monday

hey its monday. sigh...i guess i will post real quick...about the wknd. hmm...well, so friday, i had a photoshoot during the day. i actually had one today too but i didnt feel like doing it. anyways, so then...mike came home and told me he was once again working saturday morning. i was upset because i wanted to do something. what? i dont know? seamarina wanted to hang out tho, so i drove to meet her, although i do hate doing that. she always wants to meet at the bethlehem walmart so i can park and we usually drive to wherever, but erghh that is so irritating!! i just hate feeling helpless, like i cant leave when i want you know? and she always talks about getting a slice of pizza or going to the casino. i didnt want to go to the casino!!??! and its takes forever for her to find a spot. she has a big ranger type vehicle. i'd prefer to take my car and meet there, you know? anyways, we went to tally-hos. some drunk guy cut in front of me while i was waiting to get a pitcher of beer, and i said, "can i go since i was here first?" and he acted like an asshole so i was starting to get really annoyed, and the girl bartender served him first anyways. ugh. well, we ended up talking to these gay guys who were really cool and fun they were sitting at the table opposite us. they told us they were going to be at your welcome inn. so we stayed and she ordered some shots. ugh..raspberry bacardi shots. oh, and i cant smoke straight up newports either! too strong! i smoke newport lights, when i do, and she kept giving me cigarettes! so we finished our shots, (she poured the shots from a cup so we had extra.) well we went to your welcome but she had to walk slow cuz she was wearing heels she cant handle, or whatever. we found the gay guys and hung out with them for a bit, it was fun tho. but i had to go home but we went to walmart. some straggler straggled along, (i have no clue?) we went and walked around walmart but i wanted to go home. finally i was able to leave, (think they went to the casino), when i got home tho, all my stuff was in the kitchen. mike was upset with me. he texted me to tell me he had a panic attack and tried to call me. i crashed next day he was all pissy and he told me i had to be out by 7. i was supposed to take pics of scott and the band but mike told me to nevermind about that. so i was like, whatever. so i got out of there. i went to my parents and met jimmy by the delaware, (his nickname, like the hot dog stand!) we packed up some beers, (cuz were cheapskates!) and walked to riverside. it was weird because i met mike because of jimmy and going to riverside, about 3 years ago...we saw the fireworks on the bridge, was nice. jims cool, we were friends back then, we'd chill/drink beers/talk about aliens etc. it was raining tho, ran into sarah and dean, lisas ex boyf, there...blah blah blah...met this girl named amber i got her number. she hooked up with jimmy other time she asked if i was into him i was like, 'nah' and explained my situation with mike. oh yeah, mike r. showed up, even tho he doesnt drink. but anyways, just hung out there, someone told me i looked like one of the manson girls!? i wasnt wearing makeup and my hair was scraggly, oh yeah ppl always ask me how old i am too its kind of annoying you know cuz everyone thinks im like, 22 or something like that...finally a bunch of us walked back to brainards. i just went to sleep tho. tried to call mike but he was already passed out at that point. so sunday i was supposed to do a music video with shannan and her sister, some band...(shannan was going to do makeup) but of course i just slept. in fact, i havent slept like that in years! i slept on the temperpedic and slept till 230! damn!! i never sleep like that! well, mike wanted me to come make dinner, so around 545 i went there. took a shower there too bcuz the water here has no pressure! i made the salmon w, ginger, garlic, soy sauce..lemon, s/p, brown wild rice, and mushrooms sauteed in olive oil...mike wanted to get a movie so i didnt get to watch the emmys. we rented a STUPID movie called 'chatroom' and mike fell asleep anyways! i left the laptop here too...but it was ok, i slept there last night. he wants me back now. he misses seeing me when he gets home. i think a break is good tho....i mean, i need some time off too. and the fact that he took all my decorations and magnets and my bulletin board, dreamcatcher, christmas lights etc, down...that was kind of shitty you know? that made me feel bad. it doesnt seem like my place anymore, it seems like his place. i mean, i would rather have my own apartment and mike and i can stay over each others place. so that was that....i felt like there was more i had wanted to write but i guess not. im at my parents now. sooooo.....thats that, basically.