Tuesday, April 30, 2013
more on the comedy movie tho, why does it have to have a point tho? real life doesnt have poignant turn of events or happy endings, or revolutionary ideas, real people dont always experience some life changing turn of events. heck, i'd like to make a movie about regular people. i kind of felt the los feliz/hollywood incense smelling vibe from seeing tim and his hipster LA like friends, or even hanging out in manhatten or wherever they were..new york bars. sometimes if a movie gives you a feeling, well, its a good thing! i want to make a film on just ...hanging out! conversation! to make you fel like you are there! i mean, i like that! im gonna get a video camera and film my life. i always wanted to do htat im reading the rotten tomatoes review for this movie. check it out!
Hey
So, i felt like i wanted to post but now im just too tired/lazy too. wanted to write about the weekend....but then why? cuz the dj put on 'me so horny' song..and said" there is nothing wrong with feeling 'horny' after i fucking blogged about it!?? you know? just weird.............sigh...that was friday...you know? i dont feel like blogging about it tho, cuz what if? what if ppls are reading this.? (i hung out w/ someone i like....dkinda?)
alright them mike got mad, saturday he took off to your welcome inn by himself i wanted to do something so adam and i went to tally hos but it was lame.
so heres the deal, why? why is my life like this? its not what i want!??
so i started work.
ok so...........i also want to write the script of the temperpedic mattress skit, but im too tired and i need a shower.
also want to write my review of the comedy, that tim heidecker movie..
ok i will
mike wanted to watch something on netflix, so i was looking. couldnt find anything. went to drama,. noticed the comedy. i was like, lets watch this. he fell asleep so i just watched it but i kept wondering about how many people got up and left during this really stupid boring movie.
why do i think its stupid and boring? because it was meant to be. but they did it to appeal to hipsters who 'like' tim and eric. and they would say the loved the movie, because they think it was brilliantly ironic...or something. it was dumb, no plot, and if there was, who cares. it didnt keep my attention, although i did think about it a few times when i was at work (in fact, the thought of tim and eric being erased from my mind made me think when i was at work, i wonder what they are going to do now, that they are erased from my mind?) and thats when i saw the movie on netflix, and they were brought back to my mind..?
so like...the only tim and eric-esque thing was in the cab...(maybe i will link it on youtube)....and the church thing...but it was just stupid!!?
now im going to search online for reviews, but im going to avoid adultswim.com because im nervous...and tired.
alright them mike got mad, saturday he took off to your welcome inn by himself i wanted to do something so adam and i went to tally hos but it was lame.
so heres the deal, why? why is my life like this? its not what i want!??
so i started work.
ok so...........i also want to write the script of the temperpedic mattress skit, but im too tired and i need a shower.
also want to write my review of the comedy, that tim heidecker movie..
ok i will
mike wanted to watch something on netflix, so i was looking. couldnt find anything. went to drama,. noticed the comedy. i was like, lets watch this. he fell asleep so i just watched it but i kept wondering about how many people got up and left during this really stupid boring movie.
why do i think its stupid and boring? because it was meant to be. but they did it to appeal to hipsters who 'like' tim and eric. and they would say the loved the movie, because they think it was brilliantly ironic...or something. it was dumb, no plot, and if there was, who cares. it didnt keep my attention, although i did think about it a few times when i was at work (in fact, the thought of tim and eric being erased from my mind made me think when i was at work, i wonder what they are going to do now, that they are erased from my mind?) and thats when i saw the movie on netflix, and they were brought back to my mind..?
so like...the only tim and eric-esque thing was in the cab...(maybe i will link it on youtube)....and the church thing...but it was just stupid!!?
now im going to search online for reviews, but im going to avoid adultswim.com because im nervous...and tired.
Sunday, April 28, 2013
weird synch.
ok so...i always get these weird syncs while watching family guy and american dad...so...i was reading this article, (i closed it or i;d link it) it was about a sheep that had a human face. some people really think a human was responsible for that! and i know people treat me like im stupid cuz im a 'conspiracy theorist' but i am not dumb enough to believe a human fathered a deformed lamb..
so.......anyways, american dad....he had to take this guy to the CIA to get his memory erased...(weird huh?), so......they dressed up as dogs and ran into the SPCA...anyways long story short...the lady was like, 'I DONT KNOW WHAT THEY ARE" ((half dog/half man)) made me think of what i just read..
"CIA brain scrambling device"...wow
ok so...i always get these weird syncs while watching family guy and american dad...so...i was reading this article, (i closed it or i;d link it) it was about a sheep that had a human face. some people really think a human was responsible for that! and i know people treat me like im stupid cuz im a 'conspiracy theorist' but i am not dumb enough to believe a human fathered a deformed lamb..
so.......anyways, american dad....he had to take this guy to the CIA to get his memory erased...(weird huh?), so......they dressed up as dogs and ran into the SPCA...anyways long story short...the lady was like, 'I DONT KNOW WHAT THEY ARE" ((half dog/half man)) made me think of what i just read..
"CIA brain scrambling device"...wow
megan fox story
i clicked on 'megan fox has brown eyes?' story (cuz i saw someone visited that page on my blog)...i dont think she does tho. i think she really has blue eyes, come to think of it. so i found this story online...whilst googling what color are megan fox's eyes? so...this makes me ponder...she had a normal life? really? she had some kind of boyfriend? really? or was she busy getting programmed, like tiger woods has been since a tiny babe...(still feeling the affects of drinking sorry. oh yeah sorry for posting too :( ) um.......
but yeah, megan fox? so she was destined to be a star? when she was ritually abused to have mannequin alters (pics on the web)...like...smh SHAKING MY HEAD!!! well, shes not really a star now. shes not cast in movies anymore. she has had too much plastic surgery!?? and shes a brian austin green pregnant wife, who was spotted years ago, eating at LUCIFERS in los feliz, whilst wearing a baphomet shirt!?? ugh...hollywood!??
im not being mean or jealous, or insincere...but thoughts arose as i read what an ex boyfriend wrote.
really, ex-boyfriend? she didnt ever show signs of being a multiple...personality person?
anyways, here is what i read: ((oh yeah, 'naughty' megan had you stack cookie boxes? say whhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat????))) -i felt like 'stewie' from family guy. i wonder if family guy creator seth mcfarland/macfarlane whatever...knows about megans alters?? he seems to know about mila kunis's russian spy/prostitute alter (from that episode...uh...leggo my meggo...)
