stupid day

today was definately a STUPID day! i need to figure out what to do with my life because i am sick of this! i had a chicken with guacamole, baby spinach, and broccoli slaw whole wheat wrap, (which was hard to eat thanks to my tooth), watched a movie, had coffee, hung out on stupid facebook all day pretty much. i washed the dishes. mike told me to change catbox earlier but i forgot. i texted him to tell him i was going to make poutine but he said he didnt want any. my parents came back from canada and brought the cheese curds and gravy so i wanted to use it up. its a treat for me. mike didnt want it. so i said posted, anyone want to come over for supper? (i called it supper because everyone in canada says supper and poutine is a canadian dish). so mike r. texted me and i invited him for dinner. so then i started peeling and cutting up the potatos and heating up the oil. mike came home around 7, and he saw me on the couch and asked me if i changed the catbox. i said, no i will. he exhaled, took a deep breath and said, "what did you do all day lazy bitch?" so within one minute, i go from being in a decent mood to getting upset! and i try NOT to post it, and i realize i do this alot and ppl dont want to see that shit, but when i get upset i do because it does feel good when ppl reply ok i wont lie? well i forgot about inviting mike r. over and he just texted me to say he parked. so i understand mike must of been upset because i invited a guy  over, but hes mike rasely come on! hes a friend ive known for years, but yeah i hung out with adam saturday. these are my friends i used to hang out, but just friends! not interested! and mike r. is one of the sidekicks from back in the day. he doesnt even drink nor did he ever his whole life! i kind of was upset tho because we didnt have enough cheese and i wanted to enjoy the poutine but thats ok. mike was like, "your trying to lose weight why would you make this" im like, "MY PARENTS BROUGHT THIS FROM CANADA! I WANT TO MAKE IT SO I CAN GET RID OF IT! plus, its a guilty pleasure geez! why cant he be appreciative? mike r liked it. we ate in the basement then mike went to get the clothes out of the drier and he ordered me to bring my clothes upstairs. he ordered me too, then when i didnt reply back right away, he threw my clothes at me! i got pissed. im like, "DONT THROW MY STUFF AT ME!" why would he do that? that is not the first time he has embarrassed me in front of my friends he has done that to me so many times! he always does that to me! why cant he respect me when i have friends over? hes done that in front of relatives, its embarrassing and disrespectful you know? im WRONG!??? i changed the catbox. i dont need this shit! so mike r and i went outside to talk, basically mike r likes to talk and hes a good guy who just likes to visit his friends, and all his friends have families. he goes to their kids recitals, goes with them to the beach, philedelphia etc. we went back inside but mike was in the basement so we sat in the living room upstairs and mike r was telling me of his friend that i met who him and this girl blew 60,000.00 all summer on drugs and his friend is going to rehab now and mike r is such a straight edge but hes a loyal friend he said when he gets out he will buy his friend clothes. that is very nice of him to do that. well mike storms up and says, "Im going to bed in a half hour" then proceeds to put me down and call me bitch and cunt! he proceeds to embarrass me once again until i told mike r (he didnt seem to get the hint tho tbh)...so he left. its like, mike works alot...until 7 then he comes home. he goes right to the basement. i dont know? this isnt the life i want. i dont know what i want tho. i dont want to go back to my parents house either i wont be happy there. i dont want to take over the living room again and i wont because its not fair to my dad who now sits there since his kids are grown and gone.

ughhhh!!! i never watch glee but its on and they were doing a britney gimme more scene she was eating cheetos. so stupid!