ok so...i told mike , "I'd like to go camping for my birthday"...and he responded like, 'you forgot about my last 3 birthdays" which was not true at all. then he kept acting like a dick so i was like forget it! Whatever! ?? i dont need him to do anything for me.

i just wish i could meet someone in my life who actually wants to see me happy. someone who would love to take me camping because they want me to feel special and plus they love it too! i mean , geez i am so sick of mike and his negativity. he always has to say things to spoil my mood. i told him my parents want to take my mom and i out for my bday he brings up a few years ago when he was being a pure jerk to me when we all went out to eat with them and my sister and matt. like, he says i was screaming at him no he was being a pure jerk to me. i am so over him!

im also getting over kyle, not like i was really into him because i hardly know him, but whenever he even walks by i just get this overwhelming sense of attraction,...but whatever he doesnt make an effort. 
hooking up with someone is not fun if there is no kind of flirtation or whatever...like, i saw him saturday and he gave sherry and i a ride home and i hooked up with him again, but whatever. 

i need to find a new job...try to meet someone who will respect me and want to make me happy and someone that i feel the same of course attraction is super important. 


im just over this bullshit. mike...this guy kyle. whatever fuck it


also i can join gym and lose weight, hot myself up, confident myself..etc etc do things for myself...whatever! live life right?

enough! im so over this fucking shit.