my friend...well, she is constantly fishing for compliments. idk, it just...annoys me so much!! so i am going to vent here!! i will eventually make a new blog, the creative writing one...just...ugh need to complain! my sister got drunk a few times, and she kept accusing me of wanting attention because i post a few selfies from time to time, and she always post snide links and jokes about selfies. she later told me she is afraid she is going to lose her jaw, so she finds 'vanity' to be selfish, but only if i do it! anyone else isn't selfish or attention seeking, just me!??! first off, she is not going to lose her jaw, like the ghost lady in beetlejuice did...and secondly, so what if i post selfies!? its not like i do it all the time, and its never those cleavage shots nor is it ever skinny "itg' gaps and tiny waist (well, because i dont have neither)...its just selfies of me if i am wearing makeup. in fact, i came up with a hashtag called selfie sober saturday. tons of my problems came from drinking, so i need to become sober and focus on making better decisions for myself. i say selfie to show how happy i am that i am not drinking, nor do i need drinking to make me feel happy. so why not smile at the sober life?? frankly, my sister needs to get sober! she also told me i giggle when weirdos post innapropriate comments um NO THE HELL NAW!! I TELL THEM STRAIGHT UP DO NOT POST INNAPROPRIATE COMMENTS! I CANT STAND WHEN A GUY IS RUDE, OR HAS THE AUDACITY TO SEND ME A DICK PIC (which never happens! because i dont give the impression that i want one! i would unfriend and block someone IF THEY EVER DID ANYTHING LIKE THAT!!! and thats the damn truth! ignorant rude assholes!!!
f the haters!!
well, my friend has so many dick pics! i would be so offended if guys just found it fun to send me dick pics, but hey, she likes it! rather, i think she fools herself into thinking she does. its a way for her to get attention i suppose. sure, a girl can collect dick pics as much as guys try and ask girls for boob and p*ss* shots etc, (and guys do! they will ask anyone! it doesnt mean you are super hot..geez!) no girl wants a variety of different mushroom looking dick pics, balls, bleh seriously!??!
she constantly posts pics of herself, , bikini, (and shes a bigger girl, i mean, good for her but still) HEY im not the only one thinking shes fishing! if a bigger girl would be posting bikinis it wouldnt be like 'you go girl!" "show off your bod you hot mama"' it would be more like, rolling eyes, uh that girl is trying to show off! and all the guys would be like, "your fine!" or worse statements! nasty rude crude statements! i mean, if you feel proud of your body, then so the f what? show off!
but my friend, is so insecure that she will post a boop boop be doop pic so she can get a bunch of 'hawt' vrOOm VROOM cartoon like replies vroom vroom boom boom! lemme see dat dupe doom!
its like, girl!!! chill, cuz ppl get annoyed when ya always posting selfies! but then again, so the fuck what!! post what you want!! who cares if you piss ppl off or annoy ppl!!
boop boop be doop! HONK!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
hand on cheek gesture robin williams
so....billy crystal was honoring robin williams in a tribute at the emmy awards last night. the night before, i noticed another aging funnyman, jim carrey, and dumb and dumber costar playing around with scarves. i am surprised they didnt outright do a hanging/choking game with the scarf, because that is what one thinks of when scarves are involved. here are the tributes, that billy crystal did. take note of the scarf mork and mindy scene they show...(robin williams hung inside supposedly), at 3:30 seconds...below video
now, here is the video link to jim carrey and jeff daniels : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vc2_D2G0_aU
now......lets see lets see....
take note of the pic of robin williams holding his hand up to his eye. this gesture means something, gesture on the cheek. strangely, there is a photo of billy crystal doing the exact same thing. here is what this gesture means (hand on cheek)
As Marrs himself points out on pgs. 296-297 of Codex Magica:
“A number of dictionaries of symbols state that the hand placed on the neck signifies sacrifice. Now, sacrifice can have at least two meanings --- one, the continuing threat of the penalties to be applied to punish those adepts and initiates who so impertinently reveal the secrets of the Order; and two, the willingness of the individual performing the sign to sacrifice himself for the good of the Order, or for the good of the cause or Great Work of the Illuminati.”
