example of a synchronicity....

example of a synchronicity.....so, i was watching tv and this commercial comes on. i see the guy in overalls, and i was thinking, 'i should get a new pair of dungarees (or overalls, if ya aint hick)...anyways, then i noticed the word...if you do not see it, you just do not have the ability to pick up on synchronicities my friend. lo sciento. or this could of been intentional, so, and example of subliminals.

moss sent me the link to the truck commercial where they were talking about getting poisoned. the guy saying it was wearing, overalls!!!

so, maybe i look hot in overalls! HAAAAA..i love overalls tho (yesterday when i was reading , satisfaction, from that picture, another commercial said satisfaction. it makes me think of that old myspacey video 'satisfaction' with all those bouncy females...oh abigail ratchford is HOT! even tho she is on the dirty all the time, also going to make a blog about another girl who comments all the damn time, trisha something i cant think right now....not paytas..ahh, i have more time to blog this weekend tho)

the highest OVERALL
heres the commercial btw:

i do not think my job realizes, when i get off of sasi, im out. i am ready to live life again, MY life! i am ready to take a trip and feel alive. i am done. im done with this....everything. its spring time. things are moving ahead, albeit slowly...but they are moving ahead. the lawyer says he can put in a movement to have me off probation early, so probably next year, but sasi..i need to get off of it. i dont drink and i never failed a test.

i am just saving up money

so, i have to ask, who are you? what right do you have reading my  blog? oh i guess it is public huh?

well, just because you read my blog does not mean that you know me or ever will so read away...

heh....whatever

ridiculous

thoughts

Oh my gosh, this m&M is doing a 'goatse' and if you do not know what that is, google it....

speaking of gross things, some poop story that a 'hot girl' told went viral this week. she tweeted some txt msgs she sent her sister. she was on a date and she went to his house, where she had to poop real bad and so she went in his bathroom and it would not flush, so she fished it out and wrapped it in toilet paper and stuck it in her purse.

later she heard him flush the toilet so she went back and put her poop back in the toilet and flushed it. i saw it on cheezburger site and everyone laughed at the story, calling to cool and funny and tagging their friends in it. it is NOT cutesy or darling or any of that...a hot chick telling a poop story. no, that is nasty! putting it in her purse!?? just because it was wrapped up in toilet paper, does not mean that it stopped any germs from getting anywhere. poop is weird she might of even had a peice of it on her clothes somewhere, (if the story is even true)....

her purse was probably filled with invisible fecal bacteria as well. anyways...oh my gosh

also watching this tiny house show, why on earth would a family of 6 want to move into such a small house!?? i mean, i can see one person living in a tiny house, but a family of 6!??!


most of these houses cost as much as a normal house too.

i am so hungry!????

one more thing, katt williams still made the choice to slap a kid, punch him in the face, whatever...those were his actions, so  it does not matter if he is 'anti illuminati' he still punched a kid in the face. he was still accused of witchcraft and abuse on a woman....whats up with that? or maybe witchcraft IS involved, just not him doing it?

i dont know

tattoo idea

ireland trip

i need to get off sasi! i just...i cant do this anymore...the nothing! the nothingness. dui was 2 years ago! can i just get over it!?? i dont even drink anymore. i am planning on writing about my experience, but why must probation be so long, its not that tho, but its this fucking sasi bullshit!?? i hate it. piss in a cup every damn week. i havent went on a legit trip in a while.

i have been looking into travelling to ireland. i would love to do it. wheres my partner in crime!?? i need a travel buddy! i miss travelling so much!!!

https://www.greatvaluevacations.com/vacations/luxury-irish-villa-vacation?duration=6

Explore the southwest of Ireland for 6 or 8 nights at the 5-star Adare Manor in a private villa. Take day-trips to the Cliffs of Moher, the Ring of Kerry or Galway- the choice is yours!

What Makes it Great

• Travel to the beautiful and green Emerald Isle!
• A self-drive vacation allows you to create your very own itinerary.
• Take a day-trip to the Cliffs of Moher!
• Forget the stress of packing and unpacking with a home base at Adare.
• Explore the traditional Irish village of Adare.

What's Included

• Round-trip economy class airfare to Dublin (DUB)
• Manual shift full size car rental for duration (automatic available for additional cost; inquire at time of booking)
• 6 nights in Adare at the Adare Manor Villa (3-bedroom villa, self-catering)

The 5-star Adare Manor Villas are an ideal home base for a vacation to Ireland. The Villas are self-catering, spacious and include a list of amenities to make guests feel at home. This vacation package provides guests with a bit of privacy and independence with a stay in a private 3-bedroom villa.  You will have a rental car for the duration of your trip, so you will be able to make several day-trips to sights such as the Cliffs of Moher, the Ring of Kerry and the Blarney Stone.

