May 17th

hi. so, i am tired, cant wait to just lay down. so, all i kept hearing for the past...months in fact, was moss...texting and msging me a countdown. he knows how long we have known each other, (5 years, 8 months 28 days?) for example..yeah, kind of weird? and he kept counting down till yesterday. (bad news later)...so, i wasn't really paying too much attention because i have work, so i wasn't all, whatever, and i KNOW ITS MOSS who reads my blogs, not kevin like he always blames it on moss you know your the one who reads my blogs just tell me! how else did you find my vlog unless you read my blog!??? LOL!? plus, i get tired after work and i was concerned about the next day because moss wanted me to "sleep on broad street", my parents house. so, i dont know? i didnt want too, i wanted to sleep here....well......so i got out of work oh yeah i wanted to blog about my work day yesterday. but now, it seems rather pointless! staffmark called me and layed me off. apparently markers is shut down so they have to move all the crayola employees to our department, but they aren't going to get rid of crayola workers. so, kind of upsetting. im very tired tho so im going to spare all the details. basically the older temps working there, (a month before the batch i was a part of), NEVER gave us the front of the line. so, they would be at the front of the line, leisurely putting their crayons in the box, at a comfortable pace, then the middle and you know, things start to lag and get backed up, so that ppl at the end of the line, (us) would have to work faster to keep up and not fall behind.( (when we used to do those 6 mile walks in the army with the 1st sargeant ((with full bdus knapsack, our rifle, combat boots, mat to sleep on, our canteens, our tools on our bdus mind you on a dirt road through the woods in ft. jackson sc))
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, i found if i was at the FRONT of the line, i was able to keep up, but if i was at the back, it would be hard to do because i would follow the laggers, like this one skinny short red-haired girl)), anyways...yeah, so, we would get the feeling those girls in the front of the line, would act as if we were slow and couldnt keep up, like they would fill them and be like, scoffing look at them they cant keep up. actually the one girl wasnt that bad, they were hispanic girls one actually reminded me of seamarina she resembled her haha. the other one, angelica, was just very annoying, like, one of those girls who talks about ppl and is bad ass...idk? thinks she is? whatever. oh them and this new guy got all chummy like a cliche. i didnt even care tho, i just wanted to work and was happy to have a JOB!??? i just talked to the old ladies there, karen and dolly, (the one who i said was mean at first) and also trina who started same day as me. ahh so we wanted to switch with the two front line girls, lidia and angelica, so they can take our spots you know, as a rotation, which would only be fair! so i asked angelica and she said, "i aint moving from here" whatever! im done there anyways so who cares. :( oh so, i guess lidia traded places with dolly and me and her did boxes and we saw that lidia....was WAY behind! we would have two boxes behind, she had two rows of 5 stacked boxes behind! so when dolly said to her, 'its not as easy as it looks', she goes, "oh, im just taking my time"...oh and we had a meeting outside too! and i was looking forward to buying things from the store too. why do i get bad luck, im thinking, they just layed me off because they thought i was a bad worker? i was late that one time i took the wrong exit heading towards 78, i took off last friday and this monday because we went to s.c. whatever!?? but moss was here like, 10 minutes after i came home i couldnt even relax!?? so i got my stuff together in case i decided to just sleep at my parents...so we went there hung out there for a bit, then went to italys for dinner, the thing is, i always forget about pizza, i get side-tracked by the cozy bread i enjoy, that i forget that moss just wants to split a pizza. i never order a big dinner entree, (anywhere except if there is a deal), but i didnt want pizza. so i got the wings. hot wings. i wasnt going to ask for a doggy bag (i like that term), because i knew i wasnt going to eat them anyways. well, lisa met us there, matt dropped her off. this is weird. after i hung up when she said she was there, i saw a matt lookalike walk into the restaurant, except an older, fatter version of him.weird? than i noticed the waitress looked like that angelica girl from crayola? anyways, so, we got lisa and went to steel stacks to see incubus play, but....no vip backstage passes. free tickets just no passes. darnet moss! i mean, i was a little bit upset, because he also kept saying, "but i am going to see them and hang out with them in two weeks" i just wanted lisa to meet them she would of liked that, me personally, would of been cool too but...not a big deal either, (ha just heard that commercial, did we read your mind? DEPENDS) im tired! yawnnnnn!!! oh at the concert it was cool, my phone isnt an iphone tho so the pics arent too clear. it was nice, only thing was, some tall built guy was right behind lisa, i guess she told him to protect her, what!? and if you didnt know better you would think they were together. i was annoyed because this jerk clown stood right in front of me and right behind lisa, so i tapped on him so he can fucking move and he ignored me and acted like he didnt feel me tapping him so i hit him what a jerk why would lisa let this guy? ughh you know? matt would not be happy with that. i just, didnt hit him but you know what i mean? asshole! so we went to the casino to play craps, we won! moss lost tho. he put down 500.00! that was very nice of him tho he didnt have to do that. but then later, guess who we see again, that built guy turns out he was 22 lisa was like, 'oh my gosh' why is she acting like that? you know? i was really uncomfortable about that. than they left to dance and stuff and again, the guy totally ignored me, and i was upset because we invited her to go and she ditches us to dance with some jerk, who also made me feel like a big loser, you know? the loser friend or the annoying bitch sister. sure, i was not all looking my best , i worked and i didnt get a chance to unwind, i didnt have on a hot outfit i just wore my jean capri whatevers, cheapo pair from walmart, and a stupid shirt that clung too close to my belly and my glasses i need to work out..you know? and what the hell lisa your engaged too you just...dont act like that sorry, i mean, i just got really irritated but then she says she gave him the wrong number whatever. why does she need to feel validated by some losers attention i guess one could say he was good-looking in that jerk, college jock way..ughh but you know...ok let me say something. it is nice to get attention, but...depending on whom i mean, i dont like to feel like im not attractive anymore. when i used to go out, id get alot of attention but i dont demand it at all. i dont like cheesy guys, yeah i still get attention now. i mean, yes its nice to feel hot and flirt you know? but i would never let some guy think he is going to 'get lucky' with me i hate when guys invade my personal space just...no! but lisa oh i dont want to talk about her anymore you know, plus i dont want her to find out somehow, its just...i just got upset with her that she did that! otherwise, she was happy we took her out etc. she has alot of frustrations in her life, i mean, shes stuck in that small house in the middle of nowhere bangor pa. we dropped her off and ended up back at my parents around 330 and i was so tired i fell asleep on the couch till mike called me at 330, huh? did that make sense? idk im tired! plus this keeps freezing and not responding so i have to patiently wait till the cursor starts blinking again....so i slept on the couch moss slept in lisas old room. woke up at 1130 good sleep. we all went to panera bread for lunch oh btw, moss talks and talks, (thats just him and he asks questions), but..he also interrupts alot, and i dont get to hang out much with lisa and she was saying about how this guy we both know got brain damage because he was in iraq and a grenade shot off by him and she cant have a normal conversation with him after 10 minutes i just saw him at her party but moss just cuts her off and i cant even talk to her or like...you know he doesnt do it intentionally its just annoying. and he doesnt pay attention to his surroundings when we dropped lisa off the night sky was full of stars you dont normally see in LA or easton. well, he just looked said, yeah nice' but went back to talking or something, and he asks my dad alot of questions about his music (my dad put in church music tho) but he put in his tape of his rock music haha but moss didnt even listen to it!?? its like, he asks questions, which he is good at...after all, everyone does like to talk about themselves! well, we do! why do you tihnk i blog as much as i freaking do? but...ahh whatever! i guess thats it this keeps freezing and im not patient enough to keep waiting for 30 seconds before i can continue typing again! good night

