poem!

when will you look at me again? 
when will now be then?
when will it not be the end, 
back to then..when?

closing eyes much to my despise..
i await a moment that will never rise.
i am stuck never to realize...
stuck in a matchbook of lit up lies.

♡HOW TO BE AN E GIRL♡ (makeup, hair, clothes)

another youtuber with an adams apple. girls are not supposed to have adams apples or adonis belts. am i right here?? or maybe ...ahh i just see so many 'females' on youtube who have adams apples its so weird!??

Do you ever feel like you need to get to the point of pure loneliness to move on to a part of life where you feel as if you can move forward. pure isolated depression...venturing into uncharted territory. life created, one life to caring for another. selfish to selfless.

Grimes & i_o - Violence (Official Video)

Miley Cyrus - Slide Away (Official Video)

I really like this song. i kept avoiding watching it because i thought it would be a boring ballad. anyways..i really wanted to do a photoshoot at the pool this summer. that didnt work out. next year i plan on really working out and working on my appearance however.

white blonde or lavender hair

im thinking of getting my hair dyed, white blonde or lavender ish.. such as...

Ok, so I have been feeling sort of down because the guy at my work..i saw him sunday at sand bar and he just ignored me. well he was having a bad night but still..whatever. im over it.

so i am going to get some kind of makeover also start working out. running, lose weight. new hair color and more tattoos. another peircing or something, we will see...

new clothes. manicure. so there we go!