some more pics to take note of:
now, here is the video link to jim carrey and jeff daniels : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vc2_D2G0_aU
now......lets see lets see....
take note of the pic of robin williams holding his hand up to his eye. this gesture means something, gesture on the cheek. strangely, there is a photo of billy crystal doing the exact same thing. here is what this gesture means (hand on cheek)
As Marrs himself points out on pgs. 296-297 of Codex Magica:
“A number of dictionaries of symbols state that the hand placed on the neck signifies sacrifice. Now, sacrifice can have at least two meanings --- one, the continuing threat of the penalties to be applied to punish those adepts and initiates who so impertinently reveal the secrets of the Order; and two, the willingness of the individual performing the sign to sacrifice himself for the good of the Order, or for the good of the cause or Great Work of the Illuminati.”
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ariana not so grande
i just want to share my thoughts on the vma mkd models this year. yes, i did watch...and it was the most boring vmas ever! of course, i thought last years was dull as heck too, till i seen how everyone was making such a big deal about miley's performance. this year was just a bunch of body types, singing songs we never heard of. what body types? oh, nicki minaj and her big fake booty, and not to mention when she held her dress, that was supposedly unzippered together. i wasn't sure what was going on there, i thought she was going to rip it open, exposing some sort of strange spider-like thongette outfit ala miley did last year, with the cheese uncooked poultry get-up she had underneath all the mousey cheese....i have no clue!?? it looked like nicki was holding her belly as if she was venus de milo, or maybe she was pregnant, holding tightly her pregnant belly with matronly care..but nope, it was planned that way? of course, the venus demilo statue is also missing some arms, so that means fractured, broken mind..mind controlled...
so..im not sure if nicki was invoking venus somehow?? maybe even venus and serena WILLIAMS, who are both known for their oh my god becky big butts...(nickis new song is 'anaconda' which samples from sir mix alot baby got back)
the other bodies of the night were teeny tiny, malnourished ariana grande, who aint grand at all, opposite of, also icky izalea...and her weird butt...
she has a weird dumpy butt...anyways...fake bodies that have somehow been manipulated.
during the vmas, the snl guy made a joke about ariana grande being legal. if you click the link, you will see the video she does with weird butt icky azalea, and ariana looks so tiny and malnourished, its not hot. i think she was given something to keep her from growing...and so that ppl would embrace pedophilia more because they will confuse someone they market us to find 'hot'...oh btw, when will arianas transformation from good girl to bad girl take place? because then she will be dubbed all sexy, like hannah montana and rihanna, all them went through this transformation. we will see skinny little ariana grande go through the bad girl transformation, with her little body, and ppl will be brainwashed to be confused that her little body is hot, but her body is that of a childs!
watch this video : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iS1g8G_njx8
i watched it once shes just so skinny and tiny and malnourished!!
dancing around it looks like her bones are gonna snap!
she def got plastic surgery too to look more like a disney princess, look at her as a child and now
she got a nose job or something, and i think they gave her stuff to keep her small like that...
the vmas were very boring tho...taylor swift and beyonce...blah...i dont think any men even played? must be year of the feminine...
but um.....idk......just thoughts i had. i know, im lame to of even watched the vmas!??!?
i watched the emmys too...shrug
the other bodies of the night were teeny tiny, malnourished ariana grande, who aint grand at all, opposite of, also icky izalea...and her weird butt...
she has a weird dumpy butt...anyways...fake bodies that have somehow been manipulated.
during the vmas, the snl guy made a joke about ariana grande being legal. if you click the link, you will see the video she does with weird butt icky azalea, and ariana looks so tiny and malnourished, its not hot. i think she was given something to keep her from growing...and so that ppl would embrace pedophilia more because they will confuse someone they market us to find 'hot'...oh btw, when will arianas transformation from good girl to bad girl take place? because then she will be dubbed all sexy, like hannah montana and rihanna, all them went through this transformation. we will see skinny little ariana grande go through the bad girl transformation, with her little body, and ppl will be brainwashed to be confused that her little body is hot, but her body is that of a childs!
