jewry i want (which reminds me happy channukah!) jewry, get it?

jade rings
turquoise
moonstone
opal
onyx
silver
slave bracelets

rings and jewelry i want

new peircings too (ear) -tragus, helix

take a load off sally

i want to share this on facebook but i kind of just want to chill out on fb anyways..i am so tired. this job is very depressing. cant wait to get layed off. all i do during the week is slehttp://www.veteranstoday.com/2015/12/06/holes/ep. wake up. work. sleep. wake up. work. my levels are very high. i should be getting my thyroid taken care of. moss told me to go on disability i was like, why? that was like a day before the shooting at the disability center. i dont know, doesnt mean anything...just seems like these sort of connections. obama even said poison during his speech. i did NOT think anything of it really, but afterwards, the simpsons came on, and they said poison, randomly. of course, if the simpsons say poison, i'm all like, 'well then!?"

idk, the world is fake. its all a play. stranger then one could exhume.

there were many inconsistenices one again, with the shooting in san bernardino. btw, the eagles of death has a song, which they sang, talking about cops and san bernardino. they played that song in paris.

open your eyes folks...

http://www.veteranstoday.com/2015/12/06/holes

time for sleep, so i can wake up and work another 10 hours at this depressing job.

2015 was the year of suck....

only gets better

fb synch twoheads

Facebook synchronicities. They happen to all of us. I need to make a new folder just for FB Synchs! So, this happened. I saw a pic, and the next post after I scrolled, i was like WHAA!>>>??!?

 

Synchs. I had a few this past week but I was unable to write them down when they happened. I need to make sure to bring my fishcenter journal and pen with me everywhere I go!!!???

I was reading the Strip City book, and we had a holiday lunch for us at work . Iwas kind of late so I had some pastas and what not, and a salad, but everyone else got their rolls and butter. I was so upset because I wanted a bread and butter. I sat down to read the book while I ate, and she says, 'that;s the 'bread and butter' of it.

not sure if i wrote about the tekila thing??? also, heard santa on tv as i read santa barbara...stuff like that...

i cant remember the other ones!???! i am going to make seperate blogs, one for my synchronicities, and another for my creative writing. i never get any sort of...targetted synchronicities anymore. my life is extrememly boring. work/sleep..wknds go way too fast.

going to get a futon couch so i can sit and watch movies and play my games, but writing. writing is very important to me. not just blogging, but actually putting thought into collaberative writing. if i really wanted too, i'd blow your mind away. i dont know...whoever you are!? im just saying in general...

San Bernardino Shooting Hoax - Obama War On Christmas - CNN & Satanism -...

i dont eat

every so often, i get a comment on a video i made, like an asmr one haha! i want to make more! just need a place to do it. i dont eat. i have no idea what to eat!? this house...nevermind...i just...i cant. i cant do this anymore.

the other day i was thinking about the tequila lime chicken, from te-kila in hollywood. it made me think of hollywood so i started youtubing tekila and hollywood blvd. a few minutes after that, katie msgd me asking when i would be back in hollywood. she said that she ran into george at tekila hollywood and he asked about me. SYNCH!

i forget what else i was meaning to blog now.....NOT ENOUGH TIME! i work till 3 am, come home...go online for an hour or so, sleep. wake up around 12-1 ish...then, i have to leave to work by 330. these hours SUCK they suck all your time! i hope i get layed off soon. then i can collect and take care of my health. the dr said that my bloodwork showed that my levels are very high...1700. i need to do something about it. but how can i when i barely have enough time to get ready in the little bit of time i have before work? and no i am not trying to get hired. i do not want to be like one of the people at this job who are in it for life. waiting for retirement. NO THANK YOU!

i am a free spirit. 2015 has been a horrible year for me. terrible. i travel. i go places. i live. i experience life. i am not someone who can be confined. lately i feel like i am succumbing to this life of confinement. this ho-hum mediocrity that i have come to adjust too. i can't. i can't do this shit.

so many places i want to travel before i decide to have kids. and its getting late. i need to get pregnant before i am too old.

LONDON! (yeah why not!? my friend lives there), JAPAN, EGYPT, ITALY, NEW ORLEANS, COSTA RICA (missionary trip), IRELAND (where my grandpappy is from...), THAILAND (volunteer)...


ugh almost time to go to work. this job is depressing. these hours are awful i never know when to eat. i wake up and have a light lunch...well, we dont have food here just junk. greasy stuff like bacon and sausage ughhhhh my mother buys veggies but never makes them. we never have veggies!? and my lunch is at 940. i dont eat on my breaks except a snack because first break is only 15 minutes, not enough time to eat a microwaveable meal, so i eat a light lunch at 130 and i dont eat until 945pm....

i just want this job to end already!

COMPLAINTS (chrome!!!

Earlier, I listened to the interview Nik Ritchie did with Kacey Jordan, (the porn star who slept with Charlie Sheen), and I really think that she should write a book. Not just about Charlie Sheen, but about all her clients. She started to tell some stories about how sick these guys are. She says she got pregnant with Charlie Sheen, and she had an abortion. Of course, they only had sex once and the condom broke. Aghh gross. Anyways,  I like reading stories like that. I like reading about sex industry work. It is just interesting to me, I don't know!? I am not intrigued by it, but it certainly is entertaining to read. Crazy stuff. So, I think that someone a book for me, at work. You see, I was reading the Holly Madison book, and I am done with it. Since I do not have a smart phone, I like to read books during my breaks and lunch. Before lunch, I was thinking, I need a good book to read! Kacey Jordan needs to write one! So, I saw this box for buying gifts for kids charity, so I got up to read the directions, and I spotted a book. It said, "Strip City' and had a picture of an eye on the front.  I never noticed that book before. All the books at the little table they have, a library of sorts, was boring, romance novels. So I grabbed the book, and it is interesting! It is about a stripper an autobiography  I think someone put it there for me to read. Someone who noticed me reading the Playboy Book. I think its the heavy-set girl with the ever changing variety of rainbow colored hair, who always talks to me. A while back, we were all talking, (Diane, a lady I knew from a long time ago, parents old friend..family friend whatever), and the other girl was talking , so diane was like, 'what are you eating?" because she had food in her mouth. The girl said, "peeps!" i thought that was so odd!?? why the fuck was she eating a peep, in october?? they dont come out yet?!? ok weird


I don;t know who left that book, but I am reading it. Soon I need to start writing. Seriously I have alot of stuff to write about. like the anand jon story...and more.

anyways thats all i guess ugh chrome changed on me its annoying i hate it


oh so that porn guy james deen is now being accused of rape. at first i was like, ugh that stoya whatever that vice always talks about, but i believe it. thats fucked up. misogyny prevails especially in the porn world i am sure. misogyny. i cant spell