Sunday, March 31, 2013

journal type entry

real quick, mike kicked me out. i went out thurs night w/ adam, well first mike acted like he wanted to chill/drink beers but i had a feeling it wouldn't happen. well i was going to stop drinking bcuz i did not want to be stuck drinking on the stupid internet again! i texted adam whats he doing he actually texted back i kind of didn't want to go out but he already said sure he was going to come over. it was like, 1030 he still didnt leave and i was just gonna be like, 'eh i feel like staying home' but he finally left so we just went to pickled egg. mike fell asleep of course but mike acted like he wouldn't get mad at me if i went out he even said i could get a 12 pack (i have a bunch of beers left..watery coors light), well adam and i went to pickled egg hung out it closed so i came back i didnt invite adam in because mike would have a cow so i just popped open a beer and did exactly what i did not want to do, which was post videos on facebook and ask a really strange weird kind of question somewhere...whatever. 

i was upset about that bcuz i didnt even want to drink but i just did so of course the next morning mike starts waking me up at 9am telling me he wants me out. i didn't do anything wrong the night before. i am so sick of the same thing its always the same. 

TO BE CONTINUED...((to lazy and tired to blog more))
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Look what they done to my brain, ma

The mother they say is her mother is not her real mother...mileys.

Look what they've done to my song ,Ma
look what they've done to my song
Well it's the only thing I could do half right
And it's turning out all wrong , Ma
Look what they've done to my song

Look what they've done to my brain ,Ma
look what they've done to my brain
Yeah they picked it like a chicken bone
And they think I'm half insane,Ma
Look what they've done to my brain

Wish I could find a book to live in
Wish I could find a good book
Cause,if I could find a real good book
I'd never have to come out and look at
Look what they've done to my song

na na na na na na na ... na
na na na na na na naa
Well, if the people are buing tears
And we'll be rich someday , Ma
Look what they've done to my brain

But maybe I'll be all right ,Ma
Yaeh maybe I'll be OK
Cause, if the people are buying tears
Then we'll be rich someday ,Ma
Look what they've done to my song

Look what they've done to my song,Ma
Look what they've done to my song
Yeah they tied it in a plastic bag
And they shook me upside down,Ma
Look what they've done to my song

Look what they've done to my song...
Lyrics was added by duptyduu
Videos were added by zuzzzka, Majulina

 http://www.karaoke-lyrics.net/lyrics/cyrus-miley/look-what-they-ve-done-to-my-song-395946
 
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Thursday, March 28, 2013

What is with Miley Cyrus and horses?





i hope...no no i can't think that way. btw, i want to make a video of vanessa hudgeons and club 33...
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Sophia Vergara

How old is she? She never ages either? Shes 40 too (some pics of her old and young..i guess ha)



she looks super young in the right one she instagram'd



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Dita von teese

if you saw her walking around, it'd be like, wow she is timeless...and because she has that pin-up style, i guess you could say....not pin-up..u know what i mean, it would make her even more ageless. how old is she? oh, she is 40. wow she looks great!

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-2300495/Dita-Von-Teese-comes-Elvira-steps-black-ensemble.html


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J G L

i just took a bunch of pics off that link, but i think he is MKd especially if you look at the link...hes been in hollywood since a child of course he is

lots of confusing layers/compartments

almost the masonic hidden hand element/baphomet/darkened eye/layers

in front of a bunch of eyes

hot!!!!

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distracting

uh these sites! one can get lost in clicking clicking and clicking! i first clicked on 40 variations of that red equality sign, which led me to click on this one http://www.buzzfeed.com/amandamarsh/the-typical-day-of-a-teenage-girl-in-the-late-90s-96ht  then i clicked on topanga in maxim
now im looking for 'reasons why joseph gordon levitt is the perfect man'...

sigh...distractions!!!

oh about the 90s girl, some stuff i relate to others i dont

i relate to the NOW cd (i bought one i think..not the first one tho)

herbal essence (in fact i just bought those herbal essence throwback now and using them NOW)

GAP DREAM and candle!

