good morning

hello im at work. it is 5:06 am....im glad this is the last time i have to work this early, it is very hard for me to go to bed comfortably before 11. usually its 1am, but if i have to be at work by 4, meaning i need to wake up at 310 am, i try to go to bed at 10ish. i feel like i had alot i wanted to write about, but now i just cant think!??? no, i cant!??! sigh....i dont know!?? hmm.....nope i cant seem to recollect any sort of topics i had wanted to cover this morning!??? la la la la la la la(that fleetwood mac song i heard in the car, la la lalalalalala la la) stand back stand back!

i just submitted an application online for a pharmacuetical warehouse, but it asks if i have a clean driving record. it is so unfair, ok? now im good, but in my 20s i did get tickets and 2 duis. i havent gotten anything in over 6 years, plus, when i work, i do show up every day on time. i am a good worker, its so frustrating that is seems to be such an issue finding work. it really is. i want to actually be working, on my feet, moving around and actually working! this is a slacker's job. it doesnt make me happy, plus, i want to get payed more! sigh...

oh, heather told me that she was a massage therapist and she made like, 1000.00 a week? that is pretty good!?? *unless she meant happy endings?* kidding! but i did hear that massage therapists can make good money. i also see that security guards can too. security guards can make up to 30.00 an hour! i would like to do that, but i have to go to school for criminal justice, plus, are they going to hire me, since uh, you know, i got two duis in my early 20s, when i was reckless and stupid. hell to the no, why would i risk everything by behaving that way now? i used to be able to go out, drink, and go to work, but yes alot of times i did actually call off. now, that is out of the question....i would not do that!(this was in my early 20s like i said when i was working at mcdonalds or something? i would get hungover and not go to work!??) wow i would not do anything like that now, work is important. its hard because i know im a good worker, but no one even helps me. i see material handler for allied, and i call them, they dont help at all! manpower has work sporadically, (or sporadically...sporatacus, like she says in clueless?)

oh  i have a space heater now, because the air turns on and it gets cold...man, do i wish i was snoozing under the covers right now!

ok well thats all she wrote for now....i appreciate ellie for switching days with me. this is her shift she owns the place during her time. me, not so much! i mean, ahh heck!!! im more into my own world!?? why, im not even acknowledging them, im not even ringing them up! pocketing! im pocketing the cash! i shouldnt say that, right? i am kidding too, sometimes i wonder why i blog? for i feel its a downfall for me. why do i blog like this why? im not getting anything out of it!? maybe its because im lacking real conversations etc...yeah thats it! damn i need some friends, i spend every day with mike and we fight and bicker alot its quite annoying! oh yeah i also wanted to say, maybe i will get a naked green machine, in lieu of anand jon LOL! i remember he used to always make me go out of his way to get him those....i had to pay for them and bring them to him, along with cookies, ice cream etc. i dont mind doing nice things like that, IF i wanted too, whatever....

oh,  are my ads showing up? i never see them anymore??? or my amazon ads!???