Kindly note: Adare Manor is currently closed for renovations, and it is estimated to reopen in the second half of 2017. For passengers staying at Adare Villas, there will be no access to the Main Manor House, the Club House, golf course, the spa, or any onsite activities during that time. However, Adare Village offers lots of restaurants, shops and activities for you to enjoy during your stay at Adare Villas.

What I am looking for in a mate, (sounds so stupid haha)...but seriously, i need to find my partner in crime. I really would like to get married and have kids within the next 5 years. that is my goal. anyways, without sounding all cheesy...i just want to write what i am looking for:

I am looking for someone to be adventurous. Someone to go on trips with, even day trips. Exploring. Someone who would like to create and make movies, (for youtube etc)...someone who wants to go to museums and planetariums, disney world, 4 wheeling and motorcycle (want someone with a motorcycle!) um....

i want to get a house in the country. love the country. someone who likes to have mimosas at brunch. someone who wants to do wine tasting.

someone who is funny and good tempered, has a good personality. easy to talk too. someone who does want kids.

i mean, can i meet someone like this wth!??? 

of course, i am way to lazy to attempt to on sites like plenty of fish etc. i have not logged into there in so long, and when i do, i just do not have the patience to check out anyones profile there. i am more about meeting someone in real life, and feeling some sort of attraction. havent had that in so long!??!?

synchroncities etc...

so...unraveling synchronicites occured a few moments ago, i dub thee, 'the synchening'....

tonight, mike came over. i mean, listen ok? he has nothing to do, i have nothing to do, so we just do nothing together. i hang out with my parents..but sometimes its nice to kind of do my own thing. 

ok so also, first of all, let me say, i am not sure what or if these 'synchronicities' even mean anything...i just feel like it is a fun thing to be aware of, but often times, yes, it can help the descent into 'number 23' or even the 'number 100' type madness. i understand this. also, i do not want to make fun of legitimate psychological disorders either...because schizophrenia and dementia are scary things...that being said, let me continue with my synchening of the night...m. night...m. night shymalon!??!

so we went to quaker steak and lube. i was not really hungry since earlier in the day i went with my parents to see my aunt tita (tita means aunt in spanish, so am i saying, my aunt aunt? )  tia also means aunt..i had a cheesesteak at the hospital cafeteria. she was in because of high blood pressure. she is in her 90s but still smart as a whip...i mean, she is not suffering from dementia, like the way they showed the old people...um...anyways..

so we went to steak and lube and the waitress told me if i wait 20 minutes the appetizers will be just 5.00. so i went and ordered pub pretzels, soft pretzels with a queso dip. after that we went to walmart to rent a movie at redbox. emimen was playing, 'you better lose yourself in the moment, you better never..moms spaghetti' etc etc...i told mike the story of when i felt like cloud 9 after doing a few lines of coke with my friend danielle in the apartment above mothers, and then going back to the bar and this song was blasting...(this was a LONG time ago...i do NOT touch that drug nor do i want to anymore)...but anyways, so we rented 'the visit' by m. night shymalon....

when we got back to my house, mike was talking about things not happening, and when he said happening, i showed him the word happening which was on a womans world magazine i spotted at that moment he said it. (SYNCH!)...

spoiler alerts!!! m night shymalon..made a movie called 'the happening'

this movie has a young brother and sister...dont say i didnt warn you about spoilers...but the grandparents made some soft pretzels for them. SOFT PRETZELS!! what i had at the restaurant.

the young brother like to rap. he was a young rapper.

at the end, the mom was by a lamp with butterflies on it. she was talking about her daughters 'project'

so naturally, i think PROJECT MONARCH

these kids had to endure some pretty fucked up stuff enough to dissociate and fragment their minds if you watch close enough you will see they are already beginning to suffer from mental disorders..this just will bring that off the brink in the future...

like shoving a shitty diaper in the kids face

MONARCH! satanic ritual abuse..whatever you want to call it!?? hansel and gretal (eating kids. sacrifice...alluding)....

terrible mother in the movie, a clueless mother, abandonement issues...kid raps....(also there was a scene where the boy was shirtless and posing in front of a webcam...showing off i guess. this just saddened me because it brought to mind kiddie porn...and that shit exists. i think it was intentional...) this movie made me uncomfortable..but not the movie, but the hidden msgs i kind of think was there

so the hidden msg in the visit is, 'how to make a white rapper...PROJECT MONARCH!]

also they use 'sundowning' perhaps as a ruse to 'sun worship' m. night shymalon (in hollywood)...using these poor old people with mental disorders to stray away from the real horrors of satanists...

you better lose yourself in the moment the opportunity

((i believe  that eminem is a product of project monarch))

Throwback Diary entry:

So, I found my old diary/journal whatever

this is from

May 31, 1996 (yeah, a LONG time ago...)

