hey! so....guess what? i HAVE to explain! my second day of work! i mean, it is just what i do. it might be boring to read, whatever i dont care!?? i just want to write it. so we are in an assembly line, which is fine...very repetitive yes but whatever. it kind of reminds me of the crayola setup actually. i get into my flow. as long as i have my own space and work station. and yes a fatigue mat helps. so this morning, we had new people. the girls behind me did not show up today, but a whole new crew of people were there. the girl yesterday behind me was able to keep up and stock all three things, but today she was gone and more ppl were there and so they made one of the big guys stand right behind me. so i know longer had my own work station/standing area and fatigue mat i had to share. also, my station was one of the hardest things to pack. ok the rest are boxes. boxed food, and when they put another pack, it all faces the SAME DIRECTION! including granola bars and all that. flat items right? not big airy bags. i was in charge of grabbing three items and stuffing them properly into the space in the nutrisystem box. the items were to be in this order, bagel, muffin, and bag of cheese puffs. they were all bagged in an airy bag, and all had to face the same direction, but since they were bags, items were scattered and haphazard in the boxes right??? but yesterday i had it down pat, and was able to keep up. i developed a pattern for myself. duh its not hard to do unless you get tired or carpal tunnel you see this is why i think we should change stations to just keep things afresh but we have no simblance of a supervisor just...well...ill mention more later keep in mind i need to take a shower and i hate taking showers here

so my items were the only ones with the extra puff and air and i also had to manage to face them all the same way and yes after a while my arm started to hurt from reaching back for the box of puffs. and i had no room for movement because they put someone right behind me to help pack a simple box of flat lasagna (which he didnt even manage to put in the right direction yet he was making comments about how slow the line was and how stupid that job was) um sir, you couldnt even manage to put the boxes the same way!?? and you were just putting one flat box in!??

he would so often bump into me so i pushed the table out more so i had more room but that meant i was no longer standing on the fatigue mat and whoever was setting the boxes down kept making them too close or wonky the guy would push the box towards me more making it faster for me and not only was i fatigued thanks to no mat, i had to constantly struggle to make sure everything was the right way and attempt to put them into the box nice and neatly. well it was all getting very nauseating for me, since i kept hoping they would make the boxes more neat, and i just got so tired felt like i could never catch up. i am OCD i need space if someone is too close to me i cannot think. i was doing fine and those people knew i was too, yesterday no problem. this morning i was fine but it just became too much! i just felt like i was going to get sick. and the boxes were out of order how could i properly fill in the spots neatly with airy bags and ensure they are all facing the same way? this hispanic girl who wears a lot of makeup came up to me as if i didnt realize i was falling behind, well i just could not keep up and then the other guy who was filling our boxes when we got low suggested that another guy come over to help me and he switched the order around instead of bagel, muffin then puffs it was muffin puffs and bagel and he wanted me to put muffin and puffs and the new guy put bagel in but what he did not understand was that you have to hold ALL THREE together in order to fit them properly in the box otherwise the new guy would not be able to get bagel to fit in properly but nope no one listens. (i have worked in assembly lines before duh) and the other lady the one who was talking to me in spanish yesterday didnt listen to my idea that maybe i can do one box, then let another box go through so he can do that box, therefore there would be a lull in the time so it would be easier...oh btw, while the guy switched up everything a bunch of boxes past down the conveyor without getting filled. hey boxes were switched and a new guy introduced to the station. assembly came to a halt and it looked like it was all my fault! anyone with a brain would see that it wasnt but whatever. /rant.......anyways like i said after breaks we should switch to different departments but if i was on an easy station like everyone else was, i would not care. airy bags are the hardest to pack...why? oh because of the AIR and the small space because people dont realize that you cant place boxes sloppily on the belt or it will restrict production, because i also had to struggle to fix the boxes and i like to keep things generally behind me while packing not passing on by me where i feel overwhelmed does this make sense?

and the hispanic girl was acting like i was having trouble but hey i switched to another station guess what it is easier and more relaxing to me! oh when i changed she first told me that it had to be cookie on top...i was shown cookie and granola on top, (oatmeal on the side) but she showed me COOKIE TOP and this other kid was trying to show me as if i didnt comprehend and he was like YES because she said COOKIE TOP as if i was a child and when i did it the way she showed me he said YES like i was a child! but then she was wrong. she was telling me the wrong way!??  i am like, so shaking my head. you take your job as if you are the boss so seriously and bitchy and this is the simplest job its not difficult! i would NEVER let anyone feel stupid for mistakes even when later the guy filling up my boxes when i was at cookie granola and oatmeal station was far away and doing stuff with boxes my granola was low and i said GRANOLA and that girl was like you have to say it louder? oh so i am wrong again!? so i shouted GRANOLA and laughed at the absurdity at it and the other guy ran to help me he grabbed me cookies so i got back to packing but then she went OH My GOD and threw my cookie back in the box i was like WHUT!?? it was the wrong cookie chocolate chip instead of oatmeal i did notice chocolate chip because the other lady screamed LOW oN CHOCOLATE CHIp but with all the punctuality i didnt really focus on it because i wanted to keep it in order i did not give myself the wrong box! as i was walking to break i heard her behind me talking to some white guy and i heard him say, 'well you have to make sure the box is neat you know how many times customers do not want their orders because it was packed wrong.' so i turned around and glanced at him like, 'what?" i just felt like it was a jab at me. i just started walking like i was slow and stupid and fixing the red hat my mom gave me to wear since its cold as the outdoors in that place. 

later someone said to me i am surprised you didnt leave (some people walked out at lunch and never came back) hey i dont care! to me its a job and a paycheck that is really all that matters.

later as i sort of zoned out, (but packaging cookie, granola and oats) i started thinking happy. i was thinking at least i am getting payed, good hours, 10.00 an hour not bad...not good but good for me! :) and i thought about how soon my paychecks can pay for me. i was sort of inspired by that girls look tho. shes dark and looks puerto rican i think, dark hair dark eyebrows and eyeliner sort of egyptian and nice long thick hair. after a few paychecks i can afford to look more attractive and walking all the way to our spot to punch out and break room in the huge warehouse is releasing those chemicals i had when i used to work out all the time! i know how to lose weight man. also thinking about something i read about how this guy lost weight bcuz of some girl. boo hoo! what kind of sappy songs does taylor swift sing i only know of her upbeat songs...i dont know break up songs. if a girl like me isnt hot enough then yeah what am i saying? these thoughts were all in my head but now its getting late must take shower!!

oh what is it with me and my jobs? i like when i work somewhere and you can just kind of be upbeat and positive and flirty kind of...you know when you work and you just joke around but are a good worker? i dont know!?

my left hand feels carpal tunnel tho..........should i post this blog? what if someone reads it? oh yeah the girl said he should say the story in spanish. it is rude to speak in another language like that. whatever