Megan loved looking at women’s bodies.
“She just had no inhibitions and made no bones about the fact she liked to fantasise about being with a woman.
“There were many times she would look at magazines for hours pointing out which actresses she thought were hot. Angelina Jolie was high up on her list.
“She would say: ‘Look at her body Ben it’s gorgeous don’t you think?’
“She just loved women who were not conventionally pretty and looked like they were into anything. Because that’s what Megan was like…
“So I am not in the slightest bit shocked one of the first people she slept with after I had ended our relationship was a woman.”…
While most girls are into make-up and shoes, Megan was just a total rebel who loved to hang out with the boys and luckily her favourite boy was me.
“Megan and I spent every minute together and she loved doing anything and everything with me. We used to go fishing and surfing, total boys things which Megan loved.
“But while she was a total tomboy Megan also knew how to drive me wild to using her female charms. She would just have to look at me with those huge eyes and tell me she loved me and my heart would just leap…
And as the pair grew older Ben tells how he got to see more and more of Megan’s body when she would creep out late at night to be with the boy she loved.
Ben told the News Of The World: “Megan started to really rebel against her parents who were very strict.
“She would have these huge arguments, then call me to say she had run away. And then when she was feeling really naughty on a few occasions she told me to come to the house late at night.
“And while her parents were sleeping she would order me to stack cookie boxes up to her window so she could climb down from her bedroom window and spend a few hours with me.
“We had some amazing nights laying under the stars. She would giggle and shriek with laughter knowing that while her parents were in bed she was outside doing all sorts with me.
“Which was totally up Megan’s street because she loved doing anything which was naughty.
“I was Megan’s first love and she was mine so those times were extra special as we were doing things together we had never done before.”
[From News of The World via Gossip Rocks]
But of course it was not to be. Megan moved to Hollywood and started on her path to stardom, while Ben was content to stay in Florida, fish and work as a firefighter. She eventually cheated on him with 7th Heaven star David Gallagher:
but yeah, megan fox? so she was destined to be a star? when she was ritually abused to have mannequin alters (pics on the web)...like...smh SHAKING MY HEAD!!! well, shes not really a star now. shes not cast in movies anymore. she has had too much plastic surgery!?? and shes a brian austin green pregnant wife, who was spotted years ago, eating at LUCIFERS in los feliz, whilst wearing a baphomet shirt!?? ugh...hollywood!??
im not being mean or jealous, or insincere...but thoughts arose as i read what an ex boyfriend wrote.
really, ex-boyfriend? she didnt ever show signs of being a multiple...personality person?
anyways, here is what i read: ((oh yeah, 'naughty' megan had you stack cookie boxes? say whhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat????))) -i felt like 'stewie' from family guy. i wonder if family guy creator seth mcfarland/macfarlane whatever...knows about megans alters?? he seems to know about mila kunis's russian spy/prostitute alter (from that episode...uh...leggo my meggo...)
Megan loved looking at women’s bodies.
“She just had no inhibitions and made no bones about the fact she liked to fantasise about being with a woman.
“There were many times she would look at magazines for hours pointing out which actresses she thought were hot. Angelina Jolie was high up on her list.
“She would say: ‘Look at her body Ben it’s gorgeous don’t you think?’
“She just loved women who were not conventionally pretty and looked like they were into anything. Because that’s what Megan was like…
“So I am not in the slightest bit shocked one of the first people she slept with after I had ended our relationship was a woman.”…
While most girls are into make-up and shoes, Megan was just a total rebel who loved to hang out with the boys and luckily her favourite boy was me.
“Megan and I spent every minute together and she loved doing anything and everything with me. We used to go fishing and surfing, total boys things which Megan loved.
“But while she was a total tomboy Megan also knew how to drive me wild to using her female charms. She would just have to look at me with those huge eyes and tell me she loved me and my heart would just leap…
And as the pair grew older Ben tells how he got to see more and more of Megan’s body when she would creep out late at night to be with the boy she loved.
Ben told the News Of The World: “Megan started to really rebel against her parents who were very strict.
“She would have these huge arguments, then call me to say she had run away. And then when she was feeling really naughty on a few occasions she told me to come to the house late at night.
“And while her parents were sleeping she would order me to stack cookie boxes up to her window so she could climb down from her bedroom window and spend a few hours with me.
“We had some amazing nights laying under the stars. She would giggle and shriek with laughter knowing that while her parents were in bed she was outside doing all sorts with me.
“Which was totally up Megan’s street because she loved doing anything which was naughty.
“I was Megan’s first love and she was mine so those times were extra special as we were doing things together we had never done before.”
[From News of The World via Gossip Rocks]
But of course it was not to be. Megan moved to Hollywood and started on her path to stardom, while Ben was content to stay in Florida, fish and work as a firefighter. She eventually cheated on him with 7th Heaven star David Gallagher:
And not long after Megan had landed her first small part alongside LINDSAY LOHAN in Confessions of a Teenage drama Queen Ben knew their days as a couple were numbered.
He said: “I always knew Megan was going to be a big star. She just had this aura around her and this incredible sexy irresistible quality which I knew would make her famous…
“So suddenly Megan’s new world began to sound like it was on a different planet to me and I knew I would not fit in and never wanted to anyway.
“As the weeks went by Megan seemed to be becoming more and more obsessed with all that Hollywood had to offer and I could sense she was drifting away from me.”
But the final straw for Ben came when he discovered Megan had started to spend more time with US soap actor David Gallagher.
