i want to put up some hello kitty christmas lights in my room. im going to put the futon in the living room (i had to throw out my loveseat it broke)...i have my tv and ps4 and it would be cool to have someone to lay in bed with, watch movies, drink champagne and eat snacks with (idk about eating snacks tho)...i want someone to be interested in doing fun things with me. i want someone who is on the same wavelenght as me.

a few days ago, mike texted me about going to dorney park on sunday. i forgot it was mem day weekend. jen wants me to go camping with her and her family. so i texted mike and said, 'you never ask me what i want to do, its always what you want to do." and it is. its always where he wants to go to eat, what he wants to do. i have fun ideas but never once has he let me choose plans. i said jen wants us to go camping, we should go! then he texted me back mentioning how im selfish and all kinds of shit. how i did stuff that he didnt want, (like going to california or going to the ginuwine concert with sherry) like..what?? is he crazy? absurdity!

im like, what the fuck? i dont want to be with someone that doesnt want to do something fun like camping. i mean, hes so weird!?? i told him this on the phone then he erupted into screaming at me like a maniac. he is bipolar. i am so done.

today he calls me like nothing is wrong. i mean, i cant take this anymore.

i really just want to meet someone who is like me, fun, chill, layed back. mike says im selfish and says that i have no motivation..he says alot of shit about me well then just leave me alone.

oh jen tried to set me up with her neighbor (who turns out i graduated warren tech with)..he has a motorcyle. but...im not interested in him, i'll be friends with him tho for a motorcycle ride tho!

yeah id like to find someone who has a nice bike...someone who loves to do outside stuff.

whatever.