I am upset. I was really looking forward to going to Montreal this weekend. I have been SO depressed lately, and a nice, relaxing trip to Canada would of been nice! Plus, I love poutine!!! I haven't been to Canada in years!??! Last time, was about...over 10 years ago. We all went, Sage, all of us (she was just a wee lil' tot then). I went with my cousin April too. And, I went bungee jumping!
So, I commented on one of Schenley's posts, about cool, outdoor places to go to in Montreal. I am sure Lisa saw me comment about it, and decided she wants to go to Canada, so now, doofy Matt and Lisa have decided to go Canada, but they texted my parents to tell them that I will probably not be able to go. so now i am not going, but matt and lisa are going....real nice....why do they have to go? cant they just let it be? its not fair! are they gonna go and drink a bunch of beer with sabastien and shenley now? being all cool and fake and blehh im mad >:( i really am! i just wanted cobblestone and poutine!!! i miss canada too! and i want to see their baby as well!!! :D
I am pissed! Thanks to this FUCKING UPCOMING DUI...THAT DID NOT HAVE TO HAPPEN!!???! i dont even go to bethlehem!!! why the FUCK would i go all the way up there?? and i wanted to LEAVE AFTER FUCKING MCGRADYS! it was LAME!! im pissed....
that didnt have to happen, i was really trying to do better for myself now i cant even go to canada! yes i am fucking PISSED! OK!??! WTF!!! why did someone get into a car accident before the exit to get back on 22?? why didnt i call mike up and have him meet up with me since he was in bethlehem that night? right, since sara does not like him, but sara thinks its fair for me to go all the way out there and do shots then drive all the way back? i was driving to mikes. i would of been fine, i mean, it is illegal to drive, but i got stuck in that mess and they ran up to my car...i am fucking PISSED!!
i really wanted to go to canada...now i cant! i will have problems at the border. but now lisa and matt are going to go, and this is one more problem to make ME look like a fuck up! before i got the dui, lisa was like ' what are you doing with your life?" well, i WAS working and saving up money!!! i was planning on saving money so that this summer i would of been able to get MY OWN FUCKING PLACE!!
now what!? NOW WHAT THE FUCK WHAT???? WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME!??! WHAT!?!??!? i have no fucking clue!!???! i have no fucking idea!!! i just....i have no idea! should i become a big drunk like deryk whibley, only to come out in need of fucking REHAB!??!? come on!!! right?? i want to MOVE FORWARD! I WANT A JOB! I WANT TO MOVE OUT! I WANT SUPPORT!
im fucking PISSED!!! OK!??! IAM! now i am going to go to jail..(well, at least now i can get a spiderweb tattoo on my elbow..phuket!! ha!! who cares.............)
fines, loss of license, alchohol classes...AA (bleh)....community service...i am just getting over the last ones. plus i still have surcharges.
i dont know...i need a JOB! how am i supposed to pay all this shit now!???
for me to get into canada, will be problems due to my record, HOWEVER!!!! if i get my tribal card back (that i lost when my wallet got stolen when i was on the bus back from the army), then....then i will be able to get into canada because it will show that my reservation IS in canada and they cannot deny me access to canada, so my parents contacted lac simon so that we can get my card and hopefully i can go when my mom goes back in july.
i need to go. i just...need some peace. and poutine!!
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
blood
hi! uh...not sure what this means...but im gonna type up...i had a dream about, more like a nightmare...about someone wearing a michael meyers mask, who started stabbing everyone with a machete there were also clowns with swords slicing everyone. so i have been noticing lots of blood splattering stuff on tv skits. last night on conan, he was poking andys ear....(?) and there was a big ear while the band played end of show...ear? poison ear??? (HA im just joking!??)
i mean, then tonight, lots of more blood splatter...so i was chatting about it on facebook and my friend said, 'oh ((because conan got stabbed with a sword and blood splattered)) he said about my dream but i just LAUGHED...but i also said they are making me dream certain dreams??
and...........so....yeah, blood..then andy said to conan (because the blood could not get cleaned off), andy said, 'next week you are going to have to dress up as the devil'
blood sacrifice? aqua teen then played the christmas past guy, and the pool full of blood....oh and danzig mentioned a blood sacrifice (something about gargoyles..around for his sacrifice)
blood blood blood!!