“All of a sudden all Megan talked about was David this, David that,” says Ben…
“Megan was hard to control when she lived near by, but thousands of miles away amongst all these rich actors I did not stand a chance.
“And so I called her and told her I thought it was best we went our separate ways. Megan begged me not to end it but even she must have known deep down we were never going to last.
“Our worlds had gone in such totally different directions.
“We both cried but still today I know I made the right decision.
“As a firefighter I would never have been able to afford to live in Los Angeles and I am sure as hell not the kind of man who would ever have been content to live off her money. I have way too much pride for that.
“So now I just am content to keep on fishing and make do with seeing Megan on the big screen. And at the end of the day I am just so proud of all she has achieved.”
Saturday, April 27, 2013
facebook post
i'd like to post this on facebook (i wouldn't tho)...
slicing your wrist transdermally kind of feels like getting a tattoo
anyways, mike is mad at me. he shouldn;t be tho.
i have told him time and time again...
every weekend its the same thing. i want to hang out with him, i try to hang out with him...he just can't.
he never wants to go out. i mean, no, going out isn't an important priority, but i do like going out and stuff.
i mean, whats wrong? and i also want to feel attraction towards someone. its nice to go out get a few drinks, relax, whatever i dont know?
i wanted to go out with him last night but he did not want too. he never wants too.
so of course, naturally he is out tonight...and didn't want me to go.
why do i want to live with him if we have nothing anymore. he doesnt want to go out, i do (on a friday night), i mean, i wore one of my new outfits last night , (still need more loose fitting shirts tho)...it wasn't an outfit i felt completely comfortable in; shiny black leggings, long pink floyd tank from h&m, sheer purple flannel, sweator, and i tried to do my makeup...mike and i went to ruby tuesday for dinner i was hoping that he would want to go out, because i am sick of just doing nothing. sitting in the basement. him on the couch. him falling asleep and snoring.
im sick of it!?? i want to do fun things! i want to be out and about, i want to laugh, joke and talk. i am good at it. mike never wants too. he never wants to really talk, and i have said this to him numerous times. i told him, 'mike then dont get mad if i want to go out with other guys' i mean, whats wrong with that? its not cheating, i have told him this. i don't feel like he really cares about me, or he takes me for granted. brb
slicing your wrist transdermally kind of feels like getting a tattoo
anyways, mike is mad at me. he shouldn;t be tho.
i have told him time and time again...
every weekend its the same thing. i want to hang out with him, i try to hang out with him...he just can't.
he never wants to go out. i mean, no, going out isn't an important priority, but i do like going out and stuff.
i mean, whats wrong? and i also want to feel attraction towards someone. its nice to go out get a few drinks, relax, whatever i dont know?
i wanted to go out with him last night but he did not want too. he never wants too.
so of course, naturally he is out tonight...and didn't want me to go.
why do i want to live with him if we have nothing anymore. he doesnt want to go out, i do (on a friday night), i mean, i wore one of my new outfits last night , (still need more loose fitting shirts tho)...it wasn't an outfit i felt completely comfortable in; shiny black leggings, long pink floyd tank from h&m, sheer purple flannel, sweator, and i tried to do my makeup...mike and i went to ruby tuesday for dinner i was hoping that he would want to go out, because i am sick of just doing nothing. sitting in the basement. him on the couch. him falling asleep and snoring.
im sick of it!?? i want to do fun things! i want to be out and about, i want to laugh, joke and talk. i am good at it. mike never wants too. he never wants to really talk, and i have said this to him numerous times. i told him, 'mike then dont get mad if i want to go out with other guys' i mean, whats wrong with that? its not cheating, i have told him this. i don't feel like he really cares about me, or he takes me for granted. brb
im so sick of my life. i just sliced up my wrist with a razor. it didnt hurt but then it stung but i am so overcome by loss of emotion it doesnt even matter. now i have these razor cuts on my wrist what am i going to do now? put a bandaid over it? i fucking hate it here. i hate my life here. now i got this job which means im stuck. i cant leave now. i hate mike. i am stuck tho! im stuck. he ruined my life! he never wants to do anything. so why does he care if i want to do stuff. i dont want to sit around the house. its a beautiful day out and im stuck here. im stuck. he took off because i went out last night and came home late. so what? he doesnt ever want to go out, well, i like too. i had fun last night who cares? what does it matter? and he just left me here today. i dont need to be here. im in no condition to try to leave tho. its like i cant, because i just want to wait for him to come back. i wanted to get alchohol and a razor and wait for him. i would really like to go out and enjoy myself. theres a party later at riverside, but im in no condition. im in no condition to even try and be a person anymore. what does it matter? what does anything matter? nothing does. i am just this shell...i am emotionless, i feel nothing, (except confusion and..........amusement.) why am i amused? why the fuck am i so amused!????
Friday, April 26, 2013
job
so, i got the job. great. woo. woo hoo.
:/
i was hoping to go to LA, but i guess thats just the way things work.
i guess mike wins.!? he wants me to be like him. he mocks me as a person. he doesn't understand me.
i tell him all the time, 'you don't even know who i was before i met you'
he doesn't. he thinks of me as someone who can help him with rent. ugh im sick. i dont feel like blogging, although i thought i did?
mike got me sick. he was sick so i made him chicken noodle soup, now im sick? what the fuck? and its nice out!!! i dont know? i was trying to find something nice and comfy to wear but i cant. i feel kind of out of it tho...
:/
i was hoping to go to LA, but i guess thats just the way things work.
i guess mike wins.!? he wants me to be like him. he mocks me as a person. he doesn't understand me.
i tell him all the time, 'you don't even know who i was before i met you'
he doesn't. he thinks of me as someone who can help him with rent. ugh im sick. i dont feel like blogging, although i thought i did?
mike got me sick. he was sick so i made him chicken noodle soup, now im sick? what the fuck? and its nice out!!! i dont know? i was trying to find something nice and comfy to wear but i cant. i feel kind of out of it tho...
