milf porn stars

um....i am reading this article that vice posted, and i just would like to share some thoughts on the subject.

i have no problems or issues with anyone working in porn. i mean, when i first really kind of, got introduced to the idea of porn, (this was like, in the 90s ok?) when howard stern used to interview porn stars, remember? i mean, back then, we were introduced to porn stars via howard stern.

um, i remember that one porn star, who was older, tabitha stevens i think? she was like a milfy porn star, and they made her have sex with one of those 'whack packers'. maybe gary the drunk? ha! i dont know!?? gross tho!! but that shit was entertainment. it was! and it was light years away from what the average person would ever find as something normal. you know what i mean tho?

i mean, we could hear about porn stars, (maybe even sometimes encounter a porn) and no..i dont even watch porn online. sure it is easy too, but to me it is boring and just.......it just...idk!??! but im not prudish at all you know!? sex is sex, but whatever!?! anyways!!??!

encounter a porn. lol!

as i was saying tho, i do remember howard's girls and howards whack pack. yeah i used to watch howard when he was on E! entertainment. i dont have serious but i can go on youtube i guess if i really wanted to.

i mean, back then they had all those older milfy porn star types, like that one..'houston' who got gangbanged i hear she never even gotten payed for that!??!

i dont judge anybody, whatever...but i do think it is nasty. seriously tho, getting gangbanged and having sex with these guys....who wants that? its fucking nasty. i dont even like oily muscle guys, idk like i said i dont even watch porn so i dont know what kind of guys are involved but even so, i have went to free porn sites and i just dont think the guys are like HAWT!! what am i saying!?? blah!!!

hmm....what am i saying!??! see im real! tho! i just talk about whatever!! shrug..SHRUG its just who i am and how i am. you stupid smirking infinity scarf!

eek! yeah watching porn and all that. i dont know!??! go on...go to a porn site. ughh whatever LOL!!!

so weird!! i like sex....ual attraction! i like a flirtacious chemistry and all that then its fun but seeing bumping grinds....and all that.......come on! i see something wrong! with a lil bump and grind!!

e-freaking gads.

the idea of it tho, 'hey a porn star!" thats kind of hardcore and cool, and rock n rollish, but the acts involved are just like, kitten be lost. lil kitten take your orders!

um.........what else!??!? i want to put my hair in a pony tail or somethin!!! oh yeah, if i did porn, i would do it with a guy i LOVE AND AM ATTRACTED TO BABY ha!! im just amusing myself! ex boyfriend!

hey butt crack should be the next cleavage! butt crack exposing dresses and bikins! right!??!

i just saw bikini girls on tmz (leo di cap aka leo di CRAP!!!) uh.......the next playboy gone old and somewhat pervy old man, jack nicholson!! tmz is on they just showed a pic with leo the playboy on a bitch with a bunch of bitches aka the pussy posse! HAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA wow!! pussy posse! LOL!! i CRACK myself up!! crack cocaine mama!! where dat be at!??!

yo! oh anyways um....that article, one MILF decides to porn it up. honey mama, she used to be what, a' dental hygeinist!??! honey mama, dentail hygienist makes good money ok

i would so respect having a job such as a dental hygienist. marta does that. they make about 40.00 an hour!??

WHY THE HELL WOULD THAT WOMAN GO FROM BEING A 'measley dental hygienest 

i cant spell! a measly dental hygeinist WAHH they dont make enough money, to decide to willingly get into porn!??! wtf!??

why would you do that, when you had a respectful, well paying job as a dental hygienist?

i mean, she has kids!?? and if those kids friends and classmates found out their mom does porn, that could expotentially hurt the child of the porn star mom. its just selfish. but they never get the wraths i suppose. 