glitter (but not pots of it)

strawberry fruitopia when i was stationed at the presidio of monterey california

alloy and delias

YM magazine subscription! (and TEEN, sassy and seventeen)

mix tape

show i watched 'my so called life'

so, im a 90s girl who grew up to be a big LOSER!!! APPLAUSE
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turnip french fries

so i was thinking about starting a new blog, totally unrelated to this one. i was going to create a character but at the same time...you know, instill adsense. im just thinking about ways to make money off blogging. apparently i heard some money off of adbrite.com, come to see..adbrite no longer is. wtf?! i get a couple hundred views per day here, so why not enable ads? so i made a new blog but it has google yahoo has disapproved it. YOU SUCK GOOGLE YAHOO ADSENSE X:(

http://turnipfrenchfries.blogspot.com/
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emily browning sync

emily browning!? who? oh that girl that was in...like, some movie

ok so this is weird!??! i loaded up sims on accident (i stopped playing that game i just accept all the requests but its such a pain nowadays)...so the new quest is this:

so it made me think of 'lemony snickets a series of unfortunate events' and i remember someone thought it was jennifer lawrence who was in that movie but it wasnt it was actress emily browning, who was in sucker punch. anyways, right as i thought that, i heard this on the office "

Kelly: What?
Michael: Watch out Kelly, he might sucker punch you.
Dwight: I didn't sucker punch you, Michael.

they also said WONDERLAND

 
"Michael: [in his office on his cell phone, talking in a fake high voice] Hey Ryan. This is Michael Jackson calling from Wonderland."

anyways...see??? 
 http://officequotes.net/no2-06.php

(i feel kind of depressed...oh i almost missed hearng them say sucker punch bcuz mikes snore got so loud i hate that. there is no door to close from the bedroom to the living room so he snores and i end up not hearing crucial moments. and yes, i feel kind of depressed. why? oh, my life..thats why)
 




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Wednesday, March 27, 2013

masonic nastygal sex kitten millionaire mogul

so yahoo has a featured article about 'nastygal' creator, who became a millionaire or something..idk, i always wonder about this kind of stuff..(moguls etc) oh and she is wearing a masonic compass type shirt http://finance.yahoo.com/news/naughty-name-only-015034664.html so.......
 
take note of the masonic compass like design on her shirt 
Like · · · · Yesterday at 4:11pm
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restaurants and receipts BIG MARKETING PUBLICITY SHAME

Lori Brown
hmm...touching story..yes..but, for some reason...i get the feeling this is some sort of advertisement for chilis (and now im craving a chilis cheeseburger...) http://gma.yahoo.com/blogs/abc-blogs/autistic-girls-broken-cheeseburger-story-goes-viral-234305060--abc-news-topstories.html
Like · · · · Monday at 11:28pm
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tila came up with the winning lotto numbers!!!

ok i got a screencap LOL


so in the comments someone sent her this:

http://thenewlotteryblog.blogspot.co.uk/

ok so...i msgd the guy who said he did it here is his reply


  • Conversation started March 19
  • 10:11pm
    Lori Brown
    did you make those numbers up?
  • Tuesday
  • 6:26pm
    Alec Tschantz
    are we talking about tila tequila here?
    sorry ive just seen this
    if were talking about tila then yes
    but if were talking about something else
    then i dont know
  • 8:26pm
    Lori Brown
    hmm not sure anymore?
  • 8:33pm
    Alec Tschantz
    hahah
    who knows
  • 8:38pm
    Lori Brown
    i was talking about tila i believe, but now i dont remember why anymore. could of been about that lotto she said she won..oh yeah! thats it! did you make that up?
  • 8:38pm
    Alec Tschantz
    haha yeah i did
    she is really crazy
    did you see what I made?
    it was a blog called "the lottery" with one post
    and the post was her numbers
  • 8:40pm
    Lori Brown
    i think i saw the link. where is it? she made those numbers up and made it look like she chose them??
  • 8:42pm
    Alec Tschantz
    she wrote down some numbers on fb and told everyone to "imagine" them, and because she thinks shes an angel resurrected she was sure that because she imagined them that they would "manifest" in a lottery and everyone would win loads of money
    then i made that website and sent it to her
    and she thought it had actually worked
    when i told her it was fake she was not happy at all
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someone tricked tila

LOL i havent been following tila at all i dont check out her page or anything like that. well this is funny. i did however, see that she thought she picked the winning numbers for some lottery...

i dont even feel like looking for her status update or the site...but i msgd someone who said he made up a fake site using the numbers she had posted. she got all excited thinking they all manifested those numbers, when it was fake all along!!

well now that we are on the subject of manifesting...i need to manifest some good energies that will HELP me obtain my dreams and goals and to get a job!

