on another note, i honestly do not want to be with mike anymore. he just does not do it for me...i mean, my cousin sabastien is out here visiting with his son. mike met us at cicis pizza to apologize for being a dick to him last time he was out here, but heres the thing..everytime! it is me and friends or we are with other people, mike will just ramble on about the same topics..its cringe and him and i have no bond or connection. like, we just do not act like a couple.

we do not share our body movements, we do not mirror each other, heck, we dont even talk to each other. its not how a real couple behave , without thinking about it, with each other.

i want to find someone, be with someone and bring them to canada to meet me canadian friends and relatives. mike talks to my relatives, but he is not interested in them BECAUSE they are MY relatives,  get what im saying?

i want to be with someone who wants to LEARN about me and my family. etc and vice versa..so....i just dont feel it with mike. and i know i can be attracted to someone, problem is, i  need to find someone not only i am attracted too, but someone who is actually truly genuinely interested in me. and vice versa.