"NINA ELLE

A self-described "pretty blond with big boobs," Nina Elle didn't always use her looks to support her family. She once worked as a dental hygienist, but when she learned how much porn stars made, she figured it was too lucrative to pass up. To her, starring in porn meant paying for her five-year-old daughter's singing and ballet lessons and buying her 11-year-old son Nike sneakers.

this is the link to the article:

http://www.vice.com/read/meet-the-working-moms-of-porn-678?utm_source=vicefbus

man just having a few laughs whilst writing this blog post upped my mood, i almost feel like just getting lost in music and wine...just losing my self within my own mind. not driving tho.

i want to explain how....the mind works. i really do understand a bunch about psychology believe it or not. i have a lot of empathy and recognition to the silly behaviors of human beings born with the downfalls of just being human. the undeveloped mind of a teenager, lets call it. remember, teenagers are abound of gossip, whispers, and insecurity, but as we get older and work with the parents of teenagers, we can see how it does not quite get shaken free. as we get older, we are supposed to get wiser, but this does not happen much, because often times, older people hide behind the safety and security of being a mother, but then they never seem to be the mother, only accumulating their child's mentality by being a child themselves...

some are good parents. smart. but are they all this way? no. these little insignificances of being human always get in the way. 

and we are so conditioned with wit and sarcasm, basically, being mean, snide, racist even, homophobic, animalphobic, blah blah.....i mean, look at the movies!? look at tmz. 

look at fucking everything, the way people talk, the way people maintain themselves!??!

so, a porn star.......a freaking porn people!!??! oh yeah, i also watched boogie nights in the 90s, and i thought people in the porn industry would seem cool and welcoming bunch, but the truth is, it is a very abusive place to be. just google abuse in the porn industry.

the reason why i seem to know about porn is because i am friends with the ron jeremy...he sees me as a friend, because i am moss's friend, and ron does like me he is a nice guy. i respects me, and also, i never thought i would ever of been to porn conventions and avns but i was, in fact, i can go i guess....the thing is tho, see? 

what am i trying to say!?? why!?? why do i go out, to be harassed!?? i am just a normal person ok? i am struggling with life. if i go out there, i will still be harassed. i am always harassed. why!?! what am i doing that deserve to be snickered about or smirked or harassed? what!? i fucking write blogs!?? so the fuck what!??! like i said, at least i am real i think!??????

dont fucking harass me or make me feel like shit! or do it, i dont care!?

i cant afford to hide behind a skinny body, chiseled cheekbones, dark designer sunglasses. i cant afford to shield myself with long, drapey layers, jewelry and a pair of uggly mugs and thugs. 

i cant afford to be all like, 'mm hmm you read my blog" wha HUH!??? YOU read it? 

you enjoy it?? ya enjoy my blog, fool? yeah you!?? you silly lil tool! 

maybe i capture you........in a 'selfie' i can capture your butt crack and your buttocks, jenny. your buttocks. and then i uh, then i uh...i post it online!??! yes!??! no...yes?? yes!!!

yeah you little creep! your a bunch of creeps!

*you're* oh shush you grammar nazi! i will b back....

oh here is LEO!! and his PUSSY POSSE!!! love it!

hey its uncle leo!!

poison on conan!!

hey look this was on last day haha!!!

hypnotic lily of the valley

so, real quick ....tracy morgans limo VAN got hit by a WALMART truck. the trucker had made some strange comments, according to TMZ. he also tweeted some strange things as well. it kind of seems as if, he feels he was set up? he said he was the scapeGOAT.

((real quick, before i go on, i have been reading my friends syncho (JUST HEARD CODE ON TV, "do you know what this is CODE for?") synchro CODE cracking blog...and she was mentioning the THROAT CHAKRA, and the taurus BULL that conNECKS with the THROAT CHAKRA...here is her blog....http://synchromiss.wordpress.com/2014/04/24/neighbors-movie-decoded-14-13-4/

if you read it, you will see she talks about the NECK (just heard next and connected on tv oh my goodness) daily BURN...rose BYRNE BURN FIRE!!! hunger games...im just looking at the commercial where it just said next and coNECKtion and it was for the daily BURN and rose BYRNE is in the movie neigh (nayyyy!!) burrs AHHH help me!??!

