I must admit, I miss my cable. I mean, I miss all the channels. You know?? It is nice saving some money, but still...I think I will get a roku and do sling. I have free tv apps tho, like Tubi and Pluto. So, they have a bunch of movies, so I always see Heartbreakers on Tubi, so I watched it. I remember I used to want that movie when it came out, years ago, but I never did. I really want MY OWN WEDDING! I want to get MARRIED! I want a family of my own. Damn. Well, despite Jennifer Love Hewitt being super hot, I can also see that she has a male skull. Oh, I don't know!?? There are transvestigations about her tho. Sigourney Weaver is obviously an XY. Jason Lee is in the movie, so is Zach Galifinakis and Sarah Silverman, and I can see that they are transgendered. Zach is transgendered. Jason Lee is too, prob. He looks like Kevin tho. Kevin looks like Jason Lee, and Vinnie from Jersey shore. I kind of miss hanging out with him. He is fun, and we get along, but he doesn't talk to me anymore. Neither does Shannan. Screw em. 

Maybe Mike and I should get married in vegas. jk I can't do that. If I want to get married, that is my choice. My decision. You know, a while ago, I was dating um, whats his name..Dennis. That was back in my 20s. I could of married him, and he is like a dr now or something. I have no idea why Moss thought it was in my best interest to move out there. He really just...well, he interfered with my life. Why? What did I truly get out of living out there? Stories that were not meant to be mine. That's what. Stories. Incidents. Stuff that does not matter to me now. I want a family. I want to be in love, and with Mike, well, it's not that way. I don't feel that way with him.

So, as far as transvestigations, there are women I know, who have masculine features. My cousin Mary, has a skull that is big. I mean...I saw a high school friend post a picture of her and this girl, Desiree. Desiree was the new girl, back when we were freshman in high school. She was so pretty, and she became popular instantly. The teachers even wanted her. Yeah, it was weird. There was also this guy, this Ross from friends dopey kind of guy, he was in my class. Bob I think..Bobby? I remember he made an off color comment about her, he said she thinks she has big nipples. Dafuck!?? Yeah, well, I saw my other friend posted a pic of Desiree, a throwback pic, so I was wondering if she had a facebook page. I saw Bobby comment, saying his wife has aged well or something, so I clicked on his profile and I saw pictures of her, I guess they got married and have kids. Personally, I think it's kind of gross, (sorry, not gross, but weird. Incestual Friends like stuff ..ross and rachel! Puke), it is kind of weird when high school sweethearts marry. I mean, we change from who we were in high school. We evolve. When old time friends or high school sweethearts get married, it's just..like, weird to me. Like, they are not given a chance to just become themselves. Idk, but as I was looking through the photos, Desiree has a really masculine skull, and she has straight across collarbone, like a man. I actually went and saved some pictures, to show. I know, it is really weird, creepy, and stalkery that I did this...but she has kids now. I mean, guys CAN look ftm-ish, like Kevin, resembling FTM actors...?? Women can have masculine features too, does not mean they are men or have xy chromosomes? Or, everything is just fucking weird.

should i post the pictures? I feel bad if I do, and i feel it might somehow get back to her...i mean, you never know. im not sure if i want to post the pictures of them. it's creepy, even for me. hmm...yeah, im not going to post the pictures.

Does Abuela Hear Yanny or Laurel?

i know this is old news, but...i used to hear 'yanny' just on this specific video but now...now i hear laurel. you can even see my comment stating this..



ok its really weird because now...now i dont hear yanny anymore. i used too. my parents heard laurel but on this one they hear yanny. watch, a few days later, you will hear laurel again. WHAT IS THIS WITCHERY!??



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Lula Fawn1 week ago

On this one, I hear 'yanny' but normally its Laurel

I need a change. I want to manifest my destiny, (I cancelled my fairytale subscription tho...)..its ok. things will work out. I have a pretty normal, boring and basic life. Does not mean by having this kind of life, I cannot accomplish my dreams. Instead of finding a motorcycle guy, I can save up for my own motorcycle, and learn how to drive one and get my license. (oh but is it stick tho?? ) yeah. what else? I can actually FOCUS! quit wasting time on alcohol, that just takes away from my potential. i can really write. i can write the anand jon story. i can also write my other ideas. I CAN DO IT! i know i can! I can travel! I still can do it! If mike cant travel with me, i would do it on my own. id bring my kid. or whatever. I WILL DO IT!! MAN! OK!??? and fuck walmart. i mean, im thankful they gave me work, but im sick of working at night and on the wknds. bye

DIY Toothpaste pregnancy test

Birth control really messes with me. I know, tmi, but Mike and I really do not have sex that often. Yeah but anyways, so, I noticed some spotting, which is typical of implantation bleeding, which happens about a week after fertilization. I have been on the pill but I have missed a day here and there. Anyways, I really do not think I am, but I am doing this DIY Homemade preg test, the toothpaste test! This video gives me mucho ASMR vibes tho! Walmart has videos we have to watch when we are training, and I always liked the aesthetic of them. This has that appeal::

**ever since i added mike on to google, (for us to watch cobra kai), i have been having TROUBLE sharing videos TO MY BLOG from youtube. its annoying!?? ?

i had this idea years ago for an invention. i went to the invention place actually...and i told them about it. did they STEAL MY IDEA!???!?

https://www.amazon.com/Barefoot-Invisible-Anti-slip-Waterproof-Protection/dp/B074JXYJ2J/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1527209567&sr=8-1&keywords=adhesive%20foot%20pad

google made this. neat kind of...

ASMR ideas

ASMR ideas:

Movie theater attendant with refreshments and showtimes. classic films such as gone with the wind, and intermission. meals provided if desired. alcoholic beverages on staff as well.

Eating candy ASMR. all the old school yummies, sour patch kids, swedish fish...nostalgic candies that will take the viewer back just by watching.

Retro makeover, using all the old school makeups from back in the day. Key is to bring you back to those times. Maybelline mascara, old brushes, caboodles etc

AA ASMR, focus on coffee, background crowd noises, styrofoam coffee cups, stories from different people, the prayer etc

Business meeting ASMR, a presentation using graphs, reviewing job changes, company picnic etc. (I always found meetings relaxing, even tho we do not get them at walmart. LAME!!!)

Abduction pt 2. (always a hit)...



TRANVESTIGATIONS

eugenia cooney (was just done)
blurred lines emily ratajowkski (??)
daddario (?)
that poppy
alicia silverstone
nicole arbor