ONE WEEK

im one week in......ugh this is so boring!!! this is worse than jail! i actually miss jail. i looked at my friend ortiz' fb page and i saw they posted a video at the community service, (the church where we did the buffet style...buffet, remember (weird i heard 'kircher' on tv, the amanda knox murdered victim' and it made me think of kirchner, remember? she was there that one time) oh my gosh my parents are arguing in the other room. they are communicating. why doesnt the microwave work? it doesnt heat properly? why does it seem like none of our bowls are microwave safe?!?? this bothers me all the time!!! (oh those were my wonders from earlier not what they were arguing about)  i wonder if amanda knox was mk'd....she certainly has the looks as an actress...OX means something...anyways, as i was saying, i watched this video! aww! see these are normal girls i was in there with! thats my bunky ortiz and the other girl is nicole, the one who has been there along time. well they both have been in a long time. before i left, a bunch of new girls came in. im glad i left when i did because there was this 'trying too hard' fake girl who joined the crew. i had to clean the showers one night and she said she was going to take a shower, well, i asked, 'is anyone taking a shower?" because i wanted to clean. she said she was but she wanted to take it by herself. uh ok but i need to clean the showers! the other girl, (darn i forgot her name!???!) eehh, otalia...no she has a really pretty name...oh, everyone called her 'minnie' because her last name was mini..something..she told the girl, 'well she has to clean the showers and she doesn't want to get in trouble shes not gonna get in trouble cuz you want to take a shower!'

im happy marta unfriended me. good riddance! she seems very judgemental anyways. i wish i had explained to her, 'i know it does not make a difference to you and you say you have more important things in your life, but what you said to lisa is affecting me! i am trying to help get a relationship back with lisa and for you to ask petty questions like ,'why did i do my makeup so bad,' or 'why do i talk the way i do' , that bothers her AND YOU KNOW THAT DOES, and then she complains to sage, who is also my neice...and sage does not want to hear that!


ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


but anyways, oh i want to share the video! it just brings smile to my face, idk. i so wish i was able to capture all the memories of my life, you know?

when you are feeling down, it is so nice to look at old pictures, to watch home videos, you know? just to remember the times and memories you made. i so wish i had taken more pictures in high school, and more in the army, i wish i had video footage of when i was in the army! (these reality kids have no idea how meaningful it is to have these memories on film i mean, you know tho? ) i wish i was growing up in this new technology age, so i could capture memories, make videos, have fun. you know how many pictures i had taken that was lost? lots! well, a disposable camera i had at the playboy mansion that one time, remember? i think they had taken it because i took pictures of people i would later recognize tho. seriously, i truly believe that! also, FOUR fucking disposable cameras on when i lived in los feliz, a halloween mansion party in silverlake, pictures at hollywood parties, all gone because MOSS decided to drop them off at fucking CVS! because he was sick of seeing them on his floor. he didn't even ask me!??! i never developed pictures there, i would bring them to walmart!!!

actual printed out pictures are so important. i love pictures, i havent developed any in years tho!!??! oh and also the time when i lost my digital camera, sigh.....i left it at the roosevelt bathroom and it was when shannan was visiting in hollywood for that interview for E! about anand jon. that was weird because...well, the whole 'pony thing?" idk....maybe that was a coincedence tho!? i never hear poison stuff on conan anymore well actually, there was a skit about 'ricin'....but im bored of that show.

um....but yes pictures and video is so important! anyways, not to be creepy, but here is the video of my bunky and also, duffy is there too! and bea! haha!!! this is just a little clip to show that these are normal girls, you know? and idk.........


https://www.facebook.com/video.php?v=10205093013519013&pnref=story

i still have 7 more weeks!??! and i thought the month in was long!?? this is bullshit