so you can see, i am stuck in this synchronicity frame of mind...

let me go back till yesterday....i was watching dr. OZ and he mentioned KOMBUCHA tea.

when i went to grocery store, GIANT, i spotted the KOMBUCHA tea, and i bought it...

last night, i read a bungalow story by james franco...(his butt buddy is seth rogan, who stars in the movie neighbors...blah! anways, here is link to


bungalow! here it is. i read it, trying to decipher it. i kind of did, but right now i dont feel like saying what i feel, ahh i said sailor boy jimmy is one of his alters and vampire mold the molder is another one. last night i wondered, 'what am i being molded into?' then, as i was reading the article, i saw james franco wrote this:

The masks are just as important as the reality. The masks are our reality. Everyone’s reality. Life is a performance. When an actor gives a good performance, often people say, “What good choices.” So if life is your grand performance, have you made good choices?
I dreamed about vampires, and a voice came to me. It was a demon. The demon said, “I live on the power of celebrity, and I am celebrity. I am the power bestowed on people like you by all the myriad reflectors of your celebrity: the tabloids, the blogs, the fan pages, the way we sit in fans’ minds, the way people read us through your roles in films, etc. This is our public persona, partly created by you and your actions, and partly by these reflectors that act in concert and become me.” It was a voice of permission, a voice of castigation, a voice of supreme supreme.
“Do all. You are immortal and live on forever, on the screens and in the minds of the peoples. Your physical self lives above their heads, in the dream hotels, in the chateaus of rarefied space, and your spirit inhabits their minds, while your teeth and cock feed on their bodies.”
I saw them all, in different positions, and the same positions, and I, like a sculptor, would position them and mold them. Or like a choreographer, I would put them through the same paces, again and again.

anyways, before i read that, i posted on facebook about mold and even put a clip of drippy the penicillin mold from aqua teen...

this morning, i posted a pic of the kombucha tea. i said it almost feels like an alcohlic drink, how it opens up the veins. a friend posted that it does have some alchohol content to it. then i remembered something i read from an article, about


PAUSE! HEY HEY!! TALKING ABOUT THE INDIAN BREATH FRESHENER THEY USE! BUT YOU DONT EAT IT!? I THOUGHT YOU JUST SUCK ON IT BECAUSE IT CAUSES YOU TO SALIVATE. ITS ON ANTHONY ZIMMERS SHOW....I REMEMBER THEY GAVE US THAT AFTER A BUFFET WE WENT TOO...I DIDNT CATCH WHAT THEY CALLED IT???


ok so i remember reading about lindsey lohan spotted drinking kombucha tea, when she was not allowed to drink any alchohol, or, rather, she blamed the ankle bracelet on the tea. here, let me google it real quick!!

(trying to blog when someone keeps texting you is annoying!!!)

hmm..mike doesnt tell me the whole truths...dario is telling me that mike went inside the old apartment to dye his hair blonde, i guess doug and dario were there working on the old place. mike went to your welcome inn this saturday...

anyways.....

the day before, sage and my parents and i went to hobby lobby, and i saw these cool oversized flowers that i want to get for an ALICE IN WONDERLAND themed photoshoot...with roses and LILY OF THE VALLEYS....

uh........so like i said, i saw this 80s style hipster girl, she was wearing a miami vice style sweatshirt, and retro neon sunglasses...and when mike walked out, she walked in, and she walked right to where i was standing to look at the lily of the valley flowers they had set up...OH MY GOSH! THATS RIGHT!??! HE JUST SAID RICIN, whats his name? the odd guy who eats odd food, food show....anthony zimmerman? he just said the RICE IN the bowl? RICIN like in breaking bad!??! whats his name, i cant think, im afraid highlight and delete is going to happen...remember the part where um...i cant think!?? too many things going on!??! ricin...the POISONED CIGARETTE, but he used the LILY OF THE VALLEY, a less lethal (make sense??) a less dangerous POISON!??! POISON!??! LILY OF THE VALLEY? (IM NOT SURE WHATS REAL ANYMORE, BUT I KNOW ONE THING, I CANT GIVE UP ) I just heard that on tv for some show...and she ran down a tunnel...

as i was googling, i saw lily of the valley poison....whoa hmm...more like wow tho.not whoa...

