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Card 3:   Your fears »

The Devil

You are afraid that it's out of control. You simply cannot resist this passionate attraction. Despite the fact it's addictive and unlikely to be right, you just can't stop yourself.

Whatever it is, a passion for someone who's not good for you, money deals that are too good to be true or any other kind of temptation, try to resist, as it is unlikely to have a positive outcome.

If you're feeling low in self-belief and self-worth and doubt your abilities - don't! Have confidence in yourself - it's not too late to change direction.

edits

i just think these edits are cool there should be an app for it

synchronicities

So, I have had some synchronicities. For example, Seth Green and Breckin Meyer have a new movie out on Prime, Changeland. On their instagram account, they asked everyone to tag their bestie and say a reason why they should pick them for a trip to Thailand, just like the movie! Why, I always wanted to go to Thailand, so I tagged Sherry. The other night, Sherry and I both wore yellow floral dresses. We did not plan that. (there was also a comedian that night who was featured on adult swim or something, robot chicken/seth green adult swim...connection)...that night that comedian said to her, 'give me a kiss on the cheek', and when she went to do that, he turned so she would kiss him on his lips. more on that later...so, during changeland, i see, a woman in a yellow dress!??!?! a yellow FLORAL dress! i was also hanging out with scotti earlier that day, i went to her ultrasound. she has a crush on breckin meyer. he says to seth green, "i even got us MATCHING FLORAL shirts.." like sherry and i and our matching floral yellow dresses!!?!? so later, i was watching something (i forget what it was tho...maybe it was in the movie, i dont remember!?? i also watched the hills)..the same thing happened that happened to sherry about the kiss on the 'cheek' which the guy turned his face and she kisses his lips. that comedian was cute, and so was the other one. so disappointed that i had work saturday or i'd of stayed out, because those comedians ended up hanging out with sherry and her friend that night. DANG...:(((


so yeah...those were synchronicites so it would be super cool to be chosen for that trip to thailand. it really would be! also, there was a guy at the bar who had a weird aaron bleyart vibe to him (i felt like it was set up...idk, i always think stuff like that), who was talking to me and did magic tricks. mike got all jealous or something because i was talkign to him but just now i see a commercial with a guy at the bar and he saw him looking hot in a black leather jacket and that guy had a spade like a card of a magic trick...

that just happened now. 

wednesday

So...Mike wanted me to choose going out with my friends and having fun, also drinking, or him. First of all, Mike messed up a lot of times. Sure, he has made changes, such as the C-pap machine to help his sleep apnea, or going on trips other than gettysburg, but it is more than that. He also complained during Disneyworld, made me feel embarrassed and upset during epcot, he always walks in front of me at restaurants, after the host shows us to the table. guys should let the female walk ahead idk...i mean, lots of things that just add up. plus, he doesnt enjoy the same things i do. he never expressed interest in camping, something i would love to do. its always his plans, always where he wants to go eat. i have good ideas and fun things to do. for a while, i was thinking about jay because everything i suggested, he was openminded too, and he actually enjoyed listening to me. even cooking dinner and chilling and talking, drinking a bit and watching youtube is fun. but with jay, he just never reciprocated. probably because he knew i wasnt attracted to him. hes a great guy, and he has summers off, also is smart and creative...but you know, attraction is key. soooo....mike is comfort because i know him..but he doesnt really know me or try to know me. we dont really DO anything together, if that makes sense. i have a sense of exploration and excitement and adventure, and he doesnt. and he tells me he doesnt want me to go out. why? yeah im not in my 20s anymore, but so what? i like getting dressed up and feeling hot. actually, i have been talking to guys i find attractive..so...that. like i said, i like mischevious blue eyes...anyways..this guy i know looked at my  car and i know him from being out at riverside bar and he has those eyes...so thats kind of cute. i mean, im not thinking anything, just saying...:/

like, i just want to live, start dating again. i want to find someone that i can enjoy time with. someone who IS sexy and makes me feel sexy! 

as i have said before, i am extremely picky and i cant just meet some guy and be interested. i have guys asking me out all the time. i have guys trying to add me on fb all the time, i see mutual friends, i add them, "Hi! Are you single?

"Lets date" blahhh...no. not interested. i think i am attracted to guys who have some sort of superiority to me, not superior, but like..someone who is above me workwise, or like, something like that...or someone who is established in some way. i really dont know but damn..im like, wtf???? i just really want to meet someone and go out. have fun.

mike doesnt want to lose me but its not fair to either of us. 

anyways

oh the guy with the blue eyes i have seen him before and he looked at me with that deviant look. like..i want to fuck you. ahh im being WEIRD!???? of course

cool edits

I love these little animations google will sometime do for me. This should be an app! I look goofy i but these are cool its from earlier in the summer back in june

im watching the new hills right now..i love 'bad blue eyes' like justin bobby HAHA or pamela andersons son...kind of what AP guys eyes are like....anyways!??! hes gone on vacay now  so i havent seen him  but whatever lol.

anyways, going to musikfest tonight. i dont want the summer to end :(((((

so the guy i like...kyle msgd me the night before. i wanted to see him LAST night when i was out with sara and saheed and he told me he was beat and had work...

but i was being weird because he was being so vague now i feel bad. ugh anyways yeah this sucks!!??!?!?!?!?