ehh...i find things out of anything...DOI!!! DOI DOI!!! blood on squidbillies too
i mean, then tonight, lots of more blood splatter...so i was chatting about it on facebook and my friend said, 'oh ((because conan got stabbed with a sword and blood splattered)) he said about my dream but i just LAUGHED...but i also said they are making me dream certain dreams??
and...........so....yeah, blood..then andy said to conan (because the blood could not get cleaned off), andy said, 'next week you are going to have to dress up as the devil'
blood sacrifice? aqua teen then played the christmas past guy, and the pool full of blood....oh and danzig mentioned a blood sacrifice (something about gargoyles..around for his sacrifice)
blood blood blood!!
ehh...i find things out of anything...DOI!!! DOI DOI!!! blood on squidbillies too
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
just another blog post
i didnt get medicaid, i got select plan for women. that means that i can get pap smears, or family development, which is fine if i was pregnant....which i am not, so what good will that do? it is also good for std medications and birth control. well, what about my lab work, bloodwork, and thyroid medication? i have absolutely no energy, my face is drained of proper blood flow, i feel
im back, after a few diarrhea attacks, (and a trip to my old home town) :( i have been getting those alot lately..everytime i eat it seems, well, not my breakfast's, but dinners...i dont know!???! my stomach just hurts so much after i eat :(
like i was saying, i just...do not feel anything.
when i go on a little day trip, like i did, i get little glimpses and remnants, of how it might feel to be alive, and excited about life. i think being able to share life with loved ones really helps.
last night, i just...well, i haven't really been praying lately, because, i am not sure what to pray about!??! i don't just want to ask God to help me because, how many times can I do that without seeing results? The only results I do get seem to get worse and worse!!??!
ed great! everything i wrote...just deleted. i wrote a lot of good things too. its because i want time to myself, away from my parents, and i cant! and i am distracted. i just wrote a bunch of good stuff too!??!
im so mad now...I DONT CARE ABOUT THE TWINS AND GANGHAM style i was trying to write!!!
i said, ughh im so mad...i wrote a lot of good stuff too....
i said, i opened up the Bible to psalms, praises to God. see, i cant concentrate!!?? because i dont want to hang out anymore. i just want me time. as man, we feel the need for aspirations, goals, superficial stuff, we need to feel productive, loved, busy, pre-occupied. i mean, now we dont even appreciate the beauty of nature due to facebook, candy crush, apps on our iphones, people trying to be internet stars..we are so distracted! we want to feel like we are accomplishing goals, we are working our way to building our families, houses, etc etc. we become so distracted that we forget to thank our Creator. we forget to give praises to Him. we are just humans. i said, now i dont say i do not believe in the Big bang theory, and that i am sick of people assuming Christians dont have common sense, or that christians are full of judgement and hatred. i grew up in Christian family, and no one thinks that way at all! We just believe in God, our creator! i believe spirituality co-exists with science. i believe there is energy, etc...
i went to flemington, where i grew up as a kid. it is such a nice, quaint town. reminders of 'anytown usa' flit around in a town like that. growing up, is was fun. but just to see this town, it has a town hall, courthouse, the old haunted hotel that my uncle did an oil painting of that hotel. its a nice town, i think. it reminds me of a time past, like back in the 50s or 60s....like pleasantville sort of...or, like a firefighting town, like....hackettstown pa, where punks and skinheads (the good kind ha) preside, and military feeling, army reserves...idk!??! we drove by a tattoo shop and the guys were sitting outside, with tattoos and their motorcycles parked. i was like, aw...thats cool!