Today, I didn't go to school. I went and took the ASVABs. I scored pretty good. I also went inside a tank, which was cool. Hmm, what else? Oh well, I'm gonna join the Army. Then I had to work. Missy stopped by. I was making sandwiches. Oooh fun! Ha yeah right!

Nov 9, 1996

Yesterday was when I left. Sgt Silver got me at 4:30 and I said bye to my family which was so sad but not too bad. When I was sitting in a room at MEPS I really felt like crying. Oh well. So, I had to catch two planes to Jackson, Carolina. I'm there now its not that bad but I know that I will never want to work at a place like this. Today pretty dull, at least, tiring. Firve years away from home. I mbtter be more confident or I;ll die.

EDIT: (I was not very descriptive back then, but I do recollect that day, to some degree. At the MEPS we all the recruits were brought into a room where we were all sworn in to the United States Military, (I still have the Polaroid from that day, maybe I will find it and post it). As we were being driven away to the airport in Philly, "Unbreak my heart' by Toni Braxton was playing. I watched a black girl wave to her husband/boyfriend and their young child as we drove away. She was crying. We reunited with more and more recruits during our flights, but I was with Autumn since Philly. I was nervous about being on a plane so I went to light up a cigarette, (since I had seen an ashtray in the seat), but the old man next to me told me that I cannot smoke on the planes.

At our next layover, we met up with more recruits, such as the girl with the deep red, messy hair. She went along and joined us in our platoon later on. We arrived at Ft. Jackson very late. We all got into the school bus which then drove us into Ft. Jackson. We had no idea what to expect. They brought us into the chow hall where we had our choice of cereal, toast, and eggs. Then they showed us to where we would spend the night. There were bunk beds and I chose the top one above Autumn. She told me that we should sleep on top of the covers. No one shut the lights so I was staring at the bright glow of a flourescent lit up ceiling before getting a little bit of sleep before the next day of processing began.


Nov. 11, 1996

I'm still in the reception. It's lonely here, at least for me. That's because I am not really associating with others. Anyways, I really miss my family. I try not to think about how much I miss Chris, (((EDIT: a guy I had a crush on when I was working at Wendys'..doh!))) even though I'm not going out with him, and I was hardly talking to him, but I liked him so much. I wouldn't mind if he was the last person I went out with. I can wait 5 years to be with him. Ha ha! Oh well, I don't like it here.
Next day, Swallowed-Bush, Devils Haircut-Beck, new video by the Cranberries. I miss MTV! Ha ha ha! I miss chatting in mIRC and #Psychic and seeing Chris act all dumb at work. I miss cleaning the Frosty machines, and waking up late! Playing with Peaches ((my dog at the time). Everything!

Nov. 22nd

Yesterday I went down Victory Tower, which was ok I suppose. ((EDIT, victory tower is in that army movie with Danny Devito and Stacy Dash, in the army now I think its called) ..I seen 2 other guys I find cute. Well, three....

Dec. 9th

This morning we woke up at 0430 and left to walk about 5 to walk a couple miles to the range. I was cold but once I got walking I got warmed up. Out of 36 pop up targers, I only hit 17. I really hope and pray that I meet the standards on Friday so that I can qualify. I really do want to graduate. I want to finish what I started. Alot of people are leaving and going home but I don't want to be one of those people. I want to go out to Texas and California to learn Spanish, and always want to get the chance to jump out of a plane. 

Dec 14th
Today we went out to the Range 8 to fire automatic and also to fire with our gas masks on. Well, nothing really interesting to write about (EDIT ARE YOU KIDDING ME!?), I need to clean out my wall locer. 3 more days and a wake up. 

Breakfast from Sunday, December 16th
Waffles, bacon, biscuit w/strawberries, hash browns, bowl of fruit loops and mini wheats and juice. whoa!

I had a crush on Conan O'Brien back then, (but I seemed to have a crush on everyone!?? Geez...) I wrote about him a few times I noticed. Weird!?? When I went home for Christmas, we went to NYC to see a Conan show. I said I liked obnoxious, funny, cute in a dorky way guys, like Conan O brien...

So, I am disappointed in how I wrote back then, always complaining and negative, and always talking about boys I had crushes on. I never really went into detail about my basic training days. The journal comes to an end, after Ft. Jackson, but then I started another one when I got to Ft. Benning GA. (I ended up throwing that one in the river because my boyfriend Danny found it and read it, and I cheated on him a bunch of times. Damn...I was pretty..uh...ho-ey)

Heres an excerpt from January 24th

Well, I just came in. It's 430 am. Oops! I got moved into Bravo company. I was talking to more people and this girl named Sarah who just graduated and some other guys. Bryant and this other guy who looks like Keanu Reeves. We went to the PX with them in the guys car. He says he will make a PT card for me in which says I actually did pass. Anyways, later in the night me, Sarah and this other guy went to the E Club and this guy who remembered me from Charlie started talking to me. ((EDIT: that girl Sarah told me not to hang out with Bryant because he was bad news, but I found him intriguing. He was older, ((he was 23 and I was 18))...he was good looking, he drove a truck, he drank Jim Beam and listened to George Thorogood, Marilyn Manson and Red Hot chili peppers. He talked about making MRE bombs)...We ended up going to some party and had some beers and watched Pulp Fiction. Bryant invited me to go see Scream but I did not go.

