i am so tired!

so today was kind of dull, well, it was. i kind of wanted a break tho...just from drinking!!???! yeah, so, it was a late start. mike msgd me early this morning telling me he would give me 200.00 for a plane ticket home, but i kind of really want to go to comic-con, you know? i mean, hopefully we can get in!?? i do love and care about mike, so....hold up. i mentioned to moss how i want to see the rock n roll art gallery, so like, after 4 we left to go to danny masterson (?) from that 70s show, his girlfriends store...(i dont know? this is what he was telling me), he told me all these plans but i was hardly paying attention so it was like, 'posters/deaf dog..' plus, mike txted me MAD and calling me the usual filthy, disrespectful names. my mind was not in the right sense....and i couldn't pay attention to moss and the plans. we went to the store, of course i felt stupid because i damn well know my clothes i am wearing is small time wears...(idk? im tired! its 338 and i need to wait for moss to get off the internet and go to sleep. i cannot sleep until he is in his bedroom. im weird like that.) so, yeah a girl wearing nice clothes walked by me and im just dressed like an amatuer...(i dont know what im saying!??) after that, we....i forget!?! oh we stopped by his friends house, ((where he kept saying to me he knows a guy who needs a roommate but i never really payed attention to what he was saying???)) so it was a nice house, the one dog was deaf and blind. cute dogs. he said, "she can be your roommate," but the guy was as baffled as i!?? LOL...nice house tho EDIT went to sushi at ariya again...same food....crispy stuff...(it goes right thru my body tho, not to sound gross but yeah) . then we came back here, i sort of had plans but not really. moss kept mentioning a rum bottle ron de jeremy signing...in santa monica. i actually had plans that fell through, so i was just like, "ok fine i will go with you" so we went to santa monica to this club...(oh, i never really like santa monica bars, or beach bars. i like my nj/pennsylvania bars! i like the summer nights back east, hot, you can still wear shorts, instead of getting cold, like in ca. summer romantic sexy nights!! thats what i like! i love the scent of wheat infused cornfields, and the woods, bonfires! im sorry but its hard to experience those balmy summer nights out here! of course, mike is mad at me so no to summer romance :( i just...i miss that! i miss flirting and feeling HOT LOL whatever!!!  i jsut miss that fun attention and romance and stuff...you know, HOT SEX!!! yeah sex!!! SEXSEXSEX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so tired, forgive me!


hmm....so it was kind of silly. its weird going to bars or clubs with moss. haha! it was alright tho, just sort of boring. moss recognized a guy there i guess, who used to be a pornstar..i forget his name? im not gonna ask moss...maybe it was rick stone? idk...that was boring so i mentioned going to the rainbow....i texted that jacqueline girl and rubin, who both seemed interested in meeting there. so we went to the rainbow, i had a beer...ron eventually showed up. chuck zito from sons of anarchy, and carlitos way, (mike and i just watched that movie) was there too i got a picture with him. http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0957257/  its so weird to watch them...ron, the guy, mark lippman? he was that child actor from my three sons? i cant even find him on imdb? hmm...well anyways, they were all there, talking about girls, (bimbo fake plastic surgery types) like a bunch of younger guys...its really, well interesting!??! ron and that guy...and this other guy, and moss amidst them at the table. rubin showed up for a little bit. it was cool tho. i met the girl that i can watch her daughter for a place to stay. oh, you want to know what was weird? at the end of the night, the somewhere over the rainbow song came on, and that lady was there...the one i just mentioned. she was wearing a shirt with a rainbow on it. like, i can stay with her, but....it was jsut weird? rubin noticed it too i think. they kicked everyone out but we stayed later, (chuck zito at his table with his girl, the girl that was with the other guy? ugh who knows? then ron, and the other person who is a lookalike?)

we were there later, till 230 or later? well, so........im so nervous about mike. i am!?? i miss him, and marble i am jsut so sick of being called these terrible names!! you know? well good night i hope moss goes to sleep too its 4am!!!!!