Thursday, April 25, 2013
i so tired!!
i need a nap! so, i knew i had an interview this morning at 10, but i was worried that i wouldn't be able to sleep. i was up chatting with kim, and she stays up late even tho she gets up around 7am to get the boys ready for school then she goes to work herself. so, around 210 am i decided to attempt to try to sleep. now, usually, i fall asleep within an hour and a half after i lay down...sometime mike snores sometimes hes quiet. marble also likes to lay down right next to my face too. well, last night mike was quiet and marble was laying next to me. my mind was still active. i couldn't sleep!!!??? i move around and shift alot, and thats what i was doing..shifting and moving. i tried to sleep, but i just could not!?!? i got up to use the bathroom and saw that it was 430. this made me feel restless. i got back into bed but couldn't fall asleep. i was thinking mikes alarm would go off anytime. so i got up and went to sleep on the couch in the living room. the wind was moving the window and being loud. 430 turned to 530, to 630...till mikes alarm went off. forget it, i thought. im not going to get any sleep!?! i set my alarm for 830 am...to give myself enough time to get ready and half hour to drive there, (well, i left 45 minutes)...so yeah...i just stayed awake. i watched some music videos since thats the only time mtv plays videos anymore..then i made egg white scrambled eggs with salsa, and rye toast with coconut oil and orange tea.
ok so.....i need a nap! lets see. ca lee forrr nee yah. california...california!!! i really want to go, i do!!! i love it out there, and i am bored and i want weird stuff to happen. im in need of more weird stuff to happen...
moss even told me about the billboard awards. i'd love to go!!! and i want to like, investigate!
mike doesn't understand this need. he wants me to get a job, (at a deli or making crayons, like moss says, something im not happy doing)....and just live the boring life, i guess...well, a life where i work and don't do anything. moss doesn't understand, before i met him, i still felt young. i still felt capable of things, i travelled when i felt like it. i had an adventurous spirit. i tell mike all the time, i no longer feel alive. i feel dulled. i'm not happy.
heres the thing, if i get hired, i will work. i will save up money. i will join gym, lose weight etc...save money. oh i dont know!? i wanted moss to find the card to that guy so i can at least email him and see what he has to say, but he doesn't even bother looking for the card. he doesn't think he should if i don't go out there. well, if say, i email him, and ask him about writing and what not...who knows?
i dont want to give up my dream tho. i need a damn nap!
ok so.....i need a nap! lets see. ca lee forrr nee yah. california...california!!! i really want to go, i do!!! i love it out there, and i am bored and i want weird stuff to happen. im in need of more weird stuff to happen...
moss even told me about the billboard awards. i'd love to go!!! and i want to like, investigate!
mike doesn't understand this need. he wants me to get a job, (at a deli or making crayons, like moss says, something im not happy doing)....and just live the boring life, i guess...well, a life where i work and don't do anything. moss doesn't understand, before i met him, i still felt young. i still felt capable of things, i travelled when i felt like it. i had an adventurous spirit. i tell mike all the time, i no longer feel alive. i feel dulled. i'm not happy.
heres the thing, if i get hired, i will work. i will save up money. i will join gym, lose weight etc...save money. oh i dont know!? i wanted moss to find the card to that guy so i can at least email him and see what he has to say, but he doesn't even bother looking for the card. he doesn't think he should if i don't go out there. well, if say, i email him, and ask him about writing and what not...who knows?
i dont want to give up my dream tho. i need a damn nap!
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
HEY
i dont know what to do? oh decisions. ok, so of course i want to go to LA! i just want a change, from the ordane (mundane sorry) mike is boring. im bored. i need something new....i need to be around new people, i dont know!?? I DONT KNOW!??! but i also need a job! i want to have money! and not what little i get from unemployment, you know? i want clothes, gym membership, more tattoos! hell yeah, i intend to go back to LA...but ok, the pen foam place called me for an interview tomorrow. so, im gonna go to that, just sucks cuz what if they want me to start asap (or...they never contact me back BUT they wait to let me know, then i miss the window of cheaper plane tickets, since i have to buy my round trip ticket!? which i dont really have money for...)
i need to ask them how much pay is, and if i can start mid june...(cross fingers)......then, that would be awesome!!!!
ok, now to move on...clothing...
today, oh...i woke up kind of late...(yeah i did! 1230pm damn), so i didnt have breakfast..i did have that homemade chicken noodle soup i made ( i made it yesterday because mike had a sore throat)...also some orange juice. i then did the 3rd slim in 6 workout, which was an hour, and that was tough! im not coordinated enough for some moves..so it gets rather tough to do, but i did it. what i really would like to focus on it melting the fat off. i like keeping my heart rate up..whatever thats called..calistenics..?? aerobics (no one calls it that anymore), cardio duh!...but i do!!! so yeah, also want to do more abs stuff...i have potential to have nice toned abs, the definition is there, i just have fat and i want to lose that fat!!!
ok, clothes i want to get:
loose, flowy vests
oversized shirts, loose shirts, long shirts
loose pants, loose capris, boyfriend cut jeans/dickies brands
hip hop brands tracksuits/juicy tracksuits (comfy!)
hats
rings
tattoos
workout clothes
black boots
fringe purse
muscle tees
loose, canvas pants, shorts
denim cut-off (knee-length)
army pants
army shirts
i need to ask them how much pay is, and if i can start mid june...(cross fingers)......then, that would be awesome!!!!
ok, now to move on...clothing...
today, oh...i woke up kind of late...(yeah i did! 1230pm damn), so i didnt have breakfast..i did have that homemade chicken noodle soup i made ( i made it yesterday because mike had a sore throat)...also some orange juice. i then did the 3rd slim in 6 workout, which was an hour, and that was tough! im not coordinated enough for some moves..so it gets rather tough to do, but i did it. what i really would like to focus on it melting the fat off. i like keeping my heart rate up..whatever thats called..calistenics..?? aerobics (no one calls it that anymore), cardio duh!...but i do!!! so yeah, also want to do more abs stuff...i have potential to have nice toned abs, the definition is there, i just have fat and i want to lose that fat!!!
