here they come!
note the song
remember 'the day the music died?' from last years superbowl...well this superbowl, feb 3rd, same day big bopper, richie valens..see? Feb 3rd, 1959. Buddy Holly, Ritchie Valens, and The Big Bopper all taken in a plane crash. The Day The Music Died.
heres a vigilant post : vigilantcitizen.com/latestnews/the-2013-mercedes-super-bowl-commercial/
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Child of the 90s | Internet Explorer
this is kind of good, in that oh gawd its a commercial sort of way
my imdb
see? now i want to add more movies to my imbd!!! yah! yah!
http://www.imdb.com/name/nm3555930/?ref_=fn_al_nm_1
http://www.imdb.com/name/nm3555930/?ref_=fn_al_nm_1
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
absinthe kit
i want! of course, if i get one, seems i would have to move out back to hollywood to have anyone really enjoy it...
hmm....yeah maybe!?
heres a link anyways, (i want to get this absinthe kit)
http://www.alandia.de/absinthe/product_info.php/language/en/info/p101_World-of-Absinthe.html
hmm....yeah maybe!?
heres a link anyways, (i want to get this absinthe kit)
http://www.alandia.de/absinthe/product_info.php/language/en/info/p101_World-of-Absinthe.html
outfit of the week (day? month? whatever!??)
i like this look its cute,,(except the evil eye bracelet gag!! gag me! like, gag me with a SPOON dude!))))) also, i know its c-cold out...and shes where??? summerville? oops somerville???
its miley cyrus. i used to wear halter tops and stuff i had a cute super skinny body....erghh i need to lose weight!!! i have muffin-top now!
heyyyyyyyy dar!!!
yo! arite...wall...lets begin class, shall we? ok...sigh. yes last night...i was going to complain but i decided to just go to bed. you see, well, i was watching conan, (as i do every night...cuz well, i just do? i dont know!??!)...mike was downstairs watching tv but then i heard him start to stir and i got nervous for some reason he came upstairs and acted like he was going to bed but then he came back out and was messing around in the kitchen and bathroom. ok fine. well the next guest on the show was 'emmy rossum' and i was like, 'great', i just wanted mike to go to the room before she came out, because i just didn't want to deal with it! i want my own place you know? mike never makes me feel attractive. all he does is drool over actresses in movies or tv shows, or other girls. he says, 'scarlett johanssen' i try to explain to him, 'mike, its not that these actresses are spectacularly extravagant...i mean, yes some are magnificent, (like genesis rodriguez who will be a guest tonight on conan!?? oh noooooooo FACEPALM! LOL)...much more then average mortals like us normal idiots...but for the most part, most of these *movie stars* have STYLISTS, MAKE-UP ARTISTS, WARDROBE DEPARTMENT, FITNESS EXPERTS, DIETICIANS etc...to keep them at top notch. i mean, i think i am attractive, imagine if i had all of that, and i was born into hollywood, AND i was promoted to brainwash everyone into believing that i am so beautiful and talented? trust me, its all about the handlers, its all about what they were trained to do..(and if MONARCH etc really IS TRUE, its about being split off into many personalities. i still have trouble believing all that tho..??? even tho these people constantly have symbolisms and triggers shrouding and surrounding them.) anyways, he thinks that because someone is in a movie then they are so glorious, but then he acts like he doesn't follow hollywood blah blah blah. so emmy rossum goes on, wearing her ruby slippers...(here is how she looked like last night on conan ((AHH IT SAYS SHE LETS HER DERRIERRE DO THE TALKING!! WHAT WAS SHE FARTING?? HAHA!!) http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-2270087/Emmy-Rossum-lets-pert-derriere-talking-prepares-TV-appearance.html
so ok, she looked great right? i know a girl that looks just like her! glenns little sister sarah. i knew those girls, (her and her sisters bryanne and ashley) i knew sarah and bryanne since they were like, 8 and 10, when i was dating glenn. we would hang out, we'd play the ouija board (strange stuff happened) or go swimming in the creek by the house (they lived in a dollhouse like house, thomas stewart, you know...george washingtons secretary...I JUST REMEMBERED TEA. WAS I DRINKING TEA LAST TIME I WROTE ABOUT THAT HOUSE IN STEWARTSVILLE NJ???) hmmm...anyways, they were beautiful girls and they are gorgeous now. they are like, 21 and 23 now i think i dont know? but sarah looks just like emmy rossum. cept, of course, without the perfect makeup. if you saw emmy rossum on the show, you would see her luminescent EXPENSIVE make-up she was wearing...you would see her perfectly coiffed hair, her perfect dress and ruby slippers, her tiny body, (because all actors and actresses are tiny)..ok? but the point i am trying to make is this....just because they are famous and actresses doesn't mean normal people are not beautiful either!? im so sick of hearing everyone go goo goo gaga about 'beautiful talented actresses'....i bet i could do acting. i could! how hard is it? oh what what??? i cant memorize lines and project emotion?? oh yeah, i havent been MK'd...i guess i cant do it!?? sorry im sorry...its just i get upset you know, when mike makes me feel like shit! so anyways, mike comes into the room while shes on the show. im like, 'great!" and he stops and looks at the tv, mesmerized by her beauty....and he was like, 'who's that?' i was like, 'shut up its no one. i know a girl who looks just like her!' he kept saying, 'im not going to bed till you tell me who that is' FUCK YOU!!! GO TO SLEEP! then he starts kicking the couch so it kept sliding over. i was so annoyed!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so sick of him! im sick of everything!
anyways....whatever!??! ok so today i had my hearing for that unemployment debaucle...where staffmark told me that i quit..no i didn't!!! ughh....so i went and hopefully it goes well. i was going to blog more into detail about the whole thing but now i dont feel like it. oh before i left i started the stuff for the slow cooked texas chili. i glazed the chuck beef cubes with some brown sugar and kosher salt with some oil, onions, green chilies, garlic, then i threw it in the slow cooker.
after the hearing, (which was me and the referee she is called i guess, and a voice recorder), my parents took me to mcdonalds, which was fine i was hungry. i got a free newspaper i need to look through.
we also went to petco because marble has ear mites and we bought some drops for her ear i need to wait for mike to come home to put the drops in. i need to clean her ears out with a little bit of olive oil on a tissue.
what else? i dont know?? lisa and matts car got towed saturday night!???! they parked in a parking lot which is always used for the circle i guess, 16 cars got towed that night?!? wonder where they parked?
oh i want a fish aquarium and parakeets!!! walking through petco reminded me of all the things i want! i need a job tho! sick of being fucking broke!!! i want to start getting nice things for myself! i want nice hair! i want nice make-up! i want nice clothes!!! i want more tattoos (yes i do!!!), i want to start working out and getting a tight hot body! i want breast implants!!! i want to look good!
i want to start dating a guy who likes and appreciates me too. i forget how it feels to like...just enjoy you know, hanging out with someone who is cool and doesn't make me feel like shit. i do love mike, i do love marble....but you know?
this job interview is good laurin works there she make over 25.00 an hour so yeah..its a good company to get into! oh my gosh that would be perfect but i hear its tough to get into.
ooh fish aquarium on the drs. today. good sign. i tried to take a picture its moisturizing shampoo and stuff coming from the sea kelp and it even said moss i wanted to take a picture but that android camera is not that good thats another thing i need is a good digital camera!!
