things have been really tough for me, financial wise. also, while i did just come back from a trip, i do not feel fulfilled and i am on a quest for happiness, for a foundation, for something!??? im not even sure what exactly, i just want to feel fulfilled.

i did not get my period last month, and i have been gaining weight, but how would i of gotten pregnant when i am on birth control? i also sort of want to stop taking my bcps. so...i just need to have a kid now, you know???

what else....

lots of things. i want to travel more, of course...i need another job.

im going to do some asmr videos.

movie theater attendant and also hangover asmr. that is next of my agenda!!