January 24th 

I woke up late and went downstairs, and then I went to the mall with Bryant and Bonze (Keanu guy). They sat in the truck while I went shopping. I bought everything I needed, and decided to go back to the parking lot. Apparently, Bryant and Bonze got arrested for drinking. So we had to take the truck. This guy Kulpa came and drove me and those two guys to the tattoo place and I got a tattoo of a strawberry. I came back here around 6, played pool. Went for a ride in a specialists jeep with the music blaring in my ears. Talk about Mardi Gras. 

Anyways, that was the last page in that journal. I can recollect when I was in the ARM Y for those short 10 months, and I can do a better job at writing about it then I did back then...geez!??! Can you say boy crazy!??? wow

Red Lipstick

I thought I was going to go out tonight so I put on makeup, but then the more I thought about it, the more I thought it was a bad idea. First of all, I don't have anyone to go out with, but Mike wanted to go to Riverside. I would go, but going to a bar or having a beer with Mike is just a mistake Plus I do not want to be stuck at his house. I would go to a movie or to Starbucks...for that cherry blossom frappocino...I dont want to drink. oh, i mean, when i get my own place i will...and when i get off fucking SASY i made a a video im uploading right now

tattoos ideas

tina synch

saw this on fb and heard, and what tina did next (tina loeshe on snapped)

i watched crimson peak and creed both good movies. crimson peak is not your usual, the same as every other horror movie...movie. mia wazaschowski (idk?) the girl who played alice in alice in wonderland is in it, as well as jessica chastain (i like her), and charlie hunman from sons of anarchy, and someone that looks like herschel from the walking dead...anyways, it was actually a good movie. usually, i sort of zone out during time peice movies and like i said, horror movies all seem the same nowadays, but guillermo del toro did this movie and i say its actually good. do not get distracted from that CGI ghost effects. crimson...also...poison. its in the movie of course. crimson is my sasi color, and poison...well, thats me!! creed is good, its about rocky balboa....and apollo creeds son. it was actually a good endearing movie.

soooooo!???! blah..i forget what else i wanted to say...hmm

i love the spirit of harley quinn and enjoy watching harley quinn ASMR roleplay. i would like to try it...

what else??? I HAVE NO IDEARRRRRRRRRRRRRR

outfit of the day- Fergie edition

Fergie, out and about with hubby and son. Casual outfit, love it!???!

evertime i hear 'fergie' i think of her song...you know who you are fergie

why is she a fergie? anyways, remember when the black eyed peas used to bop around dancing??!

so her outfit is that outdated been done a million times rocker look with that kind of hat, but idk...i like it

her sons name is axl!??? 

I found out the guy from the donatelli agency died. mickey donatelli. i remember he was telling me he had health issues. i was wanting to do a shoot for the valley beat but i got my dui and lost my license and never followed up on it. i saw comments from girls thanking him for getting them tv and modeling gigs. i can still do it, i guess, but he never made me feel bad about my age or weight. he wanted to work with me. he always made comments about 'moving in and helping me out' which i thought was weird but i figured that was just something he said to all the girls. he was a harmless man, i mean, i only met him once but talked to him on the phone about getting signed to his agency. idk..

what else...i forget!??! oh...my youtube ideas...

such as..

the other side of a selfie!

but later

sure, people make jokes about guy fieri, but its not often that you will hear this jokes twice in one day. so someone on fb was making joke of how he had guy fieri hair but he just needed to bleach it and also wear hawaiian print shirts etc. later that night, on the voice, blake shelton made fun of adam levine and that he needs to host his 'drives, diners and dives' show..(guy fieri) poor guy fieri. everyone makes fun of him...but yeah, that was some kind of synch!??!

so...i emailed my job and they said the job is still available. she says to bring in the paperwork next week at 430. so...alright. i figure, you know, its going to be so hard to find another job...mehhh....at least with majestic i know what i am doing etc...not sure how long i was to stay there, but is a paycheck for the time being, so might as well...

blah...

it was nice out so i had taken a walk...it was nice! i just want to enjoy the SUMMER!! i am going to write a new blog about things i want!! in a bit

sync of the day

So..I need a new synchronicity journal!!!!