I NEED A GOOD JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so ok, she looked great right? i know a girl that looks just like her! glenns little sister sarah. i knew those girls, (her and her sisters bryanne and ashley) i knew sarah and bryanne since they were like, 8 and 10, when i was dating glenn. we would hang out, we'd play the ouija board (strange stuff happened) or go swimming in the creek by the house (they lived in a dollhouse like house, thomas stewart, you know...george washingtons secretary...I JUST REMEMBERED TEA. WAS I DRINKING TEA LAST TIME I WROTE ABOUT THAT HOUSE IN STEWARTSVILLE NJ???) hmmm...anyways, they were beautiful girls and they are gorgeous now. they are like, 21 and 23 now i think i dont know? but sarah looks just like emmy rossum. cept, of course, without the perfect makeup. if you saw emmy rossum on the show, you would see her luminescent EXPENSIVE make-up she was wearing...you would see her perfectly coiffed hair, her perfect dress and ruby slippers, her tiny body, (because all actors and actresses are tiny)..ok? but the point i am trying to make is this....just because they are famous and actresses doesn't mean normal people are not beautiful either!? im so sick of hearing everyone go goo goo gaga about 'beautiful talented actresses'....i bet i could do acting. i could! how hard is it? oh what what??? i cant memorize lines and project emotion?? oh yeah, i havent been MK'd...i guess i cant do it!?? sorry im sorry...its just i get upset you know, when mike makes me feel like shit! so anyways, mike comes into the room while shes on the show. im like, 'great!" and he stops and looks at the tv, mesmerized by her beauty....and he was like, 'who's that?' i was like, 'shut up its no one. i know a girl who looks just like her!' he kept saying, 'im not going to bed till you tell me who that is' FUCK YOU!!! GO TO SLEEP! then he starts kicking the couch so it kept sliding over. i was so annoyed!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so sick of him! im sick of everything!
anyways....whatever!??! ok so today i had my hearing for that unemployment debaucle...where staffmark told me that i quit..no i didn't!!! ughh....so i went and hopefully it goes well. i was going to blog more into detail about the whole thing but now i dont feel like it. oh before i left i started the stuff for the slow cooked texas chili. i glazed the chuck beef cubes with some brown sugar and kosher salt with some oil, onions, green chilies, garlic, then i threw it in the slow cooker.
after the hearing, (which was me and the referee she is called i guess, and a voice recorder), my parents took me to mcdonalds, which was fine i was hungry. i got a free newspaper i need to look through.
we also went to petco because marble has ear mites and we bought some drops for her ear i need to wait for mike to come home to put the drops in. i need to clean her ears out with a little bit of olive oil on a tissue.
what else? i dont know?? lisa and matts car got towed saturday night!???! they parked in a parking lot which is always used for the circle i guess, 16 cars got towed that night?!? wonder where they parked?
oh i want a fish aquarium and parakeets!!! walking through petco reminded me of all the things i want! i need a job tho! sick of being fucking broke!!! i want to start getting nice things for myself! i want nice hair! i want nice make-up! i want nice clothes!!! i want more tattoos (yes i do!!!), i want to start working out and getting a tight hot body! i want breast implants!!! i want to look good!
i want to start dating a guy who likes and appreciates me too. i forget how it feels to like...just enjoy you know, hanging out with someone who is cool and doesn't make me feel like shit. i do love mike, i do love marble....but you know?
this job interview is good laurin works there she make over 25.00 an hour so yeah..its a good company to get into! oh my gosh that would be perfect but i hear its tough to get into.
ooh fish aquarium on the drs. today. good sign. i tried to take a picture its moisturizing shampoo and stuff coming from the sea kelp and it even said moss i wanted to take a picture but that android camera is not that good thats another thing i need is a good digital camera!!
I NEED A GOOD JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, January 28, 2013
sunday
ok real quick...today i felt weird. my body felt like it got beat up. i woke up and i was sore and my ribs hurt and it felt like i got punched in the stomach. ok before this i guess i will write about last night...so yeah i really felt ho-hum about life, because face it...its just how i have been feeling lately. anyways, marta asked if i wanted to meet up with them in easton, (they were celebrating another friends birthday) so i was like, 'sure why not?' and i had my makeup on already from the silly vlogs i did..(which i spent so much time talking in one and mike just walked into the kitchen, interrupting me which was (ugh he popped out of bed just now and came out to tell me to shut this off its twelve o'clock then he just called me a fucking bitch...now hes like ten more minutes thats it) i really do not like him. i swear! do i need this? no! i love marble but im so done with HIM! he interrupted me while i was vlogging, ugh hes so annoying! anyways we met them outside eddie g's (marta, matt and lisa) and another girl they are friends with...i tried to say hi to her but she didnt say hi, so whatever? we all walked to this new french restaurant/bar called, strangely, maxim 22...(which sounds like a divey club if you ask me doesnt sound like a fancy french restaurant/bar?) so the place was fancy indeed. one of those places more deservant of say, fancy new york or fancy LA, like a sort of fancy/hipster vibe and of course mike was wearing a plain blue t-shirt...not even a nice shirt but a t-shirt (matt was wearing a long sleeve consisting of t-shirt material too so ya know? i didnt really have anything to wear, i mean, it was cold and plus, well...i need to go shopping! we were walking behind some chunky, ghetto-esque girls when we went to meet them who reeked of vanilla scented perfume (a cloud of vanilla scented perfume i should say), and dampened curly hair, and wearing skirts in sub-zero temperatures...just to go to eddie g's. ok so at maxim 22 we said hi to leigh ann (her bday), it was all her friends you know. style signature-pretty dainty patterned dresses, frilly lady-like and leopard print faux fur coats parred (paired?) with tattoos and red lipstick, a peircing under lip whatever...i of course in need of a haircut but how can i obtain my own personal style if i cant get a sustainable job? so it will always be lagging hair and mediocrity style...i know this! oh you know if i had money, honey, my style would be oh so wondrous indeedy! oh hell yeah i'd be hot in my own damn way k? anyways, lisa started telling mike that leigh anns boyfriend owns the tattoo shop something or other and he leaned in a little too close i was kind of playing it off hoping she wouldn't notice mikes dumb! so yeah....mike and i sat at the bar i thought him and i coul (he just popped out to tell me to go to the kitchen then he told me im worthless then he just pushed me into the kitchen)
you see mike, i really do not need you. ok? i dont need this. oh yeah so since i lost that call center job, it was only a matter of time for him to get on my case again about finding another leads to nowhere job. another job that just is a waste of what i really want out of life. another job to help him with rent money. im like, 'yep yep thats fine, im worthless' i just wish he would leave me alone.
as i was trying to say, we sat at the bar to get a drink. sure it was a fancier establishment. he starts saying shit about 'a bunch of pretentious...blah blah blah...pretending they're not cowards' whatever he was rambling about. he bought us a drink, we had some sort of cider, (which turned out to be like, 8.00 a drink or something crazy like that)...i had one he had 2. well he immediantly starts with me.."monday you are going to take my truck and use it to start looking for a job'...wow yes i know this. i want a job for ME tho not for him he says yeah for you. i get annoyed at him always telling me about a job yeah i do need money but get off my case! geez. marble loves me look she just jumped on the table now cuz im typing. she would be heartbroken if i left. she would wonder where i was. she always sleeps right next to me. this is why it would be so hard for me because marble loves me you know?