ok, clothes i want to get:
loose, flowy vests
oversized shirts, loose shirts, long shirts
loose pants, loose capris, boyfriend cut jeans/dickies brands
hip hop brands tracksuits/juicy tracksuits (comfy!)
hats
rings
tattoos
workout clothes
black boots
fringe purse
muscle tees
loose, canvas pants, shorts
denim cut-off (knee-length)
army pants
army shirts
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
today
so..i am trying to figure out what to do with my life. i just want to be happy,i want a job...i want to feel fulfilled. anyways..la dee da boring repetitive stuff. it's just that, when i attempt to fall asleep, (only to be awoken by loud sleep apnea snores...), i lay there thinking, 'what am i doing with my life?" i mean, i need to figure things out. i can't stand this! in fact, i don't even feel like continuing this blog post. i don't have a gameplan. i just don't. i have been in limbo for so long. i have no gameplan!? i don't have any kids, but i know i want to have kids, but i feel like i am getting older. plus mike tells me he doesn't want kids. i want to get married. why? why not? why don't i deserve that? why can't i get a good, fulfilling job? oh whatever. so i am sort of on the cusp about going out to LA...i would of course, because i feel like anything is possible, but of course reality sets in and it would be me helping moss with his reel, but then what? he said he would pay me to help him, i dont know? but then what? i just hang around his place all day, well, i would be helping him..but what happens when i get bored and want to enjoy my summer? what am i going to do? moss brought up the hangover 3 premiere may 20th, but..what does that even entail? i cant possibly catch a glimpse or perhaps a picture, and its not even definate we can get in...i mean..ugh i just want to meet a new, fun guy i am attracted too, and can have FUN with...mike and i don't have fun because during the week he works, and i cook dinner, we have been watching episodes of the walking dead...and he goes to bed and i stay up...weekend comes along, i want to go out or something, even hang out and watch youtube or movies and chat, but he gets tired, and we don't even communicate. its just boring!?? i want to have fun...and i feel guilty if i try to hang out with someone else, even tho im not planning on doing anything i just want to take a ride on a motorcycle or something? or...i hope it starts getting nice out i mean, come on! its still chilly out! sigh.....i just want to be happy!! and work, and have money. im sick of this!
oh yeah, so...what fun things am i going to do in LA? i keep thinking im going to find answers, but i wont. i never do. just more weird things. more strange things. maybe not even. its going to be me following moss around. there will be no guy to hang out with, that i am attracted too. (what im horny!?? ha just joking..kind of :/ i hate that word, horny..ugh...whats another word that isnt so...stupid sounding...thats like a ron jeremy type of word...you know, porn stars from the 70s feeling horny...or randy, like um...austin powers...or frisky? ill all those words suck!! all the words sound gross, naughty i hate that word too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
yuck! but anyways...i am searching for answers, that i doubt i will ever find out. like i said, if i go to la, what will happen? i will spend money if i get bored and go out and buy drinks for myself? or what??? i want to go with ron to the conan thing, but come on...he doesn't even know when? and the conan people don't want some weirdo like me accompanying ron and hanging around. i won't find anything out if (which i highly doubt) that happens...they forgot about me anyways. they dont care..so what would happen if i go? i get a picture. i will look cool to the fanclub.
ahhh whatever!??!? :D still sounds more fun then being here and bored, wondering!??!
or...wellian
this blog sucks!???!!
HELP WHAT SHOULD I DO?
oh yeah, so...what fun things am i going to do in LA? i keep thinking im going to find answers, but i wont. i never do. just more weird things. more strange things. maybe not even. its going to be me following moss around. there will be no guy to hang out with, that i am attracted too. (what im horny!?? ha just joking..kind of :/ i hate that word, horny..ugh...whats another word that isnt so...stupid sounding...thats like a ron jeremy type of word...you know, porn stars from the 70s feeling horny...or randy, like um...austin powers...or frisky? ill all those words suck!! all the words sound gross, naughty i hate that word too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
yuck! but anyways...i am searching for answers, that i doubt i will ever find out. like i said, if i go to la, what will happen? i will spend money if i get bored and go out and buy drinks for myself? or what??? i want to go with ron to the conan thing, but come on...he doesn't even know when? and the conan people don't want some weirdo like me accompanying ron and hanging around. i won't find anything out if (which i highly doubt) that happens...they forgot about me anyways. they dont care..so what would happen if i go? i get a picture. i will look cool to the fanclub.
ahhh whatever!??!? :D still sounds more fun then being here and bored, wondering!??!
or...wellian
this blog sucks!???!!
HELP WHAT SHOULD I DO?
Friday, April 19, 2013
boston mess
i dont understand how stupid kim can be? she keeps sharing links about the pictures taken at boston!??! (i dont think i shared them here but what does it even matter?) anyways, the pictures showed men holding backpacks, which were later seen exploded!??! also, there was a drill going on that day. a drill for a bomb!? WTH!??! i'll get proof, im just really quickly typing...real quick, cuz i want to take a shower and get my hair cut, or something!?!?!? anyways...oh heres some links:
first of all, martin and martial...
one of the poor kids that was killed, RIP, 8 year old Martin Richard. the pic shown everywhere, of him with the peace sign, well, that was taken at his classroom, for an honoring of Trayvon Martin, in which it said 'peace'....
first of all, martin and martial...
one of the poor kids that was killed, RIP, 8 year old Martin Richard. the pic shown everywhere, of him with the peace sign, well, that was taken at his classroom, for an honoring of Trayvon Martin, in which it said 'peace'....
oh yeah
i forgot about that pic i said im single then i saw the all seeing eye...cant find the pic that shows martin lawrence was at trayvon martins memorial or something, but underneath it said PEACE. i looked up the word MARTIN and it means warrior/war MARIAL
so MARTIAL LAW!??
out of PEACE comes CHAOS out of CHAOS comes ORDER
NEW WORLd ORDER, get it? SEE? PEACE!?!?
i cant find the pic but you've seen it. martin richard and the message of PEACE
so, boston is now on lockdown..martial law!??!
here are links
oh and the reason why i said kim is stupid because she keeps sharing links about the victims. werent the victims two different people the other day, now they are russian? its just a big mess!??! this is a drill alright...to slowly take away our rights. maybe giulilano, (who lives in boston) will start to come through. he wont. and moss, making comments about some idiot who shot a stripper, then himself. so they can take away gun rights? slowly but surely...i just dont understand how people dont even..question this governed society we live in.!??!
