PLEASE FIX YAHOO MAIL

YAHOO MAIL IS VERY HARD TO MANEUVER. THE SCROLL BAR IS NOT A SCROLL BAR, THERE IS NO ARROW. IT IS HARD TO GO THROUGH MAIL ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU GET SO MUCH SPAM LIKE I DO. I DO HAVE A SPAM FOLDER BUT I STILL GET  LOTS OF SPAM IN MY NORMAL EMAIL, SO SCROLLING IS EXTREMELY DIFFICULT. YAHOO NEEDS TO FIX THIS. ITS RETARDED. ALSO, TRYING TO MANUEVER THROUGH FACEBOOK MSGS IS ANNOYING TOO.

AND THIS LAPTOP IS REALLY ANNOYING BECAUSE IT KEEPS MOVING AND ITS HARD TO CLICK ON THINGS.

bucket list

My life has gotten so dull and boring, and I am so lonely! I want a boyfriend, a friend...something! I do not do anything. I have a drs appt soon. So, I am watching Keeping up with the kardashians, (the new ones)...its on the tv. I am not quite sure how, I thought I was watching AMC last night?!? anyways, new place to add to my bucket list! GREECE! It looks beautiful there! I have to go!!!!!! I am single, I need to start TRAVELLING! Why can't we go on trips??? And I am not talking about trips with Moss. That is not a trip. To me, I really cannot fully enjoy myself or life if I am with Moss. He keeps on telling me about all these trips, but they are not MY kind of trips. I mean, ok, he keeps telling me about the AVNs in January, also the AMCS (whatever they are? I call them the country music awards)...also...what else...i think its the AMAs, also...the Kentucky Derby....and some other things that I do not really care about. San Diego Comic con of course! I do want to go to the AMAs and kentucky derby....but I am going to write my bucket list,,

- Greece
- Italy
- Ireland
- Tokyo and Japan
- Egypt
- Costa Rica (missionary trip next year)
- New Orleans (not with Moss tho!!!!??!)
- Paris (such a terrible tragedy that happened there)

what else? I am just so sick of my life right now. Oh this was an old episode...ahh I don't know..who cares!?

Oh anyways...I need to take a shower. I am just...sick of my life. It is so uneventful, and boring. I tried to sleep but I kept thinking, I feel like I am not accomplishing anything, I have nothing to lok forward too....no idea

I need to do something with my life. I just can't. I can't stand this. I feel like a prisoner. This job is depressing. These hours are really tough for me, and it seems like all I do is work and sleep. I do not even do anything fun on the weekends. It is like I have nothing to look forward too. Last Wednesday night, I was at work, and I saw that the clock said 8:30pm, so I told myself to make sure to call SASY on my break to find out if I have to go in the next day. I was calling every night, but lately my color gets called on Thursdays and Fridays. It has not been called for Mondays or Tuesdays, or even Wednesdays, so I sort of get used to having a few days where I do not have to worry about going in. I forgot to call on my break. Then I went home, I had such a headache because Jeannie came over and turned off my air vent while the printer was still printing. It was cutting out a plastic based fabric, and the smell gives me really bad headaches. When I got home, my mom gave me an advil PM. I slept really late, until 130. Usually I wake up at noon. I had taken a shower, eat lunch, and messed around on fb for a bit. It totally left my mind as to call Sasy, I was on my way to work. I wanted to go in at 4. For some reason I decided to go to the bathroom before we left, usually I wait till I get to work. In the car, my dad asked me if I called sasi, and just then I realized I did not. So I started drinking alot of water and we went to sasi. I payed off the 12.00 and I tried to go in the cup. I was able too but not enough and the girl made me pour in out in the toilet because it was not enough!???

I was so worried because I just want to do all that I can to get off of this SASI. This SASI is holding me back and keeping me a prisoner. This is not fun! Being stuck! And it is not so much the NO DRINKING that bothers me, it is the fact that I cannot LEAVE! I am stuck here! 

So I called her and she was not there, I kept calling. Finally I got through, and she was just like, 'oh ok' after I explained to her that the girl made me pour it out, she just goes, 'oh ok I'll get the results'. Well, there will be no results because I had to dump it out!??? She just went, 'oh ok' so what does that mean!???