i wanted a 2 bedroom apartment so i dont have to worry about him telling me to go to bed. i just gave marble some food. thats all she wanted!
so imagine how i felt. i was hoping we could be in our own alcove, and stuff..and i wanted to 'cherish' i guess the word im looking for...more like 'relish' actually being out instead of at the house...and maybe chat and have good uh...whats the word? body posture? no thats not the word!!!??! you know, when you talk to someone you have....body....you know!??! i cant think....body communication? thats not it! ok well it wasnt that way. then i was like, 'mike' i said something to upset him so he called me selfish. so i see him checking out the other girls at the bar and around us. so i said to him, 'well maybe you can get one of these girls. im sure they have jobs' and hes like, 'maybe i can' so i asked him what would he say to get them? he said he couldnt since im there but i was like, 'if i wasnt?' he said he would say, 'whats up baby girl?' or something cheesy like that. i just laughed! you idiot! no girl wants to be spoken like that! thats just cheesy and douchey! especially those kind of girls! but it made me feel bad too you know? i just felt bad. he said to me he was about to sign the check and leave. i was worried he would pull a stunt like that before we left...its just how he is. he can never just try to make me feel good. in his head, im doing him wrong because i dont have a job, or because he sees me on facebook...i just have my ways yes i want a job i mean, but i also enjoy my freedom and i enjoy going out on the weekends and communicating and feeling like a human being! im so bored i take to blogging and vlogging, in which to that he even has no respect just for the fact he interrupted me cuz he was horny or whatever, probably bcuz something he was watching on tv or perhaps because i dont know?
LOL! trying to type quietly plus i really am tired (i took 4 painkillers today bcuz i was in so much pain but it made me dreadfully tired but now im just at that weird wired stage its only 1230 but i do want to go to bed i told mike i would go to bed early but stupid sims social is so slow mike went to take a shower so i thought i could do my daily sims social or else i get behind in that dumb game but instead it froze up it took forever then an error happened so it was all frozen and stuff and mike came out i was like, 'stupid game it didnt even do anything this whole time' cuz i wanted to get it over with so i could go to sleep and wouldnt hear him bitch and moan and i was nervous and he was like, 'what the fuck are you complaining to me about it?' thats why!! THAT WAS WHY BECAUSE I WANTED TO GET THE GAME OVER WITH SO I WOULDNT HEAR HIM YELL AT ME! THE GAME IS STUPID AND SLOW AND ERRORS AND I WAS UPSET AT THE GAME HE THOUGHT I WAS UPSET AT HIM I DIDNT WANT TO HEAR HIM YELL AT ME! then he unplugged everything so i lost internet connection. hes a monster!
back to what i was saying...hes being all dumb at the bar and no matter what i say its wrong! shaking my head!!!! what is his problem!??! man!! you know??? so i tried talking to his level by mentioning some silly guys all dressed up in their preppy button downs just for the hope of us agreeing on something hes like, 'so theres nothing wrong with that its how they are'..........i think he was talking about enlightenment, 'something i dont have or perceive' yeah whatever mike....
so anyways we were all going to head over to eddie g's so we did. crowded there. talked to marta some. had 2 yuenglings someone bought everyone a shot of TEQUILA!!! didnt really want to drink so marta left soon after mike and i left. came home had a beer, leftover natty ice, didnt even finish it. mike went to bed i stayed on for a bit kim told me to download spotify which i did listened to depeche mode. hair smelled like cigarettes from being inside eddie g's blah blah blah!!
woke up felt an odd pain like my organs were squeezed or something? i felt like i have been punched in the stomach. what was that all about? it hurt i was in pain all day!??? i dont know whats wrong with me? so i decided to take a bath since mike suggested it would make me feel better. sounded like a good idea. made the bath thought of how 'zen-like' a bath could be but at the same time not very eco-friendly if we waste water for you know, drawing a bath...i guess..
i lit up my bath and body works mango candle, (wish i had incense or something)..turned on the dim lights, got my laptop and found spa music, and layed in the bath. felt good. i also put my ears under the water and listened to my heartbeat. found this meditative and relaxing. looked at the mirror tried to imagine going through the mirror and going to the other side...a better side, where all possibilities were attainable, where everything was clear and bright. clarity. ENLIGHTMENT! THAT OF WHICH I HAVE NO PERCEPTION OF!!!
it made me want to do a blog or start a new blog about relaxation and meditation you know? i will but not tonight. or a pinterest folder/file on baths/bathes/bathhouses, the history of bathing meditating...bathouse...bat...bauhaus....lady gaga german word for bathhouse..i forget..is it evil tho? is it? peaceful meditation and harmony? i want peace and harmony in my life. i want to get those vibrational bowls. i dont want to be new-agey tho i just want balance to life. i want a more peaceful way of looking at life, at living my life.i can even cut back on alchohol. moss tells me i cant drink a glass of red wine a day (for health benefits) if i have an alchohlic gene. sure i can! i would drink one glass of red wine with dinner for the polyphenols aspect.
so anyways...........i know i complain about mike alot. i just....who knows? im tired tho so NOW i am going to go to sleep!!!!
you see mike, i really do not need you. ok? i dont need this. oh yeah so since i lost that call center job, it was only a matter of time for him to get on my case again about finding another leads to nowhere job. another job that just is a waste of what i really want out of life. another job to help him with rent money. im like, 'yep yep thats fine, im worthless' i just wish he would leave me alone.
as i was trying to say, we sat at the bar to get a drink. sure it was a fancier establishment. he starts saying shit about 'a bunch of pretentious...blah blah blah...pretending they're not cowards' whatever he was rambling about. he bought us a drink, we had some sort of cider, (which turned out to be like, 8.00 a drink or something crazy like that)...i had one he had 2. well he immediantly starts with me.."monday you are going to take my truck and use it to start looking for a job'...wow yes i know this. i want a job for ME tho not for him he says yeah for you. i get annoyed at him always telling me about a job yeah i do need money but get off my case! geez. marble loves me look she just jumped on the table now cuz im typing. she would be heartbroken if i left. she would wonder where i was. she always sleeps right next to me. this is why it would be so hard for me because marble loves me you know?
i wanted a 2 bedroom apartment so i dont have to worry about him telling me to go to bed. i just gave marble some food. thats all she wanted!
so imagine how i felt. i was hoping we could be in our own alcove, and stuff..and i wanted to 'cherish' i guess the word im looking for...more like 'relish' actually being out instead of at the house...and maybe chat and have good uh...whats the word? body posture? no thats not the word!!!??! you know, when you talk to someone you have....body....you know!??! i cant think....body communication? thats not it! ok well it wasnt that way. then i was like, 'mike' i said something to upset him so he called me selfish. so i see him checking out the other girls at the bar and around us. so i said to him, 'well maybe you can get one of these girls. im sure they have jobs' and hes like, 'maybe i can' so i asked him what would he say to get them? he said he couldnt since im there but i was like, 'if i wasnt?' he said he would say, 'whats up baby girl?' or something cheesy like that. i just laughed! you idiot! no girl wants to be spoken like that! thats just cheesy and douchey! especially those kind of girls! but it made me feel bad too you know? i just felt bad. he said to me he was about to sign the check and leave. i was worried he would pull a stunt like that before we left...its just how he is. he can never just try to make me feel good. in his head, im doing him wrong because i dont have a job, or because he sees me on facebook...i just have my ways yes i want a job i mean, but i also enjoy my freedom and i enjoy going out on the weekends and communicating and feeling like a human being! im so bored i take to blogging and vlogging, in which to that he even has no respect just for the fact he interrupted me cuz he was horny or whatever, probably bcuz something he was watching on tv or perhaps because i dont know?