watch this video : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iS1g8G_njx8
i watched it once shes just so skinny and tiny and malnourished!!
dancing around it looks like her bones are gonna snap!
she def got plastic surgery too to look more like a disney princess, look at her as a child and now
she got a nose job or something, and i think they gave her stuff to keep her small like that...
the vmas were very boring tho...taylor swift and beyonce...blah...i dont think any men even played? must be year of the feminine...
but um.....idk......just thoughts i had. i know, im lame to of even watched the vmas!??!?
i watched the emmys too...shrug
Monday, August 25, 2014
MEH
Ok, so, I go from thinking I am going to be a mother, and raise my child, to not. It is tough. It is very hard to deal with. I wanted to keep the little baby safe, but for some reason it didn't hold on. This was my baby!! My child! I just had a miscarriage. So, with that said, I do not need my friend telling me they wrote me an email. No! I do not want to read an email on how long you were crying because you think it is such a mistake for me to raise a child! I do not need to be told what to do with MY BODY! for someone who is so liberal, then he should RESPECT womens rights and some women want to keep their baby and raise them. he sent me links to some article about MARRIED people who make a decent shared income, and even them struggle with selfish depression on how hard it is for them and how they wish they didnt have kids. are you kidding me!?? i am not a statistic! i am not going to base anything off of something i read in a magazine. so they tell you, your taxes are paying for welfare!?? oh knock it off!!
i know alot of mothers who are fine and happy raising their kids and they are able to do it! i would of been a great mom, i would of done it! because i would have no other choice. shannan doesnt have alot of money but she is raising two kids and with another one on the way. i think well, you know...
yes i hope i can get married. yeah! i do want to get married. i want to have children.
i just asked him to stop it with the links, stop it with the advice i never asked for. how dare he make me feel that way!?? i am so sad that i lost my baby, but i was willing and planning on raising my baby and being nothing but a great mother as i could be.
and what does he want? me to go out there? what do i do when i am out there? i wander around the streets of hollywood, feeling completely lost and alone...i mean, im over the bar scene, really. its not fun to go to bars, only to be mocked and street theatered by comedy troupes and the like. i mean, its just a completely satanic feeling...idk...
going out to hipster bars....spending money on drinks, not really meeting anyone of interest....ehhh
yeah its cool and fun to go to red carpet parties, take pics with the celebs, but what comes out of it? no one is going to out right come out and tell me, "yes! we watch you! we know you are poison! join us JOIN US!!" all that is gonna happen is more and more subliminal hidden msgs, but i will never know, i will never find out the truth! i will continue to feel like an awkward poor girl. and do i want to sell my soul, like kai did? he went on to write cupcake girl. AW HAIL NAW!!!
I AINT GUN SAIL MY SAUL SOUL..SAYUL
SOIL BRIM AND TOIL (OOPS SOUND LIKE A WITCHES CHANT)
naw thanks tho, really!!????! HOW ODD ROBOT CHICKEN JUST CAME ON ITS DARK VADER HE JUST SAID WED BE HONORED IF YOU CAN JOIN US!!
Ha didnt i just say!! well robot chicken adult swim people, please!!! just answer my questions! i mean, come on!??!
hmm........it just said wed be honored if you can join us...
i was gonna say how eddy and mindy were
at the vmas taking pics with miley cyrus and all, but you know, so what? it looks kind of ridiculous after a while. its like, how many famous ppl and events you are gonna get into but what does it even matter? are you anyone important? see, i could go to parties this and that take pics with celebs but what does it even matter. no one is gonna just be like, 'JOIN US! JOIN US! WE WILL TELL YOU THE SECRETS'
EDIT just saw this on adult swim a bump...license plates which say CIA-H8ER N1BLVSME theyputa chip in my head
and something else...WEKNOWEVERYTHING
WHAAA OK WELL......I AINT A CIA HATER BUT UM..DONT BE PUTTIN NO CHIPS IN MY HEAD!
so mike and i went to dorney park today. we got there early...it was fun day, but draining. went on a bunch of rides. im sleepy now
but yeah, i mean, eddy and mindy go to all these events (emmys tomorrow) but so what!??!
