you know, i like working. i was just reminded of when i WAS working, this song used to come on the radio (say something im giving up on you), and it reminds me of when i was working! i like having a job, i do! i like feeling like i am doing something productive with my life. i also enjoy DRIVING to and fro work. i like to make mixed cds to listen to on and from my drive home from work. sigh. i'm going to lose my license. :(

what am i going to DO with myself!???!

:( i just want to be HAPPY!! AND MOVE AHEAD! AND FEEL EXCITEMENT! AND HAVE COMPANY! i often times look at apartment listings on craigslist, just to fantasize about finally having my own comfortable little living space, thats all! i would invite friends over to hang out. it will be fun. damn this fucking DUI shit! im so pissed and upset. this is a big setback.

and i am getting older so i can't keep trying to live like a young 20 something, im almost 40!!?!? i want children!! oh the cursor disappeard now...well, ok thats all for now. but yes i do miss working. i like to work! ya know!! what!? i do! but i also like being able to drive to and fro (maybe i can get that program where i am allowed to drive to work)