((in the meantime dario is freaking me out. he said mike still lives at the old apartment...))

oh my gosh i feel weird right now!????!

i had a dream. i shared it on facebook. i dreamed i was in the 80s. i felt so out of place. i tried to tell some 80s dude, (who looked like one of the cute 80s actor, maybe that one guy, i forget his name?) about the all seeing eye...so i posted it on facebook, then i posted that one scene from hot tub time machine..

the one that says poison live...hmm...poison live...

i will screenshot it

OH MY GOD!! I JUST....NOTICED SOMETHING!???! MIAMI VICE, PIZZA...PI

remember, the 80s hipster girl at giant, wearing the miami vice style?

i have been HYPNOTIZED! I DID IT THO! A BUNCH OF STUFF!??! deep breath!!!

poison live...POISON LIVE! LIVE LIVE LIVE!!

A POISON THAT WILL LET YOU LIVE? NOT THE RICIN, BUT LILY OF THE VALLEY!! LILY OF THE VALLEY!???

deep breath...

what is going ON!???!

ok i need to finish this blog

sigh....(im going to make another blog about the WALMART/ELLIOT RODGER/TRACY MORGAN)

um....

and about the PI and PIZZA...DO YOU SEE, THE PIZZA NEXT TO THE MIAMI VICE? I HAVE BEEN CONTROLLED TO HAVE THAT 80S DREAM WHICH PROMPTED ME TO SEE THESE...SYNCHRONICITES? WHO FREAKING KNOWS? I WILL TAKE DEEP BREATH AND THEN COME BACK...

LET ME GOOGLE WHAT LILY OF THE VALLEY MEANS REAL QUICK

ALSO, i hypnotized myself....i was listening to hypnotizing videos because i had to remember something...

gracious...

alright i will close this and i need to make another blog, and then another one...

theres the MOLD i posted about....the penicillin arm and hammer mold, dario told me i sound like someone on acid. maybe my blood level is getting low again. maybe i am so low like i was, last time...oh what the fuck? im not asking him to text me. i thought he said he saw mike at our old bethlehem apartment because mike told me he drove by there after he left your welcome inn...

why is dario texting me tho hes distracting me???

im in a weird mood right now ok??? i think i am hypnotized by subliminal suggestions and also i had to remember something as well...i will post about it next blog tho...

Drew Barrymore

so i was looking for the scene from the movie, 'mad love' with drew barrymore, so that i could post it in the new occult and symbology group. ((same with the movie dreamcatcher, that i want to write about))....but for now i am going to put up symbolic pics of drew barrymore the scene where she is cutting out the eyes. i used to draw eyes all the time. i can find it if i watch the clips on youtube but i dont feel like it! not now at least. there are videos on youtube that show drew and her timeline, (i dont feel like finding it tho, its there)....oh yes i used to be like, i didnt believe ALL of them are mkd! like drew barrymore, she seems normal one would think, if you saw her in weho, (didnt she used to party there?) also, ashlee and jessica simpson. or that alexis chung or whatever!? come on! they arent all mkd surely childhood trauma happens and drew has been in the business since a very little girl, partying at studio 54 doing drugs, drinking cocaine at such a young age. clearly something isnt right.

later, the song, 'firestarter' played during her action scene on charlies angels. alter?

dopple/split personality

showing her butterfly tattoo

i used to love YM magazine and i remember this episode! this and alicia silverstone pink background reminded me of strawberry milk (ill do a blog post about magazine covers i liked later, now her hair reminds me too much of macaroni and cheese tho)

also loved JANE magazine! and sassy

daisys symbolize something..?

butterfly tattoo

duality with two face

good and evil/duality

she wasnt POISON IVY in batman, but she did play poison ivy

illuminati