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hi so im still OCD'ing about thursday night. it kind of ruined my weekend. im OCDing...meaning i a psycho-analyzing it...TO DEATH! when really i should just be like, 'well...i was SUPPOSED to be there, la dee da....but i didnt make it! so.....let it be!!! let it BE!!! and plus, i will be there last day...(but i want to get into the halloween spirit and that would of helped kick it off...and moss keeps saying, 'well if RON doesnt go nov 2 we CANT (CANT CANT CANT...WE CANT!!! glass half full) ...meet rob zombie, and its not definate that ron cant go! im so upset that we didnt go thursday i keep telling him this too, but hes like, 'it just slipped through the cracks' whatever. he knew i wanted to go. and i was stuck following katie around that day ughh katie and moss!!! >:(


i was just going to return her mangy cell phone charger and rent a movie but i got stuck going to the bank a bunch of times and wasting money on a burger that i cannot afford to be spending money on! by the time i got back moss wasnt making any attempt to tell me what the plans were, even tho i kept asking him...he just fell asleep. he made it seem like it would be a 3 hour car ride ONE WAY whatever i dont know......

i heard walking dead people were there, rob was there (of course) andy dick (would of been funny to see him) and plus i would of enjoyed the haunted house! that would of been enough excitement to fuel me through friday!

but since i didnt go, i felt the need to do something last night...right??? (see, i am OCDing about this...but im annoyed. yeah i know, except that it JUST slipped through the cracks Lori! it just slipped through the cracks...

:( no you just didnt want to go and you didnt want to spend half a tank on gas. i sound like a whiny bitch but i dont give a shit! im upset because last night was so lame and pointless.

i felt like i had to get out since i didnt do anything thursday night...so, i really felt like i had to go out last night...so i was trying to find someone cool and fun (and who could buy me drinks) to go out and check out sunset blvd....rainbow etc...oh i dont know. it was so freaking lame. i just wanted to have a few drinks and chill out. i was gonna meet this guy there but first moss really wanted me to go to sushi with him and meet up with dean. it was out of the way, all the way in tanzana (tarzania i called it...tazmania) so i was getting impatient and acting like a bitch....thinking it was gonna be late by the time i got to the rainbow....

sushi was good tho (cucumber roll) waitress was bad. the only white girl, this young blonde girl who didnt even talk until later when she almost spilled the drink she whispered, 'sorry' (dean called her a mute lol) i said i wanted water and sake and either she didnt hear me or notice that i was trying to order but then again moss kind of shooed her away because he was too interested in talking to dean and not realizing i was trying to figure out what i wanted. i know i wanted sushi, but ENGAGE me waitress! what kind of sake do you recommend? moss failed to care that i was trying to figure it out, so she went to fetch him his splenda for his green tea.

then she never put in my order for cucumber roll. well, we had one menu that dean was looking at. it would of taken me 10 seconds to overlook it and say  cucumber roll....but after dean and moss ordered (moss didnt need a menu since he knew what he wanted) he shooed her away, telling her she could use more time. um NO i wanted to order THEN and NOT WASTE TIME because i needed a beer at the rainbow!!!

sake helped. warm sake! she forgot about my order tho. it never came out! i saw her glance at the one menu tho, because thankfully, i put a mark next to cucumber roll because moss said, 'you want to put what you want you can put a mark next to what you want'


i saw her peek at it then she went back. she had no clue what she was doing. she also forgot to put the ginger and wasabi on the plate. maybe she wasnt trained well or it was her first day. it was kind of odd that she was the only white girl working there. ahh whatever!??

so yeah, finally it was over and moss and i walked into the rainbow. if i go with moss i dont have to pay a cover charge. so we said hi to the owner and the other guys we recognize. corey feldmans ex wife was there too she was talking to them at our table. also later saw zhoo zhoo (?) again and the other blonde girl...azara..(shes nice she was talking to me she remembered me from the awards show) i just really had to NOT focus on her caked on makeup....srzly...but they were there. the guy i was meeting showed up and he wanted to whisk me away to the upstairs bar so we went but you know, it was boring! i didnt just want to try and talk to him and immediatly i could tell he was trying to flirt with me....(no!) i just got bored and went back downstairs (he met moss), we went to the outside bar first actually and sat in the way back and it was cold and i was bored...i actually wanted to go back to moss and company (more interesting) there was a glitter ball that left glitter everywhere..the guy i met was rock n rollish (which was cool) long hair, leopard print scarf....he was cool i just didnt want to lead him on in any way...so we just went back to the table and stuff. its actually interesting at the booths in the restaurant area....we did go to the other part of the bar and some people came from the bon jovi concert (that moss was talking about ) but they said it was all accoustic style. the guy asked where i was from (it was a couple we were talking too) i said pennsylvania they thought i said translyvania since i said tanzania earlier I DONT KNOW!???!! i pointed to my tattoo but i didnt feel like explaining it. ok? its WEIRD NJ in lieu of THE MAGAZINE WEIRD NJ WHICH IS ABOUT URBAN LEGENDS OK? ITS ABOUT WEIRD SITES YOU CAN VISIT EXPLORE ETC YOU KNOW EXPLORE GO ON DAY TRIPS TOO??? I SAID GOOGLE WEIRD NEW JERSEY!!! its a homage to the magazine thats what!! sheesh!!!

so my friend (arman?? i forget his name...he was really nice but i got the feeling he would of tried to flirt with me later or even kiss me and i didnt want to deal with THAT!!!) he suggested going to loaded, (i like that place) but i just didnt feel like doing the hollywood blvd thing amongst strangers and being ignored by them and talking to one dude...i like talking to alot of people....you know? sometimes its fun to get attention too, but not by one single person...ya know?

i just told him i was gonna head back, and i told moss not to leave without me. so finally i just left with moss and i got on internet and i went to the adult swim boards and acted like a freaking weirdo again!??? UGHHHHH

and to think, all of that would of been AVOIDED had we WENT to the haunted house thing on thursday NIGHT!!! i would of been perfectly fine with sushi and breaking bad episodes...that way, today (saturday) i would of woken up bright eyed and bushy tailed (we are going to the hollywood cemetary...ceMETery) and i think im gonna go out later....although i spent the cash i had because that guy didnt buy me a beer (i guess he felt it was a waste of time at that point) oh yeah, we had good cheese the parmigiano reggiano! at rainbow. good paired with a red wine im sure!

i mean....i need to roll with the punches. i just hope that ron will be around nov 2 because i REALLY REALLY REALLY DO WANT TO MEET ROB ZOMBIE (i mean, i know im not gonna like, what? make out with him or anything like that...) i just want a picture with him! thats all! 

what else??? who knows??! whatever right!????

BOSS *not sure why i wrote that?

its a beautiful day out the birds are chirping. hearing birds chirp reminds me of back east start of spring....