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Hello! So, lets see..hmm...what was the last thing I wrote about? Not sure!??! NOT SURE!!????!! um...anyways, im just going to write about the other day...(oh yeah, we went to see steel panther play)..well, the thing is, Ron had said he was supposed to introduce the band...(be right back i should put makeup on NOW before moss gets back)...rob zombie thing tonight! =D

ok enchilada suiza HOT HOT cool down cool down!!!

ok..hmm...scary house tonight!??! and rob zombie show!

so yeah ron mentioned he was going to introduce the band, but moss was like, 'i dont like steele panther thats not my thing. they are so obnoxious they are always like, 'show us your tits'

uh, yeah, thats their spiel, their shtick...thats what they do! they are a mock fun-spirited glam 80s metal band!

i thought it would be fun to go plus i know ppl that would love to see them play! and even to meet them!

he said bring katie then! so she wanted to go. so we met ron their and we actually got to hang in the dressing room with them while they got ready and put their wigs on. awesome!!! the drummer was so nice! (i got to learn their names) i saw them before just dont remember!?! they were nice and gave us a beer. we hung out there for a bit

(fishy...TSA shooting FALSE FLAG) 23 years old miley 23 jersey, miley seducing TSA...predictive programming...i heard a drill, like many other times, had taken place prior

um...so back to steele panther real quick...steel sorry idk!?? yeah we hung out then we went to see the show. oh!? i did write about it!??! OH KAY THAN!??!

well next day i was a lazy ass, sitting around all freaking day doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! cept read a bit...the distraction artist...

i have to write about the greg sestero thing but not now, i will later.

so um...UM!!! we did some errands during the day and i spotted a homeless andy dick lookalike (everyone has stories about him...hes really bad on drugs and alchohol and he molests boys, thats what katie said) but moss then called andy since he knows him, and andy invited us to his party later. well, moss didnt want to go but i kind of wanted to check it out, you know, investigate? i wasnt sure what kind of party it was...halloween? private party? what was it? moss kept saying he didnt want to go and to ask katie, so i asked katie and she did want to go. so moss dropped us off (he did stick around for a bit)...i noticed it was one of 'those' parties...a bunch of LA types, hanging out on a rooftop, people you cant just approach and talk to because they were there networking and well, just because. plus katie gets kind of weird...shes nice but i dont know? she always tells everyone i know ron jeremy and that im a model. i dont know if she is just making fun of me or what but its really annoying when she does that!??! it was for tvradio or tradio.com? the radio show that andy dick does, and that guy larry who moss knows that worked for howard stern, also dave navarro...(i like their fb page)...

it was an open bar, but let me tell you...tsk...i had a sample of the delicious beer those guys had (we were chatting with them for the most part)...but i did go up to the bar and asked her what drink she was making. most open bars have a select drink, but this was not a fancy party...(it was nice, just the bar...yeah)...she said vodka and pineapple juice..(what the heck is that??).or rum and coke...i was like, ok i guess vodka and pineapple...so she takes a big cup, and fills it more then halfway with shelf vodka, then pours pineapple juice and a little bit of ice. (maybe she knew i was not going to leave a tip because i had no cash on me!??!), she didnt even stir it!??! so i sipped at it and it was NASTAY!!! yeah! nast-TAY!!! ughhh blahhh i couldnt even drink it!! so i just left it on the side of the wall. gross. moss got me a rum and coke which was no better. more ice, but still strong as heck (and i like to drink!??) but...how come no one just has straight up beer!?? and my beer is a yuengling but they do not have yuenglings out here!! nor do they have pinnacle flavored vodkas! back east if you want a shot you (if your a girl tee hee) get a shot of cotton candy pinnacle vodka!) YUM!! 

i had a few more of those brewers guild crafts (?) tasted very good, a bit spicy infused and they had vanilla chocolate infused. they didnt serve it as get drunk beer, more like enjoy it brewery pub beer...ya know what i mean? y'knowadimen? ill

anyways, i was walking to the bathroom and one guy was like, 'before you leave, '(and he goes real fast) your real pretty...' i thought i heard it, but reminded me of a little kid, so i was like, 'what?" so he says, 'your real pretty' and took off. Lol!!! that made me chuckle. i was wearing my hair in a side ponytail with the white rabbit hat as a mask...

oh so, later this guy started talking to me which was cool. then this other guy came up and started cracking jokes and they both said they were comedians but that they did not know each other? weird?? then i noticed as i shook the guys hand he dropped something in my beer?? so i saw that and i was like, 'ugh, i gotta go see how my friend is doing' and i put the beer down. the other guy apologized because that guy left but i took off to find katie and then i noticed those guys were gone. that was really strange and who knows if they put a roofie or something in my drink, i just want to be careful ya know!??

