i cant see. i dont have my contact lenses on. however, it is 630 in the morning, and i cannot think to this blog idea i need to blog about. i was thinking about it last night too, so now here i am, typing in big font so that i can see what i am typing!
actually, i dont want to blog. i want to write!!!
i will come back later to embellish and clean up what i wrote.
breakthrough of the internet, when it first came out, dial up...blkmagic*inn renaissance role playing chat room mIRC, pervs on webchat, early days of internet...the 90s, going to seventeen.com thinking it was the site for the seventeen magazine when seeing it is a porn site. internet porn! printing out naked pamela anderson pics (HA!) reminding of first time being a weirdo as a kid drawing pictures of naked women. hiding pictures...later hiding naked pics of women that you print out on cheap printer...
early 2000s internet, having a life, also having hobbies. writing stories, creating stories, actually doing creative projects, illustrating and printing out actual story books (for neice), actually having dreams, using internet sparingly not just sitting all day on facebook or aimlessly blogging...using internet to check email (and actually correspond with friends and boyfriend who was still in the army) idk!?? or uh....using internet sparingly, and wisely! checking out sites...um...but mostly using computer to write, and take cutesy 'selfies' before selfie became a word...printing out pics (not naked women ha!) of unicorns, castles, and labyrinth stills, to turn into laminated posters and magnets (made for my neice too). having a life also!
writing stories! actually taking time to describe every little detail, and make actual sentences! writing, the way writing is supposed to be!
myspace blowing up! i joined myspace after i heard too many people talking about it. i saw that i could blog! so i blogged! i had a blogspot (sort of like this one). i would blog for shock value (to get attention!?? to stand out? who knows? because i was weird!?? just like i was a weird pervert who would draw naked women as a child!??)
i would write shock stuff. just because. shocking sexual stuff too. im weird!?? i dont know!???
which brings me to...more
story ideas
oops deleted that paragraph ugh thought it was the whole thing!
for some reason i am intrigued, well, not intrigued, nor fascinated, but interested in reading about sex workers. i read a few books about brothel workers...which i found interesting, to say the least. THE LEAST! mark of the beast!!??!
wow this is my almost 7 in the morning cant sleep thinking about this blog , well blog, cept in my cant sleep mode, actually thinking about taking the time to write this as a beautiful peice, good enough for an article, on vice, or buzzkill, but probably, neither...because...i aint into that! for my damn blog!
i was thinking about sex workers because an article on vice reminded me i guess...nah i dont know why tho!??
but i have read a few books about brothels and for some reason it is just interesting to read. no way i could never DO THAT! but i would visit one, just to check it out!? the one in las vegas has a bar there, i would go and have a few drinks..maybe, if i was with a guy i was dating and felt secure enough, maybe i would agree too 'order up a girl' and do fun stuff with, but NOT sex...i dont know what is on the menu? just to check it out tho, ya know!?? maybe play a game of....um....twister! and flirt around a bit, but not actual pay for sex...im sure, based on what i read, brothels would accomadate that!
i want to write a book about sex industry workers. i was thinking about putting ads up on craigslist, and asking for real story submissions from real sex workers. if i had the money, i would even offer to pay for these stories.
real, weird, strange, even scary stories....from anyone in the sex industry, such as:
brothel workers, escorts, strippers, (speaking of strippers, i do want to write a fictional story of a stripper...a young woman who is a stripper etc) i am fascinated by strippers too. girls who can work at night, dance, and have the confidence to be the center of everyones attention, while dancing on a stage with flourescent lights, to a song they chose to use...to knowing they look hot and sexy as hell, and being in control of those pigs, using them in a way, but if on stage, feeling safe, not having them grope them, but then lapdance, (ok i will save for story)
compilation of stories from sex industry workes:
brothel ladies, escorts, street hookers, (i could just make it up too no one will know. im pretty imaginative and creative), strippers, porn stars, web cam girls...and uh...whatever else!? what other type of sex workers are there????
dominatrix? fetish models? whatever ha i dont want to get too seedy.
well lets see, yeah i think that would make a rather interesting book to read...
i really do not judge anyone who works in the sex industry. i mean, who am i to judge really? it is kind of sad suppose. i mean, what about the issue involving sex trafficking, because yes that is an issue. i would like to obtain stories, oh yeah, 'happy ending massage women', thats another aspect. they are most likely trafficked.
they work all day, against their will at a massage parlour, doing happy endings, (HA!!! happy ending!!)) they live at the parlour, the end of the day, they all go hide in the wall waiting for the next day of horrors.
oh yeah, what about....those uh....girls who worked as coin whatever...during the time of seedy times square, coin operated stripper i guess, like the kind that was in the ll cool j video!?? i dont know!???!
i feel like a big creep now!! hmm.....:/
i just think its real, and i appreciate real! and like i said, who is anyone to judge anyone really!???!
i actually appreciate the strength and courage some of these women have and must endure, however, i do not condone a woman (like the type who end up on thedirty.com) who are young, vapid, LAZY women, who need their louie vuittons or loubotins...and they are escorts. they are lazy! (ugh deleted paragraph damnet!) i said, those types who post all over instagram, oh yeah i am following one, who happily admits to having clients, posting pictures of her fake stretched out boob implants, (looks almost tranny) this asian....um...escort....who posts pictures from fine lofty establishments in new york city (when she/whatever) is touring and such, or this other blonde woman in las vegas, who posts pic of her red bottoms...
now i thought of that metallica video, the remake of that very annoying song i hate, i turn the song whenever it is on the radio. i think its called turn the page. of that old hooker/stripper..
i dont know!? the whole thing is very strange, and bizarre. i would like to obtain true stories. and why, or how even, does anyone get into the sex industry? personally, i have thought about stripping, because it seems almost fun, but i would feel too weird doing it, which is why i want to write a story about it!!!
hmm.....im rambling. uh.....now i feel like im a big creep!! well i just like i said, find the whole sex industry thing very interesting. it is tho!?? and also kind of sad. some may say, 'this is what i do' but still....im thinking, who, as a child, ever thought, 'when i grow up, im gonna work in the sex industry?'
what if they were molested or abused as children tho? then i guess it just sort of, feels natural?? for them? hmm....
sad...:(
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