we also went to marshalls, where i saw a bunch of 'home goods' which made me feel kind of upset. all i want is my own place, to decorate and what not. i like a home, where it feels like a home. i like when you can feel memories, and a warm, welcoming feeling...you know? i think i would style my home as a sort of zen-like cavern, abode, cozy, medieval, native american, lots of lamps, christmas lights, potpourri melts, bookshelfs, little teacups with roses on them, crystals, gemstones, water fountains, some chinese decor (like the kinds you see at 'oriental stores', such as...buddhas, those cats, etc) plants, fish aquariums, paintings, you know...my place will be fun, comfy, cozy, warm!!! it will be a place one will WANT to hang out with! ambient lighting, a nice hi def flatscreen, surround sound, comfy cozy couches, mosaic coffee table!! a nice lil' pup pup to waggle its tail at you, 'pet me! pet me!" a kitchen stocked full of good food, some teas and a cast iron tea set...'tea?" when we watch a movie, with a comfy throw blankie to snuggle with!!! playstation 4!! aww man, why can't i just get my own place, ya know!???! i would for sure decorate it all sweet!!! i will be HAPPY to cook, have friends over (what friends tho!??! LOL!!), have a date, cook dinner for my honey!?? idk!??! homemade spaghetti (the sauce) and a salad, some red wine perhaps!??! but im trying to quit drinking!! but if i made it, then i can have a few drinks in the comfort of my home!
i want to keep busy with crafts and hobbies too, and art classes. i want frinds. i want money to afford the simple things. if i just....kept good jobs i had, or went to school and stuff, i could of obtained all this. no, i do not need to be married, and mortgaging a huge house, i could just rent to own a quaint, cozy enough home. i would love to get my motorcycle license!
i like a guy who is into motorcycles, and knows how to work on cars, enjoys a beer, who knows how to do a mean grill (LOL!! mean grill!!!) someone who likes to joke around, someone who has cool friends, i mean, yeah im getting older, but its nice to have get togethers with other people too! it would be nice to entertain as well....i like country boys too! blah!! me no know!??! me just fantasizing....i want someone who is a good person too, who wants to have kids, who will be good with kids, and helping me out. yeah im getting older...shucks....i like a guy who can get along with anyone, my friends and family....and be able to be charismatic enough i suppose...someone who has a good job.
oh man!?? will i ever meet someone like that or what!??? geez...my tummy feel rumbly....i am going to write a story, somewhat to what i just envisioned....but to what avail? what will happen? it cant just be a regular story...something HAS to occur, right???
nah! it doesnt! im a firm believer in just...making a movie realistic! why does something always have to happen!?? it doesnt!!! just, normal life!??!
i like senses..i love the country! i love farms. barns. hmm....i like old farmhouses!! those are super cool! i prefer rustic farmhouses over cookie cutter hollywood hills mansions! although i do like spanish style houses hidden in the hills, with all those plants and orange trees, but mostly, its too dry in LA! i love the lush, green magical wonders only the summers out east has to offer. out here, the scent of fresh grass and wheat waft through the air, crickets chirp, lightning bugs light up, deer pop out to munch in the fields, i love the smell of campfires, shooting off rounds from a rifle (why not!?? at a gun range of course!) these are the memories i want to...experience. but at the time they will not be memories. right now, these are just dreams. dreams...
will i ever obtain these dreams? HA!!!!
will i ever obtain anything!???! headaches! tummy problems...depression...boredom...solace, loneliness, shame, guilt, living with the fact that i am a creep. i also am not true to myself, or others. i have all these dreams and notions, but i am getting lonely. i mean, i want to....sigh....whatever
what else!??! yes i want to make lavender lemonade! and mint and cucumber water!
Please God, help me get to where I want to be. I mean......sigh....I know, this isnt important, it doesnt matter really....but it does! to be happy..to FEEL happy! to connect with others! (just heard connection with a partner on dancing with the stars)...to laugh and joke around, friends, whatever
and yes, work! i want a job. i want to write!! i used to write, all the time!!! blehhhh
im back, after a few diarrhea attacks, (and a trip to my old home town) :( i have been getting those alot lately..everytime i eat it seems, well, not my breakfast's, but dinners...i dont know!???! my stomach just hurts so much after i eat :(
like i was saying, i just...do not feel anything.
when i go on a little day trip, like i did, i get little glimpses and remnants, of how it might feel to be alive, and excited about life. i think being able to share life with loved ones really helps.
