have not campfired, none of that outdoorsy stuff. Remember I have a list of all the summer activities I want to do? With Sasi and this job, it is like I cannot do any of it. I did stuff tho, Sage is leaving Friday, I am gonna miss her :( we did alot...lets see...powwow, NYC, picnic, went to beach, (with caleb and aunts tho), went ziplining, (AWW DAMN I REALLY NEED TO START TAKING PICS FOR PROOF OF MEMORY) and its good to look back on, for example, summer of '16....because this job is so consuming, it feels like I have not enjoyed life, but I have. I really have. Sage and my mom and I babysat at the nursery, i mean, we do stuff...i do stuff. i am going to start keeping scrapbooks of things i do, such as, last week we went to the cemetery...idk

so Gabby msgd me...she had her 3rd dui and was in jail longer, more fines...and she had my PO who put her on gray which was sasi twice a week. she told me she got a new PO and that he is cool and that he put her on teal, which is monthly...WHAT!??!? WHOAA!!

i am still on weekly. i could not even comprehend monthly. sasi really hurt me, it made me forget about life...living..it limited me. it limits me. it depresses me. it holds me back.


while i complain about this job, i do get a good paycheck, but my dad is going to jump my old car so at least I can drive that for the time being. when i get my car back and running, i am going to look for another job. i already told steve my supervisor in my department, that it is too hard for me, these hours!!! but i am going to try to hold out for two more months, so i can say i was at majestic for a year.


it is too tough tho, it really is. like i said, i feel i am missing out. last night they all went to texas steakhouse. i was at work of course. :/

i saw a little mini persian rug which is actually a mousepad which i thought was cool. i must have it!

i see my PO next week and i really hope for some good news. i do not know how i will feel if she keeps me on crimson. i will get a new PO thats what. i have been on for a year, weekly. i have never failed. this is bullshit.

Ha!?

On Sunday, as I was chatting w a friend on facebook, I kept noticing that when  I would type 'ha' it would change into 'he has'....like fb was autocorrecting or something. i posted a screen cap of it on fb, and then I started noticing shows like the cleveland show on adult swim kept saying HA!!

anyways, here is the screen cap...(He has...maybe He has answered my question about death..)

he kind of was like...idk...weird

what happens when you die?

yesterday i went to the cemetary with mike, to look for christians grave. while seeking for it, i was asking aloud, 'what happens when we die? where do we go? where do our souls go?' and just a few moments ago, i got my answer.

see, a while ago after the church service, we usually have cookies and coffee etc in the church cafe. well, one of the church members told us that her mother died for 20 mins (also another guy at the church says this too)...but the mother was upset and said, 'i didnt go anywhere!" she doesnt remember...if she did, that is. i do not know!?? but anyways, just now, as i was scrolling fb, i saw an article by vice. its called, when i died and came back, i didnt go anywhere....and im reading the comments and someone else said the same thing too. nothing...blackness. thats it.

how terribly sad. how impossibly tragic. why!?? after all the effort into loving, giving birth, raising children, having a family, getting married, we just ...disappear? lights out? thats it!?? i refuse to believe this. its just such a tragedy and comedy wrapped up in one. or maybe thats it, comedy and tragedy, yin yan, as above so below...maybe thats the puzzle. balance and solarity.

"I died on August 19, 2011, near my house in Arizona. I was fully engulfed by blackness. That's all there was. I was not in my body, I was not with my body, I was not part of my body, but for a while I was still somehow aware of it all. It was black and pleasant and nothing. I was dead. And that was it."

if you want to read the full article, click here; http://www.vice.com/read/this-is-what-its-like-to-die-and-come-back-to-life-911?utm_source=vicefbus

this sounds absolutely beautiful (one of the comments) 

Anyone who has really died knows that there is no death, only a change of worlds. We are all right where we've always been, no one's going anywhere, we can only dream of being elsewhere. The soul is its own eternal abode, so while the body is still warm, welcome yourself back home to yourself, where there is no arrival or departure, coming or going. Life and death are one and the same, there is no difference. You are either still in the body, or not, but we exist whether we like or not, and we have never really left home. Home is real, and we "get there" by the degree to which we are actively present where we are. Yes, there really is a God.

thank you, i needed to hear that

EDIT EDIT: 

I WAS Going to say mike and I visited our friend, Christian Moncks grave, well we could not find it. i am still scouring the comments from that article, and I see this:

is that christian? answering me? christian monk...hmm...that name itself kind of seems like an answer...christian (believing in God), monk, believing in nature..i have to research more on that...wow


i dont know, but i got something of an answer, a synchronicity, and that has to mean something, right??

i got another synchro but ill just blog about it later...

