oh my gosh! i LOVE home-cooked meals, even more so then restaurant grub, i also love conversing during dinner and meeting new people. a while back i read about dinner hosting parties, where you can go to someones house where they will home cook gourmet meals for you and you can eat there. i would like to attend some supper clubs too. i just want to start living again, i want to start interacting with people. i went to church this morning, been going alot. this job is so consuming. i plan on staying maybe a year, after 6 months i get a week payed vacay, but..other then that, i cannot do this forever. the hours are tough...they are. i need to find someone, a partner in crime. i need to find a friend who likes to explore, who is adventurous, who has the need to travel, someone who wants to discover the world....someone who likes to do fun things...there is alot of events i would like to do, but with whom? for example, james franco will be having a speech at moravian college. i would go, just to do something (even tho i was uninvited to the barhop afterwards...shrug)...food truck event at steel stacks coming up...amongst others. but who can i go with?? i want to make videos for youtube...
oh, asmr ideas...when i get my OWN place (and not here, i lost my receipt now for marbles paperwork...this house is a mess i cant be here anymore)...but when i get my own place, i am going to start my own asmr channel. here are some ideas:
- ASMR house tour
- ASMR room tour
- ASMR olive oil and vinegar shop and pairing
- ASMR bath drawing
- ASMR scratch off tickets
- ASMR last meal and poison
- asmr eating
- asmr harley quinn roleplay
- asmr beer tasting and chat
- asmr drawing a story
- asmr typing a story
idk, i'll just have fun with it! the house tour will be me talking to the camera as if the viewer is a friend. i just cannot wait to get my own place. i will be so happy!
then i can start working on going out more, meeting new people, maybe finding a mate, get married, start a family....i can meet someone i am into, i just...i am very picky plus i do not go out. its not that i am a lost hopeless cause.
i went to church and a few things felt like God speaking to me. see, i like music, but i do not sing. but, i find that...its a spell, secular music that is. it enchants and embraces you, like a spell. christian type music does not have this affect, for it has not been 'blessed' by lucifer, cast angel of music. i dont sing in church tho. but a few things stood out for me. the preacher was talking about time...seasons. but time will cease to exist or exist all in the same existential manner after we pass from this world. he also said 'balance' we need balance, so does that been yin and yang, as above so below (SYNCH just now i looked up, watching a foodie show on pivot, and the floor he is on is a CHECKERBOARD BLACK AND WHITE FLOOR!
ooh he is hosting a dinner party! ifi had a smartphone i would take a pic of the black and white checkerboard floor. he said sometimes things happen in your life because God caused them.
perhaps the dui was from God, and not 'them'. God did that for a reason. i was not meant to be floundering about in california etc. instead, i was supposed to chill out for a bit, to show myself, that i do NOT need to go out every weekend, i do not need to drink all the time. it showed me that i am ready to move on and not be stuck in that unhealthy mindframe. if i drink, well...i do not need to get drunk. i am fine just cooking and watching movies. i want to start writing. art.
once again, i cannot wait to get my own place!
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/09/18/dining-app_n_3942874.html
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