LOL! trying to type quietly plus i really am tired (i took 4 painkillers today bcuz i was in so much pain but it made me dreadfully tired but now im just at that weird wired stage its only 1230 but i do want to go to bed i told mike i would go to bed early but stupid sims social is so slow mike went to take a shower so i thought i could do my daily sims social or else i get behind in that dumb game but instead it froze up it took forever then an error happened so it was all frozen and stuff and mike came out i was like, 'stupid game it didnt even do anything this whole time' cuz i wanted to get it over with so i could go to sleep and wouldnt hear him bitch and moan and i was nervous and he was like, 'what the fuck are you complaining to me about it?' thats why!! THAT WAS WHY BECAUSE I WANTED TO GET THE GAME OVER WITH SO I WOULDNT HEAR HIM YELL AT ME! THE GAME IS STUPID AND SLOW AND ERRORS AND I WAS UPSET AT THE GAME HE THOUGHT I WAS UPSET AT HIM I DIDNT WANT TO HEAR HIM YELL AT ME! then he unplugged everything so i lost internet connection. hes a monster!
back to what i was saying...hes being all dumb at the bar and no matter what i say its wrong! shaking my head!!!! what is his problem!??! man!! you know??? so i tried talking to his level by mentioning some silly guys all dressed up in their preppy button downs just for the hope of us agreeing on something hes like, 'so theres nothing wrong with that its how they are'..........i think he was talking about enlightenment, 'something i dont have or perceive' yeah whatever mike....
so anyways we were all going to head over to eddie g's so we did. crowded there. talked to marta some. had 2 yuenglings someone bought everyone a shot of TEQUILA!!! didnt really want to drink so marta left soon after mike and i left. came home had a beer, leftover natty ice, didnt even finish it. mike went to bed i stayed on for a bit kim told me to download spotify which i did listened to depeche mode. hair smelled like cigarettes from being inside eddie g's blah blah blah!!
woke up felt an odd pain like my organs were squeezed or something? i felt like i have been punched in the stomach. what was that all about? it hurt i was in pain all day!??? i dont know whats wrong with me? so i decided to take a bath since mike suggested it would make me feel better. sounded like a good idea. made the bath thought of how 'zen-like' a bath could be but at the same time not very eco-friendly if we waste water for you know, drawing a bath...i guess..
i lit up my bath and body works mango candle, (wish i had incense or something)..turned on the dim lights, got my laptop and found spa music, and layed in the bath. felt good. i also put my ears under the water and listened to my heartbeat. found this meditative and relaxing. looked at the mirror tried to imagine going through the mirror and going to the other side...a better side, where all possibilities were attainable, where everything was clear and bright. clarity. ENLIGHTMENT! THAT OF WHICH I HAVE NO PERCEPTION OF!!!
it made me want to do a blog or start a new blog about relaxation and meditation you know? i will but not tonight. or a pinterest folder/file on baths/bathes/bathhouses, the history of bathing meditating...bathouse...bat...bauhaus....lady gaga german word for bathhouse..i forget..is it evil tho? is it? peaceful meditation and harmony? i want peace and harmony in my life. i want to get those vibrational bowls. i dont want to be new-agey tho i just want balance to life. i want a more peaceful way of looking at life, at living my life.i can even cut back on alchohol. moss tells me i cant drink a glass of red wine a day (for health benefits) if i have an alchohlic gene. sure i can! i would drink one glass of red wine with dinner for the polyphenols aspect.
so anyways...........i know i complain about mike alot. i just....who knows? im tired tho so NOW i am going to go to sleep!!!!
Saturday, January 26, 2013
and another thing
it wasnt just me who wasnt making sales...i saw that even suzanne did not make sales the past last 2 days....its really a matter of luck. it is. moss is annoying me right now hes like, 'i told you, ppl get impatient if you dont make sales' moss thinks i am incapable of speaking in a pleasant appealing tone, and explaining everything informatively. i said everything the same way of everything else. ok? i wasnt like, 'ive got...two tickets to..paradise oh oh oh ohhhhhhhh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh!"
no moss they were not cold calls. those ppl filled out forms. oh just read my blog moss! unless he does and hes making it up about the kevin thing haha! i think kevin is the only one who really does read my blog!? LOL! well...i appreciate it ;) at least someone does??
oh also, katina did tell me she would give a good reference...so thats good. meeehhhh ((that meh shruggy icon who knows?) |-|?/ whatever
no moss they were not cold calls. those ppl filled out forms. oh just read my blog moss! unless he does and hes making it up about the kevin thing haha! i think kevin is the only one who really does read my blog!? LOL! well...i appreciate it ;) at least someone does??
oh also, katina did tell me she would give a good reference...so thats good. meeehhhh ((that meh shruggy icon who knows?) |-|?/ whatever
another job bites the dust
When I saw this in the paper, I knew what it was about. Sure, 14.00 par training, then 10.00 hr and commissions. (I wasnt going to call Mike told me too) Sounds good! The pretty lady, Jolene, interviewed me right away and asked me if I wanted to start the next day! She seemed nice and so did who I later learned was Karen, the supervisor, who walked by and smiled at me. It seemed like a pleasant atmosphere. This was two weeks ago. So I started the next day, which was a Tuesday. It was kind of slow..etc etc etc. Let me tell you, NO ONE answered the phones!!! Ok so anyways, lets talk more about this week. I know what to say, I had my shpiel, basically...(what alot of ppl seem to say whilst trying to explain the shpiel...or what we have to offer..), what I would do is go..."Hi Dan?? (the names would show up on the computer along with their information that they filled out on the forms..you know, those forms you see at restaurants like Denny's or Old Country Buffet, or perhaps at a fair such as Maryland State Fair, or the Italian Fest, perhaps a gun and hunting expo, or even a pet expo? Or...maybe you filled it out at Jiffy Lube or McDonalds, aka corporate. The ones done at fairs of expos were non-corporate. So, let me explain to you the whole deal. HOW FUNNY!!! I just saw one of those Discover cards, where it goes, 'where you...talk to a real person, like you!" ok so heres the thing....
i was always friendly, i was always pleasant. i think you need to just act like everyone else, say, at your work. this is what i feel. i have had a few comments about 'how quiet i was'. ok so....alright....first of all....hmm...EDIT: so as i was saying, corporate and non corp here was MY shpiel,,,
"Hi Francine?" them, hi..me, "Hi how are you? Great! Well, my names Lori and I am calling you from Massanutten four seasons resort! I am calling about a form you filled out at Pet Expo. I have some great news! Your form was selected, so congratulations! As I said your form was selected so this means you are entitled to a 3day 2 night stay with us at Beautiful Massanutten four seasons resort. have you ever heard of massanutten?' ((and i would make sure my tone would go up and down not monotone and robotic...))