last night, i just...well, i haven't really been praying lately, because, i am not sure what to pray about!??! i don't just want to ask God to help me because, how many times can I do that without seeing results? The only results I do get seem to get worse and worse!!??!
ed great! everything i wrote...just deleted. i wrote a lot of good things too. its because i want time to myself, away from my parents, and i cant! and i am distracted. i just wrote a bunch of good stuff too!??!
im so mad now...I DONT CARE ABOUT THE TWINS AND GANGHAM style i was trying to write!!!
i said, ughh im so mad...i wrote a lot of good stuff too....
i said, i opened up the Bible to psalms, praises to God. see, i cant concentrate!!?? because i dont want to hang out anymore. i just want me time. as man, we feel the need for aspirations, goals, superficial stuff, we need to feel productive, loved, busy, pre-occupied. i mean, now we dont even appreciate the beauty of nature due to facebook, candy crush, apps on our iphones, people trying to be internet stars..we are so distracted! we want to feel like we are accomplishing goals, we are working our way to building our families, houses, etc etc. we become so distracted that we forget to thank our Creator. we forget to give praises to Him. we are just humans. i said, now i dont say i do not believe in the Big bang theory, and that i am sick of people assuming Christians dont have common sense, or that christians are full of judgement and hatred. i grew up in Christian family, and no one thinks that way at all! We just believe in God, our creator! i believe spirituality co-exists with science. i believe there is energy, etc...
i went to flemington, where i grew up as a kid. it is such a nice, quaint town. reminders of 'anytown usa' flit around in a town like that. growing up, is was fun. but just to see this town, it has a town hall, courthouse, the old haunted hotel that my uncle did an oil painting of that hotel. its a nice town, i think. it reminds me of a time past, like back in the 50s or 60s....like pleasantville sort of...or, like a firefighting town, like....hackettstown pa, where punks and skinheads (the good kind ha) preside, and military feeling, army reserves...idk!??! we drove by a tattoo shop and the guys were sitting outside, with tattoos and their motorcycles parked. i was like, aw...thats cool!
we also went to marshalls, where i saw a bunch of 'home goods' which made me feel kind of upset. all i want is my own place, to decorate and what not. i like a home, where it feels like a home. i like when you can feel memories, and a warm, welcoming feeling...you know? i think i would style my home as a sort of zen-like cavern, abode, cozy, medieval, native american, lots of lamps, christmas lights, potpourri melts, bookshelfs, little teacups with roses on them, crystals, gemstones, water fountains, some chinese decor (like the kinds you see at 'oriental stores', such as...buddhas, those cats, etc) plants, fish aquariums, paintings, you know...my place will be fun, comfy, cozy, warm!!! it will be a place one will WANT to hang out with! ambient lighting, a nice hi def flatscreen, surround sound, comfy cozy couches, mosaic coffee table!! a nice lil' pup pup to waggle its tail at you, 'pet me! pet me!" a kitchen stocked full of good food, some teas and a cast iron tea set...'tea?" when we watch a movie, with a comfy throw blankie to snuggle with!!! playstation 4!! aww man, why can't i just get my own place, ya know!???! i would for sure decorate it all sweet!!! i will be HAPPY to cook, have friends over (what friends tho!??! LOL!!), have a date, cook dinner for my honey!?? idk!??! homemade spaghetti (the sauce) and a salad, some red wine perhaps!??! but im trying to quit drinking!! but if i made it, then i can have a few drinks in the comfort of my home!
i want to keep busy with crafts and hobbies too, and art classes. i want frinds. i want money to afford the simple things. if i just....kept good jobs i had, or went to school and stuff, i could of obtained all this. no, i do not need to be married, and mortgaging a huge house, i could just rent to own a quaint, cozy enough home. i would love to get my motorcycle license!
i like a guy who is into motorcycles, and knows how to work on cars, enjoys a beer, who knows how to do a mean grill (LOL!! mean grill!!!) someone who likes to joke around, someone who has cool friends, i mean, yeah im getting older, but its nice to have get togethers with other people too! it would be nice to entertain as well....i like country boys too! blah!! me no know!??! me just fantasizing....i want someone who is a good person too, who wants to have kids, who will be good with kids, and helping me out. yeah im getting older...shucks....i like a guy who can get along with anyone, my friends and family....and be able to be charismatic enough i suppose...someone who has a good job.
