sad news and weird coincedence

the other night at work, i was reading a new stephen king book i bought for 5.00 at five below, and one particular scene, someone in a car ran over people waiting and sitting and sleeping in a parking lot. when i get home, i find out that 2 terrorists ran over people shopping at a christmas market in germany. how terrible. i also found out that venessa, the girl whos bunk was right next to mine at jail, died from a heroin overdose. she was so young, 22. i remember thinking, she has her whole life ahead of her. i just cannot shake or fathom that she is no longer alive. the first time i saw her, it was when me and the other two girls first entered the jail, like i said in my jail blog, it was open and there were bunk beds. it was still early, and pretty cozy actually. I;d say, it was about 10 am, and so some of the girls (women? idk) were still sleeping. I saw a young girl dance about, all happy and girly like, pimply faced but cute, and she went into the cold tin toilet and sink bathroom with concrete beds in it, and a tiny little window, to go and brush her teeth. she was curious about who the new girls were, this was venessa. a few things i remember about her, from the jail, since it was the only time i saw her or know her from, is that she liked the 50 shades of gray books, she had a boyfriend in prison, since they got caught selling heroin, which is why she was in jail. she had a miscarriage when she first got there, because she was coming down from being addicted. i remember it had snowed outside one night, and we saw the cop car lights outside and a giant spotlight. they were searching for a criminal on the run, so me and her were pointing out the window, kidding around of course, to try to help whoever was on the run. she says shes always on the side of the criminal, never the police. she really liked the pancakes we would have on some mornings. she was the baby of the group. i remember during the college class we would have, she was juxtaposed in with girls her age, but collegiate, smart, studious girls. she even said how she was the same age as those girls, but so different. it's so sad, because she had potential, but drugs essentially took her life. one time, that pretty, dreadlocked girl, pixie, tried to offer her some heroin she somehow scored and managed to get passed the officers into the jail. i even brought that up to venessa when some drugs were actually found. venessa did not want to do the drugs. we all had to do pee tests that one night. i just...i dont know. she liked to play uno, and liked to try to play spades but the other black girl didnt really like her to play since she messed up all the time. but everyone liked her. after she got out of jail in august, she went to a halfway house. i guess soon after is when she did heroin again, which cost her her life. i saved a photo from her fb...

i dont know, but whenever someone i knew dies, i just tend to think about it alot...