i could be out there, posting all over facebook pics of me and celebs sometimes it feels like im in a celebrity dorney park, an amusement parkourage where i can run from one famous person to the next!! asking for a pic!!! then my audacity will grow, my courage, nah jk what else can you ask for other than a picture? sex!??! HAHA JK
i dont know ewwwwwwwwwwww
anyways....
i know alot of mothers who are fine and happy raising their kids and they are able to do it! i would of been a great mom, i would of done it! because i would have no other choice. shannan doesnt have alot of money but she is raising two kids and with another one on the way. i think well, you know...
yes i hope i can get married. yeah! i do want to get married. i want to have children.
i just asked him to stop it with the links, stop it with the advice i never asked for. how dare he make me feel that way!?? i am so sad that i lost my baby, but i was willing and planning on raising my baby and being nothing but a great mother as i could be.
and what does he want? me to go out there? what do i do when i am out there? i wander around the streets of hollywood, feeling completely lost and alone...i mean, im over the bar scene, really. its not fun to go to bars, only to be mocked and street theatered by comedy troupes and the like. i mean, its just a completely satanic feeling...idk...
going out to hipster bars....spending money on drinks, not really meeting anyone of interest....ehhh
yeah its cool and fun to go to red carpet parties, take pics with the celebs, but what comes out of it? no one is going to out right come out and tell me, "yes! we watch you! we know you are poison! join us JOIN US!!" all that is gonna happen is more and more subliminal hidden msgs, but i will never know, i will never find out the truth! i will continue to feel like an awkward poor girl. and do i want to sell my soul, like kai did? he went on to write cupcake girl. AW HAIL NAW!!!
I AINT GUN SAIL MY SAUL SOUL..SAYUL
SOIL BRIM AND TOIL (OOPS SOUND LIKE A WITCHES CHANT)
naw thanks tho, really!!????! HOW ODD ROBOT CHICKEN JUST CAME ON ITS DARK VADER HE JUST SAID WED BE HONORED IF YOU CAN JOIN US!!
Ha didnt i just say!! well robot chicken adult swim people, please!!! just answer my questions! i mean, come on!??!
hmm........it just said wed be honored if you can join us...
i was gonna say how eddy and mindy were
at the vmas taking pics with miley cyrus and all, but you know, so what? it looks kind of ridiculous after a while. its like, how many famous ppl and events you are gonna get into but what does it even matter? are you anyone important? see, i could go to parties this and that take pics with celebs but what does it even matter. no one is gonna just be like, 'JOIN US! JOIN US! WE WILL TELL YOU THE SECRETS'
EDIT just saw this on adult swim a bump...license plates which say CIA-H8ER N1BLVSME theyputa chip in my head
and something else...WEKNOWEVERYTHING
WHAAA OK WELL......I AINT A CIA HATER BUT UM..DONT BE PUTTIN NO CHIPS IN MY HEAD!
so mike and i went to dorney park today. we got there early...it was fun day, but draining. went on a bunch of rides. im sleepy now
but yeah, i mean, eddy and mindy go to all these events (emmys tomorrow) but so what!??!
i could be out there, posting all over facebook pics of me and celebs sometimes it feels like im in a celebrity dorney park, an amusement parkourage where i can run from one famous person to the next!! asking for a pic!!! then my audacity will grow, my courage, nah jk what else can you ask for other than a picture? sex!??! HAHA JK
i dont know ewwwwwwwwwwww
anyways....
