So, my car is not starting! The battery is dead, so my parents dropped me off at Mikes. We then went to Giant. We decided on a simple salmon dinner, so I got some fresh garlic, asparagus, and some stuffed salmon pinwheels. I also got some uncle bens brown and wild rice. We decided to rent a movie, he saw a Jake Gyllenhaal one, called Enemy. It looked kind of low rate and silly, but redbox never has any new movies. I think, due to Blockbuster shutting down, that I missed a bunch of movies that I would of liked to see but since there are no aisles to walk and look, only a selection based on what movies are available, redbox is stocked with a bunch of low rate movies and/or movies from 2 years ago.
When I was younger, I used to be a big movie buff, always on top of movies that struck me and actually going to see them or rent them when they came out. Now I just look track of the movies that I maybe wanted to see I dont know!?
I made the roasted asparagus and salmon with some greek yogurt on top and some squirted lemon and the rice. I miss cooking. I miss feeling like I matter. I forget how it is anymore!? I don't even know what to expect from this DUI, I mean, is it even real anymore? Does anything really truly exist? Will I ever get to where I thought I was trying to get?
Am I just getting older, will I ever overcome my downfalls!? Before 2014 happened, I was hopeful. A new year! Anything is possible! I was out of Mike's place, on my own. I was thin. I was ready to keep on working, and saving my money! smh....
Now, I dont know!?? I just do not know!??! I should lose my license for 18 months, then 1 week jail, a month house arrest...5 years probation. To me, probation is the ultimate punishment. It is being baby sat, not being able to leave. They have said probation is not that bad tho...after a while if you are following orders, or whatever, they sort of lay off you. I just want to do good for myself, ya know!? I just want my own cozy lil' place, to cook, watch movies, have company, maybe a boyfriend to come over and cozy up with me. I can cook him dinner, turn on the fireplace, put in a good movie and just watch it. I can't watch movies with Mike because he falls asleep and proceeds to snore loudly! It is so annoying! He doesnt have adult swim so I am going to miss tim and erics bedtime stories.
((THERES MORE IMPORTANT THINGS TO WRITE THEN THE TRIALS TRIBULATIONS PITFALLS AND NICETIES OF MOSS PSST BTW!!! yo i bring up moss because he told me kevin keeps telling him i plan on doing a moss blog!! eventually, but it aint nothing i havent told him!! im like, is kevin your spy? but then, when i was on his computer, i saw my poison blog address come up. so that means moss himself comes here! LOL who cares tho! but this is an example of the moss blog...but it isnt important!! i have so many things on my mind sheesh!) even tho i keep mentioning this moss blog. it will be everything i tell him to his face, including him taking off on me at the rainbow, where his nose led his face, true story. he just scurried on past me, with a strange grin and his nose twitching, like a rat on a search for cheese, or whatever rats eat. he just scurried past me, i guess kevin and his girlfriend was there. he didnt even stop to ask me if i wanted to say hi. i told him this tho, even saying he was hunched forward, like he catapaulted on by me, leaving me to see some sort of jerry springer/ron jeremy/bettie page/married russian couple swingin' swingers stuff going on...
also, i straight up asked him if he saw the part where jessies SPOILER ALERT!!! girlfriend got shot. i spoiled it for him he said yeah. i said, the mexican girlfriend!??? yeah. but he did NOT see that part, and i gave him a straight up spoiler, right? it didnt even phase him! why!?? because he did not see that part, and because he wasnt even listening, like he often does! he just does not hear what i say!
whatever! so yeah well this isnt that blog...he just brought it up last night...i dont want to write about him now...or the niceties i need to say either...how we get into places VIP, but then it makes me sound like i just use him. that is not how friendship works! you arent just friends with someone because you can get vip somewhere. and to be honest, the only place we went too, was tim and eric. its like he used one event i wanted to get into...blah...i wanted to see simpsons bowl..oh well who cares! i dont even feel like writing about the airport now!!
i was talking about the movie enemy. oh i have to pee again! it seems like i always have to pee, or charge my phone. wtf!??!
this movie was sort of cheesy, like the way the scarlett johannsen one we watched was. SPOILER!
the ending had a spider.
i searched online what it could mean. one suggested a tale of the body snatchers, while another said his psyche.
ok heres my interpretation.
spiderwebs represent fractured minds. using jake gyllenhall, an actor, an actor who probably knows SECRETS!! a generational...is he gay yeah probably is he bi im quite sure um yes, yeah prob..is he aware of this? most likely not!??! just like how megan fox lost a month of her life when interviewed by conan...
the movie seemed to take place in the 70s or 80s, but a laptop was being used. access codes and triggers are used on a laptop now.
in the movie, the one character, Bill, is a history teacher, teaching about totalitarism. history his story is not quite clear as his mother says one thing then changes her mind later.
what looks like a beta kitten sexual ritual, occurs in the beginning of the movie. there are two naked women, and several men, watching these women, (sort of eyes wide shut ritual), they have these spiders on platters)...red shoes...
jake is being used he sees his doppleganger after some man asks him if he watches movies. if you even want to peel more layers off the onion, it almost seems as if this guy is hitting on him. a gay vibe is in the air. he suggest a movie. so then he rents it (as i had said, since when are rental places still around!??!)..this breaks the pattern of his very boring life of teaching about totalisarium, reading magazines, and having sex with his girlfriend. "thats all they do?"
the movie had his face on him. who was that guy??? so he searches. spiderweb themes throughout the movie...blah blah blah!! im so not interpreting this movie as i intended to do so!?! maybe i should watch it again...or not!?? hey its a lame flick but watch it if for nothing else then thinking about white castle and high school workers...weird chicken shaped sandwiches and what not!??
gosh!!!!!!!!!!!! um...
i noticed all his students wearing crisp white button downs, also the sepia tone throughout. what city he at? LA? new york? toronto?
blonde bun girlfriend/blonde bun pregnant wife...
beard...beard..(kesha burping..beard)
he then visited his dude lookalike who had same scar as him...not a siamese twin but it is him! gf/wife same person...alters living with alters, handlers with handlees gosh its so confusing! is that how mind kontrolled hollywood married couples live?! in alter locking and unlocking confusion!??
in the kitchen he has one demeanor, steps into the kitchen for a brief second, the camera actually catch it or you'll miss it changes, making his character look like it actually glitched, then his whole demeanor changes.
mirrors/acting..becoming someone else, its all there.
him meeting himself in the room seems sexual to an extent, why meet in a hotel room?
elevator guy talking to him about wanting to go back to the room again...(??) maybe his gay alter...even tho on a topical layer meant the sex spider room...some prostitute even walks by in the hotel, he dreams of a naked woman with a spider head walking by...
later he finds a key, a trigger a key for his wife...she is a big spider looking scared, she is also MK'd he has the key..
i know its a soddy interpretation. i dont know!??!
ugh i dont feel like making the airport blog. will i ever? yeah i will!??
i better like.......idk...
i had an interview for 7-11, 3 overnights a week, 12 hour shifts. i wouldnt mind doing that i enjoy working by myself, overnight heck why not? but its too far! about an hour! white castle much closer.
please God i need a job! im sick of feeling worthless!!!
multiple personality jake gylenhall
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| city in head |
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if the image was small it does kind of look like me the big head in front i wear my hair like that too..but then her face looks like the other one...its so odd!??! huh!??? ewwwwwwwwwwwww creepy!
crepe pee!!!
oh my i look up theres skinny jake g...in the new movie nightcrawler. he jus screamed at his image in the mirror..
another pic suggesting ripples/multiples
