Im so upset. Its a nice car, it runs fine. My dad did some work to cover up the rust on the sides and we did get new tires, used but they still are good. I got to sleep in this morning. 10:30 am. I had cool dreams. We got one panel per window, (even tho i told mike 2 panels per window...also he wanted to get black and i wanted to get this sheer purple or sheer neonish green) but we settled on this blue sort of tye-dyish style, which is fine, but its only one panel, so im wondering if i want to get the other halfs, will they still be being sold? so now in the morning, it casts a hazy bluiesh tone which works. also using this white puffy crochety style comforty which is real nice. still want to get the soft padding for under the sheet to make bed more soft, and a headboard and footboard, also eventually matching bedset, like nightstands, dressers, etc...im sorry, but i do want nice things. ok? is that a crime???
what else? well i was looking forward to going to that holistic expo. darla cant go she has a migraine. damnet! sigh...
who knows? and mike just....he doesnt like or understand me. he just...whatever! like last night, i wanted to hang out, drink a bit, and chill, and talk. its what i like to do! aint no harm. its hard to connect with mike. we share our connection based on nothing too extent. its like, we are sort of there, we go food shopping, he takes me to school and picks me up from work, (SUCKS BIG-TIME THAT THAT INSPEcTION PLACE CANT GIVE ME A GOOD STICKER! on top of it, i have to hear mike complain, "why did your dad get that car?" its done ok? geez!)
i rented some movie called catfish, i thought it was a stalker facebook movie. it was ok, i enjoyed it. nothing mike would like. sorry if its not a cop movie based in brooklyn or whatever! i tried telling mike about how when my sister and i..well, i will just say it here HA!
when my sister and i were younger, well, for some reason, we pretended we were our boy cousins. we had our family friend's, jacob and jason's, class pictures, right? and i guess lisa showed her friend julie them. julie had a sister named kelly who was a year under me, and julie was lisa's age, (still is as a matter of fact). well, i guess julie liked him and we started pretending we were them. the guys. i forget the names? mack or buddy or something like that...bill and ted, who knows? jk, it was probably alex and felix....anyways, id pretend i was the older one and she was the younger one...and i was in 9th grade which made me 14 when i was doing this!? WTF? so kelly thought she was writing notes with alex, the older one...yeah. well one day after school, i remember, the fresh prince of bel-air was on. oh yeah, we even talked on the phone with these gullible girls! i would put on a deep-set voice and pretend i was "alex". well, she said they are coming over. OH NO!!!! they CANT come over! MAC AND ALEX WERE NOT REAL!!! (just like in that movie, catfish haha!) so....i did not know what to do!??!! lisa was like, "they're here!" so i scurried upstairs and hid in the top part of the closet in the bathroom. then, i heard them say, hey! come out were here! we want to meet you, so i put on a deep-set voice and said, "were taking a bath...(which was odd since i was in the closet and no splashing noises were being made). they were like, "come out!" HA! anyways, it was just very weird. why did we even do that??? "No! we're embarrassed!" i replied back.
not sure if we ever told them, years later....LOL!! so that was the story i TRIED to tell mike but he was just like, "sounds interesting" and i just lost the zest to my personality, once again. we had some grape four loco last night, which reminds me of that mad dog 20/20 from b.i.t.d (back in the day) i have a headache from this febreze he sprayed. i prefer candles or incense, but THAT gives him a headache. geez!!!
im going to have some of these fresh carrots from this market. my mom got them when she went with deli. (adele, but deli is her nickname)..
see, poor darla. well, holistic medicine is a more natural approach/alternative to harsh treatments. she got a migraine due to 2000 mgs the doc whatever...prescribed her...im interested in a holistic approach. also, with spring arriving, i would like to start going to flea markets, farmer's markets, you know, stuff like that...hiking, picnics, etc...i dont know...i just have no one to do this stuff with.
i am just in NEED of soaking up some good convo, good company. damn ya know? is that so hard to ask for????
yay for good dreams and sleeping in!! i dreamed about an ex sat, weird...but still a good dream.
ReplyDeletecan't figure out what panels are unless it's those peel on "colored glass" panels, which rock!!
nice things cost money...what is needed is what matters. remember the pyramid? the psychological/needs pyramid? do you have 3 months worth of emergency money to live on in case income stopped coming in? it would be terrible to be homeless and have nice things. suks the car didn't pass inspection...what stopped it from passing? oh yeah, headlight... hey still, got a place to chill out at and you're probably gonna drive it anyways.
guys and girls have a different frame of mind...a different focus...i can't explain it, but it happens to a lot of people, that's why a lot of people lead seperate lives most the time, i mean...relationships are weird and out of necessity. rem's losing my religion comes to mind when i read this, not b/c of you or referring to you or referring to a corner or spotlight, just the title...losing my religion...referring to america and how religion can relate to everything in the world and be talked about over and over w/o getting old (maybe?) the indians had mother earth or whatever...muslims talk about alia at every chance...etc..i mean, it's an avenue that some take, but it's not for everyone.
holistic is ok. she must learn to relax for real holistic headache cure. you say it from medicine, maybe, but most likely a muscle in her arm, shoulder, chest, or back pullin her neck muscle, thus pulling her head muscle, thus causing a headache. i've had a headache from a tight leg muscle before (knee)...sounds weird doesn't it? everything is connected...posture, breathing, relaxation, stress and such. must focus on pbr...not the professional bull riders either. ;) tight pants showing off their junk whooo whooo!!
speaking of junk, lol at flea markets, sometimes you can find some decent junk there, but it's still junk. clothes are cool sometimes. won't say i've never been to flea markets, cause sometimes yeahhhh, but estate sells are cooler, mike might even enjoy that. power tools, fishing poles, etc...plus, there's lots of cool people at those things.
good convo may be right in front of you, maybe it's the approach, then again, idk you, just commenting, i believe something, but also believe another. inspiration....that's what you're looking for!!! aren't we all?
and lol at your deep voice, daddy sang bass, mama sang tenor J/K!! i'm sure it's a very nice voice, maybe even annoyingly squeaky...the story of memories, what is hilarious to one may not have any signifigance to another, i mean, i can laugh at my own stories cause i can visualize it, and it's hard to get others to do the same, and that's why he must take notes!! (or else record your voice and play it over and over until it's burned into his brain, or ya could do it subliminally.... secretly while he's sleeping) j/k again.
imma gonna stop commenting so much now....still read and check and stuff a couple of times a week and occassionaly do a short comment...have a great week poison!
thanks....my voice isnt always deep tho, i just did that when i was trying to sound like a boy. i read everything you wrote. thanks and i appreciate your comments! :)
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