moss did not seem to comprehend that i was upset that he congratulated lisa on her page without even asking me first. he does not realize that i was at first confused and also jealous when i found out because i lost my babies last year. i did not run to tell moss either. i burst out in tears and went to the basement. moss did not comprehend this. instead he made lisa believe that i was so happy and excited about the good news that i had to gush to moss. WRONG! and i wanted lisa to know that it hurt when she never said sorry to me about losing my babies and...you know? that was inconsiderate and selfish, egotistical and clueless of moss. i will now EXPLAIN why each of those verbs pertain.

INCONSIDERATE: because he did not come to me first. i blogged about it and i said i was upset. he should of known this. yet it didnt cross his mind first to see how i felt about the news.

SELFISH: because he was only thinking of himself. he wanted to seem like 'oh moss' aw shucks...whatever he did

EGOTISTICAL: because he wanted to be the first to publicly congratulate her...(she still hasnt announced it via fb)

CLUELESS: because he does not grasp that lisa did not want anyone to know! also because he did not realize how much it hurt me.

righT? well, i was so upset i was calling him all that, and he thinks i was insulting him. no, honey..if i were to insult you, i would talk about your wet finesse hair, or your furrowed grey brows, or...i mean, i could insult you but i dont play like that. sure in the past i wrote that blog about him strutting down the street like he was stayin' alive...but i just, i dont want to insult anymore...yet, he always thinks i am insulting or being rude and nasty.

he is rude and nasty. he wants me to be nice to him, so that he can do favors for me. that is nasty. its disgusting. it makes me feel like a slave, that must appease him...no! i do not use people, i will not allow someone to make me treat them in a certain way that i do not believe in!?

i am too tired for this!? there was more on my mind but...it doesnt matter..........im not really sure if anything matters anymore. i just...shrug..

rainboy, are ya still there???