ASMR Whispered House Tour | Our Little Cottage Home

what a nice beautiful sunny home! i want a sunny house!

my little pony

new tattoo idea: VINTAGE my little pony! None of this new my little pony brony crap, i want the old school MLP i grew up on! i also want to order a bunch of MLP's on ebay. i need to start up my tattoo's again. vegas vicky left arm, collarbone blah blah BLAH MY LITTLE PONY

more jokes

oh fall..........its the time where parents will be posting pics with their kids at pumpkin patches. one of the joys of being a parent is that you can take your kids to pumpkin patches, corn mazes, and petting zoos! (i want to post this on fb but i aint gonna)....

((because thats all fb is consumed with during these season!) when i finally have a kid im gonna take them to the pumpkin patch and i am going to be like, 'i always wanted a kid, so now i can finally share a pick of my kid at the pumpkin patch!'

also...another thing, why do daily fb posters suddenly go quiet? its like, they yabber yabber yabber away for months straight, then you just notice, 'gee i haven't seen this persons post in a while?" then you go to find them and you see, Add Friend...sonofabitch muthafucka unfriended me!??!!

((i need to come up with more jokes...i have a few more so i can make a youtube video to share

My Loft Tour

started off as neat concept than became basic essentials...good song tho odezsa i cant wait to get my own place then i can do more fun videos!!!

my invite (too bad i cant go..no one to go with )

Hi Lori, 

Congratulations, this is confirmation of your RSVP to the Robot Chicken Season 8 Party. 

Please bring a copy of this confirmation (printed out or on mobile phone) and a valid photo ID for entry into the event. You must be 21 yrs+ to attend. 

Entry is first-come, first-served and subject to capacity. RSVP does not guarantee entry. Once capacity is reached entry will be closed. Arriving early is recommended due to limited space. 

Additional guests may still RSVP at adultswimpresents.com. We will also have a stand-by line on site. 

Robot Chicken Season 8 Party 
Presented by KFC 
Thursday, Oct 8th 
Brooklyn Bowl | 61 Wythe Avenue, Brooklyn, NY 11249 
Doors at 6PM | Screening at 8PM 


Love, Adult Swim

adult swim parties

i really wish that i can just meet someone...who is fun and adventurous, but where would i even meet anyone? it is not like i go out...and people are too busy anymore. i do not really hang out with anyone, except my family anymore it seems. i would love to do all the fun things i want to do. april was supposed to stay so that we could go to comic con...erghh. she left tho. adult swim has FREE PARTIES going on! where you do not need a badge either!??! robot chicken bowling party thursday night in brooklyn, and the adult swim maiden voyage cruise on saturday night! damnet!!! also, on nov, friday the 13th, the actual camp where they filmed friday the 13th is doing a tour. that would be so cool to go too!!!

fuck this! when am i going to start LIVING again!???!! 
i need to get off of sasi too. 

so i have not went on plentyoffish for a while, i am too impatient for it. 

but it seems like lots of guys are outdoorsy, adventurous types...i like adventurey, but i am so damn picky plus i am not driving so it would be too hard to meet anyone somewhere, and i am not going to meet anyone at riverside anymore. i would prefer to go with a girl friend and meet the guy at a bar or something. ahhh life is so difficult anymore!??! WHYEEEEE!!??!?

if i didnt have sasi i would just get out of this place. 

oh i got layed off...its ok tho.

i am hoping that next year will be the beginning of my good years. when things finally start looking up! damn this DUI really fucked me over. and why did i get it? oh because i was bored, and i went to fucking bethlehem!?? despite wanting to leave early, i ended up staying and that shit happened. and ever since i have been enslaved to this bullshit.

synchronicity and stuff

i applied for housing in august. i am on the list. this is not going to be permanent for me, (meaning i do not want to live there forever), but it gets me out of my parents house for a bit. last i heard, i am 21 on the list. it will probably be a few months till i am up. also, WEIRD SYNCH? i was playing grand theft auto, and the song, 'night moves' came on...anyways, right now, on family guy....they are in the diner, and the night moves song came on the jukebox...i dont know if this is a synchronicity, or,,,,something more? anyways, i forget what i was going to say!?? well, i wanted to mention how we stopped by carol and garys house after the wedding. they wanted my aunts to feed the dogs and sleep at their house. well, it is a huge beautiful house...and it felt kind of cool to unlock such a big house, but....it was cold. big mansions are always cold. it is the kind of house that smells like potpourri, and they have a sitting room and a dining room in which they never use!??! it appears that the only rooms they do really use are the kitchen and the living room...where the tv is. i was at the house before, but i like to snoop around, so i went upstairs. they have 4 bedrooms, and each bedroom was wallpapered with old fashioned furniture and those vintage bathing jugs...i like my aunt titas house. its like a lofty apartments. its nice! it has a foyer and a living room, kitchen and dining room, and a loft type room upstairs and two bedrooms. its really nice, but its smaller, and cozy! see, that i like. the really big house, with four bedrooms? and two display rooms...mehhhh....im not really a fan of big mansions. i like cozy houses. homes! i love lofts too, and farmhouses!

ok so, i forget what else i was going to say. oh well!???! oh yes i contacted the army, to see if i can go back into the military, (for the reserves) if i was not on probation i could...but i am on this fucking probation. i would go back in, but probably not...too old and it would feel weird to have to do basic again with a bunch of 18 year olds!??

