i dont know!??
you know, i am well aware of those tickets. i am. moss has been pestering me about it every day, and i asked him nicely to please stop. i told him it is kind of disrespectful of him to be continuosly bothering me about those tickets. its as if he thinks i am going to forget, as if i am so incompetant as to not remember, and that is plain out rude and disrespectful. i told him i was going to get them, he should respect and trust me. yes of course i was going to get them, in fact, i woke up this morning fully intending to pick them up today. of course i am sick. moss does not care about this all he cares about is me picking up these tickets. and he still thinks i am going to sit outside tomorrow night amidst all the wind and snowstorm, while being sick! look, i admit, i am going to start this job tomorrow, but that is because it benefits me! that is because it is FOR ME! i need a job! i need a paycheck! going to the football game does NOT benefit me. why did i say yes? well, let me explain something. first of all, whenever moss talks to me, he throws out a constingency of verbal....a pillage of verbal floodgates, and my eyes glaze over and i just stop. i. just. stop. i no longer know what i am listening to it gets to be too much. and when i stop to hear what he is BAMBLING about...i realize that its a story he already told me of! he also said he would get me a plane ticket back home. well ok heres the story.
i told him with much days in advance WHEN i wanted to go home! ok? i told him i need to be back by SATURDAY (specific date because i wanted to see the business in reading that next sunday.) he was well aware of this. he knew what date i had to be home. he was telling me yes he was going to get the ticket...yet days went by and he never did. so when i asked moss about it, he said yes...finally, about 2 days before he was going to get the ticket, he said that he cant pay the full amount unless it was the TUESDAY after that sunday i wanted to go home! are you serious moss? he kept making it seem like he was going to buy the ticket, but according to that, ONLY IF it was 120.00 or else i would have to pay for the rest? how sleazy and weird is that? he did not tell me this prior! not at all!!
i was under the impression that he would buy me my ticket home (i payed for my ticket there btw) he said if i agree to go to the pburg/easton game this year, he would get me my ticket. i agreed. right?? ok then....so comes about, i have to pay moss 35.00 (the extra cost for the 160.00 the ticket for me to fly back on the date i wanted to) fine! FINE!! whatever. he just threw that on me but whatever. i was ready to go home. and IM WRONG THO! cuz moss is so great and he does all kinds of cool things for me. i never asked him to bring me to concerts. yes i did go to LA, but he knew the reasons why! i even wrote them here, remember? i wanted to go see conan (he was aware of this), i wanted to see festival supreme (which he told me about), i wanted to go to the governors ball (which he thought we wouldnt be able to get into and guess what it was JENNIFER AND I who got into that, OURSELVES!!! moss was glass half full!! he knew those were the main things...he also knew that i really wanted to go to the rob zombie thing (AGAIN, WHICH HE TOLD ME ABOUT!!!) so those were the main things of me going out to LA. he didnt pay me while i was out there, well thats both our faults. or maybe he just used that as bait for me to think i would be working too...hes kind of creepy like that. i dont know moss..i do, but then i dont. i dont know the true reasons why he is really in my life? like i said, i always felt he was set up, but no one believes me. people wonder who is he or what hold he has over me? its weird??
so i now owe him money for some reason...? (i didnt read the fine lines meaning i didnt listen i just wanted him to shut up! and yes he does drive me crazy! hes too much! i zone out alot around him. i am capable of having normal conversations with him, when he doesnt bug me) i cant be around a person for too long! srzly!
moss makes it appear as if i am using him. like im a stupid girl. i think he might be chauvinistic. like katie. katie always made comments....misogynistic comments...about 'porn stars and prostitutes'...moss has that same sort of way about him!?? hes a caring guy, but maybe he enjoys finding girls who are troubled, for a reason? like jen and 'his jailbird' who im not sure they really talk anymore?
and of course my sister thinks im this whiny selfish spoiled bitch.
listen ok? i do not need to be (whats the word??) oh i cant think! when uhhh i cant think!!??! when someone does something to make you look bad...it sounds like pledgerize but its not...'dont __erize me"
pesterize??? badger? anyways....
it was disrespectful and rude of him to keep asking me, even tho i already assured and told him i was going to get them. he felt the need to remind me as if im some sort of classless, haste (well i am hasty at times)...idiot who just wants to smoke ma blunts all day, peeling off the couch to venture to the local 7-11 (which i would have to drive to btw) for some papers...stoned and high all day, poppin valiums and xanaxs...."eh ill get around to it WHEN I DO!" um no i was fully intending to get those damn tickets!
and he knows this! i am sick. top priority is getting better. not yes'ming HIM appeasing HIM!!! right?? to get him HIS tickets! are you kidding me!?? really??
and this morning he msgd me on facebook. "Please get those tickets today!"
i didnt even get to finish looking through all my fb msgs before he bugs me! so i took it to my wall! to haste and squeezy like a squeezy heezy! stressy ball! (usually i customize it so lisa brown piwowaryczk dont see it because she just sees me the way moss wants her to see me)
i was intending to delete it but whatever haha!! im silly like that!
PATRONIZE!!! patronize!!!
i am looking for that 90s stressy eraser colored thing in a hat from spencers to post here as a pic
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