YES any dream i have turn it into reality (this itt tech school commercial is on)....so...im thinking, i dont know? i just...do not know!?? should i give up, or should i thrive and strive?

oh Lord, send me a sign. Please, i ask of you...

EDIT: i always wanted to work at the movie theater. but that would mean nights and low pay and working with high school kids.

ughhhhhhhh maybe i should just go back to school. if i do that tho, i cant stay with mike. he would want me to pay rent. i would have to go back to my parents. or what? WHAT!??! PLEASE SOMEONE, HELP ME!???????????????????????? im falling under water here! throw me a bone!
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chic fila

so, the producers of 'the bible'...mark burnett, sarahs husband mark knows him. does that make sense? that sentence? mark and sarah and oliver and hazel are in africa now. such a blessed family and life. they are living a good blessed life. they arent living that 'stupid pointless superficial being famous life' they are happy. 

so yeah marta just posted how chic fila must be opened. they are giving out free chicken for a year. i understand prop 8 and all that is occurring now, everyones fb status seems to be equality and what not. chic fila does not believe in gay marriage. they never called me back either. i went in for two interviews. i need work! you know? i need a job! 

i am so sick of doing nothing with my life! oh and the blood plasma does not pay. its donations. so yeah, i do not disagree with gay marriage. i think people should be entitled to be married. its complex, yet it is not. 

well, thats all folks! 

now maybe i should drain myself of all blood and sit happily on the couch, waiting for mike to come home. ahh i will make a mess tho, and marble will be traumatized.

ha! wow im kidding around geez. im just...........at that point in my life!?? where i feel i must die. so just...just kill me now!  
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in response to 'whats the point of life nik ritchie if your what they call..a normie or whatever!??

Ok so....some one sent thedirty.com this...


THE DIRTY ARMY: Nik, what’s the point of life if you’re not rich and famous? You’ll just be another slum working a 8 – 5 job, being underpaid, having some asshole for a boss and driving a piece of sh*t car. When you die, who will remember you? Your family maybe… no one else. What’s the point of having a facebook, twitter etc when no one really gives a sh*t what you’ve “been up to” – that’s saved for the ones with wealth and celebrity. So tell me Nik, you have fame and money… but what would you be without that? Wtf is the point of life if you’re just an ordinary loser on the sideline watching everyone else get what they want.
I would have no point if I was just a normal civilian. I’m too far removed to even think about living a normal life… that would be depressing.- nik


alright so...we are all our own individual self on this planet...
 every one has a damn ego, therefore everyone likes to think their life is important, and that they matter. even if everyone on the damn internet knows who you are, so the fuck what!?? do they really know you? are they your friends? do you chat with them? life is about learning, it is about experiences, it is about connecting, finding the path that is best for you. why one earth is 'being famous' so damn important? because its not! its quite foolish actually! it does suck living a lonely, inadequate life tho. i think that when you are busy, when you work, when you have hobbies, and when you get friends and family, well then, that brings happiness. when you eat well, when you feel happy...then so what if your not a 'famie'....SO WHAT!??!

ugh the mindset nowadays. right??? o

hmm...i saw this guy i used to know, well, i know him from anand jon. i did not realize anand jon was a facebook friend so i deleted him but i saw liam mcmullans facebook so i looked through it because i remember he was this skinny little fellow who sort of seemed like he wanted to be sort of, aloof and cool. like, he was searching for his person...but i was looking through his photos and i see alot of symbolisms there, i see aleister crowley shirts and pyramids with eyes and a goat and stuff...i was just...thinking about msging him or something...i dont know? i kind of miss hanging out in the city. i am just freaking BORED!!! i thought i was going to start working well...now i don't even want to post on damn facebook because i feel like an idiot. mike just drew attention to the fact i dont have a job by posting that. i know mike was just happy but...he jumped the gun. they didn't even want me to come in today. now i feel afraid to post anything. ppl are still liking that status update. damnnnnnnnnnnnn damn damn DAMNN!!! oh i was going to donate plasma thats right!??! i cant even post that on facebook now!?? erghh  



oh and about 'nik ritchie' who the hell is he? and who cares? ppl dont think about him on the daily. they go to his website, because i guess its there. you know? he probably thinks hes a ballin' celeb...yo!! with his daughter pressie and his wifey shaynie...like they are on the same level as snookie and lorenzo and the hubby...whatever his name is? i feel silly even knowing these people!

no one i know does! HA! im just an idiot. damn i need to figure life out! for meself! and moss keeps telling me to get a job in entertainment. 'get a job in entertainment' ok well.........i would love to do that. damnet! i...i just...i cant think!?

at least nice weather is right around the corner, but yes i need a job so i can start saving money.