yada yada yada...im so glad i dont have to say this shpiel again!!!
so you know, i would ask questions about their family, (which later katina the day supervisor never knew i was asking about the family) smh...i also asked about their last vacation....i would explain the visa pre-payed gift card, ((she told me to say gift card not pre payed. ok no one had told me that before but ok))...karen never told me. fine, gift card...corporate you also get a 50.00 gift card at say, 'dennys'....blah blah blah headache...cocaine nose...(ugh i dont know why i said that but im glad i do not do that stuff anymore. oh oops well i hung out with people who did all that you know how it is. kids do drugs. not anymore tho..no freaking way
i'm sorry if i don't fit in with co-workers ok? i'm sorry if i never fit in with anyone. you know? sorry if i appear kind of strange, sorry if i appear stupid because i am quiet or for some reason i just appear as if i am dumb and incapable of doing a stupid job!
ok? some of the workers there had smokers voices, some had pleasant voices. for one, i've always hated my voice! (im going to do a vlog later tho...) heres the thing. i was getting tired by just sitting there. i got tired so i would start to stare. then someone would talk to me and i look zoned out because well, i was zoned out! you would be too if you were just sitting there! oh but that is waht those supervisors do. they just sit there, making crude jokes and what not. i mean, when i got a call i would brighten up and go into robotical mode...ahh forget it!! no one, i repeat NO ONE answered their phone. yes i mean, i also did speak to someone when they answered. ppl don't want to be bothered. or they may act interested but then they don't want to give credit card info...(even tho i would make sure to say early on that 'the resort does require a fully refundable 75.00 room deposit, but this is just to secure your room and to show you are who you say you are. You will get this back once you complete the 90 minute time share tour.' Alot of ppl did not want to hear about timeshares, so I started saying this week, (after i listened to susanne...oh bcuz they had me listen to her. this is when shaun told me that susanne played farrah fawcetts sister on charlies angels...was he just bullshitting me? im going to look it up. he then told me, 'oh, and the lady next to you, ((forget her name)), she used to be an assembler in new jersey. so you never know?" oh...ok??? thats just..great!?? EDIT almost forgot
i would say, 'you take a 90 minute time share tour, (all in what i thought was a pleasant upbeat voice) take the tour, you will see the resort and what we have to offer...(i wanted to be honest...you know? we do have time shares and rentals available, i'd say sometimes) but there is no obligation to purchase anything..(what i heard suzanne say and overheard others say)...also, 'we just want you to tell your friends and family how great a resort we are ((what i overheard others say) word of mouth advertising, basically...(jk i never said basically that seemed too.....unproper. i said basically alot when i first started tho...ok now i go back to re-reading..i also want to do my vlogs but its almost 5 now...and mike stirred from his slumberous nap, sans snoring. he snores in the beginning of his sleep then it seems to subside...
whatever!!?? so lets see...i thought the day shift seemed nice. it was a bunch of older women you know..for example, susanne the sister of farrah fawcett on charlies angels? and then the lady who wore her hair in a coarse, silvery blonde ponytail and eagles sweatshirt, the italian woman who wore way too much makeup and had a smokers voice, who went out of her way..oh yeah, the boss guy...yeah...
not there yet! i mean, im not talking bad about anyone honestly i could care less, i'm just...painting a picture thats all. and the supervisor for the day shift, katina, a bold, black lady who seemed like she had a cool sense of humor. i mean, i have no ill towards anyone you know? i do have ill towards not being treated fairly of course...why? because i don't go for a cigarette during my smoke break? or because i am 'quiet' i probably don't grasp the concept of trying to make a sale over the phone. um, i said everything that i heard everyone around me say ok? the supervisors like karen would come up behind me, once i established a repetoir with a caller, and she would distract me by telling me what to say when they had a question. that was really annoying! "oh just say this!" and be pushy and persistant. i know how to be! ugh but you know, im not really a pushy or persistant person by nature so yeah maybe my personality is not cut out for it. and to be honest, it seemed like everyone had a rushed, kind of nervous, 'step on top of others' feel to them...
ok? so i never brought up 'betsy' or 'elizabeth' who sat next to me. i will....first, i want to make sure i uh....who knows!?? LOL! why do i blog!! HAHA i should be making money off of this nonsense!!!
ok so i am quiet? people have been thinking im stupid for as long as i remember. i think its something about my voice and my mannerisms. and something about me makes others not really like me...shrug....
so betsy, i will call her...she was a nice, older lady. she asked me how old i was so i told her, she was like, 'really!?? i thought you were just out of high school!?" then she asked if i had kids...ughh i hate that. no i dont! ok! no but she was nice.
she told me, 'dont get caught up with all of them' and kind of pointed towards all the other women on the other side of the room. she said, "i sit here in my own little cubicle in the corner, i do what i have to do, and i mind my own business'....i made a joke with betsey yesterday she made 2 sales so when katina announced we would be doing slips she was like, 'oh i dont mind doing slips' i was like, 'oh you dont mind because you already made two sales!' she laughed. of course, not good news for me because no one made sales during slips! ((i learned most of those women have been there for years! good for them! like i said, it does seem like a nice, cushy job...i mean, they all had their cubicles decorated with pictures of their families, organizers with hand sanitizer, lotion, and snacks, clorox wipes, cutesy calenders, what not...)) but as betsy would tell me this past week i was on day shift, (since wednesday lol)...'they gossip. they are dishonest' hmm, i made notes. i thought it was cool that betsy was sharing this with me. she said she likes me because im nice and quiet and she normally doesn't like being stuck next to new people. haha! so of course she once again told me yesterday, (friday), 'you don't want to get involved with them, they gossip'...i was like...'hmm is she trying to tell me something or something? were they gossiping about me?" you know? it made me feel kind of strange. i had lunch with them the day before, well i heated up my lean cuisine which took 6 minutes and i was eating the main guy, oh the old man who was huge...comes in. he was like, 'hi lori how are you?' ok so...he said something like, 'i didnt talk to her before because i wasn't sure how long she was going to be around," but yeah i did make that sale on wednesday so he talked to me? whatever!!
then he left and then shaun came in and said someone is going over their break time. "not me!" everyone said. then someone said, "new girl is" and joked and stuff. 'you havent even been here a week and your taking advantage!" smokers cough/laugh...
i went to lunch at 12:31 it was 12:51....(we get a 20 minute lunch we press break but dont clock out) "Oh! sorry!" and i got up to go back to my cubicle. 'sorry sorry' i whispered as i sat back down' ((actually i didn't)) i could sort of sense the, 'what do you think of her?' going on in the break room.
the rest of the day was you know, luck of the draw, as it always is....sigh. you know there really is so much you can say..you can tell by someones tone when they are serious or not. they push us to be more pushy and persistant, and to stay on phone as long as possible. for me this would be to ask more questions, 'what do you do? oh, where was your last vacation? oh a cruise!!!?? i just went on one for my sisters wedding! well a little weekend getaway is always nice to go too! and you will always have fun on the resort'....oh, but instead of saying, 'this' you should of said...'that' katina explained to me yesterday after she listened in for the first time. she never listened in on me it was always shaun or karen. shaun actually understood more how it was like, but karen would always be like, 'well you should of said that,' or ask them this, and i would always shake my head, agree, and make logic of it..."oh ok, i see, so...try to kind of switch it around...so uh..." i forget!! katina heard me say to a lady who was obviously nice enough to tell me shes grocery shopping but not blatantly yell at me, so i was like, 'oh well i can be real quick!" then i just said, 'ok well im sorry i caught you when you are shopping' oops! shouldn't of said that!!??? what they want is for us to keep pitching till they hang up. yes i understand! ughh that job. i was getting headaches and after a while depression sets in, especially after you get hung up on or you just have ppl not interested whatever. yeah i guess its not for me. i can do it...just sucks having to worry every day about making a sale. you know?
