irritaters

so...drones...ahh history channel big brother....im gonna cry...first of all, i slept in today. i woke up at it was 130 in the afternoon. i need to get my tire fixed, and i dont know??

i cant think. i need to get my medical coverage. i found this cool article i wanted to check out, about malls in the 80s, (i am going to get the book) :here is a link to the book http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2480247/Michael-Galinskys-Malls-Across-America-book-sheds-light-shoppers-defined-1980s.html

ok so....oh oooh... k better! yeah...but then, without being able to 'wake up' and get settled in, i saw that the temp agency was calling. well, i was in the midst of viewing the link above, and so i had to answer the phone or not see the rest of the article. well, needless to say, i did answer. it was heather from my temp agency. ahh....she doesn't care much about the employees because even during a snow storm she still wanted us to show up. i will go tomorrow to the job, but i cannot work those hours! she did not tell me what the hours were over the phone, she said 1st shift, which i was hesitant about. she said 10.00 an hour, (yeah they did!) well when i got there i did the drug test (passed of course!), then they called us in. sigh....she said hours are 615 am-430!?? what kind of hours are they? way too early! that means i have to wake up at 5 am!??! no way! aint no way i can wake up that early! i have trouble falling asleep!! I can't! Then I will be exhausted!! Mentally and physically exhausted and drained! wow!! that is 10 hours! yes i will get good paychecks, but uh...im afraid!!! no way!!! i can't!!! :( i prefer 10-6 pm seriously!!! yeah oh good paycheck!!! 550 a week! i think??? wait, no...450 a week....wow!! before taxes...geez! maybe i should work a week at least. im still not sleeping and it is 1230 am now!???! i will have maybe, 3 hours of sleep...HA!!

um.........damnet! too early!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( i don't want to not go tho, that is not professional. every time i work, i always make sure i am timely, meaning...on time, and punctual, and timely! i am a good worker!

i got so upset when i said i can start working. i need to get my bloodwork done! i don't think i can go tomorrow. i need to tell them those hours are too much for me. who am i kidding? ughh gosh....

another irritating occurence, (boy cow) because he wore cow to musgrave snickers..muskrat...uh..........moss didnt even tell me the story of how he ended up in the bulcony???

ooh old time western brothels! on AHC ..i want to dress up as an old fashioned brothel harlot. jk well for halloween. this show is about old western brothel workers. they commited suicide a bunch. 

i need to brush my hair. 

since he was going to be in atlanta, i told him to stop at atlanta, and i specifically told him "tell them i love them and see if they can get me a tour!!!" i did NOT tell moss to ask them about getting a job there. are you kidding me!??!?

i went to school for graphic web design yes. i have very little experience. i do not feel confident enough to submit a 'reel' why i do not even have a reel. moss says to show him
a reel then he will set up a meeting. i do not have enought experience or, i cant think of the other word....qualifications. i was so upset that he asked about a job. no moss! i told you to ask about getting a TOUR there! not a job! just like he wants to get me a job in 'entertainment'....come on get real! he also told me to stop paying my NJ surcharges because he could get me a lawyer to get rid of the charges. i mean, im so upset. i guess moss just strolled on in there, like some sort of stayin alive cowboy, or boy cow rather....and chatted it up with the front desk interns...who even offered him a 'look around', in which he said he was too busy. his schedule was too busied up to have a 'look around' williams street. oh yes, he must of mentioned he has a friend who is 'really good at computers'...wow moss....

dense!! or something else. yes i am mean but he has done that before. ughh....i just wanted him to ask about a tour! not a job! yes i would love to work there but i realize and understand that i am just not qualified. one of the places that i want to visit however, is williams street!!! and he just chit chatted about comic con and dana snyder...??? wtf? 

he knows that i heart williams street and that is one place to visit. he said that they want to meet me. (he talks so fast tho) ha! yeah he said, 'they want to meet you' so im like this, 'fine! moss! yes, please set up a meeting with them!" and i mean it! 

he said first to put together a reel!??? um, ok but the reel will consist of MS paint, some uh....what!??! i dont even have flash! what the fruck!???

bigmouth does it again. see if they said sure they can give me a tour, id schedule a bus ticket ASAP!!! i just want to say i went on a tour, thats all!???!

now i need to try to sleep even tho i know i will not be able too....sigh......................

i am very irritable, tired, drained, depressed, cannot think clearly.....etc etc etc. i need to get back on my meds. i just hate when my parents think when i get irritated its because of my thyroid. i get irritated because i cant wake up or sleep!!!