I just would like to meet someone who is interested in the same things as I am...such as...grilling, chilling, camping, tubing, swimming, exploring, photography, motorcycles, drinking beer in the cab of a pick up truck, country music, cornfields, 4-wheeling, day trips, airbnb, trips to NYC, stay at the jersey shore house with friends, rock music, rock climbing (idk??), hot air balloon rides, weird nj, youtubing, mukbanging, banging in general, banging outdoors, hot sex, must be hot, i must be super attracted to him like i am to kyle..oh my gosh. so, i never thought much of him, just that i always thought hes cute right? he's ap at my job (asset protection), meaning he overlooks the cameras, stops shoplifting, whatever else he does. hes super cute, blue eyes..anyways, he was at the house a few times but last time he brought me home and....yeah...so now im like, super turned on by him but at the same time, im starting to get over it! like, last week, i saw that he messaged me randomly of fb. cool! ok!??! he trying to get a hold of me? alright..

well i msg him back and he was being really like...not responsive. i sent him a friends request and he deleted it..and i saw him at work and he walked right past me but didnt even look at me. so im just like, ugh . ok well maybe if im out with sara or something at sand bar i will msg him and see if he wants to stop by also whatever..

im not gonna worry about it too much tho. i just really want to meet someone new and exciting, attraction is key and someone who finds me super interesting as well. i get attracted to people i work with because i see them all the time, but if they do not like...do anything to get my attention, im like. whatever..which is why i never thought too much about kyle but after that happened i was like, into him...but he doesnt bother with me so im going to get over him. thats just how i am. and guys dont really hit on me at work..but im busy anyways. i have to remember to bring this guys dvd back...he lent me 'the boy' and i never returned it. yeah i mean, guys have tried to get my attention i suppose..

damnet. it used to be so easy to find a guy to fixate on..nowadays, where!?? and i dont just become attracted to randoms. i have to see them on a consistent basis and feel them out, if they are diggin me and vice versa. not some average dude however. i posted a throwback pic and i have all these guys dm'ing me im like...no! why would i hang out with you? uh no thanks!???!