Friday, August 22, 2014
cold ice bucket
this is strange, lets see...where can i start? oh, i will just shucks, write about group...and then the synchs!???
so, i was tired after court...i mean, court was only a little less than an hour and i didnt even speak with a judge? i met my lawyers associate, and basically she told me i am on the list for ASP (alternative sentencing program), which will be 7 days incarceration, with work release if i have a job, also 23 days house arrest (anklet bracelet hay!), and the worst of it all...5 years probation....see, i dont/wont mind the 7 days in jail...i wont even mind the house arrest, the worst is probation...and 5 years at that??? ill be in my 40s by the time i have my freedom back!? wtf!??! i dont want to be stuck here without a license id rather just...idk...
also....not being able to drive is going to hurt me too.
anyways, i was tired after court so i drank more than half the shot of grape 5 hour energy so that i can waken up for my last class.
it was just me, lori, dave, and the other guy (new guy) well, he was in our class last 4 days i think...
i saw brian at the court but he wasnt at class i guess he did the day class. so, it was ok, but lori, she means well, but she also interrupts ppl, she never let ppl finish their stories or statements without changing it into her perspective or opinion or story...after a while it just...gets so annoying! shes nice tho i mean, she texted me a few times. she means well, but the only thing is, she would not give other ppl a chance to talk!??! like, if someone new were saying something, well, i would see her fiddle with her phone and hope to goodness she wouldnt drop it to automatically spurt her voice without allowing me to ask questions pertaining to the class about probation. the new guy was talking about it so i wanted to ask him more questions but when he was done SHE started talking like a know it all and by the time she was over, my question was no longer relevant!??! she would never let ppl finish interesting stories...ugh oh well class is over...
so, i think...5 hour energy messed with me. yawn..im tired now! im just gonna write it tomorrow...
ehh....i should just finish it...
so lately i have been getting these damn pop up ads, by adchoice. i never asked for them, but they would appear anywhere, id hear an ad for kia and i would be like wtf??? on wiki pages, on my own blog page, anywhere and at any given time...they would just appear!???
so i got fed up and searched to delete it. sure , i had tabs up, tabs to links i was intending to look at, (by now lost and forgotten)...so i googled how to get rid of adchoice. it proceeded to tell me (for firefox, which i use), to go the three lines in the upper right corner and go to help. for the heck of me (??) whatever, i could not find help!?? so i would google it finally i found out it was the ? mark...right? anyways, so i had to go to troubleshoot reset firefox. seems simple enough. well i did this and then i wanted to bring firefox back up. my avast also told me threat was detected so it rescanned. well when i tried to bring up firefox it was telling me i
could not ...i forget the words it used yawn
so i tried to go through explorer or chrome to download firefox and chrome kept saying i would have to shut off lan settings so i followed the instructions after using my phone to figure out how to bring up tools or something...in chrome...AHH so stressful plus tv was out due to weather (we got a flash flood warning)
yawn! im tired! its 230 am...finally i did all that and downloaded firefox, only for it to tell me that proxy wont open??
so i gave up and continued to use chrome. i hit some keys and i noticed my fb turned BLUE!??! so i was all posting about why is it blue along with pics and what not...no one responded, all was silent...and i was like, 'am i in some sort of parelllel universe is this for real?" then my sychroncity friend posted a post about hashtag isthisreallife, like david says in david the dentist and i made a reference to the dentist too because i said, 'is this real life' and she posted a link about skrillex paris hilton, and someone else doing the ice bucket challenge...i also posted, 'did i do the ice bucket challenge and now i am in some sort of fb parelell universe?
i was posting tho, 'is this real life?'
is that why my fb is BLUE because it did the ice bucket challenge?? (more about that later but im way too tired to go into the chanting/invocation/spells aspects of this new craze)...
i also heard the word REEL and then i heard real bullshit at the same time i was reading real...i forget!? i sound like a nutjob i know!??!?
anyways then i saw a post for a fox...
oh yeah a friend posted about jessie, who i know from the miss universe aids awareness tour in india...see??
http://nypost.com/2014/08/20/dating-naked-cast-member-sues-after-crotch-blur-fail/?utm_campaign=SocialFlow&utm_source=NYPFacebook&utm_medium=SocialFlow
shes on that show naked dating or whatever...american dad played an episode they were in INDIA
i think they intentionally unblurred her crotch otherwise id of never known she was on that show, i dont really watch that show??? idk
to get my attention!?? then i saw a post to a cute fox so i clicked on it...here it is
http://abcnews.go.com/International/fox-friendly-released-wild/story?id=25074832
oh at that point, i saw the blue sides of my facebook turn back to normal, before it was blue...like it was cold...then it turned back to normal??? like they were trying to get my attention!??!