oh man!?? will i ever meet someone like that or what!??? geez...my tummy feel rumbly....i am going to write a story, somewhat to what i just envisioned....but to what avail? what will happen? it cant just be a regular story...something HAS to occur, right???
nah! it doesnt! im a firm believer in just...making a movie realistic! why does something always have to happen!?? it doesnt!!! just, normal life!??!
i like senses..i love the country! i love farms. barns. hmm....i like old farmhouses!! those are super cool! i prefer rustic farmhouses over cookie cutter hollywood hills mansions! although i do like spanish style houses hidden in the hills, with all those plants and orange trees, but mostly, its too dry in LA! i love the lush, green magical wonders only the summers out east has to offer. out here, the scent of fresh grass and wheat waft through the air, crickets chirp, lightning bugs light up, deer pop out to munch in the fields, i love the smell of campfires, shooting off rounds from a rifle (why not!?? at a gun range of course!) these are the memories i want to...experience. but at the time they will not be memories. right now, these are just dreams. dreams...
will i ever obtain these dreams? HA!!!!
will i ever obtain anything!???! headaches! tummy problems...depression...boredom...solace, loneliness, shame, guilt, living with the fact that i am a creep. i also am not true to myself, or others. i have all these dreams and notions, but i am getting lonely. i mean, i want to....sigh....whatever
what else!??! yes i want to make lavender lemonade! and mint and cucumber water!
Please God, help me get to where I want to be. I mean......sigh....I know, this isnt important, it doesnt matter really....but it does! to be happy..to FEEL happy! to connect with others! (just heard connection with a partner on dancing with the stars)...to laugh and joke around, friends, whatever
and yes, work! i want a job. i want to write!! i used to write, all the time!!! blehhhh
Monday, May 19, 2014
i think its sad that deryck whibley (remember him) is all sick. alchohol is a drug. people can be mean, like that dylan barber annoyancy saying 'woo hoo partay' i feel bad for him he looks so frail and sickly. its sad. he must of been drinking very heavily, every day. he wrote a letter stating he was. people like that cannot drink. i mean, i feel like crap a day after drinking, but i dont drink everyday. i couldnt! and i drink beer, not hard liqour. licquor...however you spell it. i see that kate major whatever baby mama will be going to jail for 8 months for her dui. really!??! for a dui!??! ughh i dont know?
i have been feeling hopeful. just the thought of looking for a job is bringing my spirits up. i mean, i cant be depressed all the time, right??? things wil get better, right? i believe so. once i start working, i will feel hopeful. and i need to start eating good again.
and i do want to stop drinking. i think i can do it.
what else? i know i wanted to say something else too...ahh who cares right!????
i have been feeling hopeful. just the thought of looking for a job is bringing my spirits up. i mean, i cant be depressed all the time, right??? things wil get better, right? i believe so. once i start working, i will feel hopeful. and i need to start eating good again.
and i do want to stop drinking. i think i can do it.
what else? i know i wanted to say something else too...ahh who cares right!????