the wedding

In the weeks approaching the wedding, internally I would be thinking, another family thing, lets get it over with, and indeed, I never thought much of it until the day...when it hit me, I have to wear a dress. I have to wear heels. UGH do I have too!??! so yeah, yesterday was my second cousin nicoles wedding. i didn't really put much effort into my outfit, my hair, my nails...i cannot afford to find a nice hairstyle in which it makes me feel confident and effortless. i do not like my hair. it is scraggly looking, it parts in the middle, its lank and lackluster, and this perm i still have now makes my hair look frizzy. i figured i would just straighten it. so i took a shower, and then i went to my room for a nice, relaxing ritual of putting on makeup. this is indeed 'me time', something i have not had in a while. i am so busy with work, 1030-7pm pretty much takes up my whole day!! last saturday was a busy day too. i had to work from 630 in the morning, and after that the rest of the day was full. so i put on this dress, not really my style but i do not know what my style of dress is. im not much of a dress wearer. nor do i wear heels. i like comfort. but i wore the basic dress, stockings, heels, cardigan. i put on the zen music channel and sat at my desk to do my makeup tho. that was nice. it is nice to get ready for somewhere, course i was just going to a family event. i straightened my hair but the top fell flat and boring. i just want nice hair!!! so we met up with my aunt sally, aunt joyce and april and we all drove to mahoning country club. it was pretty small. the ceremony was in the same place as the reception were to be. they got married in the same room as the wedding cake!?? it was originally supposed to be outside, but it was too cold and windy out. fold up chairs were squished in next to each other, while most sat at their tables during the ceremony. nicole is a real disney fan, so instead of the brides march song, it was beauty and the beast. oh, yes, when the little flower girls came out, then i felt a lump in my throat. it was so cute, and sweet. it just made me wonder if i will ever experience this stuff, getting married, having a family....my cousin kim and her husband keith came in, and kim acted as if everyone was exasperated by their lateness. 'we are here! i know we are late' i dont think anyone really knew what was going on? lisa and matt showed up too. i have my opinions about weddings, or where ppl get married. i did not really like where kim and keith got married, because it was too dark. no windows. this place was too small. but nicole looked happy. i do not think anyone really worries or cares where they get married, they just want to do it! she looked beautiful, she had a few bridesmaids. then we sat at our tables. lisa and kim sat next to each other, and lisa is always so fakey and voracious with her laughter, and she acts like they all grew up so close to each other, but what about me? im just the odd one out. that is how i feel sometimes. it is just the way lisa is, idk...shes fakey...i dont act that way...idk...plus i kind of feel like, everyone else has their time, their moments, (oh but it seemed as if they had no idea our 2nd cousin got married because it was all about lisas pregnancy and this and that)...i mean, and i feel like i am just me. nothing special. i have not accomplished anything. i have no bragging rights. april just finalized her divorce and she says she wants to do all these fun things. she wants to go to LA, and to the ACMs, all of that! she wanted to go to comic con but she ended up going back.

when, and if, i get married (if eef EEF CINDERELLA SISTERS), i want to get married in an old church, a chapel, with a steeple!! that is what i want! with birdseed to throw after we leave the church! and a view of the limo. i want it very traditional. i want a nice, fun reception, with a dj playing all the fun songs. but...who will my bridesmaids be!?? i do not know anyone who i can use as bridesmaids!??!? i do want to get married tho. i think i deserve it....

blahhh!!! what else? there was a photobooth and we had fun with that. we had soup, salad, and our dinners. they had a cocktail hour and open bar. matt kept getting beers. we danced a bit towards the end. they had a hot dog bar. it was nice.

sigh.

yes, i would like to get married.

oh yes nicole and steve are good together. they both like to travel. i am happy for them.

i need to meet someone i can travel with, and have adventures with. someone who will not only be my best friend, but my partner in crime!

i could of gotten married. am i ever going to meet someone that i fully connect with? i used to date guys i had a connection with. i only had like, a few real relationships, as i said.

it is so hard and annoying to meet someone anymore.


-danny (i should of married him!) he was a nice, respectful, intelligent, attractive military guy. he was a year older then I. i was 18 he was 19.

glenn...we have been through alot...idk i was with him for like, 4 years!?? it was pretty serious

um...jeremy...but it was not that serious but we were partners in crime

dennis

mike

thats it. so...idk...i do not think mike and i should be together tho. mike just does not have it. i cannot imagine living a life with him. it would be like moving backwards instead of forwards with him.

anyways....that is all!?? for now...

my life now, pretty much is consumed with working, and being confined here. i am beginning to feel like i am suffocating. i forget how it feels to feel alive, happy. free.

i have gotten so used to....feeling nuetral.

i need to get out of my parents house too. i love my room and appreciate it, but i need to grow and strive!

whale to

this helps make sense....so, sept 11th, fourteen years ago, i know that i played 'shuttlecock' (i had to look it up) the game that you play with a birdie. how do i know this? because this was the day the twin towers came down. on 9-11-01, i played shuttlecock, after work. the day there were no planes in the sky. do i remember what i did on sept 20? no, i do not.

this article explains how you get an almost photographic memory surrounding traumatic events. it also helps to explain satanic ritual abuse, sexual abuse, creating alter personas (still not sure how that one works!??)

cathy o brien

http://www.whale.to/b/brien2.html