but that fox looked cute so i clicked on it, its about a fox...that cant escape?? its stuck, like my fox!??! my firefox!??! it cant escape now its stuck, all my internet memories, erased!??!
i just felt all kinds of nutty HA!!?? oh yeah in group, when lori started talking, i was feeling myself get all like, heart beating fast, that five hour energy didnt help. that is the commercial that followed me around the tv that one night i was hypnotized, and the commercial all their faces melted and turned into evil upturned grins, like the black hole sun video...
it was weird...
but yeah...idk what happened!?? i keep hearing the word naked on this new show tho...
im probably forgetting things now...for-get-TING TINGS
darnnnnnnnnnnnn
evil grin
so, i was tired after court...i mean, court was only a little less than an hour and i didnt even speak with a judge? i met my lawyers associate, and basically she told me i am on the list for ASP (alternative sentencing program), which will be 7 days incarceration, with work release if i have a job, also 23 days house arrest (anklet bracelet hay!), and the worst of it all...5 years probation....see, i dont/wont mind the 7 days in jail...i wont even mind the house arrest, the worst is probation...and 5 years at that??? ill be in my 40s by the time i have my freedom back!? wtf!??! i dont want to be stuck here without a license id rather just...idk...
also....not being able to drive is going to hurt me too.
anyways, i was tired after court so i drank more than half the shot of grape 5 hour energy so that i can waken up for my last class.
it was just me, lori, dave, and the other guy (new guy) well, he was in our class last 4 days i think...
i saw brian at the court but he wasnt at class i guess he did the day class. so, it was ok, but lori, she means well, but she also interrupts ppl, she never let ppl finish their stories or statements without changing it into her perspective or opinion or story...after a while it just...gets so annoying! shes nice tho i mean, she texted me a few times. she means well, but the only thing is, she would not give other ppl a chance to talk!??! like, if someone new were saying something, well, i would see her fiddle with her phone and hope to goodness she wouldnt drop it to automatically spurt her voice without allowing me to ask questions pertaining to the class about probation. the new guy was talking about it so i wanted to ask him more questions but when he was done SHE started talking like a know it all and by the time she was over, my question was no longer relevant!??! she would never let ppl finish interesting stories...ugh oh well class is over...
so, i think...5 hour energy messed with me. yawn..im tired now! im just gonna write it tomorrow...
ehh....i should just finish it...
so lately i have been getting these damn pop up ads, by adchoice. i never asked for them, but they would appear anywhere, id hear an ad for kia and i would be like wtf??? on wiki pages, on my own blog page, anywhere and at any given time...they would just appear!???
so i got fed up and searched to delete it. sure , i had tabs up, tabs to links i was intending to look at, (by now lost and forgotten)...so i googled how to get rid of adchoice. it proceeded to tell me (for firefox, which i use), to go the three lines in the upper right corner and go to help. for the heck of me (??) whatever, i could not find help!?? so i would google it finally i found out it was the ? mark...right? anyways, so i had to go to troubleshoot reset firefox. seems simple enough. well i did this and then i wanted to bring firefox back up. my avast also told me threat was detected so it rescanned. well when i tried to bring up firefox it was telling me i
could not ...i forget the words it used yawn
so i tried to go through explorer or chrome to download firefox and chrome kept saying i would have to shut off lan settings so i followed the instructions after using my phone to figure out how to bring up tools or something...in chrome...AHH so stressful plus tv was out due to weather (we got a flash flood warning)
yawn! im tired! its 230 am...finally i did all that and downloaded firefox, only for it to tell me that proxy wont open??
so i gave up and continued to use chrome. i hit some keys and i noticed my fb turned BLUE!??! so i was all posting about why is it blue along with pics and what not...no one responded, all was silent...and i was like, 'am i in some sort of parelllel universe is this for real?" then my sychroncity friend posted a post about hashtag isthisreallife, like david says in david the dentist and i made a reference to the dentist too because i said, 'is this real life' and she posted a link about skrillex paris hilton, and someone else doing the ice bucket challenge...i also posted, 'did i do the ice bucket challenge and now i am in some sort of fb parelell universe?
