Go to church!

laying in bed on the internet, 233 am....my parents want me to go to church but i dont wake up early anymore! i love these videos because he really deciphers current events and transcribes them to what they mean. Love letters from Yahweh. i wanted to share what happened the other day at work. well, this past week we started getting helpers, and well, i do not really want any, but what can i do? they distract me and get in the way. but it keeps me from sinking into the utter depths of depression that i usually do when i am working by myself for the most part. the week before was one of those nights, and my thoughts get the best of me. when i was working, before the helpers, and before i was running 4-6 printers a night (it used to be just 2), i had time to think about everything in my life that i regret. not having a baby at 19, (i think about that one all the time, when im at work..wondering why is this my life? my dui also set me back, alot)...i think about how i could of just gotten married to danny...all of that...(i wonder if somehow, he reads this blog?) hmm...i was thinking of my grandfather, from my fathers side , and i wanted a sign from grandpa. often when i ask for things, its the opposite that happens. on my way back from the break room, i almost ran into this little hispanic woman who was wearing a blue do-rag (just like my kokum used too! kokum, cocoom...not sure how to spell it!??, thats cree or algonquin for grandmother) a sign! from my cocoom, my grandmother from my mothers side! later i told my parents that story ,and they had a synchronicty that relates to what i just told them. they said that someone commented on a post and both my mom and dad replied, saying the same thing (although they did not realize they did at the time) SYNCHRONICITY!...and the post was about the native words for grandfather and grandmother. jimshus (grandfather) and COCOOM (grandmother!) that just tied together the sign i was asking for, although it was switched to my grandmother from my moms side. :)