i just opened a roth ira, and put some money in it. this money can go towards my retirement, and for my kids! all tax free...but yeah...as i was reading the word IMPORTANT, i heard it on tv...

just now i was scrolling down fb, and i saw a post from cheezeburger that caught my attention. i read the 'one of these things is not like the other', and it made me think of when this nerdy kid said that. i knew him from the adult swim boards, and i met up with him and some other board members at this adult swim event in NYC, and the kid i was friends with muttered that, i guess he was saying that about me, 'one of these things is not like the other' i dont know! ?? HA but he brought me a gift, and it was this big velvet green cape...it was a cape!?? anyways, (this kid reminded me of coralines buddy from coraline...)...anyways, i look up on bobs burger, and its about magicians, and the kid...well, as soon as i thought about that kid who gave me a cape, i look up and i see...A CAPE!! A MAGICIANS CAPE!

EDIT UPDATE!!! UPDATE!!!

So, I sort of had a feeling that I was going to see something about bagels...those bagelly dogs just stood out..

sure enough, look what aqua teen shows up..(its been a long time since i have been able to watch adult swim at night!)

this is from the 100th episode the one where frylock is going paranoid like jim carrey in the number 23

but LOOK!!!

ughh. moss is so sensitive. i might go to las vegas for the acms, he would pay for my round trip ticket i would just have to pay for the price of the acms...he keeps saying, 'wont...he won't" so i called him wonty...because he keeps saying wont and he says, 'be nice fawn

ewww stop! weirdo!?

also, i feel terrible. i feel like...i dont know, more depressed now.

i just feel stuck. that state farm commercial, 'im never getting married. were never having kids. were never moving to the suburbs...that commercial annoys me, because sometimes, people actually never experience ANY OF THAT!

life is passing me by! i cant breathe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NASA BEDREST STUDY APPLICATION NOT AVAILABLE

i tried looking for the application for the NASA bedrest study and I see it is no longer available. This was the study which will pay...subjects...18,000.00 for being on bedrest for 70 days.

NASA!???! contact me! I would like to apply!

i dont know, i feel very regretful about this decision i made, i also feel like i let my old coworkers and bosses down..i keep thinking i should of just stayed there till i get my license back. it was just tough, very tough. and i would of probably of gotten layed off. the girl with the crazy colored hair would always find me too, and tell me to get hired in shipping department. i just, i wish they could of told me my pay rate inn person, like most places.

so i was playing until dawn, and it is all about butterfly effects. i feel like i unlocked some sort of butterfly effect by refusing this job...but what? i dont know...

weird i have this movie on, into the wild...ayways, a song was just playing...king of the road...and it sang, 'i dont pay no union dues'

ha! i guess i dont either...

i dont know...i feel stuck/ damnet....

why couldnt they just pay a little bit more!???!

i was going to claim 0 so  that way i get  a bigger tax return, and then i would have my medical taken out of my check every week and on top of that a 30.00 initiation fee and 40.00 a month for dues....i wouldnt be getting any more than if i choose to work at mcdonalds...

i need a change. when will my place be ready already?

you know, I was expecting to have some sort of orientation before I actually started working with Majestic, right? I figured, I would have a sit-down with someone from HR, in which they review what my pay wage would be, what my benefits would be, etc. All they did do, was give me a packet of forms to be filled out and returned on Monday. Most people want to know how much they are going to be getting payed before they start working, right? Yeah!?? That way, you can decide if it is worth it or not. For the longest time, I have been feeling quite depressed working these hours. Plus, they are long days. 4pm till 3am...Mon-Friday, (was also working on saturdays as well)....I kept waiting to get layed off, but that never happened. They offered me a job, but never told me how much I would make. Here I thought I would get at least a dollar raise, right? I emailed and was calling all day, until finally, I got an answer:

Pay wage:

You will start at $9.00/hour.  Once you sign the union card and it gets turned into payroll, you will receive $9.35/hour. You are paid on a weekly basis.  VF is direct deposit only, so someone from payroll will come out and help you set up your tax and direct deposit information into Workday.

Vacation:

6 months – 1 year (employment), you will receive 5 paid days of vacation

1 year – 5 years (employment), you will receive 10 paid days of vacation

Bonus:

Is ½% of your earnings.  You won’t receive the bonus for 2016, but will be eligible in 2017.

Union dues:

Initiation fee is $30.00, which is a one time payment.  Union dues are $41.40/month.

Medical insurance is through the Union, so when you sign your Union card, please make sure the rep gives you all of the paperwork and answers any of your questions.  Any medical insurance questions will need to be directed to the Union.

Dental insurance is through VF and that packet was given to you in your handouts. 

I just wish I had obtained this information sooner...because...

well, since I am night shift I would actually be making more...9.85 a hour, but honestly, that isnt much for working those hours and for all the work I do.

