cant sleep

ok, well, since i work at 12, i usually go to sleep later...i mean, last night ,or early this morning rather, i went to sleep at 130 am....so mike gets up around 630 or something i dont know? well, right now i cant sleep because i am too riled up. i dont know what i did to deserve him calling me a bitch. i am getting very sick of it tho. he can be nice, but i think its when he wants to distract me. or does it even matter? i was sleeping, he came in the room...im not even sure what i did that was so horrible? i said, mike, because he opened the door to the front porch thing to get his steel tip boots? why were they in that room? i just said mike, then he sat on the floor to put them on, then, he said real quick, (in a joking way i guess), alright bye see you later...he said that real fast like he couldnt wait to get away from me but i wanted to be able to fall back asleep, yes he did say something to be in a loud voice, long sentences which made me more awake...but i didnt say anything about that. i just know i was still tired and wanted sleep. well, when he went in the kitchen to leave i did get upset, that he said, 'alright bye see you later' that i shouted mike. im sorry but i like to get a nice hug before he goes to work, im going to be waking up early soon which i dont mind, but i got upset i like getting a hug and a nice bye. so i yelled, ALRIGHT BYE SEE YOU LATER....madly...and you know how he replies? unnecessary and caught me off guard he says back in a mean voice, "fuck you bitch' or something like that. ok now that will really get me upset and he slammed the door. what did i do?  what did i do that was so bad to be called a bitch? and i am SICK OF BEING CALLED BITCH! cunt!! thats disgusting! i was upset b/c he said alright bye see you later...but i did not deserve that response. so of course i start crying...because that was hurtful, so i tried calling he never answered i kept calling nope no answer kept calling he hangs up on me called again he turned his phone off. so yeah at that point im awake and upset, crying....that is a form of mental abuse because what he did was make me feel like i did something wrong. and by not answering his phone and shutting it off like that, made me feel like i did something wrong, what did i do to deserve to be called a bitch? and so early in the morning? does mike not realize that by him treating me this way, it makes me want to maybe, start thinking about other guys? i would not cheat on him, frankly, it would not feel right and im not like that. i have a boyfriend ok i wont cheat. but, i will start to think about other guys...i mean, most guys ARE CHEESY but the tsa guy is cute and seems nice? idk but it doesnt matter, does mike not realize this? ok, im selfish and i would not want him thinking and wondering about other girls, even tho he always says, 'hello' and checks out other girls, well he doesnt not around me at least? he just makes comments and it doesnt make me feel hot! beautfiul...im kidding! im not making excuses im just upset b/c that was very mean this morning. i would like to be sleeping but i cant now. im going to lay back down in bed and try to sleep but i doubt i can. i usually just get up at 10....leave at 1120....yeah so....its 757 am...almost 8 ha...another thing i wanted to write is, females are wired differently than guys, yes i was tired but i wanted a hug before he went to work. i got upset that all he did was a quick, bye see you later, but that didnt hurt what hurt was him calling me a bitch and not answering his phone because i was crying upset. guys dont get emotionally sensitive...especially mike, who is not 'bound by emotion'....but then again, what girl wants a wimp? im sure some girls seek affeminate wimpy guys who know how to shed tears, but i dont....i would not be attracted to a wimp type sorry! wimp types!! but i think i deserve respect. so...thats my rant and i dont care. im upset. perhaps if he would of answered the phone to hear me out...i would not come on blogspot and write about it, i just need to write because im upset! not to be mean or anything. this is getting me mad tho because every couple of sentences it freezes and i have to wait. im going to go on sims social to put in a job skill, flip burgers at the fair which will be ready in 6 hours so at 2 to do that sheesh. than lay down but whats the point? oh i might be able to get an hour and a half of sleep. i like sleep!