This is causing me such unnecessary stress that I really just want to get off of this bullshit. I am done with this. I have to pay 12.00 each week, I can't leave. I can't have a drink even tho I obviously cannot drive! I hate not knowing when to look forward too!?? The next time I see her is in January. I do not plan on asking her about taking me off sasi until I pay off my fines. I have 2222.00 left. That is still alot. I work and my check goes to paying my fines off. I have no idea what to look forward too. I am getting very lonely too. I want a boyfriend, I want to get married. I want a baby. I just want something, anything, to look forward too!? Anyways, Friday I called a lawyer and I also called a lawyer and left msgs about switching over to NJ for the rest of my probation, since I live here. They do not have sasi here. My PO told me that she has to approve it, whatever that means? Please, just get me off this sasi program. It is really bullshit!

Next time  I see her is Jan. 14th...2 months. So that means 2 more months being on this. 2 more months to pay off my fines...ha! who knows...

I dont have money for a lawyer....

I hope I get layed off soon tho...blahhh..I can collect and make more money since they will go by what I was making at OHL. I just want to start LOOKING FORWARD TO LIFE! These past two years have been awful for me. I need to finally start having things work out for me, i mean, god damn!??! right?? i do not usually use the lords name in vain but it seemed to work...well, Gods name...the Lord...

I am also on the list for housing. I just do not know what number I am. Last I knew, I was 18th....

Predictive Program in Paris

A few days ago, everyone was all up in airs over how 'pissed off Christians are', now that has been surpassed by these tragic events in Paris. Not to sound insincere, but a few days ago, I posted a moving gif of the Eiffel tower, and then after that, I shared a prayer collective. Now, everyone is sharing their Pray for Paris photos. The reason why I say this, is because I had no idea that this tragedy would happen. I knew something was in store with Paris however. Paris Predictive Programming has been in effect for quite some time. I will share examples of this. Another weird thing is, during a recent Eagles game, a slew of 13s were on the screen. The concert that was playing while this attack happened was The EAGLES of DEATH. This attack happened on Friday the 13th. Occult ritual dates. Or...is this all just similar to me sharing a Paris eiffle tower gif?

this was before the attacks, and before it became a hashtag

there is another pic and this girl looks more bucky...so im not sure if its that crying girl tho

I was just thinking if the news will cover any of these predictive programming 'synchronicities' well they did but made it seem like some sort of eerie coincedence.

http://www.latimes.com/entertainment/movies/moviesnow/la-et-mn-made-in-france-postponed-20151114-story.html


fox news just talked about that movie they postponed, which actually happened. this stuff cannot be made up, but they want us to believe it.

here is a vigilant citizen article too

http://vigilantcitizen.com/latestnews/were-the-paris-attacks-predicted-on-the-january-cover-of-the-economist/

Starbucks Red Cup

My parents love Starbucks. Actually, they went to Starbucks this morning, for Veterans Day, and they had a free coffee, and they did get their coffee in that red cup! This is what I think, this online 'pastor' Joshua Fuerenstein, well...he is a SHILL!!! I posted something on FB about who these 'mysterious CHRISTIANS' are who are getting SO upset over this red cup deal, and even Moss said in such a coy manner, "uh, gee...I wonder why Starbucks is not Christian' (that was not even what I was saying. If he actually read and comprehended what I was saying, I was just making a point at how NO ONE is getting all upset over this silly deal!) One morning I woke up, went on facebook, and I had seen so many posts about how SILLY and STUPID Christians are over getting so riled up over starbucks cups. um, no one even KNEW about this before this morning! the only thing i seen were memey posts and quotes about how stupid it is to get so upset over a red cup when there are more important things to worry about. then i saw the online pastor...um psst moss btw, feuerenstein (sounds jewish to me!??)...posted a viral video, looking like kevin james aka paul blart mall cop meets fred durst limp bizkit...i also notice he is wearing a RED CAP...red cup..???

it was an MLB cap too....

red cap is what one thinks of when playing drinking games such as beer pong..??

i get heated and i start typing in CAPS (red cap..) it reminds me of when i used to DRUNK (red cups) post in the asmr and i would start typing in CAPS!!!

anyways...i have to go to work

ASMR shoutouts Forever Eating ASMR & Snickers Whispers & Shower

A joke....(not very funny)

i made this other day but its stupid!!!!