so, yesterday was friday. i was feeling depressed but i did what i had too i just had a weird feeling that day. we did slips, (forms not completely filled out so we call them to ask a few questions, are you over age 25? married/single? (if filled out at a bridal expo i had the common sense to ask them if they are engaged oh yeah? congratulations!....annual combined household income 35,000. or above? ((or not combined if single DUH)) of course i felt weird asking that question too one lady said why would we need to know that? i was just like, 'i understand if you do not feel comfortable answering that question i respect that' and crossed her off the list (hope no one was listening!? i dont know how to answer that? i was going to ask betsy what she would say but i never got around to it)....
oh yeah the new girl, (on night shift who was always friendly to me she seemed very nice and pretty and always talked to me) she got two more sales i saw the night before. she told me she wondered where i went she didnt know i got switched to day shift she also asked me if mike could get her boyfriend a job at RR Donnelly...
so anyways, i gave 2.00 to the fat lady with a nice pleasant voice bcuz it was for a birthday cake or something...and they said they were bringing lunch in the breakroom. betsy told me she used to bring burgers and stuff but someone would just bring in a jar of pickles so she just stopped bothering...
so the lunch was 1130 for everyone who wanted the food and she said they are having it now so i took my break and went into the break room. i asked what the 2.00 was for and they said the cake but they said, 'no you can eat grab a plate'...i scanned the table i was like...'hmmmm...hmmmm.hmmmm.' i just grabbed a bit of everything, well first i saw the salami pie under some foil which looked cold and was not cut, so i avoided that...i also saw some baked beans with bacon, some homemade mac n cheese with sprinkled cheese on top, some hor'deur weenies...(the lunch before they were all like, 'theres gonna be weenies" and telling the big boss because he was in the break room as a big boss does, grabbing all the womens shoulders, he grabbed mine too when i was sitting next to suzanne the day before. i mean, just painting a picture, but they all seemed to laugh at the 'fresh' joke they made.
soooo.......what else
there was also um...mozzerella, but not the good fresh kind but they all seemed in awe of the little cheapie peices of mozzerella, or 'mutzere' (mutz eh rey) as that italian i would assume lady with alot of makeup would pronounce it. there was also a plate of baby carrots, broccoli, and cherry tomatoes with dip, and chips. ok! well then....i got some baked beans (those were good tho) mac n cheese, (it was good too), and a baby carrot dipped in dip, and...a mozzerella peice and sat down at an empty chair. the big boss guy came in and everyone started going, 'oh thats a nice shirt' and grabbing his shirt. he sat across from me but he didnt even say anything to me, which made me think of the comment he made day before, 'i wasn't going to say anything to her because i didn't know how long she was going to be around.' so him not even saying anything to me made me feel like crap. oh yeah, the fat lady who made the salami pie told the boss to try it. so she goes, 'you can eat it cold or warmed up' and he was like, 'oh, ok' and then the other lady said, 'i'll heat it up' and then he took a bite he was like, 'i saw it sitting there and it didnt look to good but im glad i had some its pretty good' i also said i was going to have a slice cuz i was still hungry i had it cold tho (time constraints) it was...like..salami...and you know you burp after salami...you know...salami burps!?? yuck! haha
i got up soon after because my 20 minutes was up. someone made a comment, 'new girl' or whatever, 'we like to bring in food' i gushed, 'oh it was so good LOL! thank you!"
the whole time i worked there they made alot of innappropriate, 'fresh' comments, like at night...shaun would say things...not about me amongst each other tho...so i wasnt sure if i should laugh along or act like i didn't hear it, you know?? i mean, i understand being comfortable and joking around and taking heed in office wit and banter, to fit in and what not, so they won't be like, 'shes odd'..i mean, i always try to be sweet and polite and also understanding and ask alot of questions, but generally im NOT one of those loud-mouthed types who curse and smoke and....whatever...:/
then uh..it was slips again. i wasn't feeling it. i just had a very depressed feeling and then someone told me katina wanted to speak with me in the conference room before i went home and i knew what she was going to say...
so i was getting ready to go when the new girl tried to make conversation with me but i was so distracted i dont know?
so then katina came into the conference room she was like, 'we put you on day shift hoping it would be easier for you, which you still didnt make any sales, (or whatever she said)...some people dont have the right kind of personality for it....((sure...i said everything everyone else was saying...))
have you ever did this before? 'no' its not for everyone. i just nodded. so we're going to have to ask you to leave' 'ok' i said...she was like, ' i was hoping youd bust out a sale today' ok...
as we were walking out i was like 'i was on slips today ((which i was...)) also made sure to say, 'well, i did say the same thing everyone else says' oh yeah she also said she would give me a good reference and she also gave me the 2.00 i gave that lady for birthday cake next week.
whatever!!???!
anyways....i went home took a nap....i was like this on facebook...
"Oh! heres what really did happen! OK??? i'd be trying so hard to pitch a sale, i got exasperated, and as a last minute resort, i started singing this..."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iG0t57PUTaM
'ive got two tickets to paradise!" i might as well of! they thought i was retarded anyways!???
i know eddie money is the guy who sang the song joke is he doesnt have the instrumentals i know...
i told mike that tho and he believed me!! he was like, 'you did? i could see you having a breakdown and doing something like that'
mike just doesn't get my humor...
anyways, i was feeling sick mike wanted to order chinese so i called and the guy was like, 'and then'...i was like, 'thats it then' made me think of that part in the movie dude wheres my car at 'and then...'
i didnt even eat tho i was feeling sick. i felt as bad as i did when i was hungover last week!
so we watched this movie sort of like the twilight zone, with dominic monaghan it had a bunch of short stories to it, something youd see on sci-fi channel...it was ok but the one story was about 'the sweetest boy you ever known' where his blood was the secret ingredient and that part made me feel really sick so i kept dry heaving like i was going to puke even tho i was afraid too, i kept thinking of the mac n cheese i had, so finally i couldnt sit there anymore i ran upstairs and puked in the toilet, all the food i had at lunch. damn! someone tried to poison me too??? marble came in concerned but left. i felt defeated after i just puked all the food out a few times it took too. i felt good after wards tho and i made a big deal of it by breathing and kind of crying....then i cleaned up and went downstairs to tell mike i just puked he was sleeping tho.
so thats that!! HAAAAAAAAAAAA wow i write alot! hope uh..yeah, yenjoyed...? shrugs away ?
i was always friendly, i was always pleasant. i think you need to just act like everyone else, say, at your work. this is what i feel. i have had a few comments about 'how quiet i was'. ok so....alright....first of all....hmm...EDIT: so as i was saying, corporate and non corp here was MY shpiel,,,
"Hi Francine?" them, hi..me, "Hi how are you? Great! Well, my names Lori and I am calling you from Massanutten four seasons resort! I am calling about a form you filled out at Pet Expo. I have some great news! Your form was selected, so congratulations! As I said your form was selected so this means you are entitled to a 3day 2 night stay with us at Beautiful Massanutten four seasons resort. have you ever heard of massanutten?' ((and i would make sure my tone would go up and down not monotone and robotic...))
