now it is nice out, and i am feeling a little bit more hopeful, i guess. im upset mainly from targetted individual bullshit. also, i need to start being more serious about my life. i am going to montreal at the end of the month, but when i get back, i need a job! i also want to start saving. like i said, i want to get married and have kids. i need to do this...soon, ya know? i also want to find a good job...something i enjoy doing. i have skills. i can learn. i need to get out of my parents house. i need to keep occupied and productive. i also need to get medical insurance. i do. i feel so weak and so depressed. i need my bloodwork taken care of. i need to start eating healthy, and exercising. i need to start taking care of myself. i want to cut my hair too. i hate this part i have. i dont want a part. i want curly hair. cut my hair and get a perm!???! ha!!!! maybe i should dye it???

i cancelled my tattoo appts. blah.