Thursday, April 18, 2013
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
WATCH
OK SO ppl are like, oh the family guy is a 'mash-up' of two seperate family guys it doesnt matter. in the turban cowboy episode, it showed the BOSTON bridge...and it still showed blood on the streets of the boston marathon. and peter was asked how he won it. oh by running the marathon runners over. the spliced one was thrown in and that is the one seth says is abhorrent. this is not a new thing. predictive programming has been happenening for years.
anyways, watch this its good
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4GaplTm8kzI
anyways, watch this its good
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4GaplTm8kzI
debunk snopes!
oh shut up snopes! just...shut up! an image of illuminati pyramid heads doing the thumbs up sign while murdering a mickey mouse on top of a molech owl could be taken, but snopes will be there to counter-react to it. maybe the folks at snopes helped with this, since they know so much about debunking! how about we debunk snopes?
http://www.snopes.com/politics/conspiracy/boston.asp#facebook
http://www.snopes.com/politics/conspiracy/boston.asp#facebook
weird comments
i got this comment:
holy shit, I just realized in your pic, the clouds above the trees has a face and is wearing a crown. GOOD JOB!
you mean, in the palm trees?
and this one:
subliminal message is as follows: Mark the spot and stay static for the sky to turn yellow and then blue but talk to the cat in meows because that's all it understands. Hit F5 more often to see the dark light shine in the movie theater popcorn that tastes like roasted duck giblets. Your time is up where you stand, but time is a relative matter, like a cousin you could have kissed once. Goodbye Miss Brown. See you in the future.
weird? and i never kissed a cousin!? idk strange lol
holy shit, I just realized in your pic, the clouds above the trees has a face and is wearing a crown. GOOD JOB!
you mean, in the palm trees?
and this one:
subliminal message is as follows: Mark the spot and stay static for the sky to turn yellow and then blue but talk to the cat in meows because that's all it understands. Hit F5 more often to see the dark light shine in the movie theater popcorn that tastes like roasted duck giblets. Your time is up where you stand, but time is a relative matter, like a cousin you could have kissed once. Goodbye Miss Brown. See you in the future.
weird? and i never kissed a cousin!? idk strange lol
boston bombs another false flag
as i was driving to my parents house yesterday, (i had taken a shower at mikes house and we watched episode 3 of the walking dead...speaking of zombies...continue reading), well i was listening to a good song and then i heard on the radio, they announced a bomb which went off in boston. it didn't sound real, it sounded like it was fake news or something, (since it was on the radio you know?) so i come home and see it on the news and i see a post made by giuliano "the conspiracy theorists are gonna go amuk with this now tin foil hats' or something of that nature...the first thing i thought when i heard this, was, this is tragic. sad. a marathon is supposed to be something peaceful. i didn't even think 'false flag' or anything like that, but of course....i see it just began. lets start with this:
Also if anyone has knowledge of explosives (I happen to since I worked with Hydrogen for so long) you know the difference between a Hollywood explosion and a real world one. Hollywood explosions are designed to LOOK like they are powerful, when realworld explosions DO NOT. For example: Hollywood you will see a fireball and smoke. REAL WORLD you do not. The force of a real world explosion is PERCUSSIVE meaning the explosion moves so rapidly that fire does not have a chance to burn anything an if there was fire would be blown out by the shock wave.
Now depending on the type of explosive used there are different characteristics to look for. With a Fertilizer bomb you have TWO explosions. First is the detonator that is designed to atomize the fuel particles as the fuel, as it spreads then the second is times to ignite that cloud. THOSE TYPE OF BOMBS are very weak, but will produce a fire ball. In hollywood they will use propane to create the fire ball. But a Fert bomb is very difficult to pull off and takes a high level of skill to accomplish.
A hydrogen bomb is a sharp crack sound (a high pitch like snap like sound) ANY hydrogen oxygen ignition is SOOOOO percussive that even the smallest one has potential to take your ear drums out or cause permanent damage. With a Hydrogen Oxy bomb you get NO flame because it burns in the infrared spectrum and is invisible to you. YOU WILL SEE A SHOCK WAVE that is very fast (on the par of 40,000ft/sec A massive force to be dealt with but fortunately the blast will tend to go upward and not along the ground.
A TNT explosive is a loud thunder sound with low ground shaking vibrations. A good size destructive force with telltale signs of detonation and particular smell. Gunpowder not as good unless you detonate it in a container.
BUT my point being that is you see fire and smoke coming out of the explosion (which we do in this case) you can rest assured that it is a Hollywood FX team behind it. AND the use of green screen protects the actors from having their ears damaged. IF THIS WERE REAL YOU WOULD HAVE MANY PEOPLE with permanent hearing loss if not completely deaf.
Those who educate themselves, and practice critical thinking will always prevail in any of these BS made for TV events.
now this:
"BOSTON BOMBINGS: Hmm...another April massacre. It might be interesting to note that the Oklahoma City bombing occurred this week, the Columbine massacre occurred this week, the Waco tragedy occurred this week, the VA Tech massacre occurred this week. COINCIDENCE?? I think not. The list goes on....The American Revolution began this week, so did the American Civil War, and the Bosnian War. Still think this is coincidence?
