I don't really blog too much lately, per se..but its fine. I have a fever but I feel like this fever will turn out rejuvating for myself. It will get rid of the negative impurities and birth forth (birth lol..miki spies always said that)...a new me. the body needs to detox sometimes and i do feel like fevers help do that. 

so for the longest time, i have been letting someone make me feel like shit. i just let this person think he can just come over and what not...but then he hasnt in a while...and it makes me feel really upset almost..it shouldnt tho.

listen, i am pretty awesome. i was just looking through old posts on facebook (i hit left on my newest photos then it took me to posts from years ago...)...i was pretty funny. i didnt care about how i appeared, id say what i want.

i am awesome. i have been through alot with my life. i have a pretty cool personality! weird, funny...idk. i can manifest myself in 2020 to become that james dean billy jean....queen? idk what im saying. i dont need to *manifest* anything..especially drag queens. that stuff is magic. im just going to try to focus on being the best person that i can! i can also do a polar plunge once i feel better.

been sick all day with a fever...watched You season 2 *binged* i still have more eps to go tho. i went home from work early.

so 2020! lets see what is in store!

and mike wants to go on a cruise. sigh. i really do not feel the same way about him as i used too. id like to meet someone and i cant, the more mike stays in my life.

that is a tough part. but im not attracted to him, like im attracted to that guy who is just a fckboy...whatever.


anyways.