I am a very invasive kind of person, I like seeing how peoples' showers, refridgerators, set of keys, pantries (not panties!???!), homes, meals, dvd lists, makeup, I just think it gives a human touch...I need to call my insurance to ask about my dental plan because I really need to go. but anyways, another thing, dreams

what dreams do people have?  i can ask fb but i really do not care enough. anyways, i had a few dreams. this morning, i dreamed that i had a free trip with celebrities. kylie jenner and kendall jenner. i have no idea why i dreamed that, but we were going to another country and my trip was payed, but then i lost them at the airport. sage was going too. then i found them. they were waiting in the celebrity lounge at the airport. what else...i am not sure if this is a synch, but its something . last night i guess the enty lawyer (im friends with him on fb so i always see reveals and posts) anyways, he said that some rocker had a kid with a groupie but he harassed her every....like....so often, calling and harassing her friends. he accused her of getting pregnant for money...(idk how much money he has?) well, at two the baby died of lead poisoning. yes lead is evident in low income housing...i got a booklet for it when i moved here, we do not have lead here...but it talks about how harmful lead is. the rocker is pete wentz, from fall out boy. ashlee simpsons husband ...or was? idk....anyways, today on hollywood today live, they were asking whos weird baby names belong to what parent, such as apple (gwyneth paltrow), and one of them was bronx mowgli, whos parents are pete wentz and ashlee simpson...

i dont know why i am focusin on all this celebrity shit...whutever

went to picnic at terrys. everyone was there. was nice. had hot dog and all kinds of potato salad, picnic stuff....and played croquet which was a lot of fun. got home late of course....we all went to the shore the other day. now, back to work!??!?!??

OINTB blog

I started watching new season OINTB and by golly, been noticing a few synchs. last ep, lots of poison....they said poison a few times, plus they said mandela. this episode i just watched, same thing. see, remember when i was in jail? well, i wrote here..on this blog, how we made mandalas, so i notice they talk about mandalas on OINTB, perhaps mandala is a prison/jail thing, but maybe i let them know that? one of the characters on the show, the paranoid schizophrenic conspiracy theory one, is played by LORI petty...HA! she used to be a reporter and she said they fired her because she was going to expose how the US POISONS everyone slowly (flouride?? fLORIde!??) they said mandala on this ep bcuz they knew it would get my attention....and then in this episode they also said PIE or Pi...and rory always blogs about pi on her synchronicity blog, and she blogged about OINTB...and on the schizophrenics sign on her cart it said, 'YOU KNOW MORE THAN YOU THINK" as if that was made for me..?!??!

a few other trigger type words that perked my senses...

but anyways....i dont know...tired. went to the shore with my family LONG day...and picnic tomorrow.

oh SYNCH!! i was so careful about writing MANDALA but i guess i wrote mandela

the mandela effect!??! i just went to rorys fb page to see if she made any new synchronicity blogs, and i saw she posted an article on the MANDELA effect!??!?

she also thinks that the writers of OINTB read her blog. i should msg her again...hmm....:/

EDIT
UPDATE:

In that episode, Lolly (the paranoid schizophrenic) makes a time machine out of foil and stuff. The mandela effect may be because of time travellers??? Also, every night I am at work, I get so depressed. The other night I prayed to God if I die, I would like to just go back in time till after I graduated high school, so that I can make different decisions, like staying in the army, or even getting married to Danny idk...well, in that episode, Healy tells Lolly that she should not try to worry about going back in time and just focus on the now. It was just weird, seeming how I was thinking that...but I never shared those thoughts??? Until now, but it was like, somehow being answered or something weird

taylor swift synch

i was turning the channel and the service electric board cam on  song was taylor swift shake it off..then i put on usa and it was like...one of those psychic csi shows with that one guy..idk, and the taylor swift song was on..

im not drunk no!! we're not drunk!!!