i made it downstairs to the radio show room and started talking to this guy i met who works there. He was telling me how difficult it is to work with andy dick and that his mind is fried. hes lost and is never coming back. thats pretty sad because moss says he was once really funny.

too bad, its a shame. drugs. :/

anyways, that larry guy wanted to see moss but only because he needed a ride home! ha! and the other guy wanted to meet moss but moss never got out of the car and when larry got in the car all we heard was high pitched yells and screams from moss...eek yeah...thats moss!??!

after that we got breakfast items from mickey d's then came back to the apartment to eat. earlier that day we went to the dollar store to get candles (i got a lion), and moss picked up the river phoenix poster ((that was the errands that and post office))

katie always makes jokes about moss and i, like we sleep in the same bed like the willy wonka old ppl and i was like, 'ill no way! i dont sleep in the bed with him!" she likes moss, but moss always teases me. it was all kind of annoying!! AHHH!!!! lol oh yeah so katie left but moss and i drove to the viper room and set up the memorial to river phoenix. we set up candles and poster and i put the lion down. 

oh yeah moss wouldnt get me toothpaste at the dollar store even tho he asked me what i needed other day when he went to walmart. i was screaming at him about the toothpaste cuz hes so weird. he says 'i think i have toothpaste' which means he is lying. all he has are trial sized toothpaste and i dont use those. 

what else? i dont know right now...im complaining. sorry!!

anyways, that was wednesday. i had a costume for halloween. all moss kept talking about was santa monica blvd. he kept saying we had plans and that catherine was coming down and santa monica blvd, so i just assumed santa monica blvd...even tho i was invited to two parties. well george never got back to me until we were about to head out...and our other friend kept telling us about another party...so moss just dropped denali and i off. catherine kept saying shes on the way but i wanted to see the parade (not really a parade tho, more or less a sea of ppl wearing costumes)...well, we went to the ivy (we were supposed to meet his friends)...not the ivy, sorry, the abbey. ive been wanting to go there, its a gay bar but those can be fun. oh moss is back!?? oh moss just asked me how many beach balls? i got so mad at him because he bought an excess (like he does with EVERYTHING!! EXCESS OF SPOONS FOR THE ROOM, EXCESS OF CANDLES FOR RIVER PHOENIX SHRINE) he got an excess of beach balls for the comedy supreme festival, and he made me cut them open and take them out of the package...and the overwhelming smell of plastic gave me a headache along with the hard acceleration and decelleration of breaks, gas, breaks, gas...

anyways, denali is nice and he buys drinks, but man is he BORING!!! he reminded me of some sort of prim and proper prom date, moving like one. and he stands in a way that makes me feel hidden in a room where i would like to stand out (amongst gay guys yeah right lol) they were nice tho! i mean, some are. right? :)

but yeah, denali is so dull...sorry..he just is!??! hes like the guy friend you hang out with who will just sit at the bar and stare at the game on tv. i wanted catherine to be there but she never even showed up!??? :(

but i ended up talking to a few people. it was a bunch of girls and one guy in the bathroom at one point and we were all chatting it was funny. the girl was anne boulyn and she was talking to me about volunteering in thailand (what i want to do!)

ended up talking to other people that night..about what? i dont recall!??! ha!

ugh moss shut off the AC its just so hot!! (im going to miss this weather when i get back to cold!)

we went to rainbow end of night. my friend keeps telling me about the awesome party he was at last night. fine, rub it in my face!!

at one point i was following denali through a sea of ppl as he was looking for his friends, i was like 'i cant do this anymore! i cant!" i absolutely HATE being stuck in a sea of ppl!

it dissapeared!! damnet


i said i told him we were not going to run into his ,magically, run into his friends in that sea of ppl and we went to try to get into some bar RAGE maybe..or something else it was 15.00 a peice to get in! nuh uh!?? so good thing i had that 20.00 moss gave me i was able to get us in to this one bar.(5.00 per person to get in)..denali bought us drinks and shots (WHISKEY SMF) WHICH CAME in  huge shotglass that i just sipped at...

oh what is with all the whiskey ughh

so we ended up going to the rainbow end of night. my friend keeps telling me about how awesome his party was.

i need the AC why is moss so annoying!??! i hear him squeaking and saying, fawny in the shower...

i have more to write about....just wanted to write these past days down, i dont know WHY!>???! just because!??

i guess i should write about past few days/nights whatever but i really ought to take a shower so....im going to do that. and albeit! bahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! (bye)

breaking bad all seeing eye?/greg sestero the puppetmasters eye?/sunny land pippi longstocking road to illumination?

what else?

uh...lame party last night

i need to write these blogs soon. k thats all!