Add the Rwandan Genocide and the Armenian Genocide to the list. Also, Abraham Lincoln was shot this week. This is just the beginning of the list. Still think this is all crazed conspiracy theory?? Well, before you come to any conclusions, you may want to check out the satanic ritual calendar. The month of April is full of satanic high holy days. This is not mere chance folks. This is not a coincidence. There are very dark powers at work here."
ok so like i said, i did not immediately think, 'whats the MK group gonna say about this' in fact, i didnt want to think that. i just thought how horrible. but then the pictures start to post about...along with dozens of predictive programming. a family guy (edited or not it still mentioned boston marathon with a tragedy) pops up...in fact, if you really want to think about it, adult swim did a boston scare a while back with the athf thing, remember? i think it happened in 2007, when i started to research all this...i dont know what that means? does it even matter? yes. yes and yes. it does matter. it all matters!???
the truth matters. thats all we as humans should know the truth. most people stray from the truth.
here are some links and images in regards to this being a false flag
http://www.engadget.com/2007/01/31/aqua-teen-hunger-force-viral-ads-cause-boston-bomb-scare/
so how did boston get arms over disarmed arms about a lite brite/bomb when NO ONE noticed any funny business due to the bomb that went off yesterday? hmm? youd think security would be UPPED especially after a bomb scare of past ghosts...im sorry...but lets be real here. security camera everywhere? people getting ready for this 26 mile marathon (26 for the number of the sandy hook victims, the last mile was dedicated to them...) makes you wonder...
heres vigilants link http://vigilantcitizen.com/latestnews/boston-marathon-runner-reported-bomb-sniffing-dogs-spotters-on-roofs-heightened-security-video/
they want us to question this. they want to stage it to look like a movie. they know what they are doing. and we are getting sick of it!
here's a few other links to check out
https://maps.google.com/maps?hl=en&gbv=2&q=666+boylston+ave+boston&ie=UTF-8&ei=89htUYP8OILcyQGx6IC4Dw&ved=0CAgQ_AUoAg
^^^ 666 ^^^ 666? reallly? satanists? how much more blatant can you be? oh btw, here is the satanic calender, and this week is upcoming festivities for those satanic satanists
(im really not trying to make jokes im just befuddled by all this befuddlement...oh GOSH i cant stop...erghh)
http://www.theforbiddenknowledge.com/hardtruth/satanic_calendar.htm
19 - 25 Sacrifice preparation: kidnapping, holding and ceremonial preparation of person for human sacrifice.
25 The Da Muer ritual: Grand climax. Sex rituals and sacrifice of a woman or young girl.
30 Walpurgis night/Beltane: One of the most important nights on the satanic calendar. Blood rituals and human sacrifice take place.
im not sure how that really goes hand in uh...hand with the marathon tho? im not really too attuned into numerology and what not...sorry
im sure we all saw the family guy clip. well, he released a twitter statement in regards to it. abhorrent is the word used. it's called predictive programming.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H5U5LiHnutw
wait a minute, notice how seth macfarland addresses THAT edited clip in the article, (or the article does, rather) but thats not the one we all saw?? hmm...
this is the one we saw:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=tGBdBs5LVaY
and there is a petition going around:
https://www.change.org/petitions/demand-that-seth-macfarlane-make-a-public-accounting-for-his-foreknowledge-of-the-boston-bombing
so he did make a public account see?
http://insidetv.ew.com/2013/04/16/family-guy-boston-marathon-bombing-clip-internet-hoax/
in the meantime, his ex-girlfriend amanda bynes is twerking out
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/04/16/amanda-bynes-video-is-the-strangest_n_3091140.html#slide=more250437
i really feel bad for her :(
lost in oz
finally this (and a woman was heard shouting out warnings to people signing up for race "if you run in the boston marathon you will be killed)
Local story censored from national feed
University of Mobile's Cross Country Coach, who was near the finish
line of the Boston Marathon when a series of explosions went off, said
he thought it was odd there were bomb sniffing dogs at the start and
finish lines.
"They kept making announcements to the participants do not worry, it's just a training exercise," Coach Ali Stevenson told Local 15.
(Shades of 9/11 when workers in the South Tower were told to go back into their offices. That the fire was under control.)
Stevenson said he saw law enforcement spotters on the roofs at the start of the race. He's been in plenty of marathons in Chicago, D.C., Chicago, London and other major metropolitan areas but has never seen that level of security before.
"Evidently, I don't believe they were just having a training exercise," Stevenson said. "I think they must have had some sort of threat or suspicion called in."
ALL CREDITS TO: LOCAL 15
Also if anyone has knowledge of explosives (I happen to since I worked with Hydrogen for so long) you know the difference between a Hollywood explosion and a real world one. Hollywood explosions are designed to LOOK like they are powerful, when realworld explosions DO NOT. For example: Hollywood you will see a fireball and smoke. REAL WORLD you do not. The force of a real world explosion is PERCUSSIVE meaning the explosion moves so rapidly that fire does not have a chance to burn anything an if there was fire would be blown out by the shock wave.
Now depending on the type of explosive used there are different characteristics to look for. With a Fertilizer bomb you have TWO explosions. First is the detonator that is designed to atomize the fuel particles as the fuel, as it spreads then the second is times to ignite that cloud. THOSE TYPE OF BOMBS are very weak, but will produce a fire ball. In hollywood they will use propane to create the fire ball. But a Fert bomb is very difficult to pull off and takes a high level of skill to accomplish.
A hydrogen bomb is a sharp crack sound (a high pitch like snap like sound) ANY hydrogen oxygen ignition is SOOOOO percussive that even the smallest one has potential to take your ear drums out or cause permanent damage. With a Hydrogen Oxy bomb you get NO flame because it burns in the infrared spectrum and is invisible to you. YOU WILL SEE A SHOCK WAVE that is very fast (on the par of 40,000ft/sec A massive force to be dealt with but fortunately the blast will tend to go upward and not along the ground.