monday
I was going to make a few blog posts last week, I just never gotten around to it. I made the mistake of having a few beers Wednesday night by the river, hanging out with Jimmy. It was just nice out, and I felt like hanging outside. Even tho I only had a few, it ruined my whole next day. I don't even know why I hung out with him. He didn't even go to detox!??! He was at the psych ward!?? I get bored, and I don't have anyone to hang out with. I need a job, that's what. I just want to keep busy, and occupied. This whole DUI thing is really getting me down tho. I'm thinking, why get a job if I have to go to jail, or classes...I just want to get it over with. I am so upset about that fucking night. I should of stayed home! Who goes to Bethlehem, where one can't even find parking!?? It's lame! That night was lame, in fact. Ughh I am so pissed. I feel so confused. I don't know anymore!?? I was going to make a post about the Adult swim party they had, but then I headed out and my dad kept msging me where I was? My car was parked out back, so it was not like I was out and about driving. I was chillin' by the bridge for a bit, listening to Jimmy complain about how he is not interested in the girl he hangs out with, or whatever. Then don't hang out with her, right? I just don't think it is fair for both people...ok, say, you are hanging out with someone, who is more interested in you than you are in them. You're just not feelin' it, you know? It happens. It is not fair for you, one, because YOU deserve to be with someone that you click with, and someone that you are attracted to, and that helps you feel good. I mean, a friend is a friend, but what about attraction, you know? It feels nice to get those feelings...sweet, tender feelings, someone you just, feel love to, someone you want to hug, cuddle with, smile with. Someone that makes you want to jump on them, squeeze their shoulders, look deep into their eyes. Romance. Attraction. Someone who makes you want to feel beautiful, someone who makes you want to open your eyes wide with wonder, you know? Plus it is not fair for the other person either. Everyone deserves to be with someone who you make feel that way. I say, I am so used to Mike, but then he goes and talks about other women, other girls/actresses, blondes and asians. That doesn't make me feel good, you know? I am just used to him, and plus I miss that familiar comfort one feels when they are in a relationship. I am friends with someone now, who is great, but I just don't feel that way about him. You know what I mean, and then it feels depressing for me because I know it is not fair, for anyone. Sigh...I am sure he will read this...you know, and I have said this before too. I don't want to talk about this stuff here tho. I just....stuff on my mind...that's all. Oh, we did go to this nazareth bike fest, and then went to the book store speakeasy for some delicious drinks and dinner! it was so cool! i know, speakeasy is 2007 via los feliz and LA....but hey, its kind of a new concept over here. it looks like a bookstore, the menu is inside and old book, and the libations are so delish. they play piano and have old fashioned music playing, like from the 30s. it is dark at first, lit up by candles and what not. i had two drinks, shirley temple of doom , and another one the bartender mixed up for me, cucumbers and mint. i am so used to beer, so this was a pleasant change in drink. i will have to say, however, after the first drink, i felt the tightening of my veins, and the second one, accompanied by my risotto with shrimp and scallops, made me feel quite tired. this is why i feel, i do not need to drink anymore. i just get so wiped out when i drink, not to mention the fact that i haven't been taking my meds either. i just want to feel healthy again, and happy. i want to be productive. i am so depressed, i just...i am too depressed to even feel depressed! i feel nothing. i feel like, i am not proud of who i am, and i need to make changes, and i need to be honest with myself and with others. my friend wants to do a bunch of fun stuff this summer, like the color run, or whatever. i dont need to drink. like i said, i get wiped out and if i drink too much, the next day totally sucks. i get so tired, and i feel like crap, and i feel extremely depressed. what else? i do want my own place. now....who knows? i dont want to just complain tho. i want to be able to feel hopeful, even now, when i think i can allow my depression to kill me...just by having it so. nah, i won't do that. i actually do think meeting someone new, blahh.....whatever....:/ maybe i will write a romance story! instead of looking for it. :D
i just need to work tho. and start eating healthy. my mom needs to go on a strict diet. i just tell her, no processed food, she can't eat iodized salt, she cannot have seafood, soy, dairy even!??! water, water and more water! teas, you know?
i was going to make a blog post about this scam i was almost privy too, but i googled it. google can be your friend, or google can screw you over. fuck google. fuck liars. fuck the bullshit!
i wasn't almost privy to it! im joking, but basically...it was a modeling scam. maybe i will find links to it. too good to be true, its a scam!
anyways.....im gonna take a shower or something...
ciau!
i just need to work tho. and start eating healthy. my mom needs to go on a strict diet. i just tell her, no processed food, she can't eat iodized salt, she cannot have seafood, soy, dairy even!??! water, water and more water! teas, you know?
i was going to make a blog post about this scam i was almost privy too, but i googled it. google can be your friend, or google can screw you over. fuck google. fuck liars. fuck the bullshit!
i wasn't almost privy to it! im joking, but basically...it was a modeling scam. maybe i will find links to it. too good to be true, its a scam!
anyways.....im gonna take a shower or something...
ciau!