yada yada yada...im so glad i dont have to say this shpiel again!!!
so you know, i would ask questions about their family, (which later katina the day supervisor never knew i was asking about the family) smh...i also asked about their last vacation....i would explain the visa pre-payed gift card, ((she told me to say gift card not pre payed. ok no one had told me that before but ok))...karen never told me. fine, gift card...corporate you also get a 50.00 gift card at say, 'dennys'....blah blah blah headache...cocaine nose...(ugh i dont know why i said that but im glad i do not do that stuff anymore. oh oops well i hung out with people who did all that you know how it is. kids do drugs. not anymore tho..no freaking way
i'm sorry if i don't fit in with co-workers ok? i'm sorry if i never fit in with anyone. you know? sorry if i appear kind of strange, sorry if i appear stupid because i am quiet or for some reason i just appear as if i am dumb and incapable of doing a stupid job!
ok? some of the workers there had smokers voices, some had pleasant voices. for one, i've always hated my voice! (im going to do a vlog later tho...) heres the thing. i was getting tired by just sitting there. i got tired so i would start to stare. then someone would talk to me and i look zoned out because well, i was zoned out! you would be too if you were just sitting there! oh but that is waht those supervisors do. they just sit there, making crude jokes and what not. i mean, when i got a call i would brighten up and go into robotical mode...ahh forget it!! no one, i repeat NO ONE answered their phone. yes i mean, i also did speak to someone when they answered. ppl don't want to be bothered. or they may act interested but then they don't want to give credit card info...(even tho i would make sure to say early on that 'the resort does require a fully refundable 75.00 room deposit, but this is just to secure your room and to show you are who you say you are. You will get this back once you complete the 90 minute time share tour.' Alot of ppl did not want to hear about timeshares, so I started saying this week, (after i listened to susanne...oh bcuz they had me listen to her. this is when shaun told me that susanne played farrah fawcetts sister on charlies angels...was he just bullshitting me? im going to look it up. he then told me, 'oh, and the lady next to you, ((forget her name)), she used to be an assembler in new jersey. so you never know?" oh...ok??? thats just..great!?? EDIT almost forgot
i would say, 'you take a 90 minute time share tour, (all in what i thought was a pleasant upbeat voice) take the tour, you will see the resort and what we have to offer...(i wanted to be honest...you know? we do have time shares and rentals available, i'd say sometimes) but there is no obligation to purchase anything..(what i heard suzanne say and overheard others say)...also, 'we just want you to tell your friends and family how great a resort we are ((what i overheard others say) word of mouth advertising, basically...(jk i never said basically that seemed too.....unproper. i said basically alot when i first started tho...ok now i go back to re-reading..i also want to do my vlogs but its almost 5 now...and mike stirred from his slumberous nap, sans snoring. he snores in the beginning of his sleep then it seems to subside...
whatever!!?? so lets see...i thought the day shift seemed nice. it was a bunch of older women you know..for example, susanne the sister of farrah fawcett on charlies angels? and then the lady who wore her hair in a coarse, silvery blonde ponytail and eagles sweatshirt, the italian woman who wore way too much makeup and had a smokers voice, who went out of her way..oh yeah, the boss guy...yeah...
not there yet! i mean, im not talking bad about anyone honestly i could care less, i'm just...painting a picture thats all. and the supervisor for the day shift, katina, a bold, black lady who seemed like she had a cool sense of humor. i mean, i have no ill towards anyone you know? i do have ill towards not being treated fairly of course...why? because i don't go for a cigarette during my smoke break? or because i am 'quiet' i probably don't grasp the concept of trying to make a sale over the phone. um, i said everything that i heard everyone around me say ok? the supervisors like karen would come up behind me, once i established a repetoir with a caller, and she would distract me by telling me what to say when they had a question. that was really annoying! "oh just say this!" and be pushy and persistant. i know how to be! ugh but you know, im not really a pushy or persistant person by nature so yeah maybe my personality is not cut out for it. and to be honest, it seemed like everyone had a rushed, kind of nervous, 'step on top of others' feel to them...
ok? so i never brought up 'betsy' or 'elizabeth' who sat next to me. i will....first, i want to make sure i uh....who knows!?? LOL! why do i blog!! HAHA i should be making money off of this nonsense!!!
ok so i am quiet? people have been thinking im stupid for as long as i remember. i think its something about my voice and my mannerisms. and something about me makes others not really like me...shrug....
so betsy, i will call her...she was a nice, older lady. she asked me how old i was so i told her, she was like, 'really!?? i thought you were just out of high school!?" then she asked if i had kids...ughh i hate that. no i dont! ok! no but she was nice.
she told me, 'dont get caught up with all of them' and kind of pointed towards all the other women on the other side of the room. she said, "i sit here in my own little cubicle in the corner, i do what i have to do, and i mind my own business'....i made a joke with betsey yesterday she made 2 sales so when katina announced we would be doing slips she was like, 'oh i dont mind doing slips' i was like, 'oh you dont mind because you already made two sales!' she laughed. of course, not good news for me because no one made sales during slips! ((i learned most of those women have been there for years! good for them! like i said, it does seem like a nice, cushy job...i mean, they all had their cubicles decorated with pictures of their families, organizers with hand sanitizer, lotion, and snacks, clorox wipes, cutesy calenders, what not...)) but as betsy would tell me this past week i was on day shift, (since wednesday lol)...'they gossip. they are dishonest' hmm, i made notes. i thought it was cool that betsy was sharing this with me. she said she likes me because im nice and quiet and she normally doesn't like being stuck next to new people. haha! so of course she once again told me yesterday, (friday), 'you don't want to get involved with them, they gossip'...i was like...'hmm is she trying to tell me something or something? were they gossiping about me?" you know? it made me feel kind of strange. i had lunch with them the day before, well i heated up my lean cuisine which took 6 minutes and i was eating the main guy, oh the old man who was huge...comes in. he was like, 'hi lori how are you?' ok so...he said something like, 'i didnt talk to her before because i wasn't sure how long she was going to be around," but yeah i did make that sale on wednesday so he talked to me? whatever!!
then he left and then shaun came in and said someone is going over their break time. "not me!" everyone said. then someone said, "new girl is" and joked and stuff. 'you havent even been here a week and your taking advantage!" smokers cough/laugh...
i went to lunch at 12:31 it was 12:51....(we get a 20 minute lunch we press break but dont clock out) "Oh! sorry!" and i got up to go back to my cubicle. 'sorry sorry' i whispered as i sat back down' ((actually i didn't)) i could sort of sense the, 'what do you think of her?' going on in the break room.