i was posting tho, 'is this real life?'
is that why my fb is BLUE because it did the ice bucket challenge?? (more about that later but im way too tired to go into the chanting/invocation/spells aspects of this new craze)...
i also heard the word REEL and then i heard real bullshit at the same time i was reading real...i forget!? i sound like a nutjob i know!??!?
anyways then i saw a post for a fox...
oh yeah a friend posted about jessie, who i know from the miss universe aids awareness tour in india...see??
http://nypost.com/2014/08/20/dating-naked-cast-member-sues-after-crotch-blur-fail/?utm_campaign=SocialFlow&utm_source=NYPFacebook&utm_medium=SocialFlow
shes on that show naked dating or whatever...american dad played an episode they were in INDIA
i think they intentionally unblurred her crotch otherwise id of never known she was on that show, i dont really watch that show??? idk
to get my attention!?? then i saw a post to a cute fox so i clicked on it...here it is
http://abcnews.go.com/International/fox-friendly-released-wild/story?id=25074832
oh at that point, i saw the blue sides of my facebook turn back to normal, before it was blue...like it was cold...then it turned back to normal??? like they were trying to get my attention!??!
but that fox looked cute so i clicked on it, its about a fox...that cant escape?? its stuck, like my fox!??! my firefox!??! it cant escape now its stuck, all my internet memories, erased!??!
i just felt all kinds of nutty HA!!?? oh yeah in group, when lori started talking, i was feeling myself get all like, heart beating fast, that five hour energy didnt help. that is the commercial that followed me around the tv that one night i was hypnotized, and the commercial all their faces melted and turned into evil upturned grins, like the black hole sun video...
it was weird...
but yeah...idk what happened!?? i keep hearing the word naked on this new show tho...
im probably forgetting things now...for-get-TING TINGS
darnnnnnnnnnnnn
evil grin
stuff and chrome
wtf is this? someone shared this page...it looks like a looksie lookbook at who the new MK models are...i mean, its like, these are NOT real ppl, its ppl that have been compartmentalized to be neatly packaged as say, the new fashion website mogul, the new model, the new...whatever it is they are!? who ARE THESE PPL!??! how did they just 'break into' that industry?
before, no one really ever questioned where these perfectly packaged ppl came from, we just assumed they knew the right ppl...but if we really thought about it, the story just wont seem right!??
they were found...in a shopping mall? i guess in LA that...can happen, but for real?
i mean, i know jessie niezewitz, who i guess is on the new vh1 show, naked dating. apparenly they showed her crotchal on tv when it should of been blurred out...now shes gonna sue. someone shared it on facebook...i saw her i was like, that looks like jessie!?? i was on the miss india aids awareness tour with her...
i was going to link it here but firefox had a bunch of rilly annoying ads on it so i restarted firefox now its telling me i lost firefox...so now all my tabs and bookmarks are gone!?? what a lost feeling, like my internet memory is gone and i am starting from scratch. its like when one day you go from thinking you are going to be a mother to the next day having your uterus just...void the life growing inside of you...
well, the latter is worse...its tough. my court date was today. i dont want to think about it. in fact, tonight, i wont. im just glad class is over...
yeah so, click this link: https://galoremag.com/azealia-banks-interview/
who are all those weird people? its like, when you go to a fancy party in manhatten and you just see...these people...with their...idk...their um...brands or labels..or whatever it is that they do!??? and who are you? who am i amongst these ppl (well, im not amongst them but you know what i mean..)
i mean, according to statistics, i should just of been married, good job, 2 kids...mom....i dont even know anymore!?? i cant even travel!??!
im gonna have 5 years probation!??! what the fuck is probation!??! i cant have my freedom? i have to now be babysitted!??! i cant leave this state!??!