Wednesday, May 14, 2014
people are odd
jimmy actually texted me this morning for a ride from the hospital to his house? i didn't reply back. i am upset. i was really trying to save money earlier this year, and i was on a good track. now...im not. i want a job, but how can i do that if i have to go to jail, and alchohol classes...??? alcohol....
this guy on facebook is so weird. he always mentions jennifer lawrence, and her movies. hes obsessed!?? he gave advice and used some quote from silver linings playbook, but the quote really had nothing to do with the advice?? then he said that jennifer lawrence was chatting with him and wished him a happy birthday, so i was like...ok??? he said he had taken a screencap of it (on his phone taken with his ipod?) why not just...save it from the phone, and i was like, 'ok than..post it?? i dont know!??!"
he said he will post it on my wall today. a few months ago, this guy posted some pics of his bedroom on my wall...his cat was blocking the tv, so when he said he was going to post the happy birthday i had a feeling it was going to be those pictures again???
then he posted a bunch of other times on my wall that he posted the pic and that it is also on his wall. it was pissing me off that he was posting words on my wall first of all, but he was also lying!?? i saw NO proof of jennifer lawrence wishing him a happy birthday!???
is this guy like...what the fuck is wrong with him? people are so weird? he even posted something sticking up from the blanket...was that a foot or some kind of boner? i deleted that shit. i dont need bullshit on my fb wall....
anyways.....i have no clue anymore.... :/
this guy on facebook is so weird. he always mentions jennifer lawrence, and her movies. hes obsessed!?? he gave advice and used some quote from silver linings playbook, but the quote really had nothing to do with the advice?? then he said that jennifer lawrence was chatting with him and wished him a happy birthday, so i was like...ok??? he said he had taken a screencap of it (on his phone taken with his ipod?) why not just...save it from the phone, and i was like, 'ok than..post it?? i dont know!??!"
he said he will post it on my wall today. a few months ago, this guy posted some pics of his bedroom on my wall...his cat was blocking the tv, so when he said he was going to post the happy birthday i had a feeling it was going to be those pictures again???
then he posted a bunch of other times on my wall that he posted the pic and that it is also on his wall. it was pissing me off that he was posting words on my wall first of all, but he was also lying!?? i saw NO proof of jennifer lawrence wishing him a happy birthday!???
is this guy like...what the fuck is wrong with him? people are so weird? he even posted something sticking up from the blanket...was that a foot or some kind of boner? i deleted that shit. i dont need bullshit on my fb wall....
anyways.....i have no clue anymore.... :/
upcoming events
I like to volunteer. Not only does it keep me occupied, it also grants me free meals and admission, at fun events, such as the upcoming color run, or, the Mayfair events.
Then I think, well, why not...RUN...in the color run, right!??! Yeah!! I think I would like to do that!
I think I would like to do the night run. http://colorfunfest5k.com/locations/allentown-2014/
It is July 12th, but I need to buy tickets or else the price will go up.
Also, Mayfair is coming up too! I can volunteer for that, but I think I would rather just go.
May 23-26 is the Mayfair. http://www.mayfairfestival.org/mayfair-directions/
That prom at Steel Stacks is coming up too...not sure the date..((may 23))
Then, Montreal!
but then............court dates :( and bullshit..
I know warped tour and philly coming up too. i would love to do stuff with sage as well, but who knows about that.
i need my own kids to do fun stuff with.
then, jail. then alchohol classes. I need a freaking job, thats what!!!
sigh..............
Then I think, well, why not...RUN...in the color run, right!??! Yeah!! I think I would like to do that!
I think I would like to do the night run. http://colorfunfest5k.com/locations/allentown-2014/
It is July 12th, but I need to buy tickets or else the price will go up.
Also, Mayfair is coming up too! I can volunteer for that, but I think I would rather just go.
May 23-26 is the Mayfair. http://www.mayfairfestival.org/mayfair-directions/
That prom at Steel Stacks is coming up too...not sure the date..((may 23))
Then, Montreal!
but then............court dates :( and bullshit..
I know warped tour and philly coming up too. i would love to do stuff with sage as well, but who knows about that.
i need my own kids to do fun stuff with.
then, jail. then alchohol classes. I need a freaking job, thats what!!!
sigh..............
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