California

I remember when I used to think of California, I always thought of it as this magical sort of place. I used to long for the unfamiliarity of a state so big and mysterious. This formatted even more (?) when I joined the Army and I was going to be stationed at exotic states like Texas and California! Wow! Really!!???! So, at 18 years old I found myself at the Presidio of Monterey California. I remember I got picked up...I forget!??! Hmm....I forget who picked me up from the airport. Someone in the army obviously, in my platoon. I actually don't remember. Its hot in here! Anyways, I really thought I heard the waves of the ocean. It was nighttime but the moon was illuminating everything. I felt a saltiness in the air. I liked it. It felt new, it felt different. The next few months I was out there, at a young, wide awake 18 year old, I really liked it. It was the end of the 90s so that sort of...90s feel was surrounding everything, (you know, the music, the style, etc. I used to like Tori Amos, whitetown your woman song, even spice girls)...what is the point of this blog tho? nothing really. its just that now, im like...califuhnia? ughh....

sage used to say, 'califon! i dont want to go to califon!" meaning when my ex boyfriend dennis lost his license because of a dui thanks to our other friend who left a can of beer in the back IDIOT! and we were all driving back from a concert...

but yeah....now...its like i have this constant headache??? you know? maybe its because i am always around moss tho.

i want to experience this place, differently than i have been. i want to experience the finer things, you know? the culture i guess? yeah why not? good, mature conversation. mature just meaning, you know, drinking vino...and eating a fancy meal somewhere...and just...actually conversing. not just listening to someone talk repetively or not even bothering to talk because you know its a waste of energy....i just want to enjoy things. the beauty southern california has to offer. i would love to hang out at chateau marmont, and actually enjoy the hollywood history behind it. i would like to take a ride in a convertible (LOL!) and go through the hills or whatever...without getting a headache due to hard accelerating and decellerating, hard braking...and a buzzing bee. what am i saying?

oh its because i was thinking about monterey california, where i was stationed. it would be cool to head out there again, just to see how its like. would like to actually see the presidio again too, just to capture those feelings i used to have when i was stationed out there. to capture a glimpse of how i used to view life as new and magical!! 

not getting annoyed...and being mean, and having headaches all the time. i mean, i am having fun now. i am always doing fun interesting things! i am! i just...i feel like this weirdo...

i dont feel like anything special. im just here...you know? im just here, thats all..

shrug

oh and i do not give a SHIT what any people think of me i just dont care so whatever!??!


now i remember who picked me up..it was PFC (forget last name) but i remember hearing he was gay but he could not say anything due to dont ask dont tell. he was a cute, rosy cheeked guy tho. i just remembered ha!

hi. went to see steel panther last night at house of blues, we got to hang out backstage with them for a bit while they got into character. it was pretty cool! house of blues is nice i like all the different rooms. show was good they were making a music video too. perfect looking girls got on stage with them (of course)...katie told me i looked like one of the burlesque dancers upstairs, im like, 'come on! please!' i might be 'pretty' but i do NOT look like that!!!

we went to rainbow which was ok but it was about to close. rainbow same is same as...moss in his element and katie smoking tons of cigarettes introducing herself to everyone. she comes off as if she tries to hard. desperate almost. shes like moss tho. in certain aspects. because moss will go off saying his mossy jokes...talking about how overweight and unfit ron is, (in front of him mind you)...

whatever thats how it is like here! idk!??!

i dont know what else to write about atm...so, im just going to think about the chicken i guess im going to cook. lemon pepper with rice or something...even tho i dont feel like cooking. i am getting hungry tho!

disturbing

something about this interview is very disturbing. well, not just something...alot of somethings

the way this kid has sociopathic tendencies with the punching and the lindsey dill alter (he dissociated saying that is not him)...even doing the shh sign

just sad

http://teamcoco.com/video/71636/johnny-knoxville-gave-jackson-nicoll-crotch-punching-tips

so yeah i just went to a halloween party sat night it was ok. i think ther is something going on tonight too at the rainbow. well see

ughhhh!!!!!!

i want to figure out what to do but moss is just sleeping on the couch. he doesnt care. he made it seem like we were going to a few parties tonight, so i wasnt too worried about it. i just dont want to sit in with moss tonight i stayed in last night. ppl invited me to parties but i guess its later in the week. i bought a costume last night too. how come karma wouldnt just accept me as a guest for playboy mansion tonight? >:(

whatever. i just want to get out, even tho i dont even have money. im ready to go home.

i was gonna say, i forgot moss went on a radio show other day. also...we went to check out the thriller zombie dance earlier but missed it.

so now..........i have no clue. i need to get out tho. i dont even need to go to a halloween party just want to do something!??!?!