I didn't have time to think much about it, but I told them I am not interested. 

I feel terrible. I just feel hopeless now. 

I also feel bad because I had friends. People were congratulating me at work, and on FB about this new job...now what?

i have no idea anymore. I didnt want to not work there. I asked if I can just stay working as a temp. They said that union laws have to offer me a job after a certain amount of time or they will have to let me go...

sigh....I do feel bad tho. I wish I had the time to think about it. 9.85 an hour....its not even 10.00 an hour!?? Everyone I talked too says that is not enough, for what we are doing? Yes, I feel bad, but tell your people how much there will be making instead of keeping it from them!???

now what? :/

oh yeah...well, i dont know...

before i go on, this is weird...i was watching the simpsons, ok...well, the other week, i actually had thought, 'cant the simpsons subliminally communicate with me, other than saying poison?" HA! but yeah i did think that...so tonight, one of the astronauts said, 'thats two lorraine!" LORRAINE! lorraine was a robot...but thats two..two what? duis? also, there was a rocket that looked like a penis (made me think of the SUBLIMINAL penis in the little MERMAID)...and it said EXPLORATION....or exploration Lori (its there, subliminally..) as i was telling the story, i was telling moss i said true story, and i heard that weird progresssive book creature that looks like that baking soda creature on aqua teen hunger force (weird this show now has baseballs with faces on them, like meatwads faces on the apples)...it said, 'he invented the story' the same time i said true story...next was a hulu commercial and it said stephen king (im reading his book)...then on the next show..cooper barret, they were in jail and i was looking at the graffiti and sure enough there was an EYE and 'I see you' was scribbled underneath the eye, and then in the next room there was a sign that said, "YOUR CONVERSATIONS ARE BEING MONITORED"

i know i sound crazy,..i dont really care. 

remember the other day, when i said stephen king always writes similar things, stories, characters, places etc...?? well, i am reading the short story in the bazaar of bad dreams, the one called Ur...its about a kindle. the guy ordered a kindle, and it is delivered early, in pink. he finds never been written writings from ernest hemingway, insinuating alternate universe (speaking of which, i wrote down some authors who write a good alternate universe series)..anyways, then one of his friends notice all the similarities in the alternate universe's authors writings, things such as places, (like i said, king always writes in maine..etc)...or even names...and in the story book, one of the names was Mayer...and in the short story, he said it sounds like a similar book the author wrote, only instead of mayer, he wrote, meyer...sounds like the whole mayer/meyer synch i had a while ago, remember? tom goes to the mayer...meyer...

just weird...

heart beating synch

Kim posted a video about a heart beating on its own, out of the body...at that moment, i heard, "(on untold stories of the ER), 'to get the patients heart to beat on its own'

SYNCH

saw two posts today on FB which said, 'puerto rican man'

one was about a
puerto rican man' who was embalmed sitting upright with his eyes open to preserve him in real life, with a cigarette in his hands...

other one was about a puerto rican man who was shot in wisconsin for speaking spanish..

of course those are most likely based on algorythyms..

Synchronicities, coincedences, psychic whatevers...

We all have those sort of, psychic anomalies, let's say...such as, thinking about someone you have not thought about in weeks/months/years etc...and suddenly, they call you, or...something like that. Here are a few synchs/coincedences of the week that I experienced. 

Read, 'many people' while hearing it on tv..
(this is old, but i was scrolling down the dirty and saw 2 posts with selfie girls holding up an apple iphone and heard dr oz say, 'apple crisp')

sometimes i hear a rare phrase that i never hear being uttered a few times in a day...

for example, the other night i saw someone post on fb about having plans to get 'white girl wasted' that night, then, on CMT, there is a reality show and they said, 'lets get white girl wasted!" (could of been, this person heard that too and inexplicably re-uttered it themselves...

read a blind about hunger games actor josh hutcherson, (he wants to move to another country away from his publicists)...well, i was thinking about the other movies he has been in. someone said they loved him in bridge to terabithia. later, i was turning the channel and left in on RV, and I noticed, there was josh hutcherson, as a kid....i never think or hear about josh hutcherson aside from that day, really...but thats another one of his movies...

my friend alyssa posted something on fb, and i commented on it. i never comment on her posts, (she never comments on mine, idk??) it was a post of a beautiful, downs syndrome bride. anyways, later that night, i saw her working at walmart. she says we should all get together again, (me, her and sea)..later that night, i was watching jeffree star makeup youtube videos and he was with his guest friend, named alyssa (a drag queen)...

a few days ago, i was thinking about how my friend scott used to call me Leori, and i was wondering where he has been. he just msgd me on fb the next day, saying, "Leori!" apparently, he has not had internet the past year...