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i dont know what to do?

i feel like an idiot. well, i woke up at 630 this morning, with mike. mike was all happy i was going to work, but i just had this bad feeling. berks and beyond is a temp job after all. sure it felt good to think i would actually start a job, so i warmed up the car and took off...(its far you know? well, like a half hour but kind of far for an 8.50 hr job)...so, while on my way up, i get a call and its them. its the guy who set me up yesterday. he said they don't need me. um...wow..ok!? he said to come in anyways to finish the direct deposit forms in case they get other assignments. i felt so stupid tho. well mike had to post, on my behalf, to facebook about me getting a job, and everyone liked and said congrats. uh, no...they just called me and told me they don't need me. so i look like a fool. especially in front of lincoln tech ppl, you know? why did i go to pharm tech school? anyways...so, i headed up there to do the direct deposit stuff, (dude i need to get my phone fixed it says no called ID anytime i get a phone call but i need a seperate phone to take care of this...and not my other cell phone bcuz that only has a few minute on it)....so yes, the guy told me that they called them last night to tell them they dont need another associate (why didn't he call and leave a msg for me then? weird..and surely it couldn't of been that late, if they called them during work hours. doesnt make sense. he called ay 7:25 am this morning, i was on the road...but he told me they called last week? im wondering if im on some sort of black list. it seems that way.) whatever....i just don't know anymore. mike was happy and told me he was going to get the tattoo (the one he was supposed to get me for valentines day since he didn't even get me anything. he said he was going to get me a gold-dipped rose but he didn't because we got in a fight because im not trying to get a job) well i AM trying to get a job! why hasn't chick fila (filet?) fila sneakers? remember those??? tsk i dont know...maybe they all read my blog. this is fucking ridiculous. oh but i do have to say, im glad i didnt work today because it would of ruined my UC benefits, once again. its just such a hassle going through all that...getting a job and then going through the trouble of waiting for them to get a letter from the job stating i dont work there anymore yadda yadda yadda. i just wish mike would leave me alone about getting a job. of course i want one!

i want a job. i like working. i like getting a steady income. so...i am going to donate plasma today i think. its 40.00. why not? im going to have breakfast tho. then perhaps apply at family thrift store since they are hiring too. oh God help me now! i call out for you. i need to do something with my life. this is utterly depressing! i can't...just live like this! doing nothing, having no balance, having no platform. being nobody. not being a contributing idiot to idiotic society. oh they cut the song off...EMERGENCY ALERT SYSTEM it was helping me feel upset...(where did i go wrong, how to save a life, by the fray...) ha! i put on vh1 since they play videos in the morning so this song is helping me feel sorry for myself.

yeah so...i am awake now...i need to eat then go do stuff today. i really wish mike did not post that. i understand he is happy for me and he does want me to work so that i can get myself nice things too. alright...enough bullshitting around on the internet. i need to get up and at em (lol) since i am awakes now.

what should i have for breakfast? french toast sticks?? i really ought to start eating healthy and working out tho. i want to be as skinny as anne hathaway in les miseables. (just kidding that commercial was just on. yes, its a COMMERCIAL! les miserables is a commerical commercial! a comical commercial!!!)