A TNT explosive is a loud thunder sound with low ground shaking vibrations. A good size destructive force with telltale signs of detonation and particular smell. Gunpowder not as good unless you detonate it in a container.
BUT my point being that is you see fire and smoke coming out of the explosion (which we do in this case) you can rest assured that it is a Hollywood FX team behind it. AND the use of green screen protects the actors from having their ears damaged. IF THIS WERE REAL YOU WOULD HAVE MANY PEOPLE with permanent hearing loss if not completely deaf.
Those who educate themselves, and practice critical thinking will always prevail in any of these BS made for TV events.
now this:
"BOSTON BOMBINGS: Hmm...another April massacre. It might be interesting to note that the Oklahoma City bombing occurred this week, the Columbine massacre occurred this week, the Waco tragedy occurred this week, the VA Tech massacre occurred this week. COINCIDENCE?? I think not. The list goes on....The American Revolution began this week, so did the American Civil War, and the Bosnian War. Still think this is coincidence?
Add the Rwandan Genocide and the Armenian Genocide to the list. Also, Abraham Lincoln was shot this week. This is just the beginning of the list. Still think this is all crazed conspiracy theory?? Well, before you come to any conclusions, you may want to check out the satanic ritual calendar. The month of April is full of satanic high holy days. This is not mere chance folks. This is not a coincidence. There are very dark powers at work here."
ok so like i said, i did not immediately think, 'whats the MK group gonna say about this' in fact, i didnt want to think that. i just thought how horrible. but then the pictures start to post about...along with dozens of predictive programming. a family guy (edited or not it still mentioned boston marathon with a tragedy) pops up...in fact, if you really want to think about it, adult swim did a boston scare a while back with the athf thing, remember? i think it happened in 2007, when i started to research all this...i dont know what that means? does it even matter? yes. yes and yes. it does matter. it all matters!???
the truth matters. thats all we as humans should know the truth. most people stray from the truth.
here are some links and images in regards to this being a false flag
 |
| whos in charge? yep...thats right |
 |
| wheres the muscle tissue? fake red paint blood? |
 |
| some reports say 2 victims were killed, 8 year old boy and a woman. some say 3? regards and prayers to the families.. |
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| all seeing eye, blood sacrifice |
 |
| bow to BAAL |
 |
| its the guy who lost his leg in the marathon too? and in zombie walking dead style makeup? |
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| an eye for an eye? |
http://www.engadget.com/2007/01/31/aqua-teen-hunger-force-viral-ads-cause-boston-bomb-scare/
so how did boston get arms over disarmed arms about a lite brite/bomb when NO ONE noticed any funny business due to the bomb that went off yesterday? hmm? youd think security would be UPPED especially after a bomb scare of past ghosts...im sorry...but lets be real here. security camera everywhere? people getting ready for this 26 mile marathon (26 for the number of the sandy hook victims, the last mile was dedicated to them...) makes you wonder...
heres vigilants link http://vigilantcitizen.com/latestnews/boston-marathon-runner-reported-bomb-sniffing-dogs-spotters-on-roofs-heightened-security-video/
they want us to question this. they want to stage it to look like a movie. they know what they are doing. and we are getting sick of it!
here's a few other links to check out
https://maps.google.com/maps?hl=en&gbv=2&q=666+boylston+ave+boston&ie=UTF-8&ei=89htUYP8OILcyQGx6IC4Dw&ved=0CAgQ_AUoAg
^^^ 666 ^^^ 666? reallly? satanists? how much more blatant can you be? oh btw, here is the satanic calender, and this week is upcoming festivities for those satanic satanists
(im really not trying to make jokes im just befuddled by all this befuddlement...oh GOSH i cant stop...erghh)
http://www.theforbiddenknowledge.com/hardtruth/satanic_calendar.htm
APRIL
Easter Week-end: Black mass/black
sabbath. To mock the death of Jesus Christ, a man is sacrificed on
Good Friday. On Easter Sunday, known to satanists as unholy sunday,
a woman or man is sacrificed followed by three days of fasting and
chanting.19 - 25 Sacrifice preparation: kidnapping, holding and ceremonial preparation of person for human sacrifice.
25 The Da Muer ritual: Grand climax. Sex rituals and sacrifice of a woman or young girl.
30 Walpurgis night/Beltane: One of the most important nights on the satanic calendar. Blood rituals and human sacrifice take place.
im not sure how that really goes hand in uh...hand with the marathon tho? im not really too attuned into numerology and what not...sorry
im sure we all saw the family guy clip. well, he released a twitter statement in regards to it. abhorrent is the word used. it's called predictive programming.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H5U5LiHnutw
wait a minute, notice how seth macfarland addresses THAT edited clip in the article, (or the article does, rather) but thats not the one we all saw?? hmm...
this is the one we saw:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=tGBdBs5LVaY
and there is a petition going around:
https://www.change.org/petitions/demand-that-seth-macfarlane-make-a-public-accounting-for-his-foreknowledge-of-the-boston-bombing
so he did make a public account see?
http://insidetv.ew.com/2013/04/16/family-guy-boston-marathon-bombing-clip-internet-hoax/
in the meantime, his ex-girlfriend amanda bynes is twerking out
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/04/16/amanda-bynes-video-is-the-strangest_n_3091140.html#slide=more250437
i really feel bad for her :(
lost in oz
finally this (and a woman was heard shouting out warnings to people signing up for race "if you run in the boston marathon you will be killed)
"They kept making announcements to the participants do not worry, it's just a training exercise," Coach Ali Stevenson told Local 15.
(Shades of 9/11 when workers in the South Tower were told to go back into their offices. That the fire was under control.)
Stevenson said he saw law enforcement spotters on the roofs at the start of the race. He's been in plenty of marathons in Chicago, D.C., Chicago, London and other major metropolitan areas but has never seen that level of security before.
"Evidently, I don't believe they were just having a training exercise," Stevenson said. "I think they must have had some sort of threat or suspicion called in."
ALL CREDITS TO: LOCAL 15
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