yesterday, my dad showed me a video on youtube, it was about 'bigshot kids' or something. i guess there is a tv show about extremely talented children and he brought up a video of these little girls on the ellen show. at first i thought, 'sophia grace'. sophia grace is the really annoying, bad teeth british chile always on ellen. i never think about her, but later that day, there was a post from Mtv, saying, 'see how sophia grace looks like now' weird!??!

we went to starbucks last night, and then on SNL last night, there was a mermaid skit...made me think of starbucks. 

anyways, stuff like that...i need to write this in my synchronicity journal and its almost done i am going to need a new one soon


yesterday i was telling alyssa how cvs does not pay well for pharmacy techs, but today, mike tells me he saw an ad for pharm techs and it pays 13.25 an hour!? WTF

My thoughts of Kim K's flaunting full frontal selfie...

“In all seriousness, I never understand why people get so bothered by what other people choose to do with their lives,” she wrote. “I don’t do drugs, I hardly drink, I’ve never committed a crime—and yet I’m a bad role model for being proud of my body?”

ok, so with her saying this, she is basically saying that people that do or have commit crimes are the real scum here, and people that drink or do drugs are the real scum here, but of course, not her! not this 'empowered' woman, who is a sister, a mother, a wife, a daughter. she chooses to present herself in this way, but that does not mean she is a terrible person...ok...right...and anyone who is proud of their body does not mean they have to put it out there in this blatant way...also, someone can overcome drug and alcohol addiction and that, to me, is something to be proud of, and flaunt. 

“It always seems to come back around to my sex tape,” her essay continued. “Yes, a sex tape that was made 13 years ago. 13 YEARS AGO. Literally that lonnng ago. And people still want to talk about it?!?! I lived through the embarrassment and fear, and decided to say who cares, do better, move on. I shouldn’t have to constantly be on the defense, listing off my accomplishments just to prove that I am more than something that happened 13 years ago.


HAHA! she said LITERALLY! i remember watching a spoof of youtube about her, and every word out her mouf was ...literally...

Ok, here is what I think..I have no problem with nude photos etc, I mean, I have done nude photoshoots in the past, and I will again, I really do not care you know?

But Kim K is on a much bigger platform than I ever was, or will be. Plus, she is 35. You begin to learn to hold back, because while you may not like it, people are always judging. If you want to send nudes to your husband, then do it. But to post it on Instagram....

I actually was searching for the uncensored pics, but it seems like Kim K added the black bars herself. That in itself shows something censored, something sHOCKING!! oh my

what else...this is a very fluid flow of thoughts..so bear with me. i do want to share my thoughts cuz i keep seeing this damn pic everywhere i go on the damn internet!

she talks about being sexy...feeling sexy..well, there is sexy and there is straight up....thotty...that ho over there there yall

a full frontal naked selfie with bars aint sexy! its just..bam! slotty! slutty...but hey why slut shame? its not slutty ok, but..it aint sexy! 

here is an example of a sexy nude photoshoot

 and on another note, we've seen it...plenty of nude kim k photos, so just stop ok? its annoying! 

everyone is getting inundated with this trash and we do not even care. its just there, in our faces. anyone with a fb has to endure this...

the regular ppl who are on fb to keep up with FRIENDS and FAMILY, NOT the kardashians, they have to see naked kim k pics...


the retired grandparent, the church-going neighborino...


kids...all the kids..

come on kim! really?

must you always have to remind us? do  you really need a constant need in the news, do you really need everyone talking about you?

also, yes, you are a mother and a wife...so, why not stop it with these antics? after a while, you want to put yourself out there as classy and respectable, but the more you do shit like this, the more it will make you look like a fool even tho you make mad bank...still 


mad bank (meaning its 'part of her brand' but i think she has already established herself and has, yeah, mad bank! so why tweet out this photo? she likes it. thats what it is. she likes the attencion! 


there are younger women then her saying things like..cover up!
chloe moretz for one: 

basically telling her shes a role model and she should send the msg that she has more to offer then just her body....

TRUE!

THIS JUST IN: this is what kim k tweeted out to chloe moretz...SIZZLE!! BITTER!! haha!!

et's all welcome @ChloeGMoretz to twitter, since no one knows who she is. your nylon cover is cute boo

12:58 AM - 8 Mar 2016

she also tweeted @ bette midler that she tried to fake friend her

also, pink, bette midler etc

anyways...attention span lost! who cares! 

i hear the birds chirping outside...i wish i did not have to work. i can still take a walk around the block tho.