why would i want to stick around NJ if i cant drive!? id rather move out to california and try my luck out there, moss keeps telling me he can 'get me a job in entertainment'
i thought i was going to be a mother!! and now...now i dont know!?? and i lost all my internet memory...fuck fuck FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
i should feel happy but i dont!?? i feel like, im gonna explode, soon. right now i am so nuetral but it will come. the tension the stress...it will come. i havent expressed myself in a while
i just want freedom. i want to be in control of my life. funny, i thought by me leaving mike i was taking control....i was saving money, working. i didnt care about going out to lame bethlehem.
now it seems i am going to be stuck here forever. my life has been an eternal limbo. i just cant take this anymore. this limbo.
im chatting so i cant just get into what i want to say...my therapy...and the tv is so loud and distracting...
i spent all this time trying to get back online!!!
i feel like im in an internet parellel universe now. facebook is now blue...my internet memory is erased...
i just...im confused!??
i guess i will talk about last group meeting tomorrow!!!
before, no one really ever questioned where these perfectly packaged ppl came from, we just assumed they knew the right ppl...but if we really thought about it, the story just wont seem right!??
they were found...in a shopping mall? i guess in LA that...can happen, but for real?
i mean, i know jessie niezewitz, who i guess is on the new vh1 show, naked dating. apparenly they showed her crotchal on tv when it should of been blurred out...now shes gonna sue. someone shared it on facebook...i saw her i was like, that looks like jessie!?? i was on the miss india aids awareness tour with her...
i was going to link it here but firefox had a bunch of rilly annoying ads on it so i restarted firefox now its telling me i lost firefox...so now all my tabs and bookmarks are gone!?? what a lost feeling, like my internet memory is gone and i am starting from scratch. its like when one day you go from thinking you are going to be a mother to the next day having your uterus just...void the life growing inside of you...
well, the latter is worse...its tough. my court date was today. i dont want to think about it. in fact, tonight, i wont. im just glad class is over...
yeah so, click this link: https://galoremag.com/azealia-banks-interview/
who are all those weird people? its like, when you go to a fancy party in manhatten and you just see...these people...with their...idk...their um...brands or labels..or whatever it is that they do!??? and who are you? who am i amongst these ppl (well, im not amongst them but you know what i mean..)
i mean, according to statistics, i should just of been married, good job, 2 kids...mom....i dont even know anymore!?? i cant even travel!??!
im gonna have 5 years probation!??! what the fuck is probation!??! i cant have my freedom? i have to now be babysitted!??! i cant leave this state!??!
why would i want to stick around NJ if i cant drive!? id rather move out to california and try my luck out there, moss keeps telling me he can 'get me a job in entertainment'
i thought i was going to be a mother!! and now...now i dont know!?? and i lost all my internet memory...fuck fuck FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
i should feel happy but i dont!?? i feel like, im gonna explode, soon. right now i am so nuetral but it will come. the tension the stress...it will come. i havent expressed myself in a while
i just want freedom. i want to be in control of my life. funny, i thought by me leaving mike i was taking control....i was saving money, working. i didnt care about going out to lame bethlehem.
now it seems i am going to be stuck here forever. my life has been an eternal limbo. i just cant take this anymore. this limbo.
im chatting so i cant just get into what i want to say...my therapy...and the tv is so loud and distracting...
i spent all this time trying to get back online!!!
i feel like im in an internet parellel universe now. facebook is now blue...my internet memory is erased...
i just...im confused!??
i guess i will talk about last group meeting tomorrow!!!
Thursday, August 21, 2014
little rap and reason bout the ice bucket challenge (sort of!???)
- this falls hand in hand with my master plan, cleansing my soul for my mind and my stand...dont need no ice water for my brain dont need ice water to make it rain...gettin all bent out of shape for ppl unlike yourselves, this world isnt just serious sometimes there is fairys, mermaids and elves...
- looking outside the box, sure brings me lots of mocks...but who cares cuz hey it also brings points to my stocksso chill like the ice water challenge wants you to do...and let me be me and you be you!blah blah blah illuminati argue...ha ha ha ha jokes on YOU!!!!
- Lori Brown magic rocks be yummy up there with some pop rocks in my tummy id like some swedish fish alongside bears of gummin me chinese me like coke me put POISON in your coke!
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