the rest of the day was you know, luck of the draw, as it always is....sigh. you know there really is so much you can say..you can tell by someones tone when they are serious or not. they push us to be more pushy and persistant, and to stay on phone as long as possible. for me this would be to ask more questions, 'what do you do? oh, where was your last vacation? oh a cruise!!!?? i just went on one for my sisters wedding! well a little weekend getaway is always nice to go too! and you will always have fun on the resort'....oh, but instead of saying, 'this' you should of said...'that' katina explained to me yesterday after she listened in for the first time. she never listened in on me it was always shaun or karen. shaun actually understood more how it was like, but karen would always be like, 'well you should of said that,' or ask them this, and i would always shake my head, agree, and make logic of it..."oh ok, i see, so...try to kind of switch it around...so uh..." i forget!! katina heard me say to a lady who was obviously nice enough to tell me shes grocery shopping but not blatantly yell at me, so i was like, 'oh well i can be real quick!" then i just said, 'ok well im sorry i caught you when you are shopping' oops! shouldn't of said that!!??? what they want is for us to keep pitching till they hang up. yes i understand! ughh that job. i was getting headaches and after a while depression sets in, especially after you get hung up on or you just have ppl not interested whatever. yeah i guess its not for me. i can do it...just sucks having to worry every day about making a sale. you know?
so, yesterday was friday. i was feeling depressed but i did what i had too i just had a weird feeling that day. we did slips, (forms not completely filled out so we call them to ask a few questions, are you over age 25? married/single? (if filled out at a bridal expo i had the common sense to ask them if they are engaged oh yeah? congratulations!....annual combined household income 35,000. or above? ((or not combined if single DUH)) of course i felt weird asking that question too one lady said why would we need to know that? i was just like, 'i understand if you do not feel comfortable answering that question i respect that' and crossed her off the list (hope no one was listening!? i dont know how to answer that? i was going to ask betsy what she would say but i never got around to it)....
oh yeah the new girl, (on night shift who was always friendly to me she seemed very nice and pretty and always talked to me) she got two more sales i saw the night before. she told me she wondered where i went she didnt know i got switched to day shift she also asked me if mike could get her boyfriend a job at RR Donnelly...
so anyways, i gave 2.00 to the fat lady with a nice pleasant voice bcuz it was for a birthday cake or something...and they said they were bringing lunch in the breakroom. betsy told me she used to bring burgers and stuff but someone would just bring in a jar of pickles so she just stopped bothering...
so the lunch was 1130 for everyone who wanted the food and she said they are having it now so i took my break and went into the break room. i asked what the 2.00 was for and they said the cake but they said, 'no you can eat grab a plate'...i scanned the table i was like...'hmmmm...hmmmm.hmmmm.' i just grabbed a bit of everything, well first i saw the salami pie under some foil which looked cold and was not cut, so i avoided that...i also saw some baked beans with bacon, some homemade mac n cheese with sprinkled cheese on top, some hor'deur weenies...(the lunch before they were all like, 'theres gonna be weenies" and telling the big boss because he was in the break room as a big boss does, grabbing all the womens shoulders, he grabbed mine too when i was sitting next to suzanne the day before. i mean, just painting a picture, but they all seemed to laugh at the 'fresh' joke they made.
soooo.......what else
there was also um...mozzerella, but not the good fresh kind but they all seemed in awe of the little cheapie peices of mozzerella, or 'mutzere' (mutz eh rey) as that italian i would assume lady with alot of makeup would pronounce it. there was also a plate of baby carrots, broccoli, and cherry tomatoes with dip, and chips. ok! well then....i got some baked beans (those were good tho) mac n cheese, (it was good too), and a baby carrot dipped in dip, and...a mozzerella peice and sat down at an empty chair. the big boss guy came in and everyone started going, 'oh thats a nice shirt' and grabbing his shirt. he sat across from me but he didnt even say anything to me, which made me think of the comment he made day before, 'i wasn't going to say anything to her because i didn't know how long she was going to be around.' so him not even saying anything to me made me feel like crap. oh yeah, the fat lady who made the salami pie told the boss to try it. so she goes, 'you can eat it cold or warmed up' and he was like, 'oh, ok' and then the other lady said, 'i'll heat it up' and then he took a bite he was like, 'i saw it sitting there and it didnt look to good but im glad i had some its pretty good' i also said i was going to have a slice cuz i was still hungry i had it cold tho (time constraints) it was...like..salami...and you know you burp after salami...you know...salami burps!?? yuck! haha
i got up soon after because my 20 minutes was up. someone made a comment, 'new girl' or whatever, 'we like to bring in food' i gushed, 'oh it was so good LOL! thank you!"
the whole time i worked there they made alot of innappropriate, 'fresh' comments, like at night...shaun would say things...not about me amongst each other tho...so i wasnt sure if i should laugh along or act like i didn't hear it, you know?? i mean, i understand being comfortable and joking around and taking heed in office wit and banter, to fit in and what not, so they won't be like, 'shes odd'..i mean, i always try to be sweet and polite and also understanding and ask alot of questions, but generally im NOT one of those loud-mouthed types who curse and smoke and....whatever...:/
then uh..it was slips again. i wasn't feeling it. i just had a very depressed feeling and then someone told me katina wanted to speak with me in the conference room before i went home and i knew what she was going to say...
so i was getting ready to go when the new girl tried to make conversation with me but i was so distracted i dont know?
so then katina came into the conference room she was like, 'we put you on day shift hoping it would be easier for you, which you still didnt make any sales, (or whatever she said)...some people dont have the right kind of personality for it....((sure...i said everything everyone else was saying...))
have you ever did this before? 'no' its not for everyone. i just nodded. so we're going to have to ask you to leave' 'ok' i said...she was like, ' i was hoping youd bust out a sale today' ok...
as we were walking out i was like 'i was on slips today ((which i was...)) also made sure to say, 'well, i did say the same thing everyone else says' oh yeah she also said she would give me a good reference and she also gave me the 2.00 i gave that lady for birthday cake next week.
whatever!!???!
anyways....i went home took a nap....i was like this on facebook...
"Oh! heres what really did happen! OK??? i'd be trying so hard to pitch a sale, i got exasperated, and as a last minute resort, i started singing this..."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iG0t57PUTaM
'ive got two tickets to paradise!" i might as well of! they thought i was retarded anyways!???
i know eddie money is the guy who sang the song joke is he doesnt have the instrumentals i know...
i told mike that tho and he believed me!! he was like, 'you did? i could see you having a breakdown and doing something like that'
mike just doesn't get my humor...
anyways, i was feeling sick mike wanted to order chinese so i called and the guy was like, 'and then'...i was like, 'thats it then' made me think of that part in the movie dude wheres my car at 'and then...'
i didnt even eat tho i was feeling sick. i felt as bad as i did when i was hungover last week!
so we watched this movie sort of like the twilight zone, with dominic monaghan it had a bunch of short stories to it, something youd see on sci-fi channel...it was ok but the one story was about 'the sweetest boy you ever known' where his blood was the secret ingredient and that part made me feel really sick so i kept dry heaving like i was going to puke even tho i was afraid too, i kept thinking of the mac n cheese i had, so finally i couldnt sit there anymore i ran upstairs and puked in the toilet, all the food i had at lunch. damn! someone tried to poison me too??? marble came in concerned but left. i felt defeated after i just puked all the food out a few times it took too. i felt good after wards tho and i made a big deal of it by breathing and kind of crying....then i cleaned up and went downstairs to tell mike i just puked he was sleeping tho.
so thats that!! HAAAAAAAAAAAA wow i write alot! hope uh..yeah, yenjoyed...? shrugs away ?
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