LUXURY SAFARI HOUSE TOUR

lately i have just been forgetting about life, living, and the rest of the world. i have always been a traveller, but this G'D *dont want to take the Lords name in vain** , probation bullshit has been stopping me from taking trips, and then..on top of it, this fucking job i have!!!??! these hours are awful, and i have been working 6 days a week!???! i just...i have to go here. safari!! oh my gosh, i cant forget about life....OH MY GOD also, i do have to say, the guy in the video kind of looks like my first real boyfriend from the army, danny...kind of..ha! but without the dreads, and i love dreads. it just gives off a worldy sort of sense...idk...i feel like im slowly morphing into this really boring, desolute person, but at the same time, i feel this time in my life is teaching me gratitude, patience, tolerance etc. i have not had a drink since last year, but i am not going to say that means i can never enjoy a nice drink. i am able to handle myself, as long as i have good company with someone i can trust. NOT mike. he really proved himself once again. im getting ALL OF MY SHIT OUT OF HIS PLACE so he can stop hanging that over me.

you don't have to be lonely, at farmers only .cot

i really am not trying to get hired at majestic...it is way too depressing working this shift. sigh....it will not be forever. i will not let it be. anyways, to make matters worse, this girl katie asked me how old i am. well, because hero had to ask her at lunch, where 'center city' is. what the heck is center city? no idea....anyways, he asked her, and she replied, 'i have no idea. i'm not in pa.' that sort of felt like a setup for me to ask her, after a considerate pause, 'where are you from?' (idk..nor did i actually care...with a C)...she said new jersey. so, i thought she meant far nj...far far away nj, (since she did not realize center city is in allentown...i think!??). So am I. so she asked me where, I said phillipsburg....great!???! she said she is from washington....which lead to more considerate pauses and then to me telling her....nothing. she asked me where i went to school....
no! please, not these questions. i hate telling people how old i am at my stupid jobs. that always follows with, 'do i have any kids? married?" no...ok? so what if i do not have kids or am not married.!!

i told her 26 because i hate explaining things because no one believes me when i tell them how old i am, blah....i do not even like to tell people about my life...i do not mind writing about it, but i do not like to talk about it...

wouldnt you know, she has a brother that went to tech and graduated and she was asking me about teachers and kids i would of known and who i knew from belvidere. ughhh

if i had kids, and was married, i would be like, 'yeah, i am 37 years old? so what?  yeah i look good! yeah! i look young!' (yeah im married. jake, from state farm)...

it is just that, i am embarrassed of my life and i am not proud of where i am right now. if it wasn't for this fucking dui, i sure as hell woulld not be working in a factory, 2nd shift...i would be out, maybe in california, doing exciting things. maybe working in the entertainment industry. i have (had) all the wonder and potential and magic i could of had happen...i was really on the verge and letting something happen...(let it happen)

but nope. now, i am doomed. i will be stuck in this factory job for the rest of my life. UNION FOR LIFE!!! i will end up like that lady who works 1st shift and who is a fuser who never got married or had kids. the people who work there are not glamorous. its older women, its like...factory people. do i sound silly? i am...i don't know. writing...

ughh i hate it. i really do!??!? but i do not have to stay forever. even jeanie is always looking for a better job. now i am going to feel awkward around that girl because she is going to keep pestering me about belvidere this and that. yeah i grew up here, i am a country girl, but i really do not know these people you are referring too because i am about 10 years older than you ok? i lied. sue me!!!

ha! idk....what else??!??

i have something i kind of want to say, but...i just..won't. just kidding i will...but not now. im tired. later...


but then....well, i doubt anyone important reads this. i doubt any VIPS read this....who???? i always wonder...who...even tho i do know...of a few....just because...but still...is it...YOU!!???!! mean face emoji

alright i need to go to sleep. sleep work sleep work wtf!??

I am not going to get all these products, but I do need some good makeup brushes, also:

anastastia contour kit
jeffree star lipdrench (whatever it is called?)

tarte
urban decay

PRODUCTS USED
JadeyWadey 180 Glam Sculpting Duo Brush Set (for contour/highlight)
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Dr. Brandt Pores No More Primer
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Too Faced Born This Way Foundation: Honey
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Urban Decay Naked Concealer: Light Warm
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Anastasia Beverly Hills Cream Contour Kit: Fair
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Laura Mercier Translucent Powder
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Tartelette Palette
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Esqido Illumina Lashes (use code XOXO for $$ off)
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NYX Black Liquid Liner
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IT Cosmetics Hello Lashes Mascara
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Anastasia Beverly Hills Dipbrow: Dark Brown
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Tarteist Contour Palette
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MAC Margin Blush
http://bit.ly/1dt7hn2
Anastasia Beverly Hills Glow Kit: That Glow
http://bit.ly/1PGV5xv
Urban Decay Gwen Stefani Lipliner: Ex-Girlfriend
http://bit.ly/1U98rph
ColourPop Ultra Satin Lipcolor: Dopey + Magic Wand (releasing soon!) http://bit.ly/1yeLKHs