SYNCH! i was just re-reading this and im at the part everyone likes to talk about themselves, on chelsea lately shes interviewing giada delaurentis she says, 'its like talking to yourself)



i dont really watch this show btw just on. and i left out that we went to steel stacks today (by those big buildings you know???) and there was a farmers market ok so heres another thing,my dad kept mentioning new hope, but i dont think moss would like it. i like to walk around, you know, enjoy little shops, check out the vendors etc. moss cannot do these things. he cant just chill and be layed back and take in the environment he always needs to spurt out facts and information, you know....or, say things to do (call the coin place so he can get his coin??) i forgot what  else i was going to say? yeah, i dont remember...but moss wont enjoy new hope..im sure he will, if he knows of a detrimental occurence that happened there or something, actually abbey hoffman died there. thats mikes hero. hmm...or, moss shows about 100 or so pictures of him and celebrities. yeah its neat, but i want to tell him to its like, when he pulls out his photos its kind of like he feels a need to impress in a superficial way. (he showed lisa those pics, im not saying hes being superficical but it can seem that way)
 like, i taken pics with celebs but i dont even know where those pictures are and stuff...im not organized with pictures anymore since i got digital cameras because i never develop them. plus, well alot are in my photobucket too, but...you know...i have been around LOTS of famous ppl but i really actually forget i used to keep a list but i lost that notebook!??? ahh, celebrity BOO they are in their own world anyways im me! ok? i aint even carrr ya dodo! i need real sleep now!


edit:: moss is a good person he is and he just wants to make ppl happy i appreciate it. lisa had a good time last night that was very sweet of moss plus, he did not have to put down that money for craps. he goes out of his way to arrange fun things to do. im sorry to complain about him im not complaining im just...i dont know!??? bedtime!