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Tuesday, March 26, 2013

ahoya!

so...mike is always bugging me about getting a job. really annoying. well, yes i do know i need a job, but i do not want him telling me what to do. he doesn't know what is best for me. i'm trying to move on. i am trying to do my own thing. i'm obviously not happy, so why continue with the charade. sure, i love and care about him, but sometimes a point comes where the best thing to do is just move on. i don't think it is fair that i wonder if i am ever going to move back to LA (I am!), or go out with that one guy...you know? why not? even if its hanging out one more time...mike is boring, so why can't i hang out with someone who actually would like to hang out with me? mike never wants to, so what fun is that? its not fair that i wonder about other guys, and its not fair to me that mike gets turned on and excited about any female in a show or movie, or anyone who talks to him...basically. i mean, i know he likes to tease me, but i don't feel attractive anymore. i don't get turned on anymore. i just feel so nuetral. i don't feel like he really wants to listen to a thing i have to say. he wants me to get a job so i can help pay rent. he told me to get the paper yesterday, so i did. well, there was an ad stating that jobs are available. walk in, start the next day...(these sort of jobs kind of make me wonder. its like, maybe i don't want to just start the next day...maybe i want to wait so i can claim this week on my UC benefits..before i start working..). so i followed the directions and it took me to some temp agency. its far, well, its up where all the warehouses are..hey for 12. an hour and up, the half hour drive is fine. this job is just a measly 8.50 an hour (but to be frank, anything is better then the little bit of money i got bi-weekly off unemployment)...but since this is a temp agency, i'm not even sure how long this job is going to even last!? you know!???? the last 3 jobs i got only lasted 2 or 3 weeks...pssh..i got those because of mike hassling and annoying me. i want to make up my own mind on what to do. last job, always travel (mike made me fill out app. started working THE NEXT DAY) i read reviews online about how they solicited calls 40 times in 2 weeks! yeah they are annoying. im not sure how some ppl have been there for so long. job before...saladworks...4 days!?! (i dont even put that down on applications psshh! not worth having to bend around to squeeze past fat people to fill up the salad bar and having to whim around super fast saladworks people who cut in the way (just cut in the way thats how ya got to be) to fill up the salad that is in the little fridge, oh but make sure you put everything back nice and precise, but we dont want you making salads because we get too impatient and think you are slow even tho the only way to really grasp things and become fast is to be hands on....plus the manager kept making snippy comments to the customers such as, 'oh you want a job here?" (bcuz those customers BTW probably eat there 3x a week and know exactly what is on their 8.00 dollar salad)...and making it seem like i was some sort of dufus who aint know a thing bout what im doin!? 

ha! i sure love to complain. wonder if and what i am going to complain about now huh? so yeah, before that, crayola, who layed me off after 3 weeks then gave me problems with my unemployment later...erghhh...

its because of mike. he bugs me to get a job...i went to lincoln tech thinking i could work at a pharmacy making good money (those commercials mislead me...) and that guy called me all the time till i went in next thing i know i was signed up) 

mccann has been calling me because i expressed an interest in criminal justice and/or massage therapy, all of which both lisa and marta told me not to bother with. marta did give me info about dental hygienist but it seems like alot of work and my already social lacking self esteem thinks im not smart enough to come up with a good enough essay..plus you have to take alot of hard classes too and get good grades..for the next 2 years. i just want to be free again! a free spirit! i want to figure things out for myself...

dental hygenist is good tho i wish i did that right out of high school...40.00 or so an hour. marta started when she was 34 tho. never too late to start!

so i went there and i wasnt even sure what it was about!?? i filled out all the forms and did a drug test so they asked if i could start tomorrow...

its putting barcodes on leggos i think. 9-530 pm. m-f. (good hours!) 8.50 an hour tho.

ehhh we'll see..

the thing i am upset about tho is, i made baked ziti tonight, and i left my facebook open...so, i had no idea mike had posted, for me, 'i got a job today hell freezeth over'....

he told me he did but i thought he did on HIS page. so i come back from getting gas (my dad gave me some gas he won 200.00 gas card) and i see he wrote that. everyone commented 'thats great' and liked it...but i am still upset bcuz i wasn't even going to bother posting about getting a job. im not even sure how long it will be for, you know??

i need an want a full time job, not one that only lasts for 3 weeks. i'll look like an idiot when its over, you know?

what else? oh yeah, so i contacted the valley beat about being considered to be one of the models of the week, and they contacted me back!! valley beat, you know? i blogged about them before. its the..um...whatever its called..the uh..weekly, that mentions the bar crawls and local bands and shower shows at the new spankys east, and the model of the week on the last page (that mike spankys about i know he does of course)...so that would be cool if they wanted to use me as the model! i would be like, 'hey look mike, thats me! mini mo!'
      
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