so now that i will be a prisoner, fan mail and mail in general is very important! just to know that there may be some out there who genuinelly enjoy reading this blog, and all that...so peggy, she used to call and we would talk on the phone and she told her jokes....
but yeah you know, i mean, sometimes i feel like i do not matter, or that i am this awful person.....or.......i just dont like myself. whatever
its hard to explain but those phone calls felt like a sign, from God. just to let me know i am still important and that i do matter. i mean, like i was reminded of myself as a child, as a girl. my aunt sally prayed for me, and i know that i will be forgiven and that i can obtain a normal, healthy life. and peggy calling, a person from my childhood. she was always old, but she is still around!?? we didnt even know she was still alive!? she never sounded old tho. she always sounded....like the voice who sings, 'i want a hippopotomus for christmas!"
moss keeps msging me. anyways i was thinking about orange is the new black. one would think those who end up in CRIMINAL prison (aside from DUIs)...would not be 'all there'. that morello character proves that point. i mean she stalked that guy!!! a normal person would not do that!! even tho she seems kind of 'normal' on the show!?? right? a girl at work is kind of slow. she even said she has a learning disability. you can tell after talking to someone for a few minutes, something is not right. the girl is 22 and has 14 and 16 year old friends!??!? (work stuff)
i have been thinking about things. such as, do i have some sort of mental instability? i think this stuff at work. am i paranoid schizophrenic?
i always think i am targetted. i always feel nervous.
ahh whatever bye
Ya I read your blog along with the asmb (especially hubbbb (btw, hubbb said he was a collective of the mods http://boards.adultswim.com/t5/Incoherent-Babbling/i-love-the-spambots-on-here/m-p/71212590#U71212590 ). I get those synchronicities too, and that's why I'm your internet boyfriend.
ReplyDeletePrison is going to be so boring. Sleep sleep sleep.
I have a master plan to raise $100million. As soon as the weather clears up, I am going to unleash it. that's just an fyi for my internet girlfriend. Expect great things when you get out.
ReplyDeleteoh ya def make it happen my man! thats cool whats the plan!? thanx for reading means alot...i will have more to blog about once im back home!
DeleteThe plan is to give away $2 million as an incentive for people to advertise my site(s).
ReplyDeleteI hope they feed you lobster and long island ice teas in jail! I didn't catch exactly when you're going, but make sure to brush your teeth before you go. (I don't know if they have toothbrushes there or not)
give away 2 milion for ppl to advertise your site? waht site is that!?? what i dont quite get it...sorry im a bit tired...yes i will request lobster and all that would be nice. i am bringing a bunch of stuff, toothbrushes and what not. that would be disgusting if i cant shower or brush my teeth! marissa!
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